Yu-Gi-Oh! Fan Fiction ❯ Leave Sanity at the Door ❯ Trust ( Chapter 5 )

AN: Sorry it took so long for this to get out but I've been a bit busy doing this tape trade thing to get some yugioh episodes. Anyway Sakura Mitsukai got it right on guessing who it was. Though the thought if it being Pegasus is more scary. Anyway sorry if it took me so long to update but to tell you the truth time just seems to be going a lot faster then I thought. I'm hoping to get this and my other fic done before summer is over. Also Sakura Mitsukai picked the next doujin and it's already finished and going to be posted on scarlet moonlights website along with the other's I have. If you want check my prof for the site. Anyway sorry about it taking so long and I hope you enjoy it!

Japanese:

Sensei - Doctor

Disclaimer: I no own Yugioh, though I wish I owned two certain white haired bishies! I'll just have to settle for plushies for now.

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"Leave Sanity At The Door"

Chapter 5: "Trust"

Anzu groggily brought herself out of bed the next morning. She hadn't been able to sleep a wink last night because all she could think of was him…and those eyes. She slapped herself in the forehead as she felt the familiar heat make its way across her cheeks. 'Hold it together Anzu. He probably just wants to be friends; he doesn't want to see you sad…' She thought back to that look he had given her. 'But those eyes.' She looked up as she heard someone walking passed her door and figured now was better then any time to get up and around. She grabbed some clean cloths before heading to one of the bathrooms. She was in luck as it wasn't in use. Most of the girls here were friendly enough, and some even shared their bathroom time when it got crowded but they also gave her the space she wanted. Just because she let one person get close to her did not mean any one else was able to gain that level of respect from her.

She walked in and quickly showered thankful for her short hair. She used to have long hair but it was so much maintenance that when she came here she had it cut short. That and she liked the feel of the wind on her neck. She stepped out of the bathroom and quickly dried and dressed before dropping her dirty cloths in a plastic bin in her room next to the door. She sighed as she looked at the almost over flowing bin. It was still a day away from laundry day; they only did it once a week. She looked at her clock and noticed she had missed breakfast and it was still a bit early for lunch. 'Well it has been a while since I visited Sensei…' She made her way down to the doctor's office.

The doctor's office was connected to both the girls and boys sections on either side of the office. It was the only other area in the dorms besides the front desk that was connected. Though she had heard of certain people whose dorms were on the other side of the wall trying to talk through the vents. 'Yeah now if only I could talk.' The doctor's door, as always, was open so she knocked on the open door to get his attention.

"Oh, Anzu. It's been a while since I saw you here. What can I do for you today?" She pulled out a pen and wrote on her hand. In all honesty she preferred to write on her hand. The board was only used when she knew she would need to explain something, meaning when she was upset.

=Food= was scrawled upon the hand she held up for him.

"Oh missed breakfast? We have some yogurt, or some rice balls, or we even have some cup of ramen now too. But for most of that-" She nodded her understanding. After an attack someone made with a plastic fork no food that required any kind of silverware or that was in a container was allowed out of the room and had to be eaten there. She quickly rubbed her hand off on her shirt leaving a nice smudge, she tried not to smirk as she remembered being reprimanded countless times by the janitorial services for doing that, before she quickly wrote down =ramen=.

"We have beef, chicken, or shrimp." Her eyes watered in delight, shrimp was her favorite and she hadn't been able to have any since she had come to this place.

=SHRIMP!= He chuckled as she waved her hand enthusiastically.

"Shrimp it is then. He went to the back room where most of the snacks were held. She looked around the larger office. It had a larger bathroom area to your left when you entered from the girls' area for things like shaving. She felt so embarrassed at how she and any other girls wishing to shave their legs had to be watched. Once again something so simple and private was taken away because someone had attempted an attack with a stolen razor blade. Right next to it was the actual infirmary with drugs, bandages, and beds for those who were under the weather.

Then there were two rooms on the right when you came in. The first was the stock room with basic things like snacks and extra bandages, sheets and pillows for the infirmary. Then the room next to that was the little open room with a few chairs and tables for those who had to stay to eat. She looked up as he came out of the storage area with a steaming cup of ramen. She had almost forgotten the microwave was also in the storage room. He put some chop sticks and the ramen on a table and took a few steps back so she could approach and take the food before bowing in thanks and walking into the other room.

