Yu-Gi-Oh! Fan Fiction ❯ My Story (Behing My Void) ❯ My Story ( Chapter 1 )

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Slowly Dying

People. People think I'm happy. They think that if they can get me to laugh they can hurt me. I'm sensitive. I am Cassy. Angel'sPain. Yeah I know a depressing name. I decided to go by Angel'sPain 'cause my older bro is being sent out to Iraq I'm in pain cause of it. I may write stpries with suicide in it. Tahts what I'm thinking of--suicide. A friend calls me a goth. I'm not one. I may like black and Evanescence but I'm not a goth nor a prep. I like to watch Yu-Gi-Oh.

Only in the dark I cry.

I'm dying inside. Everthing I've ever known seems to fade away. I have a few favorite characters from YGO: Rex Yugi Seto Ryou and Joey along with Marik, and Bakura and Yami. Since I started to watch YGO I relized that if I like YGO and created a world with them in it I'd be able to leave the world of reality. I relized that it wont work it brouhgt more depression. I still like YGO. I never cry much anymore. I lost my soul just to daydream. The devil took it away from. No one would understand if I told them: "I sold my soul to the devil.." Farther Away is like me theme. "I took their smiles and I made them mine I sold my soul just to hide the light and now I see what I really A THEIF A WHORE AND A LIER!.."

Lost is all I am

I cry only when I'm alone. Oh, Lord. I cant live anymore. Star, an OC is like a preview of me. Though shes a goth and I'm not. She has high lights in her hair I wish I could get highlights. Star Raptor. Yup. Star Raptor is my Yami. Ancient Egypt. Was a slave until Rex came along. Changed her. It was in Acient Rome. When I met Rex Star had taken over me. It was funny. He was suprised. "Remember me?" She asked him softly. She 5'1 I'm 5'0. I'M SHORT ;.;. Kidding. Give me a reason. Give me a reason to live. Just give me one.

Slowly dying

Someone please. Someday please hear me out. No one cares. I wish when one of my allied classmates asked me, "Why'd you drink poisin?" I wish I responded, "Why should I live? Give me one reason." I tried drinking Nail Polish Remover. Failed.
screaming..inside..

I hate my life. I dont want my brother to shipped out. Rex is my second Yami. He tells me not worry. I have to worry. He might be sent out. I dont want him to. He gets sent out I'll kill myself.
slowly dying I;m screaming..)

~"Cass, are you alright?" Star asks gently noticing I'm crying. "Yes," I lie. She looks concerned then shrugs. "Okay."~

What got me depressed you ask?

Everything. Dru Sjoden (SP?) my friend Sky (shes depressed like me though she dosent hide it like me.)

Life might change for me if I want it too. I hope it will. Atttack of 911 was tough on so many people. I will not cut myself ever again..
~Rex smiled softly when I give my feelings to him~ I will let myself come back to life. I will let my hope out and express my feelings. I will acheive my dreams even if people doubt I can. I will...

~"Cassy, maybe you should volinteere at teh Humane Society." Rex suggested lightly. I smiled. "I will."~

Maybe if I let people into my life I'll be alive again. ~"Rex," I wisper into the dark vortex. "I love you.."~ Waking up is hard for me. ~"CASSY! No you cant be hurt.. you cant be dead!" He cried cluching my wounded body. He flew to the top of the high glen. "I will let you into my--my life..Rex..." I whimper siftly. Hurt. This must be pain..~

I am dying...

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This is a little insight to my life. Stuff in here ~ is a preview to a story called 'Broken' It will have the song at the last chapter. PLease reviewe no flames. I know it dosent have much to do with YGO but I dont have any othr catagory to put it in. sorry. It dose mention the characters though. Hope you liked it ^_^.~ Angel'sPain.