Yu-Gi-Oh! Fan Fiction ❯ You Don't Want This ❯ Going Away ( Chapter 1 )

Going Away

As the day moved on Yugi became more and more anxious for his party to begin. It was his 16th birthday and the Joey had told him about his party that was going on later that night. Everybody had already brought him to get shakes and he got his for free because of Tea scheduling for the party. Also, they took him to the fair grounds and went on every intense ride about five times before they decided to leave.

Of course, of every good thing has to have a bug or something bad in it. And he'd noticed it from the beginning of the day when they started to have fun. Yugi noticed that Yami seemed to be holding himself back from having fun at all. He'd asked him if he felt ok and Yami said he did but he continued to act that way.

They were just about to head over to the party and Yugi volunteered to get Yami from wherever he was hiding. He maneuvered his way around the trees and other bushes there. The gang decided to just hang out until it was time for the big party and headed over to the park and Yami went out for a walk by himself.

After a few minutes of searching and failing to find his darker half he heard Joey and Tristen calling. He ran back over to them and told them about Yami and his suspicions that he wasn't having as good as time he let on. Joey just brushed it off and started pushing the birthday boy out of the park, reassuring him that Yami probably got a headache or hadn't been feeling good all day and didn't want to make him feel bad by saying anything.

"But Joey, it isn't like him to just walk off like that without saying something." Yugi countered.

"Don't worry about it Yug. He'll be all right. Trust me he used to be the almighty powerful Pharaoh. I'm sure he can take care of himself until we decide to let you go home."

Yugi got home pretty late and didn't even make it upstairs before he fell asleep so he just called it a night on the couch. But in the morning he went to his room to talk to Yami only to find out he wasn't there.

`That's weird; Yami always leaves a note if he's not feeling well.'

Yugi called up Joey and the others and let them know and they agreed to meet outside the game shop. Once together they split up in search of their friend.

/Yami! Yami, please tell me where you are? / The boy tried calling through their link. But to no avail he was falling on deaf ears as the other half of the link had but shut off like Yami didn't even exist. Yugi was beginning to worry about his darker self and ran faster to the park to see if Yami was still there from last night.

"Ok, Malik, Bakura, and Yugi go search by the lake. Ryou, Tristen, and Marik search over by the playground because some of the trees there are easy to climb up. Tea and me will check out all the paths and we'll meet back here in an hour." Joey ordered and everyone ran their way over to their respected areas to start looking.

A few hours after searching every place they could think of that Yami would go everyone decided to look again tomorrow.

"I don't understand why he would run off like that. What if something happened to him and he needs our help?" Yugi asked as he Bakura, Ryou, Malik, and Marik walked home.

"Neither do I, Yugi. I wish I could help you more but I can't" Ryou whispered sadly to his friend.

Bakura put his arm around his light's shoulders. "It's okay, Ryou. We're all doing the best we can so don't feel bad." Ryou offered him a smile.

"Hey, Yugi, didn't you tell Joey that Yami had been acting funny yesterday? While we were heading over to the party?"

"Yeah, I did but that was the only time I saw him acting funny." He then realized something and looked down at his feet. "But I haven't been paying attention lately."

Malik looked at him curiously. "What do you mean?"

"Well, I don't know. I haven't been hanging around him as much as I used to lately. With the party coming on and then Tea's been hanging around me too so I've been trying to get rid of her. I really did want to be around him though. In fact I'd rather wanted to be with him on my birthday other than have a big party. I enjoyed it but still."

"It sounds like he might've had a different point of view." Marik announced.

Yugi stopped and cocked his head.

"Well hear me out. If you were in his shoes and he hung out with you and basically did everything with him. Then suddenly your world turns around and he stopped hanging around with you and didn't give him and explanation why. How would you feel?"

Yugi was silent for a minute as he thought about it. Then his eyes started to water up and he let them fall uncaringly. "I'd feel abandoned and rejected." He whispered.

Marik nodded and everyone else did in understanding.

"Marik, are you saying that Yami might've run away because of how I treated him?"

"It's quite possible."

Yugi didn't hold anything back as he fell to his knees and started to cry uncontrollably.

Malik and Ryou knelt down and held the poor boy until the tears subsided. Afterwards, Marik picked him up and carried him the rest of the way to the game shop. Before they went home they left a note stating that the four of them wouldn't be able to help him and the others on the search for Yami.

