Yu-Gi-Oh! Fan Fiction ❯ In This Life ❯ Chapter 1

It happened so fast. I didn't have time to think. I heard a noise and I moved. I wasn't entirely certain as to what the noise was, just that it was dangerous and I had to do something. And that something was get Jonouchi the hell away from the danger. So I shoved him and he fell. I was so preoccupied with making sure he hadn't gotten hurt in the proceedings, I didn't notice the burning sensation in my chest. Not until Jou had pointed it out, yelling something about someone calling an ambulance? I wasn't entirely sure. Because it was then that I noticed the burning. And it burned. My chest felt like it was on fire, constricting within the flames, squeezing my lungs. I gasped for air but none came and my gasping was doing nothing for me but constricting my lungs even more. And when they constricted, they did not expand again. They felt like they were shrinking with every passing moment as my heart thudded in my ears louder than anything I had ever heard before. About that time I realized I saw nothing but the blue of the sky overhead. It was so blue… Bluer than I'd ever seen it before. Had I really ever looked at the sky? It was so large, expanding far beyond what I could see. I was about to admit that it was the most beautiful thing I'd ever seen when suddenly, all I could see was brown. A deep, rich, amber brown, shining down on me like the stars in the heavens. It was soft, inviting, sparkling. I smiled. That was the most beautiful thing I'd ever seen.

"Seto? Seto, can ya hear me?"

That beautiful brown was asking me a question in the most beautiful voice I had ever heard. I wanted to answer it but found I couldn't. My throat was as constricted as much as my lungs were. I might have made a small noise but I couldn't be sure. All I really knew for sure was that the brown was starting to leave me. It was turning black. I protested fiercely in my mind, wanting nothing more than for the brown to wash over me again. But it soon disappeared and I was thrown into a realm of darkness, void of all contact with anything, let alone the comforting brown I desired so badly. Blackness surrounded me and I panicked. I could see nothing and I could feel nothing. Nothing was around me and for the first time in my life I was scared. I, Seto Kaiba, scared of the dark? Hardly. I was scared of the sensation of being away from that familiar, friendly brown that had swallowed me in its depths so many times before. I was afraid and alone. I needed him.

Just as I had needed him so many times before. Never had I admitted that I had needed him, simply demanded that he had been there with me. Seto Kaiba needed no one. But I did. I needed him. Always. He was everything to me. Of course, Mokuba meant everything to me as well, but not the everything that Katsuya was. I couldn't live without Mokuba, I couldn't live without Jonouchi. It was so very simple like that. So very simple.

Simple. Just Jonouchi and myself. The two of us, together and far away from the rest of the world. My business, my work, my papers, my duties… None of it existed while I was with Katsuya. It was just he and I. No matter where we were… His apartment house when his father was away, one of my mansions, my office, my limousine… We were the only people on Earth. No mistake in that.

The two of us together. Standing in a darkened room face to face, looking, watching each other. That amber brown shining, the golden mane shimmering. His face so smooth and handsome as I looked him over, as he returned my gaze, searching my eyes for my soul. And I gave him my soul every time. And he gave me his. I reached out to him, taking his fine-toned jaw bone in my hand, his skin smooth and beautiful under my touch. He melted then, falling into my touch and pouring onto me. He brought himself closer to me and our lips met, moving over each other delicately. He moaned under me and opened his mouth, inviting entrance. I slid my tongue in, licking and tasting his cavern as he wrapped his arms around my back, pulling my coat down off my shoulders. I felt his hair, that golden mass on his head, the beautiful shining strands entangled with one another, ensnaring my fingers as they played. And as I grew, he touched me with one hand. Dispersing of clothing taking no time at all. He touched me, rubbed me, feeling me. I moaned into his mouth, the sensation of his warm hand on me almost too much for me to handle. His tongue explored the depths of my mouth, my tongue intertwining with his as our bodies pressed together, laid out him on top of me. As his blonde hair fell onto my face, I felt him moving below, opening me with gentle fingers. We breathed heavily, panting within each others' confines. And soon we were one together, as he moved within me, sparking powerful surges of pleasure throughout me. I felt his tongue on my collar bone, exploring the flesh of my neck, my hands on his back, bringing him forward into me. I watched him, his eyes closed, yearning for that amber to reopen and grace me under its power. His golden mane sticking to his skin as he panted desperately for a full breath, still moving rapidly inside me. Minutes passed as I watched him, engulfed in ecstasy. This was what I yearned for, his face so relaxed with passion flaring on his cheeks. This was when I could openly admit that I loved Katsuya Jonouchi. I knew I did, I felt I did, I believed I did. But we had hidden our relationship, our love for one another for fear of criticizing peers and rival businesses who would work to tear us apart. This way we could be together with no ridicule. No outsiders. Nothing.

"--n't look good."

White. Bright white. It engulfed me from the blackness and threw me into the arms of the amber brown. I suddenly felt calm, completed. I knew Jou was there. I knew I was safe.

"He's- he's awake," Jou's voice flowed. So gentle, so beautiful. It was Jonouchi's voice. "Kaib… Seto, you okay? Can ya hear me?"

"J--Jou…" It was all I could manage. My lungs and throat were still constricted, though not as much as before. I needed him. I wanted to see his face in that ecstasy. But what was that in his eyes?

"Seto, relax, okay?" His voice was shaking. "You rest, okay? Get some rest."

He was scared. I could tell immediately by his voice. Why was he scared? I wasn't scared, not anymore. Not with him there with me. His presence was my security. I knew I was safe. Even though I knew I was dying.

Slowly, my senses began to return to me. I heard something. Something soft… Flowing… Music. I listened, hearing the words so soft and far away. Jou's eyes were on me and I knew he was commanding that I sleep. But I wanted him to hear, too.

"Jou…" I whispered, pointing in the direction of the music. He looked, searching with his eyes until he found whatever was making the sweet noises. The flowing, the grace… It warmed me. I was safe and warm. So safe and warm. But Jonouchi wasn't. His eyes were shaking, stained red. His cheeks wet. He was crying? Only once before had I ever seen him cry.

"Seto…" he whispered. His voice was pained and struggling. I was confused. He shouldn't be crying… I was safe and warm. So safe and warm. I closed my eyes.

For all I've been blessed with in this life
There was an emptiness in me
I was imprisoned by the power of gold
With one honest touch you set me free
Let the world stop turning
Let the sun stop burning
Let them tell me life's not worth goin' through
If it all falls apart I will know deep in my heart
The only dream that mattered had come true
In this life I was loved by you
For every mountain I have climbed
Every raging river crossed
You were the treasure that I longed to find
Without your love I would be lost
Let the world stop turning
Let the sun stop burning
Let them tell me life's not worth goin' through
If it all falls apart I will know deep in my heart
The only dream that mattered had come true
In this life I was loved by you
In this life I was loved by you