Yu-Gi-Oh! Fan Fiction ❯ Orphan ❯ Diaries and Revelations ( Chapter 6 )

Here's Chapter Six of Orphan! Please R&R!!

 

I do not own Yugioh. Just Jenna!!

 

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Meanwhile, in Yugi's place, the King of Games and his two friends were sitting in his room, a lamp their only source of light. The wind was howling insanely outside.

Joey sighed. “Man... how the hell can your Grandpa sleep through this?”

Yugi rubbed the back of his head. “Well, for one thing, he's been through dozens of hurricanes before. And I think he uses earplugs so he sleeps easier.”

Tea yawned. “Lucky guy. Well, at least I'm not home alone in this mess. I'd be going nuts if I was. Thanks for letting me stay here, Yugi.”

The boy smiled at her. “Of course! I don't think anyone should be home alone in the middle of a hurricane. It's too nerve wracking for one thing, and for another, it could be dangerous if anything serious were to happen.”

Joey leaned back against Yugi's bed. “I just hope Jenna's okay. I mean, it's bad enough that this is her first hurricane, but she's gotta spend the night with Kaiba...”

Yugi smiled. “I'm sure she's just fine. Kaiba promised me he'd take care of her. And besides that, Kaiba's mansion is the most secure building in all of Domino City. It's the safest place for her right now.”

Tea shivered a little. “Is there a blanket around here somewhere? It's getting chilly.”

Yugi blinked, thinking. “You could use the comforter on Jenna's bed.”

Tea got up, giving a small stretch to get the kinks out of her joints. She had been sitting in the same position for the last hour or so. “I'll grab it then. I'll be right back.” She exited the room and came back a few minutes later, wrapped in the comforter and holding a notebook in her hand. “Hey, look what I found!”

Joey blinked. “What's that?”

She shrugged. “I don't know. It was right on her bed, though. I think it might be a journal.”

Yugi's expression turned hesitant. “I don't think we should be looking in that. It's probably very personal...”

'Wait, Yugi.' The Pharaoh said, emerging from the puzzle, and taking on his physical form. “We should not dismiss her journal so easily. Right now she is very much closed off, and if we want any hope of helping her, we may have to invade her privacy a little. Until we know exactly what she is thinking, there is very little that we can do for her.”

Joey blinked. “Well, I guess... but what if there's stuff in there that'd embarrass her if she found out we knew?”

Tea shrugged. “Well, I won't tell her if you won't...”

Yugi took the book after a moment of hesitation. “I guess... if it might give us a way to help her...” He took a deep breath and opened the book. Then he started to read.

 

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'Dear Journal,

I'm writing in you because the Hospital Therapist is crazier than I am. He seems to think that writing down what's on my mind will somehow make me feel better. Right now I can't imagine anything making me feel better.

My name is Jenna Shoka, and right now I'm in the University of Alberta Hospital in Edmonton, Alberta. I've been in here for about six hours now. Ten hours ago, my life officially turned to shit.

My parents and I had gone to a family friends home for the evening. Just to visit and have a bite to eat. We were on our way home when some fucking jackass who had one too many to drink veered into our lane and slammed into us on my fathers side. We veered off the road and slammed head on into a tree. My father was killed due to the initial impact, pretty well squashed, and hitting the tree caused my mothers seat belt to decapitate her. I was sitting right behind my mother, at an angle where I saw both of them die. I'm not really sure what happened after. I know I was conscious through the whole thing but when I saw my mother's head had landed in my lap in the backseat, I just kind of blacked out. The paramedics told me that I was having a complete fit and nothing they said or did would keep me from screaming. I think I know what it's like to go temporarily insane now.

My injuries are minor, considering the full scope of the accident. I just have a cracked hip and a few broken ribs from the seat belt and I hit my head on the window when we were sideswiped. Also, a piece of shrapnel got lodged in my left side. I've got a bunch of other bruises on me and cuts from the glass. I'm not sure exactly where they all came from, but I'm not going to try thinking back to figure it out.

