Yu Yu Hakusho Fan Fiction / InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Circumstances ❯ The fickle heart ( Chapter 7 )

Disclaimer: I do not own Inuyasha or Yu yu hakusho

 

Authors note: For anyone who has read my other fan fic “fallen”- it is going to be discontinued like I said in several places. If anyone would like to take over, please e-mail me. I have only gotten one offer so far, so e-mail me quick if ya want the story!

 

Circumstances- I have a feeling this story is going to end very soon. I hope to get to at least 10 chapters, and at this point, I might. Must warn you, sucky battle scenes in next few chapters and off topic stuff might occur. Just a fair warning.

 

 

Ch.7

 

Kagome swung her backpack to and fro absentmindedly. Today was the day to go back to the feudal era, and she was anxious to see Hiei. She had grown accustom to having him jumping in trees besides her as she walked, keeping her company when she was by herself. Reaching into her shirt, she pulled out a necklace with the stone attached to it.

 

It was on a silver chain and had a silver dragon seemingly biting the stone. She fingered it as she walked up the steps. Inside her mind, she ran through a check list of what to bring back: she had enough ramen to last them a while, her school books that she needed were all with her, and she had her backpack full of medical stuff ready for her at the door.

 

As soon as she reached the shrine grounds, she felt Hiei's youki. Smiling to herself, she walked towards her house. “Hello!” she greeted as she passed by the Goshinboku. All she got was his normal response. “Hn.”

 

Kagome quickly ran inside and gathered her stuff before jogging back out, with her heavy yellow backpack on her shoulder. “Shall we go?”

 

In a few seconds Hiei gracefully jumped from the tree and down to the ground next to kagome. He shoved his hands in his pockets and had a look of indifference on his face.

 

They both walked into the well house side by side in silence, secretly enjoying each other's company that was missed. Once again, they jumped into the enchanted well hand in hand, and Hiei easily carried her out once they were in the feudal era.

 

As soon as Hiei set Kagome down on the ground, Kagome felt something tug at her senses. Something was calling to her. Dropping her pack by the side of the well, she walked into the forest with a dazed look. Hiei watched her curiously while bordering on worrying.

 

He silently followed her as she walked in a trance. They reached a small clearing where they found a pile of clothes. Looking closer, Hiei found they were miko garbs. A blue orb was floating above the pile of clothes, and as Kagome walked closer, it suddenly flung itself into her body.

 

Kagome gasped as the soul entered her body. Placing her hand over her chest, she tried to slow down her beating heart. That was the rest of her soul. She now felt so… complete. But that meant only one thing: Kikyo was dead [well, then again she wasn't really living…]

 

Looking to her side, she found the miko garbs. Reaching down, she sadly folded them neatly. `You finally get to rest…Kikyo'

 

“I smell the hanyou.”

 

Kagome looked towards Hiei, who was leaning against a tree behind her. Her heartbeat started to quicken. `That… that means Inuyasha chose me over Kikyo! But, will he be okay?'

 

Hugging the bundle of clothes to her chest, she ran straight for the village, currently forgetting about Hiei [KM: poor Hiei…]. Over and over in her mind, she kept repeating the same thing, `Inuyasha chose me!'

 

Her crush for so long had finally made his decision! She clutched the necklace underneath her school uniform. But what about Hiei? A few days ago she had been sprouting all this talk about how she might have feelings for him too.

 

She sighed as she ran across the bridge that led from the forest to the village. In a way, Inuyasha and Hiei were the same. Both had a tough, bad boy exterior attitude going on, but on the inside, they had caring hearts. They just expressed their kindness in different ways. For inuyasha it was lecturing her about being weak when she gets hurt in a battle, even though he was really worried. For Hiei, it's doing nice little things (carrying her out of the well, giving her the stone, not ignoring her as much as he would to the others…)

 

As she reached Kaede's village, she ran into the hut in a huff, startling all the people in it. Sango and Shippo looked up at her in surprise. “Is everything alright Kagome? It looks like you've been running awfully fast.” Sango asked, a little worried.