She sat in the corner of the room so if anyone else came in to eat they wouldn't have to try and get around her. Most of the people there knew about her and wanting space so they tried to comply. Of course there was the exception, she grimaced as she remembered those kids and her game…she shook the thought from her head as thinking of that reminded her of the first time he had really spoken to her. She sighed blissfully as she sat down and inhaled the scent making her almost drool in delight. She pulled the chopsticks apart and quickly slurped up her first bit of ramen in months.

He picked up the last few cards on his bed and put them back in his deck before setting them on his table. He looked up at the clock again and sighed. He'd been up since 7 AM after he couldn't really get to sleep. Since then he'd been going through and redoing his deck repeatedly until now when other things took priority. His stomach growled again and he didn't really think he could wait for lunch. It wasn't that his deck needed it or that he didn't have anything better to do. He was more or less trying to avoid a certain subject, or more like it, a certain person. He mentally groaned before putting his head in his hands still trying to keep a straight face.

'Why did I say what I did yesterday? I'm such an idiot! I said I would protect her, but protect her from what?! Why did I even get involved? I was perfectly fine on my own.' He mentally sighed and felt frustrated as he tried to keep a stoic face and made his way to the doctor's office. He mentally sighed once again remembering he had an appointment today with Mai. He definitely was not looking forward to another 'session' with her. That and her was very nervous about the upcoming group session on Friday. Group sessions were where they got a bunch of people with the same problem together to talk about it. If that was the truth then putting a bunch of people just like him together in a room would probably result in someone popping. He knocked on the door and made his way into the doctor's office. He wasn't sure what to expect.

The room seemed to be empty with four different doors, two on the left, two on the right, and one at the opposite end that was opened. "Hello? Anyone here?" The door on the far left opened and out came an older looking man with graying hair and a graying mustache with a slight tan.

"Hello there. You must be new here. I'm Doctor Hopkins (AN: I like him so he's making an appearance)." Ryou put on his best smile and bowed slightly.

"Hello I'm Ryou Bakura. Nice to meet you."

"Such a polite young man, not many like you around here. What can I do for you?"

"Thank you," he said smiling trying to look embarrassed by the compliment. 'Working in a mental ward I wouldn't doubt that you meet a whole lot of polite people,' he thought sarcastically. "I was actually wondering about getting something to eat. I believe I was told if I wanted something in between any of the meals to come here." He rubbed the back of his head in a shy manner.

"Kids and missing meals, really. Anyway we just got some ramen in, some yogurt, some chips, and some rice balls just to name some of the more popular snacks."

"Umm some ramen sounds good."

"We have beef, chicken, and shrimp." He raised his eyebrows at the last comment. "Looks like we have another shrimp fan."

"Huh?"

"Just seems to be popular today. Be right back." He took in the room and tried to sort through his thoughts. 'What the hell do I say to her when I finally do see her again? After yesterday I don't know what to do or say around her…how could I say something like that? It was so unlike me.' He was brought back from his reverie as the doctor came back with the a steaming bowl and some chopsticks.

"You're new here so you probably don't know, but any food involving silver wear or a container of any kind needs to be eaten in here, this room here is for eating," he said pointing to the door to his right. "Don't worry there's only one other person." Ryou took the cup from his hand and turned to go into the room.

"Thank you." 'Maybe this will give me some time to think about what to do about Anzu,' he thought as he stepped into the room. His eyes became the size as dinner plates as he looked into the room and saw the very person he didn't want to see at the moment. He nearly dropped his ramen as she looked up and a slight tinge of pink came across her face as she waved at him. He waved back still smiling even as he thought 'Oh crap.' She waved him over towards her. He could do nothing but keep that smile plastered don his face and come over.

'Geez he's faking it again.' Even thought the smile he was giving her was fake she couldn't help but blush anyway. She fought off the rising heat on her face as he came and sat next to her. His close proximity being frightening and somehow thrilling at the same time. 'Sheesh calm down, it's just Ryou.' She quickly wrote out on her hand.

=How are you?=

"Fine, fine, and you?" She nodded her head in agreement to his previous statement. She scooped up another mound of noodles in her chopsticks and slurped them down happily as he turned to his own cup. He also pried his sticks apart and began on his meal. The two sat there side by side enjoying their bit of luxury they were allowed. She finished first and put her chopsticks in her cup before turning her head to get a better look at him as he continued slurping down the noodles. She smirked and picked up her chopsticks and darted them into his cup grabbing a few stray noodles. This did not go unnoticed to him.