I'm scared. I have no idea what's going to happen to me now. I don't have any other family. My grandparents are dead and my only uncle committed suicide eight years ago. I think I remember Dad mentioning that I have a Godfather somewhere, but I can't remember where he lives or what his name is. Something Moto, I think.

Anyway, the painkillers are messing me up right now. I'm writing half asleep, so I guess I should try and get some rest. Till next time.'

 

'Dear Journal.

I woke screaming and thrashing last night. The nurse on duty gave me shit for waking the other patients... as if it was my fault I had the nightmares. I guess that's what we get for having overworked and underpaid nurses... a bunch of middle aged cows who think the world revolves around them.

Anyway, RCMP Constable Walker came in to visit me today. He told me that my father left a stipulation in his will that in the event that he and Mom died, I was to be put in the care of Solomon Moto... my Godfather. I was shocked when I learned he lives in Japan. It's strange. I always wanted to visit Japan. Hell of a way for it to happen, huh? I just hope he's nice.

I also learned a few more details about the accident. They found the guy responsible for running us off the road. Apparently he's some rich sixteen year old. Due to that stupid Young Offenders Act, they won't even give me his name! Don't I have a right to know who the bastard was who killed my parents?! I just hope they try him as an adult for vehicular Manslaughter and the little shit gets two consecutive life sentences. Then again, there's no way for me to tell right now, since the trial probably won't start for another five months or so, knowing the Canadian Justice System.

I also met a Social Worker named Craig today. He's the one who's going to be bringing me to Japan. He has a small firm over there, so it's on his way.

I'm supposed to try using crutches today, too. That's something I've never tried before. I hope it's not too difficult.

It's strange, but I can't seem to cry. You'd think I'd be bawling my eyes out considering what happened. The therapist says it's just shock and the reason I can't hold down food is because of the stress. He told me its perfectly normal for a girl in my situation and that both of those symptoms could last for a few weeks... maybe even a couple months.

Anyway, I'm supposed to get on a plane the day after tomorrow for a town in Japan called Domino City. I've never heard of it, but Craig tells me it's actually a quarter in Tokyo.

I'm still scared, but I'm going to have to see this through. But I'm supposed to go to rehabilitation to learn how to use a set of crutches now.

Till next time.'

 

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The next entry was simply telling how she had gotten the hang of the crutches with minimal difficulty. And more about how nervous she was about going to Japan and meeting her Godfather.

The entry after that one was on the plane.

 

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'Dear Journal,

I'm on the plane to Domino City now. I don't think I've ever been this nervous before in my life. My stomach won't stop cramping and I got airsick four times already. I've given up on even trying to eat while I'm on the plane.

Craig is sleeping in the seat beside mine right now. About an hour ago he told me that Solomon has a grandson named Yugi. I think I heard something somewhere about a Yugi Moto before. Something about him being the World's Duel Monster Champ or something. Isn't Duel Monsters some kind of card came? Kinda like Magic: The Gathering, I think. Whatever. I don't keep track of things like that. Maybe I'll get into it since I'll be with him, anyway.

Damn, my stomach's bothering me. I wish I'd thought to ask for some airsick pills before we left to come here. Oh, well. Live and learn.

Something that makes me even more nervous than meeting my Godfather and his grandson, is knowing I'll be going to school in Japan. It really sucks. I didn't even have a chance to call my friends and say goodbye. Not that I had many friends to begin with, but still... And I totally look like crap right now. I have 'car accident victim' written all over my forehead. I'm trying not to think about those things right now, though. I'm scared as it is.

Anyway, I guess we'll be landing in Japan in the next hour or so. I better get another sick bag ready. Later.'

 

***

 

Joey shook his head as Yugi finished the narrative so far. “Man... she wasn't just nervous... she was absolutely terrified.”

Tea sighed. “Yeah... poor thing...”

“She didn't even remember Grandpa... and she only ever heard the tiniest bit about me. No wonder she was nervous.” Yugi said, rereading the entry. Then he sighed. “Well, let's see what comes next...”