The next day Yugi, Joey, Tristen, and Tea split up and searched for Yami. Yugi had told them each where to go having made a map off Domino and the downtown area and marking off the places they had already checked.

As they split up they also asked other people if they had seen Yami using a picture they had taken a while ago. Nobody had seen the lost dark one and Yugi was starting to worry again about what Yami might've done because of him.

After a few hours everyone got back together again. Yugi was about to assign new areas to look in for everyone but was interrupted by Joey.

"Yug, let's stop. We've been searching nonstop and if Yami left he probably had a good reason. And if that's the case then we won't be able to find him because he doesn't want to be found."

"Yeah, Yugi let's stop and go grab a bite to eat. Maybe that'll make you feel better." Tea suggested.

"No!"

The usually quiet one of their group's sudden outburst startled the three teens.

"I won't stop looking for him! It's all my fault he's gone!" He shouted. "It's all my fault he left me." He whispered before yelling up again. "You guys aren't really friends if you give up so easy on him! I'll find him and then you'll be sorry that you didn't help me!" After that he ran off down the street.

"Joey! Tristen! Tea! Hey, guys what's going on?" Ryou yelled as him and his yami ran up along with Malik and Marik.

"Where have you four been?" Tristen asked irritated.

"Sorry, we had some things to do. The four of us decided to make posters to help Yami's search go better. It's a surprise for Yugi but why's he running off."

"He's being stubborn. He's staying stuff like it's his fault that's Yami's gone and …"

"It is." Marik interrupted.

"What?"

"Yugi accidentally started to ignore him because you guys were pushing him into hanging out with you three all the time. Came his birthday, you three didn't attention to him at all and you obviously didn't let Yami in or even try to either. He ran off when you guys went to the park."

"That's what Yugi meant by `it's his fault?"

The four Millennium Holders nodded sadly.

"Uh-oh." The three went a little pale.

"What's wrong?" Ryou asked curiously.

"Well, we just bugged Yug into giving up because Yami obviously don't want to be found."

"That was the smartest thing you have done you numbskull." Bakura noted sarcastically.

Yugi ran all the way back to the game shop with unshed and stinging tears in his eyes. He slammed the door on his bedroom and collapsed onto his bed.

"I bet they weren't even looking when we split up. Some `friends' they are!"

A few minutes after Yugi had calmed down he loaded up the map on his computer and marked off the location he checked that day and was about to check off the places where Joey, Tristen, and Tea were supposed to look before slamming his fist on the table.

"They aren't friends at all if they give up so easily!" He yelled through clenched teeth. He refused to mark off their locations and chose to go downtown the next day.

He changed out of his clothes into some comfy sweat pants and climbed into bed. As he started to drift off to he started to have second thoughts about yelling at his friends. `It's going to be harder looking for Yami and apologizing for how I acted without any help from the others.' Then he thought over the events and rolled over in anger before he could scream out in rage. `No! I meant what I said and I won't show that I'm sorry for something I shouldn't be sorry for. They didn't have to say what they did and if anybody's going to be apologizing it's them.' Afterwards he drifted off into a dreamless sleep.

As Yugi and the other's day was going by so was another's. Yami used up to whole day thinking about why and when he ran away.

`It's for the best; it has to be. Yugi's growing up and once he gets somebody he wants to spend the rest of his life with. Somebody he's going to want to marry and be with day and night and then there won't be much use for me to protect him. It was fun while it lasted but whom am I kidding? Yugi wasn't going to be little and innocent forever.'

The dark spirit looked up into the blue sky. Tears stinging to come down and he let them, having no need to be strong anymore since Yugi wasn't around.

`Not like it matters.' He huffed. `Yugi wasn't giving any attention to me and that's the fact of hard reality. He's growing up and wants to experience new things. He's stronger and braver too. Besides, he's not going to be innocent once he gets married and gets kids, but he'll always be my hikari …'

"No!" He said sternly. "I can't call him that name or anything else except Yugi. I have no right to call him such a delicate name being as tainted as I am. Can't say as that I'm surprised though, just caught off guard really. He grew up so fast it seems. He's not even as naïve as before. How could I help him if I can't keep him safe like before?"

He looked back down and started to walk back to his new home. It wasn't the best thing in the world but it was something to go to at night. He opened the door and looked around.

`Though it would be nice if I could hear his cheery voice again.'

"Hi Yami!"

The spirit shook his head to rid himself of the thought.

`It's only going to be harder if I keep thinking about him.' He forced himself to believe. Besides, he won't notice you if you were still there with all the girls around. Yugi going on dates, what's the use of me in that?'

