Yu-Gi-Oh! Fan Fiction ❯ Stay Alive ❯ Stay alive 1 ( Chapter 1 )

Stay alive

 

Warnings: mental illness (bipolar with psychotic features) Self-harm, and attempted Suicide, Drug use and Spousal Abuse. One sided Yugi/Yami, Joey/Seto, Ryou/Bakura

Disclaimer : I don't own Yu-Gi-Oh. If I owned the show it would be a lot more twisted, I don't own the song “Stay Alive” that is by Smile Empty Soul.

 

 

 

It was a rainy Friday and Yugi sat in the room that he shared with Yami and began to sob. “Why don't you just do it? No one really wants you around, they just don't have the heart to tell you.” A Voice inside Yugi began to say.

Yugi got up to take out the razor that he had kept from the rest of the world, when he heard a knock at the door. Yami walked into their tiny-shared room and looked at Yugi with a look of concern on his face.

“ What are you doing Yug?”

“Yugi turned to his other half and smiled, ”Nothing just grabbing a pair of socks.” He said dropping the razor blade in his hand and picking up a pair of socks.

“He'll never love you. How could he look at you, who could love that.” The voice inside Yugi whispered in his ear again. It was like someone standing right beside him that he couldn't see, that was telling him everything that he feared. Yami waved a hand in front of Yugi's face.

“Hello… Earth to Yugi..” Yami said once again concern filling his voice.

“Sorry Zoned out” Yugi said once again returning back to his usual bubbly self.

“Ok, Well Grandpa and I are going to the store. Will you come down and watch the shop until we get back?” Yami asked concerned still filling his voice.

“Sure.” Yugi said looking back at his dresser longingly.

Things down in the game shop were just as dull as they always were. Yugi sat down on a stool with his elbows on the counter deep in a magazine. He looked at the guys in it and wished that he looked like them, Most of them were tall and had normal looking hair styles and a nice tan. He then looked in the mirror that hung in the corner of the shop and the sight before him made his stomach turn. Maybe the voice was right, how could Yami ever love someone like him. He was so engrossed in the sight that he saw before him that he never heard the bell over the door of the shop telling him that someone had entered the shop.

“Yugi, you look fine.” Joey said looking at his friend.

“If you say so.” Yugi felt a pang of sadness but knew that he had to put on a smile for Joey.

“So what's really going on my friend?” Joey asked sporting a new bruise on the side of his face. Yugi felt that he problems where so small compared to Joeys.

“Its nothing Joey, I promise.” Yugi said wondering if Joey could see the sadness in his eyes, he had hoped that he couldn't.

“Bullshit Yug. You should know that you can't like to me. I know you like no one else. Now let me guess its Yami isn't it.” Joey said eyeballing Yugi.

“yeah, but there is more to it than that…” Yugi started to say when Joey's phone rang.

“its just Seto, he'll get over it. Look Yugi, I know that you love him, and if I know him part of him loves you just as much. But you've got to get it in your hear that until he wakes up and sees you're the best thing for him that he just wants to be friends,” Joey said ignoring yet another phone call from his loving yet sometimes insane boyfriend.

“God I hate the word.” Yugi said with a lone tear rolling down his face.

“What word?” Yami asked walking in the house with a few bags of food.

“ faggot.” Yugi said with a forced smile on his face.

“ yeah, I was telling Yug about some of the things that my dad called me last night.” Joey said looking at Yugi with a knowing look.

“ How have you been Joey? Do I need to go over and give your dad hell?” Yami said looking at Joeys face.

“Naw its ok, Imma go stay with Seto for a few days, maybe I can get lucky while I'm there.” Joey said wiggling his eyebrows. To which Yami chuckled and Yami sighed.

Yugi stayed down at the game shop until grandpa came down and told him to close up. He locked the shop doors and ran upstairs. He ran passed Yami, who was in the kitchen with his Walkman on, starting dinner. Running all the way up the stairs he when to his dresser after grabbing a hoodie and slipped his blade in its pocket and turned around and left, running all the way back down stairs.

“Grandpa I'll be back.” Yugi said walking out the door.

Yugi ran all the way down to the park and found it just the way that he wanted it, abandoned. He walked to the back of the park, to the part where people had their picnics. He laid down on the table and just listened. All was quite around him; the only sound save for his own breath was the occasional car that went down the street.

“Do it, you won't be missed, in fact people will be more pissed because they have to spend money to burry your ass. And think about it.. without you around Yami will be able to get that girlfriend that everyone knows that he wants.” Came a voice from inside Yugi.

Maybe the Voice was right, he thought as he sat up and pulled out his razor blade that he had hidden away. He pulled up his jacket sleeve and sighing he make the first slash on his pale arm, and let go of the breath that he didn't know that he was holding. Suddenly he heard a car door close and he got up and put his blade back in his pocket and pulled his sleeve back down, and began to walk.