Yu-Gi-Oh! Fan Fiction ❯ Love and Lost ❯ Love and Lost-Chapter 11 ( Chapter 11 )

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The next day Ryou sat heavily down in his seat he glanced to Joey's seat he happened to be asleep on his desk Ryou prayed he had a massive hangover. Regardless of what he was under, he cut Ryou deep and there was no excuse for such a thing. Ryou looked to Seto's desk, which was empty. Ryou frowned it was unusual for Seto to miss class he was usually always at school he had no reason to miss anyway, it's not as if school was a problem for him. He sighed he wished he could just not care about Seto he wanted to forget about all the illusion's of love and compassion it's not like he had ever really experienced such a thing, he was denied it so much so he figured that love was simply not for him. He decided to try like Joey and get some sleep as well.

Joey wouldn't look up from his position on his desk, he wasn't asleep but he didn't want to have to face Ryou after what he said last night. He didn't know what came over him he was just so outraged with jealousy that he couldn't contain his anger…it practically broke his heart seeing Ryou love someone who would never return his feeling's, and Joey knew what that felt like unfortunately. He took a peak from underneath his arms to see Ryou laying his head down on his desk and closing his eyes. He didn't look to upset but he couldn't be perfectly fine after what he had said to him last night…he would talk to him after class or during lunch, Ryou usually ate alone so it shouldn't be a problem really.

Seto woke up at about eleven in the morning…he didn't bother trying to go to school, what was the point anyway, the day was half over. He had practically ruined Ryou's life, he should have just ignored what he was feeling, he should have never kissed him, never went to his house, he should of just let him get beat up and they would have never known each other…but then again all the good times they had together he wouldn't have known either. He sighed taking out that old photo album of Ryou flipping through the pages touching his fondest pictures of Ryou gently. He closed the book and hugged it to his chest.

"Why can't I hate you?" He asked to particularly no one, he had tried he had honestly tried to not think about him not care about him…but he couldn't.

"Stop insulting him! I'm sick of it already I care about him I always have and even though I have tried to move on, I can't! I can't stand you insulting him and everyone misjudging him…he really is a great person, and no one knows that but me." Ryou said

Ryou was actually the only person who truly knew him…no one else bothered to get to know him, they all just believed what the rumors and the paper's said. He felt like such an idiot for falling in love, it hurt so much and even though there were simple solutions to stop the pain he had to much pride in the past to do anything about it…and now he feared he had lost Ryou forever.

Ryou avoided Joey at every turn he didn't want to talk to him to work thing's out between them there was nothing to discuss he said he wouldn't love anymore...and he meant it, he knew who to turn to when he wanted to be stone, he knew exactly who to call upon in a situation like this.

Ryou left the school, he didn't care if he was skipping class he didn't care if he was suspended or got detention it didn't matter anymore as he began to walk toward that mansion...he didn't know for sure if Seto was home or not but even if he wasn't Ryou would wait for him it wouldn't be the first time after all. Ryou knew the guards and all the helping hands around the house his presence was usually announced and expected so he had a little trouble telling them to be quite about his arrival they told him what room Seto was in as he made his way into that beautiful soft blue bedroom...the one they used just to sleep in, they would rest and actually talk to one another in this room, this room held good memories. Seto was asleep in the bed, soundly asleep he usually was a very sensitive sleeper but Ryou at the moment didn't have the heart to wake him as he sat on the bed which roused him from sleeping as he looked at Ryou shocked.

"W-what are you doing here?" He asked "Why wasn't I told you were here?" Seto asked sitting up a bit angry and a bit happy at the same time.

"Your guards and I know each other well Seto, the trust me not to hurt you and I wouldn't hurt you Seto...I just wanted to know something was all." Ryou said

"Know something?" Seto said standing turning his back to Ryou so he wouldn't see his face over come with emotions

"How do you hide it?" Ryou asked

That totally threw Seto off balance "Hide it?" He asked without turning

"Your emotions...I know you have them Seto I am among the few who see them come out now and then, I want to know how you hide it, you can't see them, you can't hear them, you can't even feel them if you don't want us too and I want to know how you do it." Ryou asked

"This question would make more sense if you were asking why and not how...why do you want to know?" Seto asked this time turning to face him

"You're not the only one who wants to hide Seto." Ryou said miserably "I've given you a lot Seto can't you at least give me this one secret of yours?" Ryou asked

Seto's face became concerned as the stony exterior melted away "I don't want you to be like me Ryou..." He said stumbling back slightly. "Your face has always been so full of emotion I don't want you to lose that." Seto added.

"This isn't for you Seto! This is for me, I want this damn secret of yours! You never tell me anything I want to know this!" Ryou begged.

"Fine!" Seto yelled back "You want to know a secret! Something I have never told anyone before!" He continued to yell "How about how much I love you! How much I hate myself for loving you, how I have ruined your entire life for loving you! How you can bring out emotions in me that I thought never existed because I have tried to hide them so well...you fucked it up though." He slightly growled looking at Ryou shocked face. "Don't look at me like that...its what you wanted wasn't it? For me to love you? Well there you have it I do love you and I can't stop loving you I can't." He said sliding to the floor.

"Why now you inconsiderate bastard?" Ryou said slumping to the floor as well "Why in the wide world do you tell me this now and not when we had good times together? Why did you hurt me so much? Why?" Ryou asked

"I wanted to hate you for making me feel this way...I thought if I hurt you I would hate you and I was hoping if that didn't work you would hate me at least." Seto muttered burying his face in his hands as Ryou curled up on the floor.

This wasn't supposed to happen Seto didn't want to confess his feelings for Ryou ever and now that Ryou vowed to never love the one man he cared for confessed...what were they to do now.

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