Yu-Gi-Oh! Fan Fiction ❯ It Isn't So Small ❯ Chapter One ( Chapter 1 )

[ P - Pre-Teen ]
By: Vapud B.



People commit suicide because of reasons some people see as small or even stupid. They have no one to listen and talk to. No matter how small a problem is, it should be helped. Talk to someone or find a way to deal with it without harming your self or others. No problem is ever too simple to be a problem.

It Isn't So Small

I had a lot of friends. I always seemed happy. Both my parents were alive. I was silly, cared for my friends, and always had a good time. I didn't smoke, do drugs, or even drink. I had a loving sister and a great boyfriend. I had decent grades and went to a great school. I always used condoms and rarely slept around. I didn't get a disease. I was never molested or raped. I was a good kid with a lot going for me

So it seemed.

Most of my friends moved away or got boyfriends and girlfriends, so I saw less of them. My father was an angry drunk and my mom abandoned me. My boyfriend always worked. When he wasn't, we were either arguing or fucking. We didn't have a real relationship. School was stressing me out. Taking up too much of my time. I was always angry at the world because of my small issues. They just kept getting bigger.

Finally, I just couldn't take it anymore. Suicide seemed like the best answer. Some say it is a sin. How do they know? Just because they read it in some book doesn't make it true. Hell can't possibly be worse than life. Nothing is. Heaven seems to be out of the question for me. I'm gay, have premarital sex, don't honor my mother or father, and the suicide thing. There is no way God would want me. Maybe I should pray to Ra or maybe Kami. You never know. No one does.

That night, before I went to sleep, I took one entire bottle of pills and another half of one. I climbed into my bed. Already feeling lightheaded. I pulled the covers up to my neck. I lied on my back, staring at the ceiling. Watching the corners of my eyes fill with darkness. I closed my eyes and finally fell asleep with a smile on my face. People will look at my face and remember the boy I pretended to be.



For the first time in my life, I was truly happy.



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