*warning*don't own these chars and Seto is really OOC! Don't remind me, well ok fine go ahead but back it up with something nice!

Solitude

I remembered back when…before I met him, I was always hurt I was bullied, my parents died and I hated myself.

I was alone, a part of me came out and I couldn't help it. It drove me insane, my darker half. I remember one night when I was about to kill myself I remember it, when he'd drug the cold silver blade over my pale skin.

The blood was so red…it hurts to think about all of that now. Just now when everything seemed right, I was happy now. But I remember that night. I frowned at the thought.

I was sitting on my bed locked in my room. I planned to bleed to death and I kept tearing away, at all my skin hoping all my bad memories, hoping all of my pain would just seep out of me.

Instead it just all replayed in my mind, I could see getting beat up in school and running home. I could see my parents in their coffins, pale just like me. I could taste the tears I cried when I was alone. I could taste the blood that he would like up despite himself.

I felt so bitter so cold. I would pace around my room at night mumbling to myself, slapping myself, just trying to cope with my own reality. Only when Seto came along, that's when I saw it all.

Of course my darker part was there, but from behind the scene I saw Seto, he was just like me in a way. He was really hidden from the world all along, and now he was alone. But the more he got to know him and me, the more he seemed to, become gentle I guess. Hehe.

I remember when we got into a fight for the first time and I don't even remember why, and he saw me cry. He was cursing at himself for letting that happen and only then did he hug me and try to comfort me. And that's why I'm here now.

I don't have to live in solitude anymore. I don't have to live with an empty space there in my heart bringing me down all day.

You see, Seto came and saved me that night, when I tore myself apart. He threw the knife away and confessed his love towards me. He didn't want to see me like that. He saved me.

He actually, I guess gave ahem, damn about me. Like everyone else, they left me there, and they didn't care while I was alone. With everyone else's abuse I gave myself my own. And then I was my own enemy.

I walked down to the small beach where he was waiting for me. I smiled at him as he looked over, noticing I was there. I bit my lip and got a better grip on my guitar sitting down next to him.

"This is for you, Seto." I whispered as the sun went down. We sat by the lake and I sat with the guitar in my hands. I learned over the summer and now I wanted to tell him how I felt.

"Take your time Ryou." He said softly and lightly kissed my cheek. I nodded looking down and kissed his lips.

"How many times have you told me you love him?

As many times as I wanted to tell you the truth."

Purples and reds were painted across the sky and his crystal blue eyes looked straight into mine. Gosh I could get lost in them. This was so perfect, right here and right now.

"How long have I stood here beside you?

I lived through you, you looked through me."

I think he looked hurt, but I had to let the rest of the song go, the first part, that was for what I left behind. All the stuff I left behind…

"Ooo, Solitude

Still with me is only you"

I sung as he wrapped an arm around my waist. I looked at him straight in the eye I and I swore I saw tears in his eyes. Urgh, I didn't want to make him cry.

"Ooo, Solitude

I can't stay away from you" But I need to tell him how I feel. We've been through so much together. And tonight was special. I knew it would be. Because this isn't the only thing I planned to have happen tonight.

"How many times have I done this to myself?

How long will it take before I see?" the night he saved me flooded through my mind, but that wouldn't stop me, not now, not yet. I kept looking into his eyes when I saw the tears finally fall.

"When will this hole in my heart be mended?

Who now is left alone but me?" I started to get up and hoped that he followed. I was even crying myself…

"Ooo, Solitude

Forever me and forever you

Ooo, Solitude

Only you, Only true" I stepped up and tripped over a rock and fell flat on my butt, but I didn't care I wasn't going to ruin this now. He was caught up in the moment and so was I, I could see it in his eyes. I chuckled and got back up and kept going.

"Everyone leaves me stranded,

forgotten, abandoned

left behind.

I can't stay here another night"

I remembered when I would pace around my room mumbling and I was tempted to stop but I didn't. I kept going up the stairs grinning at Seto through my own tears. I was blushing to oblivion and I knew it, but I didn't care.

"Your secret admirer, who could it be?" I sat down on the bed and he sat dwon next to me. I was so ready now. I was smiling now, and so was he.

"Can't you, you see all along it was me?

How can you be so blind as to see right through me?

Solitude
Still with me is only you
Ooo, solitude
I can't stay away from you

Solitude
Forever me and forever you
Ooo, Solitude
Only you, Only true"

I played out the last notes and set down the guitar next to the bed. He grabbed my hands and slowly stared to kiss my finger tips, His lips were so hot against my fingers.

