Yu-Gi-Oh! Fan Fiction ❯ You Don't Want This ❯ Light and Darkness ( Chapter 9 )

Hey everyone. Thanx so much for the reviews and here's the surprise that I said I had for you. I hope you like it. Also thanx so much to all of you who wished me a happy b-day. It really made me happy for the whole day because of it. Sad to say I think this story is coming to an end though unless I can come up with any more ideas for it. Feel free to help me out if you want to too! I'd like that since I love hearing what people think and what they would like to happen.

Light and Darkness

It's a few months after the incident and things went back to normal for everyone and settled down as well. Everyone eventually forgot the whole thing that happened between Yami and Yugi and the whole fight that Joey and everyone got into with Yugi while the spirit of the Millennium Puzzle was gone.

Yugi didn't think that things could ever be any better since he had Yami with him for himself now. That it until things took a big turn and Yugi thought it would ruin things between them if he let his dark koi know about it.

As Yugi ran home with tears flowing from his eyes, nothing he did or tried to think about would keep his thoughts from quickly wandering back to what happened at school that day.

~Flashback~

"Did you guys hear about that guy yesterday?" A black haired guy chattered with his friends.

"The one in the park?" A girl with a squeaky voice asked. The boy nodded.

Yugi passed and heard what they were saying. He recognized the three people talking as Mitchell, the black haired guy, Taina, the girl, and Robby, the third guy who hadn't spoken yet. His curiosity getting the better of him he decided to stop and listen to what happened.

"I didn't hear it." Robby complained. "What happened?"

"This guy killed himself near that lake that's kind of hidden because of the trees."

Robby gasped and the girl, who already knew, even squeaked. Yugi tensed, but couldn't leave because for some reason his feet wouldn't listen to him.

"No way! How?" Robby asked in a hurry.

"Yes way." Mitchell nodded vigorously. "It was real creepy. You could say he was desperate." He said looking like he was thinking back over it.

"How? Tell me!" Robby jumped.

"Well when he was found he was already dead but an empty sleeping pills bottle lay next to him and the date that said when the bottle had been picked up said it had been that very day. Then there was also a half empty poison bottle found in his jacket pocket along with an over sharpened kitchen knife."

"Really?! I'd say that's being desperate all right! Wonder what his problem was?"

"It gave me the chills that I barely got any sleep last night because of it." Taina shuddered.

"Huh? Oh, hey Yugi, what's up? Did you hear about the guy from …" Mitchell was cut off by Yugi suddenly running out the doors away from the three. "Wonder what's up with him?"

Yugi ran as fast as he could from the building towards home, thankful school was over. He passed the bus, not wanting to go on because his friends were going to be on it too and he wasn't all that comfortable talking to the about that part of his past, he was only like that with one person, but even then he wasn't sure his lover would want to hear it since the small light figured Yami would be angry over something that seemed so little.

Hearing what the three were talking about only brought Yugi's old past crash into him tenfold once more. He thought he could handle it now because he had Yami and since he hadn't given it a thought and forgotten about, but he knew he was wrong now.

~End Of Flashback~

When he got home his yami stopped him and concern showed in his eyes. Yugi knew why too, he was very late being home since he hadn't taken the bus and Yami got worried about him.

Yami, however, quickly dismissed that worry about Yugi being late and replaced it with another when he saw the red and tear stained eyes of his hikari.

Yugi was scared that Yami would think less of him because of something like this that was all in the far past. He ran upstairs and ignored his koi's calls for him to come back and tell him what was wrong. He closed himself in the bathroom, his idea to take a hot shower to try and calm himself.

He stayed like that for what seemed like hours until he heard a knock at the door. He knew it was his koibito and shivered at Yami would say, what he would yell in his face, if he told Yami what was wrong.

"Go away!" He yelled back a little more harshly than he intended to.

Yami was taken aback by his lover's tone and worried that he had done something wrong.

`No, I haven't seen him all day, what could I have done wrong? Maybe something happened at school to hurt him, but what could it have been?' Yami thought worriedly.

He shook his head. If he had done something wrong than Yugi surely would have told him, right? He knocked on the door again, this time trying the handle. He was surprised when the door was found to be unlocked.

