Sorry this took so long. My roommates drug me off to Daytona Beach in Florida for Spring Break, I can't say I'm not glad for it, plus I got a few ideas for this chapter from it! Then I had a lot of things to do. My older sister had a baby and I had to go visiting, hehe what can I say, I adore being an aunt. But after long, pain staking waiting, here it is….(dun dun dun) The sex scene between Hiei and Kagome! Read and review!

(oh! I forgot if I was supposed to write to anyone or anything of that sort, so if you want me to answer some questions or something drop me an email at blackheartcrimsontears@hotmail.com thanks!)

Big thanks goes out to my fans, I enjoyed coming home to see my email box full of threatening messages that told me and I quote 'finish this damn story or I'll hunt you down and slaughter you.' AWWWW!!! Isn't that the cutest? Thanks for kicking my butt guys, here's your reward! J

Warning!!! Graphic gory scenes to ensue, please avoid reading this fic if you are not of a suitable age, or do not have parent consent! You have been warned!

I do not owe either the InuYasha characters or those of YuYu Hakusho

Bitter Memories

Chapter twenty : Unspoken truths

My breath halted in my throat, denying me the oxygen I desperately needed. Clouds had swept through blacking out the moon and the stars in their entirety. The dark figure, like myself, froze, their shape almost impossible to see. Forcing myself to take a deep breath of air, I bolted from my bed. The wooden paneling under my feet confirming the reality of the situation. At my movements, the figure stiffened, I could feel their eyes boring into my body. A flash of crimson reflected the color of their eyes, and once again I found myself having trouble breathing. Hiei.

Kagome stood staring blankly at Hiei. He, in turn, was fully returning the soul-searching gaze. Anger, worry, desperation, lust, love, and a tirade of other emotions swept through her as she stood staring at him. The waves of feeling crashing against her the longer the silence stretched. Letting her emotions build, she snapped.

In a blink of an eye, she flew the short distance between them and grabbed a hold of his gaping shirt. Fisting her tiny hands into the rough fabric, she pulled his face level with her own. Smoldering cerulean eyes seared ruby red ones. Hiei didn't flinch as her other hand meet his check in a stinging, open-hand slap. The noise hung heavily on the air for a moment. Slowly, Hiei brought his eyes back to hers, but he made no move to touch her, or defend himself. She shoved him away from her, balling her fist up. In an instant she began to pummel her fist into the hard surface of his stomach, her fears, pains, and worry rushing out of her with every slam of her fist. Silently he took her hits, each growing less and less forceful.

With a start, Kagome realized that tears were flowing freely down her cheek, warm droplets splashing against the wooden floor. A final, pathetic attempt at a punch landed on Hiei's chest with all the force of a feather. Her knees grew weak as her body began to tremble. Shaking with relief, she began to sink to her knees. A pair of warm, strong hands shot out and gripped firmly around her wrist, all the while dragging her body closer to his. A sob racked her as she fell against the smooth, hard chest of the man she loved. Hiei gently removed his hands from her wrist in favor of burying one in her long mane of black silk, and the other on the small of her back for support. Kagome, for all her power and strength, suddenly felt weak and helpless. But for the first time, it was ok. Hiei was finally there. He was finally holding her, and she didn't have to be alone anymore.

When Kagome pulled her face from the black folds of his shirt, he turned to look at her. Soft, tender hands reached up and cupped his face, her thumbs tracing the defined line of his cheekbone. Moving slowly, she reached up and placed a soft kiss on his lips, her wide blue eyes never leaving his. Pulling away, she gazed into his face with trepidation. He had all the right in the world to shove her away, to scorn her and leave her, but these were none of the things he did.

A smirk passed over his features, lighting his incredible eyes even as they closed. Drawing her firmly against him, he caught her lips with his own once more. The kiss, like the demon in her arms, was fierce and heated. His lips were searing on her own, silky soft in texture even as they bore down on her with all the emotion he had locked inside. Clawed hands grasped the nape of her neck, forcing her as close as possible. His arm around her waist tightened, the hold growing more possessive and daring the longer he pressed his lips to her own. Whimpering encouragingly, she parted her lips and slipped her tongue to meet his. Drawing his tongue back into her mouth, she dueled with him passionately. A gruff noise at the back of his throat stirred the warmth pooling in her stomach. On their own accord, her arms locked around his neck, one hand tracing feather light patterns on his ear. In response to her teasing, she was rewarded with a mixture of a growl and a moan.

