Yu-Gi-Oh! Fan Fiction ❯ You Don't Want This ❯ Things Come Together ( Chapter 7 )

Hiya everyone! Thanks so much for your reviews, I had no idea that when I came up with this idea that it would be so good. I'm glad that you all love it. However, I did get asked in one of my reviews that didn't have a clue as to what being bulimic meant, so I'll tell you. It's when someone makes themselves sick after eating or drinking by throwing it up. People use a toothbrush and stick it down their throat to help this do this and some people, after a long time of doing it, can do it on their own without the help of it. Hope that helps and here's chapter seven!

Things Come Together

Yami stepped into the room and the first thing he saw was the dozens of machines hooked up to Yugi who was laying on the bed, not moving except for the up and down of his chest as he breathed. He also noted that Yugi was still pale, but tried to ignore it as he walked over and took Yugi's hand in his own.

Yami opened his dull eyes and looked at his hand. He followed up the arm and his once joyous eyes came to meet Yami's own broken crimson ones.

`Why would Yami want to be here and try and help me even after he knew what I'd been doing.' He wondered. A second later he looked away from Yami in self-disgust. He hated himself for letting it go this far again. For letting Yami see him as the weakling he really was.

Yami hated that Yugi turned away from him since he still thought, no matter how he looked, that his light was the most beautiful thing he ever laid eyes on and his eyes the best of all since they always used to reflect what Yugi was feeling and sometimes even thinking.

He used his free hand to turn Yugi's face back to him as he let the all to familiar tears crawl down his face for the umpteenth time that week.

"Why'd you do it, Yugi?" Yami asked silently. "I went to the game shop to apologize and started to panic and worry myself to the skies and back when I saw you lying unconscious on the bathroom floor and I didn't even know what happened to you."

Yugi became confused at this. "What do you mean, Yami?" He whispered. "Joey and the others told you my secret. Why would you still apologize to me trying to find out what happened between us when you knew? Why would you even want to talk or look at me even when you know?"

"But I didn't know Yugi. Joey and the others didn't tell me. I ran out of the shake shop a few minutes after you had left to apologize for what I said and didn't give the others a chance to tell me it. They did, however, tell me their story when they met up with me in the waiting room that same day."

Yugi sighed and realized he'd gotten mad over nothing and even looked at Yami the way he had when he was only just assuming by the way Yami was looking at him that they told him. "I did it because everything was falling apart for me."

"What does that mean Yugi?" Yami asked.

"When you left and never came back I felt terrible. It was my birthday and I didn't really want a big party I really just wanted to be with you. I freaked out when you disappeared and you weren't at the game shop. When I went looking for you and found you downtown you just pushed me away and walked from me."

Yami felt the same pang of guilt he'd been having since he left. He knew he'd regret doing that even more someday and that day finally caught up with him. More tears spilled over his flushed cheeks and tired eyes as he squeezed Yugi's hand in his affectionately.

"After that I started not to eat and had trouble sleeping too. When Grandpa got worried about me not waking up one morning when he came to give me my breakfast even though he probably knew I wouldn't eat it. He phoned the hospital and that's where I ended up waking up, pretty much the same as I did this time except for a different reason. Bakura and Ryou and everyone else were also here. They made promises to me that they'd sure I'd eat from then on. They asked why I did it just like you did a few minutes ago and I told them why I did it too."

After a little hesitation Yugi decided that he'd tell Yami what he said to his friends. "I told them that once I found you all you did was walk away from me and when you walked away it felt the same as rejection since I loved you and I couldn't bare that and had wanted it to end, but wasn't brave enough to take my own life."

Yami's eyes widened at this, but he allowed his hikari to continue. `Oh, my love, I could never think you to be weak. I'm to weak one because I left. I'm just glad you didn't take your life. Maybe I can make things better if I try hard enough. I promise, I swear to you that I will never leave you like that again, ever again.'

Yugi stopped at seeing Yugi's surprise to what he said. Sadness and hurt filled him as he tried to decipher anything that wasn't the rejection that it probably was. After a quick breath to make sure he wasn't going to break up at his pain he continued again. "After that I began to withdraw from my friends even though they still tried to hang out with me. I thought it was just to make sure I ate, and I never realized then that they really did want to still be friends with me and they didn't look down on me for what I did.

Finally I got tired of hearing their lies, which is what I called them at the time when they said they still cared and worried about me, and I yelled at them altogether and told them I didn't want them around anymore.