"Seto…"

"Ryou…"

"Seto I love you. I have fir such a long time," I blushed and looked away only for him to hold my chinned make me look at him.

"I love you too Ryou." He smirked that smirk of his. I smiled at him and he jumped on me wrapping his arms around my neck and kissing me, taking his time to explore my mouth. He tasted so good….

He stuck a hand up my shirt and ran a finger down my spine and I shivered against him. I wasn't used to this yet, we hadn't really done anything, but that was okay, it was really okay.

Seto's POV

I chuckled at the boy under me. He was so cute. He changed, he's seems more open than he ever did before. And that song, it really showed me just how much he had changed.

I quickly took of his shirt and threw it to the floor and began to kiss and lick at his neck. He was panting, and soon he'd be begging for more. I tweaked his nipples and he gasped as I made a quick movement down to start sucking his nipple.

He started to squirm under me, whimpering. I looked up at him, his mouth slightly open and clenching the sheets. I nipped at his nipple trying to get it to turn a deeper red.

I pulled my head back and he slightly growled at the lose, but shut up and shivered again when I blew over the wet nipple and moved to the other.

"Seto.." he moaned my name and started unconsciously bucking his hips up forward. Hold on little one, it'll all come in time. I made butterfly kisses down his stomach and grabbed his butt and grinned when he forced his hips upwards and giggled.

I thought he musta been a virgin so I started with one finger and slowly pushed it inside of him and his muscles right then tightened against me.

"Seto…it hurts…." He wrinkled up his face and bit on his lip. "Don't worry, just relax," I whispered and dipped my tongue in and out of his navel. It was so hard not to laugh at him. He blushed and giggled at anything, he as so ticklish.

He wouldn't be laughing soon.

He relaxed and I stuck in another two fingers and he should be ready, but not just yet. I got down to his pants that now were tightly clenching around his hard member so I ripped off his pants, literally.

"Seto…"he whined as I stroked his shaft and thrust his hips forward. I started to unbutton my shirt while I suckled on the tip of him. He groaned and actually started to rip the sheets with his nails.

I took more of him in my mouth and ran my teeth along him. Every moan he made, every time he said my name, I was looking forward more to when I'd be inside of him. Right when his pre-cum came and I knew he'd soon release I pulled back. He immediately shot up panting, his hair all over the place, looking in his eyes he was pleading for more.

"Lay back down Ryou." I licked my lips, licking off any of his cum he gave me. He tasted good, both ways. He laid back down reluctantly sweat trickling down his head.

I grabbed his legs and one over each of my shoulders and looked down at him and he nodded up at me giving me a soft 'I'm ready'. And that was all I needed. I thrust into him and I quickly regretted it, I forgot this was still his first time. He cried out in pain and I stopped there for a second and stroked his head giving him a look saying I was sorry.

When he relaxed I went in another inch, each time, his moans making so hard to not just plunge into him over and over until we both reached oblivion.

"Seto…so…good…" he panted looking up at the ceiling when I realized I was all the way inside of him. Excellent. I didn't have to go so easy this time. I pulled out a little and thrust back inside of him and he threw his head back with a loud moan.

Yes Ryou…

He was so tight, it was so hard, but I had to wait to release until he did first, I didn't want this to end so soon. I'd go out a little farther each time before going back in, until I pulled all the way out of him and drove back inside.

"Ryou!" I moaned deeply and released inside of him right as he had screamed my name and released onto my stomach. I fell on top of him catching my breath and then rolled over to the side.

I looked over into those innocent chocolate eyes. Still so welcoming after all we had just done. I stroked his face and smiled a dreamy smile before snuggling into me and falling asleep against my chest.

I remember when me and Mokuba first went to the orphanage and he was picked on. I started to play games and I got out of being around anyone. When that happened you got hurt. When you cared, but it was different with Ryou.

I didn't have to be in solitude anymore. I think I could spend a long time with Ryou.

I love him. That's all I thought before I slipped into a deep sleep from exhaustion, looking forward to what the morning would bring as long as Ryou was by my side.

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That was my first real lemon and I knew it sucked monkies, but hey I'd love the reviews anyone?!!! PLEASE! I was listening Evanscence songs before they became famous so yeah I know they are so out of character but whatever! Review thanks peace!

-Valea