Pulling apart, the two opened their eyes and gazed at the other, neither relinquishing their hold on the other. Stormy blue eyes heavily laden with love and a burning passion locked on Hiei's own intense stare. Kagome found herself trapped looking deeply into the depths of his eyes where flames could be seen dancing and fading, heat seeming to radiate from with in.

"Kagome." His voice, heavy with desire and at the same time, unspoken promises and questions, broke the surreal silence. His arms released her, the hand on her neck sliding to hold the side of her face lovingly. Closing her eyes, she tilted her head into the open palm, letting her self shiver under the overwhelming desire he elicited in side her.

"I missed you. You must know how I feel about you. Please, please stay with me tonight. I need you; it has always been you, Hiei. Only you." She hadn't realized she'd spoken till her voice bounced off the walls and back to her sensitive ears. Opening her eyes, she shivered at the sudden contact of his hand on her back. Without a word, he lowered his hand slowly, settling it on her butt. The next moment found her legs wrapped around his waist, his arm holding her weight and serving to keep her close. Suddenly, the bed looked all too far away. Pressing another open-mouthed kiss to her lips, Hiei began to fumble his way towards the vicinity of the bed.

With antagonizing slowness, he laid her on top of the satin, disheveled comforter. Her eyes looked on hungrily as he stood towering over her. His hand went to the tie of his shirt, loosening the knot with skilled hands. All of this seemed to be taking entirely too long for Kagome, who mewled softly in her throat and drew herself up from the bed. Crawling towards him on her knees, he watched her in all her beauty.

Her eyes shone with intense longing and desire. A cherry blush of excitement colored her cheeks. Wild, unruly wisps of inky black hair fell around her pale, angelic face. The long, utterly formless tee shirt she wore drowned her in its sheer mass. She was everything he had ever wanted, and now, it seemed he would finally get her.

She reached him in short time, he, already having undone his shirt. Now it was her turn to appraise him. Long strands of soft, dark hair fell in his flaming eyes. His face was set in a look of utter desire, she assumed it mimicked her own. His black shirt hung open around him like a pair of dark wings. Breezes stirred the fabric and his hair making both flutter in their wake. His chest was broad and defined, the skin pulled taunt over the always-flexed pectorals. Reaching for him, she ran a single finger lightly over the defined lines of his abs. They flinched under her soft touches, jumping back from her fingers even as Hiei inched closer. Her hand drew lazily towards the tie of his pants, pausing only momentarily in hesitation before tugging at the knot. A growl of frustration left her throat as it refused to cooperate. He chuckled in response to her anger.

A rough hand passed over her small soft ones, brushing them aside as he undid his pants for her. She giggled self consciously, darting her eyes to his, before moving her gaze quickly back to his hands. He hadn't stopped watching her eager face; she was stirring the flames inside him with every sound she let pass her lips. As his pants slid down his legs to pool on the floor, he made a grab for her. She squeaked in surprise as his warm flesh trapped her underneath him. His hands took a hold of her wrist, pulling them above her head.

Gentle, butterfly kisses were trailed from the heated skin of her flushed face to her bruised, parted lips. His rough textured hands slid slowly down her bare arms, eliciting mewls of pleasure from Kagome. He shifted his legs nudging her thighs gently, quickly she complied and he sat back on his haunches in between her silky legs. Kagome gasped when a heated hand trailed lazily over her stomach and found residence at her breast. Cupping her tender chest, he kneaded one mound after the other, loving the noises of surprise and enjoyment she produced, but hating the restricted feeling of the cloth. He wanted to take it slow, to let her feel everything he felt about her, pleasuring her as he knew it would be painful since it was her first time.