`He must've been in such a hurry to get away alone that he failed to lock the door. I'm sure he wanted to though. His mind must be wandering on other topics that are really disturbing him. My love, what's wrong with you?' Yami though worriedly as he walked in and closed the door behind him.

He sat down on the toilet and thought for a minute to figure out what to say to his light to tell him what was wrong.

"Yugi, love, please tell me what happened. I don't like it when you hide away like this like you used to do before. It can't be all that bad please won't you tell me? Don't you trust me?"

`But if only you knew Yami, then you'd think differently.' Yami thought sadly as more tears slipped and mixed in with the shower water.

"Koi please," Yami said almost desperately. "Please tell me what's wrong."

Yugi still refused to answer, but he did decide it was time to get out before he got too hot. He turned the water off and shivered slightly at the cool air of the fan he'd turned on before he got in.

Yami, hearing the water shut off, stood and handed his light's towel to him. Yugi took it before stepping out with the fluffy blue towel around his waist. His eyes were still red from crying so much and Yami took him in his arms, having to use a little restraint to keep Yugi from struggling to get away.

`I don't want to hurt you Yugi, I swear I don't so please don't make this any harder than it already is.' Yami pleaded in his mind.

Finally, the boy settled down and both boys slid to the floor as Yami continued to soothe the boy's tears away.

When Yugi nodded Yami released him and watched as his light walked to his room to get dried off and dressed.

"I'll be downstairs my koi." Yami informed him silently and stood at Yugi's small nod.

About an hour later a fully dried off and dressed Yugi presented himself in the living room. Yami smiled and led him over to the couch and pulled his light into his lap.

Yugi snuggled up and hid his face in the taller's warm chest. Yami petted the boy's hair lovingly as he cradled him in his lap.

Yugi removed his hidden face from the clothing and looked into Yami's crimson eyes sadly. "Ok Yami," he whispered, "I'm ready."

Yami nodded and loosened his hold on the boy as the smaller straddled his lap.

"It was at school and I was just about to leave. While I was about to go outside for the bus three people I know were talking about this guy who yesterday killed himself. It got me really shaken up I guess because it was the same as what I tried doing to myself sort of. I was already crying by then and didn't want to go on the bus because my friends would have asked me about it and I'm not real comfortable about talking to them about it." He paused and Yami waited patiently for him to continue.

`So far so good; he doesn't look too angry but then again Yami's good for hiding emotions when he wants to … but if he really loves me he wouldn't do something like that, right?'

Yugi breathed deeply and continued. "That's why I was late getting home today because I ran all the way here rather than taking the bus like I usually do. I ran away from you because I thought you would be mad at me since I got scared from something that happened so long ago." He finished the last part in a whisper so quiet that Yami almost had to lean down to hear it.

Yami's eyes widened at this remark but, at seeing Yugi's terror filled face, he softened them and hugged his aibou tightly before looking back into his eyes.

"Yugi love, I could never look down on you for any mistakes you make."

"But it still hurts so much to me Yami. Scared that people will down on me and like me less because of it." He interrupted.

"Aibou, your friends forgave you didn't they?" Yugi nodded. "I could never be angry with you for something like this, I'll never be angry with you for anything at all. It hurts because some scars on your heart don't disappear, rather they just linger there and that's why it hurts so much, especially since you just heard something that reminded you of it." He kissed his love's cheek before continuing. "There is no one that does not carry scars on his heart. If there were someone like that, they'd be a shallow soul." (Got that from Hiei in the Yu Yu Hakusho movie. I thought it fit pretty well with this so I decided to use it.)

Yugi smiled at this and hugged his koi closely as a thank you.

Yami sought out Yugi's lips and kissed him passionately, Yugi eagerly kissed him back. The dark one requested entrance to his light's as he licked his bottom lip slowly and was answered with the boy opening his mouth and welcoming his tongue with his own.

Yami picked Yugi up playfully and carried him to their room while sucking and biting on the boy's exposed neck.

He dumped the hikari onto their combined beds (they just pushed the beds together since they didn't have railings or anything along the sides after Yugi came home from the day he apologized to his friends) and jumped on with him.

Piece by agonizingly slow piece their clothing was removed and Yami's restrained manhood was finally released from its painful confines.

Yugi stared at it, fear pooling into his violet eyes. They didn't go unnoticed even without the whimper the light made either as Yami kissed his lips and pushed him to his back.

"Shhhh, don't worry my koi. I promise I won't hurt you anymore than necessary. It will be painful at first no matter what I do though. Do you wish to continue?"

Yugi relaxed a little under the feather soft kisses planted on his bare chest and nodded as he sighed slightly.

Yami got up quickly and went into the bathroom, coming out a minute later with a hand behind his back.

`Best not to scare him or he might change his mind, but I'll stop whenever he wants to. I won't hurt you koi, I swear it I'll try not to.'

He dropped it away from Yugi's eyesight and continued kissing Yugi everywhere. He rubbed playful circles over various places on Yugi's stomach, going lower each time before reaching the neglected arousal of his aibou.

"Why love, would this by any chance be for me?" He asked seductively.

Yugi couldn't breathe as Yami began pumping him softly. The dark one only smirked and removed his hand causing the hikari to whimper at the loss.

"But I don't wish to take what' not mine dearest Yugi." Yami joked.

Yugi struggled to breathe as he mumbles something under his breath that was too quiet to hear.

"What was that koi? You were mumbling."

Yugi caught his breath and stared at Yami with love and desire written clearly in them as well as a little fear from earlier.

`I'll have to get rid of that.' Yami noted to himself.

"I said that whatever you see is yours. I want you to take me Yami." Yugi flushed deeply.

`Like an innocent child, even with what we're doing he'll always be that way to me.' "And whatever you see is yours, love. But take you where?"

Yugi mock glared at Yami. `Kami, he's going to make me say it isn't he?' After a moments thought the light groaned to himself. `He is.' "I want you … inside me." He blush covered his cheeks an even deeper.

Yami kissed Yugi even deeper on the lips as he replaced his hand on Yugi's erection, pumping it once more as Yugi gasped into his mouth.

`My Yugi, I love how you do this to me. I love you more than words could ever express.'

Unable to take much more, the spirit took what he dropped to the side earlier and squeezed a little of the lotion on to three of his fingers.

Once coated, he pushed a finger passed the tight ring of muscle as he coaxed Yugi into relaxing when the light squeaked in pain.

When his hikari relaxed as he got used to the finger he pushed in another and scissored him gently before pushing a third digit in.

Yugi found the fingers to be uncomfortable at first. When he felt he fingers removed he felt empty again until he felt the replacement for the fingers after a minute.

During that minute after he removed his fingers, Yami was slicking his own erection to make it as painless as possible for his love. He moved forward to position himself above Yugi before planting a small kiss on his lips and thrusting forward quickly, finding it hard to suppress a pleasure filled moan at how tight his light was.

Yugi screamed into his dark koibito's mouth at the intrusion and pulled away from it, trying to make the pain stop.

Yami stopped immediately when he felt Yugi move away.

"I'm so sorry, Yugi. I never wanted to hurt you. I swear I didn't. Do you wish to stop?" He asked with worry filling his every word.

Yugi looked up and, even with tears blurry his vision, he could tell Yami's eyes were filled with concern. He shifted around a bit after a minute and resettled himself to before he pulled away, shaking his head.

"No, Yami. I don't wish for my dark angel to leave. It doesn't hurt so bad anymore, just like you promised me before we started."

Yami smiled and kissed him once more before pulling back and thrusting back in at a slow pace, but it gradually got harder with every thrust and pleading cry Yugi gave him.

"Yami … please … can't hold … need something … don't … know" Yugi found it hard to form complete sentences, but Yami seemed to know what he needed easily as he began thrusting in harder.

"Don't hold … back then my … koi. Just let go … and relax." Yami panted out.

Doing what he was told, the light relaxed and was soon pulsing his release over both their stomachs and onto the sheets. Yami came soon after inside Yugi.

"I love you my hikari, Yugi." Yami whispered as he pulled out and gathered the exhausted boy in his arms, pulling a blanket over them to keep warm.

"I love you too my dark koi." Yugi whispered back tiredly before falling asleep using Yami's chest as a pillow.

They slept on through night and into the next day in each other's arms since the light didn't have school.