 

“Where's Inuyasha?”

 

Sango sighed. `That's right, he told me he killed Kikyo a few days ago…' And for the first time she noticed the clothes in Kagome's hands. “Kikyo's?” she asked as she nodded towards the clothes.

 

Kagome nodded and set them down. “How is he?” she asked quietly as she sat down next to Shippo.

 

Both Shippo and Sango frowned. “He hasn't been around here for a couple of days. A couple of nights he has visited, but never stays for long.”

 

Sighing, Kagome thought about her dog-eared friend. `I've got to find him…' With a new set of determination, she clenched her hand and stood up. “I'm going to go look for him.”

 

Sango watched as Kagome drifted away from the hut. `Only she could mend his heart. Not even I was comfort enough for him.' Sighing, she pet Kirara's fur as she tried to calm her nerves.

---

 

On the outskirts of Kaede's village, there was a lone bare tree that lay off the path. It was Inuyasha's favorite tree, and he always seemed to go there to think. And since that was Kagome's only lead, she took the initiative and went there.

 

She sighed out of relief when she saw the vermilion hatori that stood out against the dark bark of the tree. Grabbing her courage, she quietly walked up to the tree and leaned her back against it.

 

Inuyasha knew she was there, he smelt her as soon as she came out of the well. `With that short youkai…' He had to suppress the urge to growl in jealousy. `But it doesn't matter, I have Sango now…'

 

Even though he was in love with the youkai exterminator, he has still felt bad killing his first love. The situation had been getting bad, with the betrayal of when she stole Kagome's jewel shards and helped Naraku, he knew enough was enough. He had to put an end to it before Naraku could end up controlling her and using her against him.

 

When he followed her scent, he found her in the same place they had met before when Kagome had caught them together. Kikyo seemingly knew what he was going to do, and nodded slightly. Though no emotions ran though her eyes, he heard her whisper a quiet `thank you' as he sent her to the afterlife once again. Souls lifted to the sky in a pretty show of bright lights, and he watched them silently float away.

 

He felt guilty when he killed her. It was almost like he killed her again, even though it was naraku disguised as him the first time.

 

Though he acted a bit simple-minded most of the time, he actually had a brain. Inuyasha knew that as soon as Kagome came back to the feudal era and retrieved the rest of her soul, she would think he had made his decision. But it wasn't her fault for thinking that way, it was his. He was the one who led her on and gave her hopes of a future relationship with him.

 

It wasn't right playing with her heart all those times, sneaking out at night to visit his dead former lover even when he knew about Kagome's feelings for him. But now, he was with her best friend, which made things even worse. He didn't know how the relationship between them started, it just… did.

 

Inuyasha couldn't deny it, he did have feelings for Kagome, but he had chosen Sango. After he realized he had fallen for Kagome, he knew their relationship would never work out. She was from a different time period; they could never be together. But Sango was always there, and a great warrior at that. She wasn't a replacement for Kikyo or Kagome either. He loved her and soon, he will let everyone know just that.

 

“Inuyasha?”

 

Her soft voice reached his ears, and they twitched. He didn't move his body but turned his head to look down at her.

 

She was looking at the sky, watching the clouds slowly drift by. “Are you okay?”

 

“Keh, yeah.”

 

“… What will happen now?”

 

“We'll keep continuing searching for the jewel shards.”

 

Kagome looked up at him incredulously. He couldn't be that dense right? She shook her head and tried again. “I mean between us…”

 

For a while, a heave silence filled the air. She shuffled her feet uncomfortably in the dirt. Minutes past, and after what seemed like forever, he answered. “Nothing.”

 

Her face twisted into a hurt expression. Was he rejecting her? “What do you mean?” she asked, her heart heavy. She dreaded the answer that would soon come crashing down on her.

 

“I mean… there is nothing was between us. At first, all I saw was Kikyo in you, but then my feelings changed. Now, I just see you as a little sister. I'm sorry, but you shouldn't expect anything more out of me. Not a lover, just a friend.”