Kagome found herself floating in a sea of ecstasy. There was only one thing missing from her pleasant, mind-numbing state; flesh on flesh contact. Like a roaring flame, Hiei's body heat penetrated her large tee shirt, licking the flames of desire over her heated flesh. Her heart was hammering into her rib cage, promising to burst through at any moment. Just when she thought the sensation of his hands on her breast was the greatest thing in existence, one of the hands molding her breast fluttered lower. Heat danced a crossed her stomach, drawing the flames deep inside her core to leap alive and follow his lead. The heat was fanned and spread through her veins like burning lava as his hand rested on the wet, lacy, black panties she wore. Moaning, she bucked against his still hand attempting to draw him nearer, and make him move.

He had paused. The noises she was emitting had caused him to grow impossibly

hard. He was having great difficultly breathing, never the less moving with out ravishing her. His whole body was humming and pulsing, following the ancient rhythm that dwelled deep inside every male of any species. Now this rhythm, this thing that drove him, needed to touch her, to run his hands up and down her sweaty, silky skin. To cup her bare breast, to trail his lips all over her body until he had tasted all of her, always knowing that it was something no one else had ever been able to do. The blood had all drained from his body taking up instead in his lower regions, causing his ears to stop buzzing with the sound of blood thrumming through them.

When Hiei was sitting still for a long while, Kagome stopped her movement as well. One look at his face told her that it wasn't regret that had forced him into his statue-like state, as she had originally feared. His face was twisted in a look of pure pleasure, yet there was a primeval glint resting in his dark depths that told a story of unrivaled desire. She was filled with an intense need, a want that had too much power and rage behind it to be entirely her own. The blood that ran in her veins surged to life, the demon inside her ripped out of the cage she had locked it in. Never since the night that she had slaughtered her family's killers had she allowed the beast inside lose. Now it was free, and it's one desire was Hiei, 'her' demon, and only hers. A possessiveness that filled her entire being flooded her until she saw red, no one was to have him, and she was to make sure of it.

Hiei was startled as Kagome jerked up suddenly. In a swift movement he recognized as more of an offensive move than a sexual one, she had rolled them over, effectively switching their positions. Now he was the one in the dominated stance and she in the dominator. A plethora of emotion filled her lust filled gaze as she raked her long claws down his stomach. He couldn't repress the moan that escaped him, nor could he stop from arching into her as she took her mouth to his nipple. A growl rumbled from his throat when she bit down viscously on his tender flesh, drawing blood and lapping it up. Locking eyes with him, she ran a soothing tongue over the torn wound, healing it instantly. He was mesmerized, but he wasn't about to let her take over. This was one area that he refused to lose power in. A grunt later, found Kagome sprawled near the pillows and Hiei crouched on the comforter an arms length away. Apparently, she wasn't about to roll over like a good bitch. Well, if there was one thing he liked it was a challenge.

She deliberately drew herself up slowly, letting her hair fall around her in pools. The moonlight glinting off his body made him glow, the seen of sweat catching her eyes. She wanted to lick it all off, every bit of it. Even if she had to render his arms useless to do it. Smiling, she scooped up the end of her tee shirt. His eyes flashed dangerously, when a loud tearing sound filled the otherwise silent room. The shirt was torn up to her mid drift, exposing creamy flesh and lacy underwear to his hungry eyes. They moved towards each other like the predators they were, each circling the other one, waiting for the perfect opportunity to strike. Hiei struck first.

Leaping forward, he attempted to drag her to the bed, pinning her arms to her side. Or at least that was the plan. Instead, Kagome brought the torn fabric up and wrapped it quickly around his wrist. Her eyes gleamed as his widened in surprise. With a strong tug, Hiei landed on the bed, his arms pinned above his head. Glimmering, navy orbs met his before soft lips pressed against his own. Growling his displeasure, he nipped at her lip in a reprimanding way. Pulling away, she trailed her warm mouth around his face, sucking the sweat from his brow, and neck. His growl quickly turned to a surprised yip when his length was wrapped in a warm hand. Raven locks drifted around them, creating a curtain from the outside world, and all there was was her angelic face and the amazing feel of her hand pumping his shaft. Groaning, he decided he couldn't take it anymore. While he would admit, at least to himself, that her little act had been the biggest turn on ever, he wanted to make her scream out for him, to quiver under him, to be filled with him. He needed to possess her, and he needed it now.