The next entry was started later that day, probably right after she had retreated to her bedroom right after arriving.

 

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'Dear Journal,

Well.... I'm here now. In Solomon Moto's home. My new home. He lives above a Gaming Shop, which is kinda cool, I guess. I'd only ever heard of his Grandson, Yugi, on the TV and seen the occassional article in the newspaper, but I'd never actually seen HIM himself. I've gotta say, his hair is definitely cool. He and his grandfather definitely seem very nice so far, but then again, I've been here for less than an hour.

Something that did kinda shock me a little, is that both Yugi and his grandfather are... well, I'll put this kindly. Vertically Challenged...'

 

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Joey started roaring with laughter immediately. “Hey, Yug'! She hit the nail right on, buddy! She hit the three things your best known for... your gaming, your hair and your height!”

Yugi rubbed the back of his head sheepishly, while the Pharaoh and Tea just grinned a little.

 

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'The two of them seem very nice though, so far. I stayed in the car while Craig talked to them... to give them the details of my circumstances, I guess. I opened the window a little and listened to what Craig told them. Craig said I was going to be a pain in the ass for a while (can't argue with facts, as much as I wish otherwise), and the two of them immediately defended me. I think it's the first feeling of relief I've had since this whole thing began.

I just hope things get off to a good start. They seem to have so far, but I can't help but be worried. The two of them seem like such nice people, and I don't want to trouble them. I want to be as independant as I possibly can be.I did everything for myself before and I don't want that to change just because I have a few injuries. Dad and Mom were gone more often than not... Dad giving talks across the country at various universities, and Mom with her financial advisory appointments. It's just my luck that the three of us were in the same car when the accident happened.

Oh, God. I think it's finally starting to hit me. I'll write more later.'

 

'Dear Journal,

I had a little breakdown earlier, right after I stopped writing my last entry. Only a few seconds after I managed to stop myself, Yugi came to bring me down to have something to eat.

I couldn't even eat a quarter of the Ramen on my plate before it reversed course. I barely managed to make it to the toilet in time. If it hadn't been for Yugi, I don't think I would have made it at all. I had another breakdown then, and I started blubbering. I felt like a total idiot. But Yugi was very understanding, and even did what he could to keep me from being embarrassed.

I met his friends shortly after. There were five of them... Joey, Tristan, Tea, Duke, and Ryu. They all seem really nice. Joey's definitely a sweet guy... cute, if a little (again, I need to think of a nice way to put it...)... over reactive? Is that even a word? Whatever.'

 

***

 

Now Tea and Yugi laughed. “She hit it right on the nail, Joey!” They said together, while the teen just glowered slightly.

 

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'Tristan and Duke both seem nice, too... but I think they like me, judging from the fact their eyes were on me the entire time they were there. But Duke's a little too cocky, and Tristan's... (okay, there's no nice way to say this. SORRY!!!!!) Dense.'

 

***

 

The four of them had to smile as Yugi read this one off.

 

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'Tea seems like a really nice girl. I think we'll get along good. But... even though Ryu seems really nice, softspoken, and absolutely sweet... for some reason, I just had the feeling that something about him was... off. It's strange because I can't think of any reason why I should feel that way about him. Maybe it's just the stress, or something.

Anyway, we're all going shopping tomorrow. I'm a little nervous, since this is going to be my first public outing since the accident, but I guess if I'm careful not to show my face (I still look pretty beaten up), I should be fine. But what worries me is my crutches. I've only been using the things for three days now and I don't want to trouble them by making them wait for me. Well, I can go pretty good in them, but my shoulder's start to hurt after a few minutes. But I'm sure I'll be fine. There's no reason to worry them about me.

Anyway, Ryu had to stay the night because the bus he usually catches to get home isn't running any more. I think he's sleeping in Yugi's room. It's almost midnight now, so I guess I better be getting to sleep myself. Goodnight.'

 

***

 

Joey shook his head. “Man... it's weird. She's so worried about being a burden to everyone. I think she deserves ta be waited on hand and foot after what she was through.”

