Yu-Gi-Oh! Fan Fiction ❯ Untitled ❯ Drowning ( Chapter 1 )

DISCLAIMER: I DO NOT OWN ANYTHING YU-GI-OH!!

Summory: Seto's life gets a little to complicated for him to handle. When he tries suicide his life just gets worse, one reason is because he lives. 2nd becuase he doesn't know how that will affect the people who love him.

WARNING: This fic contains major angst, and a suicidal attemp! There will also be some small yaoi....Kaiba and you'll find out who. ^_~

NOTE: This was a weird idea that popped into my head. Plus this story is pratically told in POV from different people.

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Chapter 1--Drowning Kaiba's POV...December 10, that night......

Everyday it felt like I was drowning. I thought I could handle it all, this big company life, handling one child on my own. I thought I could do it all. But lets just say when reality hits, it hits hard. The truth is I cant do it...I couldn't do it all along. And now I'm drowning in that thought, in this guilt. Did I really fail? Did the great Seto Kaiba fail?........I did, I failed, failed at everything. Hell, failed even living up to my own name. Can one person really sink so low....?

"Guess I have." I sighed to myself as I pushed my chair away from the giant window. Rolling the chair to face the front of my desk, I took a look at what lay on it. Files stacked atleast a mile high, my laptop, my dueling deck.....I put my hand over the deck of cards. I had loved the game of Duel Monsters but now...it really didn't matter anymore, nothing mattered. Talk about irony. I shoved my deck into the open drower and looked back onto the top of my desk. The thing that caught my eye laying there was, my locket?

When did I take this off? I asked myself picking up the locket, staring at it for a second I found the brains to open it. When the top flew open I smiled to myself, in it was the picture of Mokuba, my little brother. The only family I had left....the only person who cares, for me. Did Mokuba even matter anymore? I stared at the picture closely, wondering. How could I?.....How could I even think that!? Of course Mokuba matters! He's the only person who does....the only person.

I took in a deep breathe and felt a warm trail run down my face. Closing the locket and placing it over my head I put a shaky hand to my face. Surprisingly enough, it was wet. Great! Now I'm crying, I even lost control in my emotions as well! Roughly, I wiped the tears away, but they continued to flow freely. I growled a curse and wiped them away again, forcing them to stop. Taking a deep breathe I looked to the clock, it read 5:38. A.M. that is, damn! That was another night wasted from sleep....Mokuba kept telling me if I didn't get sleep I would die. Now I'm really starting to beleive it!

Only 2 hours until school, great, just fucking great. I can barely manage school over work, I'm pratically failing school, even though I'm like the smartest person there! And work, I seem to failing at too. Officials and other business men tell me my performance is slipping.....I'm not working like I used to. Amazing how slowly everything can fall apart, and the best fucking part is. You know it. You know it damn well but all you can do is watch as everything dies and fades away, and you cant stop it no matter how much you try. And beleive me, I've tried, I've really tried....it's just to hard....I'm loosing control over everything.

I took out the locket from under my shirt and opened it. Just letting the picture of Mokuba dangle there....I'm, loosing him too. Thats a horrible thought for someone I love so much, but it's the truth. I took another glance at the clock then back at the picture. Again tears fell from my face, but I made no move to dry them. A sobb racked my body and I quickly closed the locket, clenching it in my hand. Putting my head down on my desk, I let another sobb come, this time causing me to choke out. Another sobb came but I covered my mouth so as to not let a sound out. I couldn't risk Mokuba hearing me and come crashing in.

I didn't want him to see me like this...drowning in my own tears.

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End Chapter 1

Chapter 2--

Well that's one Chapter! Please tell me if you wish for me to continue!! ^_^