"If you're still hungry maybe you should ask for another cup," he said politely while trying not to grab her chopsticks and break them. Even before he came here it was rare he got to enjoy one of his favorite snacks like this at home, and he wasn't going to let someone deny him his privilege here. She nodded her head no and made another grab for a few of his noodles. He pulled the cup away just in time. "I would really like to finish this myself." He was having trouble just trying to keep his temper under control at this point. He had totally forgotten about how awkward the situation was supposed to be. She looked like she seemed to understand and turned back to her empty container. He reached out and grabbed some more noodles in his chopsticks bringing them up to his mouth and starting to slurp them when her own pair of sticks reached out and grabbed the end of a couple strands of noodles and she started eating them from the other end. "Hey!" Hey quickly bit off the noodles he was eating and let them drop as she finished slurping them up.

"You understand English right," he asked somewhat exasperated. She nodded her head as her chopsticks grabbed a few more noodles from his cup. He sighed out loud and quickly clamped a hand over his mouth right afterwards. 'What the hell is going on I never sigh out loud! How could I let my guard slip like that! What is she doing to me?!' He was brought out of his thoughts as some noodles were dangled in front of his face. He jumped back a bit before looking down to see her holding out her chopsticks with a few noodles hanging from them in front of his face. She gave him a questioning look before smiling and holding them closer to his face. He looked questionably at the noodles and then at her and the small smile she had on her face as a pink tinge resided upon her cheeks. He opened and allowed her to feed him the noodles, a tinge of pink also making its way across his own face. 'How does she always seem to catch me off guard?' He watched her dip into the cup scraping what was left of the noodles up and bringing them to her own mouth. 'How do I always seem to loose my cool around her? How can she be so annoying and yet…be so sweet?'

He quickly looked away as that last thought found its way into his head. 'I do not think she's sweet! She could be but it doesn't matter because I don't care!' He closed his eyes in concentration trying to block out the offending thoughts when he felt something wet on his nose and cracked an eye to see…noodles? He opened his eyes to see her holding the last noodle from his cup in front of his face as she watching him with a curious look. He continued to stare until he realized she wanted him to eat it. Then he felt like an idiot as he opened his mouth and allowed her to feed him the last of his brunch. He looked up to see it was about noon before looking back at her and smiling. It was a fake smile, he knew it, and apparently she knew it as she grimaced when he did and almost made him want to stop, but he didn't.

"If you're still a little hungry we could have some lunch." She looked in thought for a moment before she nodded her head in a negative fashion. "Ok then what would you like to do?" She looked disheartened as he asked and he started panicking on the inside as it looked like she may actually cry. "What's wrong? Did I say something wrong?" She nodded her head in the negative before brushing away the beginning of tears and held her hands up to make a kind of circle. 'Circle?' Then she brought her hands apart breaking the circle in half. "Oh! You want to play your game but it's broken?" She nodded her head with a slight smile even though she looked sad.

'How can she smile and be sad? And I thought I was confusing.' "How did you get the last disk? Did you bring it from home?" She nodded her head again. "Can you ask someone back home to bring you another?" She shook her head no before scribbling something on her hand.

=No Visitors=

"Oh you're not allowed visitors either yet?" She looked up at him curious as he said 'either' before nodding. "Well it's probably not as fun as your game but we could play a couple of hands of duel monsters until my session. I know it's not the same, but its better then solitaire right?" She looked like she was deciding for a moment when she looked up at him and wrote something on his hand.

=On one condition=

"What?" =Kiss Me= Putting it lightly he was not prepared for that kind of an answer. To put it technically his eyes got as big as dinner plates and his jaw nearly hit the floor. She smiled in satisfaction. =J/K=

"J-just kidding," he squeaked the question out. =That fake smile you had was making me queasy= She had to write up part of her arm for that. He just stared at her exasperated. =Even if you're mad at me I still like the real you better then the fake you= By this time her arm was pretty smudged and she thought a trip to the bathroom would be a good idea. His eye twitched as he slowly got a hold of himself and took deep calming breaths. 'She tricked you and you fell right into the trap. That's what you get for being nice to someone.'

