Yu Yu Hakusho Fan Fiction / InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Broken Angel ❯ My Sin ( Chapter 7 )

“My body's made of fire

Black, deep, and cold

Burning for the choice, I made

So many years ago”

Seraphs (Cruxshadows)

 

 

 

My Sin

 

 

 

“Talking”

 

`Thinking'

 

“Angels to Humans”

 

Stressed

 

 

 

She felt naked under his gaze, but it wasn't a sensual feeling. It was the feeling that left you feeling like you were young. She cast her eyes down to the city beneath her as she sighed. No one knew what she was about to confess, she was sure that `He' knew. `He' knew everything no matter how secretive you tried to be. She raised her eyes and met Miroku's intense gaze. Kagome could decipher the anger, the sorrow, and pity in those violet depths. She cursed him inside her head because he was showing her pity through his eyes.

 

“How could you?” Miroku softly asked.

 

Kagome couldn't understand how he could be so calm and sorrowful at the same time. It was probably because he was older then her by eight earth hours, which was about eight hundred years. Kagome sighed and tried to figure out the best way to tell him this. She didn't want to be the bad guy, and she couldn't understand why she felt ashamed. Her pride had crumpled when she saw Kikyo preparing to commit suicide.

 

“It was an accident,” Kagome softly said.

 

“Nothing is ever an accident,” Miroku harshly scolded as she winced.

 

“I didn't know my energy would transfer into her baby!” Kagome growled.

 

Ignorance was bliss, but nothing in her forsaken world could be considered bliss. Whatever peace she got was what she threw to the wind first. She didn't need peace in this hectic world.

 

“What you did was purely stupid,” Miroku commented as he turned his eyes away from her.

 

“I just wanted…I wanted to feel,” Kagome whispered.

 

“I don't know what to tell you,” Miroku helplessly said.

 

“I can't pray,” Kagome whispered.

 

“He'll listen,” Miroku offered.

 

“How do you do it?” Kagome questioned as Miroku raised an eyebrow.

 

“Do what?”

 

“How do you manage to stay so pure?” Kagome questioned.

 

“I am about as clean as about a lump of coal,” Miroku replied.

 

 

 

They all sat in the office wondering what was going on. The three youkai had arrived in Reikai first. Yusuke and Kuwabara showed up soon after. Koenma then had announced that he had information on Kikyo Higurashi. The small spirit ruler pulled out a file about as thick as a dictionary. Botan helped Koenma set the file on the desk with a gasp for air. He tried to compose himself and remained calm as Yusuke snickered.

 

“So what's up with the crazy Miko?” Yusuke questioned.

 

“First I want to know about Kagome before I tell you anything about Kagome,” Koenma firmly said.

 

“I saw nothing,” Yusuke commented as Kuwabara nodded in agreement.

 

“I arrived late,” Kurama supplied.

 

“Hn.”

 

“I talked with Kagome, but there was another angel there that took the Miko,” Kuronue supplied.

 

“Another Fallen?” Yusuke asked with a snort.

 

“His hair was silver and he had amber eyes,” Kuronue described.

 

“How many wings?” Botan questioned.

 

“Two,” Kuronue answered.

 

“This seems serious,” Koenma sighed.

 

“Who is this Kikyo?” Kurama questioned.

 

“Did Kagome say anything to you?” Koenma ignored Kurama and asked.

 

“She gave me a rhyme to figure out,” Kuronue offered. He didn't see this information getting them anywhere. “One, two, it's like me and you. Four and five it takes some time. Six and seven it's not allowed in heaven. Eight and nine it's something of mine. Now I'm at ten and will not let it happen again.”

 

“Can you tell us who Kikyo is?” Yusuke growled as his patience had vanished. Koenma sighed and pulled the pacifier from his mouth.

 

“Kikyo Higurashi is Kagome's daughter in a sense,” Koenma hesitantly said.

 

“What?” Kuwabara shouted as all their eyes widened.

 

“But they can't create life or take on a real form like us,” Kurama wisely said.

 

“Correct, but they can posse others,” Koenma countered.