Yugi sighed. “That's just the way she is. She tries so hard to be independant, but she's also so softspoken. She's afraid of hurting anyone or of being a burden in any way. She's thinking about everyone else instead of herself.”

Tea blinked. “But... doesn't anyone think it's kinda creepy how she feels uneasy around Ryu? Do you think she somehow can sense Bakura?”

Pharaoh blinked, just realizing this himself. “You have a good point. It's strange that of the five of you, she would feel uneasy around Ryu himself. It almost does seem as if she can sense something, doesn't it?”

Yugi shrugged. “Who knows? She's never mentioned anything about it to anyone as far as I know, anyway...”

 

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'Dear Journal,

I woke screaming last night.But this time there were no nurses yelling at me to shut up because I was disturbing anyone. Instead, both Yugi and Ryu were there comforting me. It's only the second time someone's actually held me since the accident. The first being when I threw up my first day here. Yugi stayed with me until I fell asleep again, but... the strange thing is, is I didn't have another nightmare after the first. Maybe having Yugi there to comfort me was exactly what I needed to keep them at bay. He sat at the edge of my bed and ran his fingers through my hair until I fell asleep... told me everything was all right. It was undoubtedly the sweetest thing anyone has ever done for me.'

 

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Joey grinned broadly. “Careful, Yug'. It almost sounds like she might be getting a thing for you...”

The boy turned bright red and rubbed the back of his head sheepishly. “She just appreciated me, that's all.”

Tea nodded. “Yeah. Don't look too much into something!”

 

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'The shopping went well, I'd say. We mostly browsed, but I did pick up a starter deck for that Duel Monsters Game that everyone around here seems to like so much. I watched Joey and Yugi have a duel, and I have to admit, it is definitely interesting. Maybe I'll ask Yugi to teach me how to play later.

I start school tomorrow... and the thought of it has my stomach twisting already. Mr. Moto told me that he's going to inform the staff of my circumstances, and that in turn, they are going to inform the student body to prevent confusion and to try and make things easier for me. I'm not going to question it. But then again, I'm not sure how I'd like everyone knowing about my past. But I guess it'd only be a matter of time before everyone finds out anyway, especially with the way I look.

I forgot they wore school uniforms in Japan, and I've gotta say that the ones the girls have to wear in the school I'm going to have got to be the nastiest looking things I've ever seen. I think if I meet the clothing designer, I'll give him a piece of my mind. The skirt is way to short and the uniform itself has a blue skirt and a PINK top! Yelch!! I'm so NOT looking forward to it. One definite downside to Japan... I can't wear whatever I want to school. Oh, well. I'll just have to get used to it, I guess.

Anyway, it's getting late. I'll write more tomorrow. Wish me luck on my first day of school.'

 

'Dear Journal,

I officially feel like the most useless and burdunsome piece of shit on the face of the planet. Today had to be the worst yet.

I was so nervous I couldn't even touch my food. I just knew that if I did it would come right back up. Mr. Moto and Yugi brought me to the school early to talk to the staff before the other students arrived, and the entire time I felt like I was on the verge of having a panic attack. I think I would have passed out if Yugi hadn't stayed with me.

Solomon spoke to the administration by himself, leaving Yugi with me in the main office area, and then we went to my first class. Yugi stayed with me out in the hall while the principal spoke to the class, and then we were called in. I swear, I felt everyone's eyes on me the second I walked in through the door.

Lunch time was absolutely terrible. Everyone in the cafeteria was looking at me and then looking away. I could hear them whispering, and it doesn't take a rocket scientist to know who the topic of their conversation was. Yugi was really concerned because I never ate breakfast and I hardly ate yesterday, so he really wanted me to have something to eat. He brought me some soup, and I hardly got down a fifth of the bowl before I had to race for the bathroom. On the way I almost bowled over a boy named Seto Kaiba, who just happens to be the CEO of a multi billion dollar corporation and, according to Joey, who has a severe superiority complex. Tea raced into the bathroom after me to make sure I was okay, and then I met the others outside. I almost fell over in relief when Kaiba didn't seem angry with me. But still, that was so mortifying for me, I don't think I'll be eating in the cafeteria again.

But if that wasn't enough, gym was the next class. The gym uniform is a pair of short shorts with a haltertop like shirt (I think that's inappropriate for a school setting, but what're ya going to do?). I felt completely exposed, and finding out I had to tie my hair back and expose my face just made things worse. Everyone could see pretty well every injury I had. There were three students in particular that kept looking my way (EVEN POINTING!!!) and whispering right where I could see them! I was surprised when Seto Kaiba went up to them. I'm not sure what he said, but they looked half scared to death and they didn't so much as sneak a peek at me since then. (I don't know what you said, Kaiba, but I give you my profound thanks!)

But last block was where I made a incredibly stupid mistake.

It's the only class where I'm seperated from Yugi... computers. He offered to pick me up from the class after school, but I turned down the offer. I wound up sitting next to Kaiba, by the way. He surprised me again by explaining the differences between English keyboards and Japanese ones (I would have been lost without him). Anyway, after class was over, I was headed out to the front gates where Yugi said he and his friends would be waiting for me. But when I was making my way down the steps out the main entrance of the school, two boys (I think they were juniors) came running down the stairs and sent my flying to the bottom. I now understand the saying 'blinded by pain' because I wasn't able to see anything for a good thirty seconds, but when I was able to see again, there was a boy with shaggy black hair (I found out later that his name is Mokuba and he's Kaiba's little brother) kneeling beside me checking me for injuries. And Kaiba had a hold of the two boys that bowled me over and was giving them supreme shit. My stitches had come undone, so I was bleeding (that freaked the poor kid out) and Mokuba called over his brother. When they found out where Yugi and his friends were, the kid raced off to get them. They were only there for a few seconds before I passed out, and the next thing I know, I'm waking up in a medical ward in Kaiba's mansion!

Anyway, I'm all patched up again now and I even have new medications that are better than my old ones, curteosy of Kaiba's Doctors, but still... I can't remember ever being that embarrassed before in my life. Until I can ditch the crutches, I'm taking Yugi up on his offer from now on. No way am I gonna risk taking another trip down those stairs alone.

When we got back home, I just kinda went up to my room and sat up there for a while. I just read a book to calm myself down ( I was admittedly upset at the whole crappy day I'd had), when Yugi showed up again. He gave me an apple (which thankfully stayed down), and then he spent the next few hours teaching me how to play Duel Monsters (I royally suck, but he say's I'm doing just fine for a beginner and the hardest thing about the game is keeping the rules straight). Spending the last few hours of my day with Yugi was definitely the highlight of it. It kinda made the rest of the day seem not so bad (at least at the time).

But there is something I'm having a hard time figuring out. Yugi and his friends told me that Kaiba is usually cold and stuck up, not caring about anyone except himself and his little brother. But he doesn't seem like that to me so far. He might be a little distant and have a cold personality, but he's been really kind and sweet to me so far...'

 

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Joey's eyse bugged out of his head and he choked on a potato chip. “KAIBA?! KIND AND SWEET?! THOSE WORDS CANNOT BE IN THE SAME SENTENCE!!”

Tea rubbed the back of her head. “I have to admit, it does seem really off, but he HAS been treating her nicely. He was concerned about her when she got sick, he kept the kids in gym from bugging her, he helped her in computers class, and he even brought her to Kaiba Mansion to get her injuries tended to.”

Joey shuddered. “Okay... I'm gettin' freaked out now! He IS being nice ta her!!!!”

Yugi blinked. “But remember, you guys. Kaiba's parents were killed in a car accident themselves seven years ago. But Jenna's experience was far worse than his own. He knows what it's like to lose someone very close to you, but he also knows her pain is greater than his was. He still has Mokuba, but she doesn't have anyone left in her family. I think he knows she's in a lot of pain right now and is doing what he can to keep that pain from increasing all the more. I mean, Kaiba might be cold, but he's not entirely heartless.”

Joey blinked, not really believing they were talking about Kaiba like this, but having no choice but to grudgingly agree. “I guess...”

It was pretty well the end of the entry, and the next one was merely about the two students expulsion and how Jenna had spoken with the administration, explaining her reasons behind it.

But as the entries continued on, they delved more and more into the region of depression and closing her emotional doors. The only positive words came from the fact she was slowly recovering from her injuries, and the relief she felt at having Yugi with her at all times.

Her latest entrys, made them worry, though, starting with the one made three days before. About a week after her arrival in Domino City, she had started addressing her entries with 'Dear Carmen' in memory of her mother.

 

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'Dear Carmen,

I just want it all to end. I don't know how much longer I can do this. Night after night, no matter how hard I try, the images keep replaying themselves over in my mind. What scares me the most is that I can't seem to get my final sight of my parents out of my mind... my father completely crushed and broken, my mother nothing more than a head sitting on my lap.

Every morning when I wake up, I keep hoping that when I open my eyes, I will be back home in Canada and find that everything had just been a very long and horrible nightmare. But everything is the same as it was when I went to bed in the first place. My injuries are nearly healed, but that is about the only thing I am able to feel good about.

And lately, for some reason, I find myself feeling guilty. I'm not even sure for what. Do I feel guilty because I survived? Because I still feel like a burden to the people who have taken me in?

But what really scares me is the thought has crossed my mind that I wish I had died right along with them.

I'm hurting.

It's not a pain people can see just looking at me. It's not from the injuries I sustained in the accident. But my stomach has been cramping up lately, even more than usual, and sometimes for no reason I just feel like hitting someone or screaming my head off. I don't want to go to school. I don't want to go out and have fun. I just want to stay locked up in my room away from everyone and be left alone.

My chest hurts sometimes, too. It just hits me out of the blue, and I can't pinpoint any reason for it. The best way to describe the pain would be for someone to grab my heart and just tear it to shreds. I sometimes have a hard time breathing and I get massive headaches. I don't want Yugi or his Grandfather to know though. I'm being far too much a burden for them as it is.

God, I sound so fucking ungrateful. I know everyone is doing what they can to make me feel better, but I just don't think it's all sinking in. Yugi's friends all try to make me laugh, I think Kaiba's scared every other student in the school into not so much as uttering a word about me or even sneaking a peek, and Yugi is there beside me every single night, to bring me comfort after the nightmares strike me. But none of the pain seems to be leaving me. In fact, it just seems to be getting worse. I don't know what I can do to stop it.

I've even tried to force myself to stay awake so I don't have to relive the accident. Living it once was enough. Why do I have to see it happen over and over every single FUCKING night?!

I just want this pain to stop. I want my life back to the way it was before. I'd much rather be lying half dead on a hospital bed than be here like this. At least then I'd have a reason to not go anywhere.

Anyway, I guess I should stop this here. As much as I don't want to, I'd better shut off my light in case Yugi happens to get up and ask why I'm not sleeping yet. Later, Carmen.'

 

'Dear Carmen,

I threw up today. It just came out of nowhere... a sudden cramp in my stomach as I was trying to eat. I'm just relieved I wasn't around anyone else when it happened. Solomon and Yugi just ran over to pick up some forms or something to do with the store. I managed to have the mess cleaned up before they returned home.

I think I must have lost like twenty pounds since I got here. Between my constantly empty stomach and having to use these frickin' crutches all day, I guess it was bound to happen. This is NOT the way I wanted to lose weight.

I just felt like a zombie in school today. Completely numb. Is this what depression is? One day you feel like screaming and hitting someone, the next you don't feel anything? I think I could have slashed my wrists open and not felt a thing.

God, this is going from bad to worse. And to make matters worse, there's a hurricane that's going to pass by Japan. I just remembered how many frickin' natural distasters this place gets compared to Canada. Volcano's, Earthquakes, Tsunami's, and Hurricanes. I guess the first three can go hand in hand, which is really freaky if you stop to think about it. You can have an eruption, Earthquake, and tsunami all in the same day. All I had to worry about in Alberta were tornadoes in the summer, and even then, those were extremely rare.

The hurricane isn't supposed to hit Japan, thankfully, but that could change at any time. I'm trying not to think about it because I'm feeling sick as it is, but it's not easy.

Then again, if it hits and the house collapses on me, that'd be a quick death, wouldn't it...?

Nope. Can't think like that. Yugi and his Grandpa live here, too. The two of them are much to sweet to die.

I'm gonna keep this entry short. It's late right now... going on two in the morning. I've gotta be up in five hours to get ready for school. Goodnight, Carmen.'

 

'Dear Carmen,

I came to a realization today... one that should terrify me, but I was strangely relieved upon figuring it out.

I want to die.

Strange how I should figure it out now. I never thought the day would come that I would be suicidal... or that I would think of myself as suicidal, in any event. I haven't made an attempt on my own life, even though I am tempted to. I think the only thing that's stopping me is I'm afraid of Yugi finding me. My head's already fucked up from seeing my parents dead. I don't want to put sweet Yugi through even remotely the same hell that I'm going through right now.

I don't want to feel any more pain. Between the physical that I had in the accident and the emotional that I've been going through since then, I think I've had more than enough. Mom and Dad died instantly, so if I choose to kill myself, I want it to be instant as well. No wrist slashing or swallowing pills then (I've spent more than enough time puking, thanks). Bullet to the head? Where the hell would I get a gun?

I shouldn't be thinking about this. It's not good for me and I think it's just going to dig me deeper. But for some reason I feel relieved, at least realizing what it was that was nagging me the last few days.

I don't know if I actually WILL do it or not. I'll probably chicken out in the process if I make an attempt. And if I do do it, it will most certainly NOT be in the Moto residence. I'm putting them through more than enough as it is.

I'd better turn in now. Later, Carmen.'

 

***

 

The four of them were silent for long seconds after Yugi read the last entry aloud to them.

The boy shook his head in shock. “I... had no idea.... I mean, she's seemed fine to me these last few days...”

Tea's eyes were wide in concern. “We have to do something! Jenna's ready to completely lose it!”

Joey looked at her. “But do what? You think we should tell your Grandpa, Yug'?”

“Don't you think that would be pretty obvious? I mean, she'd know in an instant then that we read her journal. I don't think she'd be impressed with us...”

Joey almost blew his stack. “YOU'RE WORRIED ABOUT HER BEING MAD BECAUSE WE READ HER JOURNAL?! SHE'S READY TA KILL HERSELF!!!”

Pharaoh held his hands up and Joey settled down. “She has indicated a desire to end her own life, but although she is contemplating it, I don't believe she will do so in the near future. What I think we should do for now is simply stay at her side and do whatever we can for her.” He looked at his Light Side. “She should be relieved of her crutches in a matter of days, correct?”

Yugi nodded. “Yup. The doctor said it should only be another five days or so.”

Pharaoh nodded. “Perhaps she will begin to feel better when that happens. We should not jump into this yet. After all, it is only natural for her to feel what she is after the experience she has had. Give her a little time and if her symptom's persist, we will then take action.”

Joey frowned. “I say we give it a week! An' in that week, we watch her like a hawk!”

Pharaoh nodded. “Agreed.”

Tea looked at them. “And if she starts showing signs that she's getting worse?”

Yugi sighed. “Then we go to an adult for help.”

Joey looked up. “Well, now that that's agreed on, why don't we all try ta get some sleep? If we don't we'll be like zombie's tomorrow.”

Pharaoh nodded. “Right. I'm retreating into the puzzle again. Goodnight, everyone.”

The Puzzle flared and the Pharaoh vanished from sight.

Yugi offered to take one of the futons on the floor so Tea would get to use his bed. Then the three teens crawled into their beds and tried to sleep.

 

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There ya go!! Please R&R!!