 

Hot tears trailed down her face as she chocked back a sob. Of course, if he rejected Kikyo, why not her reincarnation? She closed her eyes to stop the tears from rolling down her face, but they continued to flow like a river. “I see…” she managed to bite out.

 

After all she had done for him, all the promises they made to each other, he turns her down. Wiping her eyes, she quickly ran into the forest, running away from the one person who broke her heart.

 

Inuyasha frowned. He had smelt her tears. He had at least expected her to `sit' him. He felt bad turning her down, but she needed to move on. Though guilt still panged him in the chest. How was he going to tell her about his relationship with Sango? Sighing, he continued to watch the sky and think.

 

Ruby eyes peered from the shadows of the trees. He had seen the whole thing, and basically expected it. At least the hanyou had broken off their relationship before letting things get too far out of hand. Kagome didn't deserve to be cheated on. But he wondered why, of all times now, the hanyou decided to kill the dead miko. Perhaps the exterminator helped him with the decision? Or did he finally mature and end things that should have been all in the past?

 

That didn't matter now. What was important was the miko with a broken heart, who was currently running though the forest vulnerable. Without making a sound, he was gone.

---

 

Kagome had never expected to be rejected from Inuyasha. Knowing that he had killed his own lover himself was proof enough for her, that he had chosen who he wanted to be with. Maybe he was with someone else? No, impossible, besides the times he left to be with Kikyo, he was always with their group.

 

`Maybe I just wasn't good enough…' she thought sadly as her running turned into a walk. The tears had long ago dried, but her heart still ached. She had no idea where she was going, and frankly, she didn't care.

 

As she kept walking, she suddenly walked out into an open space where the forest ended. There was a cliff just a few feet ahead of her, and looked like the perfect place to sit and think.

 

When she was sure it was stable enough to hold her weight, she sat down and dangled her legs over the cliff end. Staring down, she saw a small village and more forest. Here and there, she spotted bodies of water.

 

To keep alert, she changed into her animal form. Her nose twitched as the scent of flowers quickly flooded her senses. Inhaling deeply, the tension left her body. Nothing smelled better than flowers. `Except for hiei' She gasped as soon as that thought entered her mind.

 

Groaning, she wrapped her arms around her knees and rested her forehead on them. “No more boys, they're too much trouble.”

 

Hiei decided to appear at that time. Kagome had run further then he had expected, and the amount of distance she had covered in the short amount of time impressed him. She had grown stronger than when he had first met her.

 

As he stood behind her, he watched her ears swivel towards his direction. She slowly turned her head around to show her slightly puffy red eyes. `At least she stopped crying' Hiei thought. Inwardly, he was relieved. He had no idea how to comfort someone, much less a girl crying. He hesitantly walked over to her and put a comforting hand on her shoulder. “It'll be okay.”

 

Kagome looked at him with surprised eyes. She didn't expect him when she saw him behind her, and when he put his hand on her shoulder in a comforting way, that made her even more surprised. To tell the truth, Hiei was the last person she thought she would get comfort from.

 

But she was happy none the less. At least he was showing that he did have emotions, even if he didn't like to broadcast them. She could fell the awkwardness in his touch.

 

“Thanks.” He had probably seen everything. After all, she had suddenly run off on him. Frowning she looked at Hiei. She had ditched him and here he was trying to make her feel better.

 

Maybe she had totally misjudged him. Kagome patted the ground next to her, signaling him to sit down next to her.

 

Removing his hand, he quietly sat next to her. They both just silently watched the sun set. Bright colors of red, orange, and yellow filtered through the sky, slowly taking over the blue. All in all, it was breathtaking.

 

“Beautiful isn't it?”

 

Hiei looked at Kagome from the corner of his eye. She was smiling, but sadness took over her features.

 

“Nn.” He said with a slight nod.

 

She turned to look at him. “I half expected you to say `hn.'”