 

“Is Kikyo a Fallen?” Yusuke questioned.

 

“Kikyo Higurashi is definitely human,” Koenma quickly interjected.

 

“Then how is she Kagome's daughter?” Hiei bit out.

 

“When a Fallen posses a human, the human and the Fallen become one so to say. While possessed, the human and Fallen share everything,” Koenma explained.

 

“How did she have a daughter?” Yusuke questioned as Kurama's eyes widened.

 

“Kagome took possession of a Miko. The Miko had become possessed because she had strayed from her path. When the Miko met a man they had gotten together,” Koenma whispered as he blushed.

 

“They had sex,” Yusuke bluntly said.

 

“Kagome had possessed the Miko and when the egg was fertilized some of Kagome's energy passed to the child,” Koenma explained as he blushed himself to a permanent shade of red. He hated talking about human reproduction.

 

“Then why does Kikyo have such strong spiritual powers?” Hiei questioned.

 

“I suppose that is related to Kagome since the human Miko didn't have such

powers,” Koenma supplied.

 

Kuronue listened to the information silently. He now understood what the riddle had meant. It still confused him that Kagome had a child so to say. Such things were forbidden; he wondered why she wasn't killed. He wondered why Kikyo had still been alive.

 

“Was Kikyo always crazy?” Kuronue softly asked.

 

“Sadly no, but her powers began to affect her mind. She was constantly in and out of hospitals for depression, injuring, and suicide attempts,” Koenma answered.

 

“The Fallen have her, what do we do?” Yusuke questioned.

 

“There's nothing we can do,” Koenma simply said as if he didn't care.

 

“Don't act like bastard!” Yusuke growled.

 

“I'm not, but there is nothing we can do,” Koenma angrily said as he clenched his eyes shut.

 

 

 

Inuyasha growled as he floated in the air. He sat Indian style with a look of frustration. The crazy woman had just kept muttering to herself. Inuyasha opened one amber eye once the woman had quieted down. He silently wondered if he had to feed her or water her every four hours. Maybe she was like a cactus and you didn't have to do anything. She took her index finger and began to trace different designs in the dirt. Inuyasha raised an eyebrow at the action.

 

“Why do you watch me?” Kikyo coldly question.

 

“I have no choice,” Inuyasha hissed after a moment's hesitation. He had not expected the Miko to talk so calmly.

 

“You are a monster,” Kikyo stated as if it was a fact.

 

“You know nothing,” Inuyasha growled.

 

“I am human and know that you are a monster,” Kikyo replied.

 

“Stop talking to me you lunatic,” Inuyasha insulted.

 

Kikyo remained silent until she said, “My silence is like your sanity…it is slowly slipping away.”

 

Inuyasha took form and noticed her eyes widened in fear. He cracked his knuckles and glared at her. Kikyo's gray eyes narrowed as his wings fluttered. A feather fell from his wing and his eyes widened in shock. It touched the ground and burst into flames. The feather's ashes joined the ground, as he remained shocked.

 

“What is going on?” Kagome softly asked as she appeared in the room.

 

Inuyasha scoffed and kicked the ashes. He turned to glare at Kagome before he simply vanished. She sighed and turned to face Kikyo.

 

“I see my reflection when there is no mirror,” Kikyo softly said.

 

“We merely share some features, we are not reflections,” Kagome coldly said.

 

“What will you do with me?” Kikyo questioned.

 

“I'm giving you two options since you wouldn't like Naraku's ways of negotiation,” Kagome simply said as she smirked.

 

“What?” Kikyo questioned.

 

“You may enter through the gates…I assume you know what they are,” Kagome spoke with a neutral look.

 

“I know about the gates because the shadows told me,” Kikyo assured.

 

“Or you can stay with someone who owes me a favor,” Kagome offered.

 

“What about my family?” Kikyo asked.

 

“You are dead to them now,” Kagome simply said.

 

“What did you do?” Kikyo growled.

 

“You will stay with the youkai that owes me a favor,” Kagome decided.

 

“I will purify him!” Kikyo threatened.