A second tearing sound filled the nights air as he broke his bounds. Flipping her back on the mattress, he smirked down at her. Twin pools of lust and love stared back at him, and that taunting clothing had to go. A quick drag of his claws and her clothing was shredded. Instead of yelling at him, she grinned wickedly, her fangs gleaming in the light. She had never looked more beautiful to him.

Long legs wound around his hips, drawing him nearer as he leaned down for a kiss. Her lips were as soft as a rose, and as inviting as ever. He knew what was about to take place was going to hurt her, and he wanted to get that part of this over with. He didn't like seeing the tears in her eyes earlier, and he didn't like the idea that he would possibly be the cause of more. To his shock, she pulled away from him, her head sinking into the downy pillows.

"Hiei." She was purring, her voice deep and throaty, it sent delicious shivers down his spine. "Take me. Please, Hiei. I need to feel you inside me." How could he resist that? Capturing her mouth against his one more time, he guided himself into her tight, slick inferno. With one swift thrust, she lost her maidenhead. Her entire body tensed up, and a silent scream filled his mouth. Stilling, Hiei glanced down worriedly at his lover, desperate to take away her pain. Her eyes were closed, liquid pain seeping from under their lids to trail down her cheeks. Leaning down, he kissed away one tear after another, till he felt her relax around him. Opening his own eyes, he found himself staring into her luminous, dark, wet eyes. Her lashes were damp with tears, a few of which still lingered on her flushed face. A gentle smile pasted her lips and she leaned up cautiously to kiss his lips. Taking his queue, he pulled out slightly before sliding back in with the utmost care. She winced, but then an impatient look filled her hazy features. Soon her hips bucked against his, causing them both to gasp. That was all the encouragement they needed. He set a pace, working up to a frenzy of hips meeting hips as they connected in an intimate way. For the two of them, thanks to Hiei's Jagan, their minds were also one. The room fell away, all sounds ceased minus the slapping of flesh against flesh, and the satisfied moans of pleasure. Coils of pleasure were building up within each of them, winding tighter as they neared completion. It was a frenzy of thrust made on both their parts, pushing closer to their releases. It was like a drug neither of them had ever knew before, the sex was wonderful, but the way their whole beings wrapped around one another so completely was humbling and at the same time extraordinary. As they both felt their bodies reach a plateau, the place before which they spiraled off into the depths of their orgasms, their souls merged. At once they could feel each other like they never had. She could fell what he was feeling as he thrust into her, the feeling of being so encompassed in warmth. He could feel what she felt, the feeling of being utterly whole and filled. This only lasted a moment before each was disconnected and collapsed in a heap of tangled limbs and sweat.

Panting heavily, Hiei pulled out of her and rolled off to the side, allowing her tiny frame to gather some oxygen. After several deep gasps of much needed oxygen, Kagome turned over to face Hiei. Lying on their sides, they stared into each other's eyes. If they hadn't just read it in the other's mind they could read it now in their eyes. They were in love, more than love. They completed each other, and with out having to say a thing, their eyes spoke volumes. Sighing contently, Kagome wrapped her arm over Hiei's side, pressing herself flush with his body, while her hand played lazily over his chest. Smiling down at her, Hiei propped her head up on his arm, twining his fingers in her tresses. With the other arm he held her close, his hand playing over the small of her back in circles. Breathing deeply of the other's scent, and with the quite evening breeze to lull them, they drifted off to sleep. For once their dreams weren't terrifying nightmares, and memories of the past, instead they were of each other. Twin smiles seen only by the night faded as sleep overtook them.

Hey, I've postponed writing the next chapter for at least a week because I have studying to do…damn insufferable big ass tests. Plus, I've decided to put off taking request for a new fanfiction, at least till my schedule chills out a little. Thanks for your input anyway, I'll keep them in mind.

~Blackheart