He lay down on his bed and blocked the annoying sun from his face by closing the battered curtains on his window.

Nobody should have the Pharaoh wrong though. The dark was happy for his light. He wanted Yugi to grow up and be strong so he didn't feel as though he was being dependant on everyone it seemed like, but the spirit still felt bad at the same time. He felt rejected and even quiet jealous whenever he saw those girls since he too wanted his light for himself. He didn't consider it being selfish really, more a desperation to be loved and to love back. He wanted his light to want him like he wanted him. He loved his light more than anything and would even give up all the titles he had on himself and everything else he could to have his little Yugi love him back, but the said light had only made it clear on his preference on gender and it wasn't male.

He thought back to Yugi's birthday. He was going to tell the boy that he cared for him and his feelings that extended farther than a simple friendship or little crush, but didn't because he noticed how much attention he wasn't receiving from the light or his friends for that matter. It's like he didn't exist to them and wondered briefly if they noticed he wasn't there any longer.

"Heh, knowing Joey he probably convinced everyone that I'd gone to the puzzle and wanted to be left alone … but then there was that message from before from Yugi in our mind link. I heard it but didn't catch what it asked." He brushed the thought away as being an unimportant message. "After all he didn't ask again." He thought aloud sadly.

`That's why I left. I was holding Yugi back from what he really wanted. He wanted to date and live his life. Besides, Tea made it clear that Yugi was going to be taken soon."

~Flashback~

Tea watched the birthday boy, smirking the whole time like she had this big plan and nobody could ever suspect her of anything out of her character.

She plucked an extra straw into Yugi's shake and starting to drink with him. It was obviously a surprise but Yugi didn't push her away and continued until the two had finished off the drink.

"Hey, Yugi, maybe you could come over to my house instead of going home and we could watch a few movies. My parents won't be home for a few days and we could do whatever we wanted. What do you say?"

Yami perked up at hearing this and was about to say something against it but stopped himself, not wanting to ruin his aibou's birthday.

Yugi hadn't noticed but had been fighting down a blush at the moment. He finally got settled back down. "I'm sorry, Tea. M-my Grandpa wanted me back home so he could have a miniature party with me."

Yami looked over at him curiously. `Yugi or Grandpa hadn't mentioned that. Probably forgot to tell me or expected me to just go to sleep once we got home anyway.' Yami shrugged off the little party he wasn't invited to. `Come to think of it, I wasn't invited to this one either. If it wasn't for me asking about it this morning I'd be at home doing something else.' He thought sadly as he pushed threatening tears back.

"Hey, guys, let's go to the park. It's not quite time to head over to Yug's party, so let's just rest up a little bit?" Joey suggested.

"Good idea Joey. Alright, let's go."

Nobody had bothered to turn around to see if Yami was following. He was still sitting in the booth and watching as his light and everyone else laughed and joked with each other unknowing that one wasn't with them anymore.

Yami lifted his hand up to the glass. "Good bye." He whispered sadly and so quietly that nobody could hear him but himself.

~End Of Flashback~

He shook off the memory. He'd went so far into it that he'd gone to where he said his last word to Yugi before he decided to leave him. He rolled back over on his lumpy mattress and shivered slightly.

He hadn't gone to the game shop to pick up anything of his so he'd been in the same clothes as the day of the party. It was a pair of dark blue leather pants and a black sleeveless shirt that looked as if the sleeves had been ripped off of it and was tightly showing off his muscular chest and stomach. The armband he wore around his upper right arm was a smooth metal and had been chilled in the smudged air when he was outside.

Yami remembered the many times when he felt scared about not being able to help his innocent light once he grew up and his fears had finally caught up him. He was scared about being rejected and couldn't take it and that's the main reason why he ran in the first place.

`Lots of other reasons too. Rejection and hate, I could never take it if Yugi didn't like me back after I told him I loved him and had for a long time now. I knew all along I wouldn't be needed around forever. I wish I could be with my love though …'

"No!" He stopped himself again. "I can't think that way, he'd never love be back so I have to move on. I have to find something else that'll take my mind off him long enough that I might just forget I love him so much it hurts. I stayed as long as I could." He offered sadly to himself.

`I feel so broken though. As though Yugi finally decided to group up and live his life and I'm was getting left behind. I don't want to feel this way. I don't want to get hurt, but I don't want Yugi to get hurt or hate me either.'