 

Kagome laughed as she walked over to Kikyo. She grabbed her hands and squeezed them tight. Kikyo whimpered in pain and Kagome pulled her to her feet.

 

“You powers are no longer those of a Miko. The power you hold is volatile; this is why I send you to Makai. I could care less if you killed yourself there and destroyed Makai, but this world is important to me,” Kagome growled.

 

“Who is this youkai?” Kikyo questioned as she rubbed her hands in an attempt to soothe the pain out.

 

“His name is Hiten,” Kagome answered.

 

“What about that other Fallen one?” Kikyo questioned.

 

“He is not my concern,” Kagome coldly responded.

 

 

 

The moment the knock sounded on the door he jumped. Everyday he waited for death to come and take him. It had taken his brother and spared him. Each night he closed his eyes and had nightmares with blue eyes that haunted his mind. He would wake up and take a few pills to ease himself. It wasn't the existence he imagined; but it was the only existence he had. He sometimes wished that he was brave to just end his life, but no, he was a coward. A constant desire to die stirred within his soul as he heard the knock again. This time the knock was a bit a harsher. He could hear the malice in the knock.

 

The cold razor blade felt comforting in his hand. He inhaled the air and let his crimson eyes gaze at the blade. This time he would do it and end it all. She would then lose her hold over him. He pressed the blade to his wrist and his pupils dilated at the sudden rush of fear and excitement. His black bangs covered his eyes as he prepared to the horizontal slash. A transparent hand covered his own and pulled the blade from his wrist. He looked up in partial fear and gazed into those taunting blue eyes. Hate surfaced and he loathed those blue orbs.

 

“If you kill yourself…I will have your soul all to myself,” Kagome purred as she took the blade and drew it down his cheek. It enough for him to feel the pressure and the threat, but it did no harm.

 

“What do you want?” He questioned, his voice was broken and defeated.

 

“You know that you were going to commit suicide wrong,” Kagome teased in a knowing voice.

 

“Shut up,” he hissed.

 

“I'm hurt!” Kagome dramatically sighed as she chuckled. “I was only giving you friendly advice.”

 

His crimson eyes watched as she made the gesture to commit suicide the right way. She taunted him in every way possible.

 

“Do you like to drain me of my life?” He almost sobbed.

 

Kagome frowned and moved to him. She placed her hands on both sides of his face and raised his face to meet her gaze. A cruel smile passed her face as the gesture of comfort grew tense. He feared everything about her.

 

“Remember Hiten…you are the one who let me in,” Kagome cruelly reminded as she laughed at him.

 

“I only wanted to avenge my brother's death,” Hiten whispered as he tore his face from her invisible grip.

 

“Your brother was an idiot. He should have never have tried to rob the Suzuki family,” Kagome spat. Manten was the reason why Shippo was parentless; she was also the reason. It was easier to blame Manten and torture Hiten for her crime.

 

“I will be free of you,” Hiten promised. Kagome sighed and trailed her finger along his cheek as he winced.

 

“Never, you played a game with me and lost,” Kagome reminisced.

 

“What do want me to do this time?” Hiten questioned.

 

“I want you to watch Kikyo Higurashi. She is to be under your care and watch. If she dies then all of Makai will be destroyed,” Kagome sang.

 

“What is she?” Hiten questioned.

 

“A suicidal Miko,” Kagome answered as the girl entered the house.

 

“Joy,” Hiten dryly mumbled.

 

“Who knows…you might learn how to kill yourself properly from her,” Kagome mocked as he glared at her.

 

“Youkai,” Kikyo coldly acknowledged.

 

“If she dies then you will die along with thousands of innocents in this realm,” Kagome warned.

 

Hiten glared at her and raised his hand to strike her transparent form. She laughed at his attempt. It was in vain and then her eyes widened. A pearly feather fell from her wing and hit the ground. It became solid and then erupted into flames. Kagome watched as it turned to ash and scattered across the floor.

 

“Lose something,” Hiten calmly asked with a smirk.

 

“Watch her or else,” Kagome warned she vanished from the area.

 

 

 

Author's Note: