Yu-Gi-Oh! Fan Fiction ❯ Slowly Sinking And No One To Save Me ❯ You Don't Know How Much It Hurts ( Chapter 8 )

Mistress: I'm updating again, hopefully at a good pace.

 

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GUESS WHAT! Someone asked me today why I prefer evil…I had no answer. No one's ever asked me that. Like why I prefer dark stuff, dark writing…it's like asking why do you prefer pink(awful color, acceptable at times)? I was stumped.

 

To STORY!

 

Chapter 8: You don't know how much it hurts

 

You don't know how much it hurts,

To watch you everyday

To be near you

And knowing I have no place to stay

 

You don't know how much it hurts,

To see you laugh

To see you smile

And know it's not because of me,

 

You don't know how much it hurts

To see you with another

To see you love someone else

And know that I'm so horribly selfish

 

You don't know how much it hurts,

To long for you

To want to feel your body against mine

And know that I'll never be good enough

 

You don't know how much it hurts,

To have you hug me and then become cold

To tease me and then retreat

And know that we can never be

 

And know that you only see me as a little child

 

And know that I am someone who doesn't desrve your love

 

And know that you would, and are, happier with someone else

 

You don't know how much it hurts to love you…

 

Ryou Bakura 27/03/05(1)

 

 

A small figure stirred in his bed. The boy whimpered as he fought against the blankets. The boy was asleep, caught in another nightmare. It seemed that hell had chosen its next puppet. Ryou Bakura. The blankets twisted around his figure, strangling him. Ryou whimpered as tears spilt down his pale cheeks.

 

In the room down the hall the tomb robber began to twitch. He had never been a light sleeper because oh the necessity for survival back in Egypt. So naturally the whimpers and sobs didn't escape him. His eyes opened and he yawned. He stretched and flinched as he remembered what it had been like before when Ryou cried. He would punish him even worse. Guilt rolling around in his gut Bakura stepped out of bed and started walking towards the door and to Ryou's room.

 

It seemed that the poor albino was caught in a nightmare. Bakura's eyes widened as he noticed that his hikari's struggling had caused the blanket to wrap around Ryou's throat. He rushed over and began to unwrap the blankets from a thrashing Ryou. Bakura had managed to get it away from Ryou's neck and got kicked lightly by Ryou's legs. His patience was running thin so he tried to wake the hikari.

 

“Ryou…Ryou, wake up it's only a dream… RYOU!” Bakura said shaking his sweet hikari by the shoulders.

 

The said hikari's eyes snapped open fear in his eyes. As the teen spotted Bakura his fear was replaced with terror.

 

“I..I'm so sorry Master, I'm so sorry!” Ryou said scooting back against the wall as far away as possible from Bakura's reach.

 

Bakura slightly paled at what Ryou had called him. `So he still thinks of me as that…I shouldn't have expected anything else.'

 

Regaining his patience Bakura sighed and moved closer to Ryou who whimpered and hid his face in his hands.

 

“Ryou….what did we say about my name…” he said as softly as he could while gently lifting his hikari's chin.

 

The fear in the boy's eyes had lessened but not left.

 

“Oh I'm so sorry Bakura-sama, I swear I won't let it happen again,” Ryou stammered quickly.

 

“Just Bakura will do…” Bakura said keeping a firm but soft grip on Ryou's chin so that he could not look away.

 

“Bakura…” Ryou said hoping to please the elder.

 

Bakura was surprised to hear his name spoken from Ryou. He had never done that before…well he had but not in such a `loving' manner. Out of nowhere before Bakura had enough time to process his request his mouth moved on it's own.

 

“Say it again,” he said softly while staring into Ryou's eyes.

 

The fear was almost all gone.

 

“Bakura,” Ryou said his insides jumping at happiness that Bakura was pleased with him.

 

Bakura smiled wistfully. He found himself thinking how sweet and perfect his name sounded coming from Ryou's lips…and what perfect lips they were. The sudden urge to kiss them welled up in Bakura's stomach. His mind was still asleep so he was acting on instinct. Bakura moved forward not noticing that Ryou was growing slightly red and that the young hikari's breath had caught in his throat. His lips were hovering above Ryou's when his mind kicked in. He breathed out tickling Ryou's lips and pulled back. Ryou quickly covered his face with a mask.

 

Bakura stared at Ryou with fear and horror for a moment. He had almost kissed Ryou, his hikari for a reason he could not place. It wasn't lust…and he didn't think it was love. He loved the Ishtar's, at least he thought he did. He quickly stood up and left the room muttering something about making breakfast.

 

As the door closed Ryou's mask crumbled and pain whirled around Ryou's form in waves. His heart was being torn apart. Fresh tears sprang from his eyes. The young boy buried his head in his arms and stuffed a part of his blanket into his mouth to muffle his sobs. After a few minutes he calmed down and reached for his black notebook. Putting a small mental sticky note into his mind to read his earlier poem he began a new poem. `You don't know how much it hurts'.

 

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Mistress: (dodges rocks) I know I know I'm so EVIL! I hoped you liked the chapter. XP I feel so giddy when I read this chapter.

 

SOME INFO I WANT YOU GUYS TO VOTE ON:

 

Story A: MMBR foursome, I have wanted to write one for a very long time. I don't have an exact plot yet, so it's still in pending.

 

Story B: I'm currently working on this story it is a TBR story, it's about how Ryou and the other hikari's go to Egypt and get spell to give their yami's their own bodies. Well something goes wrong with the spell and now spirit Bakura and Ancient Bakura are both there. Lemons will be present. XP

 

Story C: Vessel of Salvation, yes this one has a title unlike my other two. It has a prologue and one chapter written. The world has ended and Ryou is pregnant( will be explained later) they meet some of the Goddesses, and they send Ryou's child into the future to grow or something along that area. She has to find the daughters of MarikMalik and YamiYugi. Yaoi, at some point the parents come to the aid as well.

 

Story D: Name in pending. It's about Malik's, Yugi's, and Ryou's parents. It's AU to some extent. Yes there are the millennium items. But it's very angsty with much humor and romance! SHOUNEN AI!

 

Story E: Saving the Damned. Sequel to Ultimate Valentine( yugi suicide fic) Check it out. There's a summary for it on the epilogue.

 

So VOTE A B C D or E!! That way I know which story to get my lazy ass working on. I'll still be working on this one and Common Ground.

 

 

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