That's when the idea struck me when I found out Tea had a boyfriend. I admitted to myself that I was jealous of everyone else's good fortune to love and that's when I thought of what to do. Since everyone still made sure I ate even after telling them off that I'd just get rid of it when they weren't around. True, that meant sticking a toothbrush down my throat to do it but as I got used to it I was able to do it without the help of it and just became a natural thing to me like breathing."

As Yugi took a breather Yami thought over everything. `That seems a lot how I felt too. I felt jealous at everyone finding love when I thought the one I loved couldn't love me like that too. It didn't help when Joey went out with a different girl every week or Tristen being a `babe magnet' as he called himself. Then when I came back I found out about Marik and Bakura getting together with their hikari's and being happy with them. Like nothing else mattered in the world, that's what they looked like when I saw them together, hanging over each other and not caring if they got stared at by other people.' Yami stopped his thoughts as Yugi began to start talking again.

"When my friends found out though they tried to make me stop, especially Malik. He was the first one to do something about it by yelling at me. I didn't really listen to any one of them though. I felt as though I didn't have to since they were just trying to make themselves look good. I just yelled at them again with even more rage at having being told what to do. I told that I didn't want them around anymore and I wished that they'd just leave me alone like I did with you the other day at the game shop."

Yami flinched in pain as he remembered that day and that same day he came back and saw his love sprawled out on the bathroom floor, not moving.

The dark one understood everything his light was going through. It seemed just like a mirror image of what he was going through just less yelling and he didn't have anyone to look after him. It was also a slightly different situation for him. He didn't even need to be told about the reason why decided to join up with that small gang downtown. He knew now that Yugi was only trying to forget the pain and everything else around him just like Yami had tried to do with leaving.

It appeared to both of them though as both of their plains failed miserably and only gained them further heartache.

Yugi was about to continue his explanation but was interrupted by his yami placing his hand over his mouth for a minute.

"Yugi, do you still love me?" The dark one asked quietly as a red tint colored his cheeks. He had to know if his light still felt that way about him. He didn't bother asking himself that question; he already knew.

The light looked away as he nodded slightly, color finally appearing on the pale cheeks.

Yami felt his heart leap with joy and excitement as well as relief. "Yugi," he started as he turned Yugi's force towards his again. "Yugi, I'll never leave again because I too also love someone; someone who is very special to me and always will be to me."

Yugi's eyes dulled again and the disappointment and rejection fell into them, the only emotion Yami had been able to see for a while, but the dark one just smiled.

"Yugi, that special someone is the light of my life."

Yugi still didn't realize what his dark side was trying to say, he was too busy wallowing in self pity as he cursed himself for thinking Yami might've just said that he was that special someone; obviously he didn't hear what Yami had said but rather just heard the words.

"My light is you Yugi. I love you more than I can bear sometimes; it hurts so much. I didn't want to leave Yugi but I had to because I loved you."

Yugi again heard just the words but as they sunk in further than the previous line Yami had said his eyes widened and color flooded back into them as he stared at his partner.

Yugi finally smiled; a real old-fashioned Yugi smile that Yami loved and missed so much. It was then that he decided to tell Yugi his own story as to why he left.

"Yugi, I think it's my turn to explain. I left because I was hurting, like I said I was. I didn't think you could love me back and if I stayed I feared that I would hurt you too; that I would taint you with my darkness. I thought that if I left it would be better for the both of us and neither of us could get hurt anymore. I realize now that I was wrong. I'd been figuring it out more and more the longer I've been back that it wasn't the right thing to do because we both need each other to survive. The only reason I came back was to check up on you since I felt something change you in and I wanted to be sure you were okay; I had not intention of you actually knowing I was there. But when I saw that gang beating on you I forgot that intention and allowed you to see me. That was the beginning of me realizing it was wrong of me to have left you.

I also felt as though you didn't need me anymore. You were growing up and started doing things for yourself. I knew that when you got married you couldn't have me around anymore so I thought to leave now so you could get used to the concept. I'm only assuming that you dated girls now because you didn't want to believe you were gay and had feelings for another guy, right?"

Yugi nodded.

"I'm very sorry I left now Yugi. Could you ever forgive me?"

Yugi nodded again and hugged his yami to back it up. Yami hugged him back and wiped his tears at how forgiving his light can really be. He loved him more than he ever thought to be possible now and, through their link, he knew his aibou felt the same.