She noticed the look of pain that crossed his face even if it was only for a second. 'Ut-oh did I go too far?' She looked up at him as he got up to throw his cup away. He dumped the cup and sticks and without turning to her he spoke, "I think I just want to lie down before my session, maybe I'll see you later." Before she could get up he was out the door. She wanted to call out to him, to yell his name, to say she was sorry. But even as her mouth opened not a peep came out. Hey eyes full of sorrow and regret as her hand made its way up to her throat and rubbed over it as if it could some how make her vocal cords work. 'Ryou.' She sat back down and stared at the empty cup in front of her. 'I finally have something I want to say and I can't. I just want to say…I'm sorry Ryou.' She felt her eyes tear up but hastily wiped them away.

He rubbed his eyes groggily as he heard an annoying beeping sound to his right. He quickly hit the off button on the alarm as he stretched out on his bed. 'That damn girl.' He had been more pissed then he'd been in a long time when he had gotten back and worked himself into some kind of exhausted state. And to tell the truth he was exhausted, mentally. In just a few days a girl he had never known or heard of had somehow wormed her way past all of his defenses, set up camp, and wreaked havoc upon his psyche. So he had decided to take a nap and forget about her. But he had made sure to at least set his alarm, he didn't know about these so called punishments but neither did he want to find out first hand what they were. He stretched and yawned again before pushing back the anger he still had simmering inside of him to plaster a smile on his face and make it to the doctors office on time.

He knocked and waited for a reply.

"Come in." He let himself in a smiled brightly at her; at least that's what he thought. To her his smile definitely seemed forced, to her and any other normal human being. "Ryou are you ok?" He let a look of confusion fall over his face.

"Of course, what could be wrong?" He tried plastering a smile on his face again, his brick wall keeping any one from knowing the real him.

"I don't know but your smile seems really forced, is something bothering you?" He chanced a glance in the mirror and almost blanched, his smile really did seem forced. He looked completely stupid. So he reverted to his more impassive face to be on the safe side. He made his way over and took a seat in the laid back couch testing it out as he propped his feet up on it. "Ryou what's the matter?"

"It's nothing I'm fine," he said trying to keep any hint of emotion from his voice. 'Something happened to him. But what could possibly rattle him this much?' Then it hit her. 'Anzu had that break through yesterday! So she probably had something to do with this,' she thought as she looked over his tense form.

"Does this have anything to do with Anzu?" She saw him visibly flinch and knew she had hit something. "Did she tell you about yesterday?" He didn't answer. "Did she do something?" Silence once again was the only reply she got. "Do you have anything you want to talk about?" Silence was her best friend as this conversation was going no where. The seconds ticked by as the minutes rolled on and she waited. She knew something had to give and it was only a matter of time. She just hoped that something gave before he was allowed to leave the session. It was then, about five minutes near the end of the session something finally happened.

He slowly licked his dry chapped lips as his mouth tried to form some kind of sentence. He opened and shut his mouth a few times like a fish before finally getting the shaky words out of his mouth. "W-what does it mean…to protect someone?" This Mai was not expecting. It took her a minute to comprehend what he was saying. 'Protect someone? Himself? Or is it…Anzu?!' She nearly dropped her pen at the thought. 'Something is happening, but what? This could help them, or…' She looked over at his visibly tense form with a stoic expression plastered on his face as he tried to keep himself composed. She chose her words carefully before beginning.

"To protect someone…is a big responsibility. Whether you're protecting yourself," she paused to gauge his reaction. "Or someone else. To seriously protect someone you're willing to take the pain for the other if necessary to be a shield so to speak. But before you can protect someone you have to trust them." She saw him flinch again and a slight look of anger passed through his eyes but passed as quickly as it came. "If you're willing to take their own pain as yours then you should trust them, because for them to let you protect them they have to completely trust you to do as you say." Ryou's face scrunched up in thought but still held his unemotional expression.

"Thank you." She shivered as his voice seemed so eerie with its lack of emotion. "I'll see you next week," he said before quietly getting up and leaving the room. 'Trust,' she thought. 'How can I expect him to trust when even normal people have a hard time doing it?' She sighed before pulling out another chart and getting ready for her next patient.

AN: So what did you think? Worth the wait? Probably not took me almost a month to update. Anyway hope you enjoyed and that I can get another chapter out soon. Ja!