Yu-Gi-Oh! Fan Fiction ❯ Inner Struggle ❯ can't think of a title ( Chapter 4 )

Inner Struggle

Author's Notes: um…. Enjoy?

Disclaimers: I don't own Yu-Gi-Oh, I only own this fic and my notes to prepare for the exams….

Part 4

Sadly enough, Bakura hasn't bothered responding to my calls through our mind link. I muttered as I looked through my drawers looking for some clothes that hasn't been torn in the past week. Why bother having a mind link if he never talks to me through it, he only uses it to taunt me in my sleep or threatens commands to kill the pharaoh.

I slowly got dressed into a blue school uniform, my wounds were covered under the sleeves. My injuries have gotten better in the past few days, I could move my arm around without falling in pain, and I was able to walk around without any support.

…These injuries were cause by my own Yami, and he hasn't contacted me, and his way of showing love… is… awkward. I bet he's ignoring me, I wonder why…? …Hell, I don't care if he never talks to me! I'd be better off without him!

That thought brought shivers up my spine. What the hell am I talking about? I need him! If he's not there, I feel like I'm missing a part of myself, the space occupied by my yami would feel empty. I yearn for his voice, his face, and his love, but at the same time, I'm afraid of his anger, and his yearn for flesh and blood.

"Oh Ra, Why does life have to be complicating?" I mumbled, as I finished putting on my uniform. I picked up my books and papers and stuff them into my case. I missed school for a few days; I guess it wasn't as bad as the last time Bakura leashed out on me.

I finished brushing the tangles out of my long snow thick hair, and head out of the room. I stopped, I felt like I forgot something… I gleamed back in my bedroom, the mystical ring sat on my wooden desk. Should I bring it with me…? Nah, he probably won't know I'm not there, not like he'd come out to see me anyways…

I sighed, stepping outside, and locking the door behind me, like my dad said. I walked on the sidewalk in the direction of the school. My legs were still a bit sluggish, my tiny steps almost made me late for my first day back.

I managed to get into my homeroom in the last few minutes. I collapsed in my seat and sighed. I looked up to see Yugi and his friends around me. "Oh, hello," I greeted as I forced on a weak smile.

"Where've you been the last few days Ryou?" asked Joey as he sat on a chair backwards and putting his hand on his arms. Joey, he was usually a very cheery guy, his mind set on beating Kaiba, but now he seems worried and overwhelmed with something. I guess he would be, I haven't come to school everyday like I used to.

I looked at Yugi, Tristain, and Tea. Their faces had the same expression as Joey; I guess they're worried about me too. It's nice to know you have friends, but I can't tell them how Bakura abuses me, or who knows how angry he can get. It'd only make things worse.

I thought up of a quick excuse… " I caught a flu, nothing too serious" I said weakly. Yugi's face looked serious as he examined my face, he was about to say something, but the teacher came and we had to get back in our seats to prepare for class.

Paying attention is class was extremely difficult. I had this bad unnerving feeling wheezing in my stomach, I guess because of the fact that I haven't ate much the past few days. It was impossible to cook myself a good meal in the condition I was in, and the microwave was… destroyed the last time Bakura "attempted" to cook himself a piece of frozen chicken.

Each minute feels like an hour, and every second on the clock made me feel very impatient. When it was lunchtime, I scrambled to buy lunch, and ate every single crumb on the tray. I savored the taste of the melting cheese pizza; my stomach was able to relax after calling out to me for food.

Yugi, Joey, Tristain and Tea stared at me gobbling down my lunch. "Ryou, you know that the school's pizza tastes horrible, I hear they put rat poison in the pasta…that's what makes it taste like cardboard…" Tristain said with an uneasy look. We all stared at him for a minute. Yugi interrupted the silence, "Ryou, is there something wrong?"

I looked up from my lunch, "No… nothing… nothing really… it's just, I'm still a bit tired, but I'm ok," I replied forcing a smile. Tea patted my back, "Don't worry, if there's something wrong, we'll be right here for ya!" she giggled.

I sighed; I doubt they can help me… I'm alone in this situation. Tea's a good friend, sometimes she goes a little too far in the whole friendship thing, but she's ok. Yugi still had that worried face on, it makes me wonder… how come his Yami was nicer and gentler with him, and mine is… a bit crazy and suicidal? I guess fate is against me from having a "normal" life.

It was class again… the last class before I go home, where the ring still sits. My teacher, he always stares at me, he gives me the creeps, but not nearly as scary as Bakura. Hm… speaking of scary… I wonder what's Bakura going to do when I get home…?

I decided to walk with my friends and head off home. I noticed a raindrop landed on my nose, I gulped. I haven't watched the news lately, and I don't have an umbrella… Pouring rain soon devoured me; I quickly sprinted to my house, which was only a few blocks away.

I scrambled to get my keys out to unlock the door… only to realize, it's already opened. Fear swallowed my soul, who knows what lies before me through those doors? I gathered up the last ounce of my remaining courage and stepped in the dark empty home.

I slowly looked around the unlit room, my eyes glued on the ring on the couch, then to the angry glare, it seems like the eyes could spark a flame and cause a hell lot of chaos.

I shivered in fear, he was giving me that look again… what did I do this time?

- I hope you enjoyed this chapter, I don't think this is a great chapter… it's not great *sigh, though I'm not sure what to write next… I have some ideas… oh well, I'll write them down later… =^_^= review? (need a bit more angst..)