 

“Hn.”

 

Giggling softly, she turned back towards the setting sun. “Have you ever been in love?”

 

He stared at her for a second before scoffing. He was a forbidden child. `Love' was not a word that was used much in his vocabulary. “I do not believe in such foolish ningen emotions.” That wasn't totally true. He loved Yukina, after all, she was his only family. And in a way, he loved his team, not that he would ever admit it to him. He would rather have his dragon of the darkness flame eat him!

 

Tearing her eyes away from the beautiful scenery, she frowned at him. “Don't say that, emotions are useful.”

 

“Look where they got you.”

 

Closing her eyes, Kagome smiled sadly. “Yes, that's true, my heart has been broken, but that doesn't mean my spirit hasn't. Things will heal over. It's better to have loved, then to not have experience love at all.” She reflected on all the sweet memories of Inuyasha. In time, she would be over him.

 

For once, her head finally felt cleared. “Don't worry, you'll understand what I'm talking about once you find the right girl.” She said with a wink. “Take chances and give someone a try, who knows, they may be the right one for you.”

 

Hiei considered her words for a few minutes. `Take chances…' “…Kagome, I… like you.”

 

He never looked at her; afraid of the look he would get when she rejected him. After all, his heritage firmly told him that he was never supposed to be loved. Hearing no answer, he turned his head, and saw Kagome had fallen with her head resting on her knees.

 

Exhaling a lot of air, he started chuckling. She had fallen asleep on his declaration of love for her. How ironic. Dusting the dirt of his pants, he bent down and easily picked her up bridal style. With a hand, he brushed a few stray hairs out of her face. He let it linger there longer than necessary, as he lightly caressed her face.

 

Withdrawing his hand, he `hned' just for good measure before he headed towards the village.

---

 

Sango fussed over her friend, when she saw her in Hiei's arms, but calmed down when she saw she was only sleeping.

 

Of course Inuyasha had not come back yet, not that anyone had expected him to. Now that he had gotten over Kikyo's death, he had to recover a while from breaking Kagome's heart.

 

Pushing the straw covering out of the way, Hiei laid Kagome down and covered her with a blanket. It was now dark and the temperature had cooled. Sitting down next to her, he stared intently at her face.

 

If he told her his feelings, would she accept him? But she had just broken up with the hanyou, so maybe she needed more time. Or maybe he could be the one to help her recover over her loss. Hiei sighed inwardly. He wasn't good at romancing an onna like the fox could. Hell, he never even tried to romance anyone. But like he decided at Genkai's, Kagome was special.

 

His eyebrows furrowed for a second before his face went back to his unreadable mask. Would he really confront her with his feelings? After all, he was famous for showing no feelings at all. Risking humiliation once was enough for him, and she just had to miss it. `I suppose I could try again, just this once.'

 

Voices flooded into the room, and he recognized one to be the monk's. At that moment, Kagome moved a bit as her eyes slowly opened. “Hiei…?” she mumbled still half asleep.

 

“Hn.”

 

Smiling, she sluggishly sat up and rubbed her eyes. “Did I fall asleep?”

 

He nodded. Getting up from his position on the floor, he held out a hand. Kagome took it, and together they walked to the main part of the hut.

 

Miroku was there smiling like an idiot. When he saw kagome, his smile shined even brighter. “Oh! Kagome! It's wonderful! Mei's pregnant!”

 

Kagome squealed and crushed Miroku into a hug. Then it dawned at her and she pulled away raising a suspicious eyebrow at him. “You've already done it with her and you're not even married yet?!”

 

The monk scratched his head uncomfortably with a small blush across his face. Every occupant in the room (except for Hiei, who could care less) gave him a disapproving look.

 

“Keh, you hentai monk. You're bound to get yourself into a lot of trouble.”

 

Everyone turned to see the infamous inu hanyou with his back against the wall, his eyes closed. Sango breathed out a sigh of relief. He had finally gotten over his guilt.

 

“Where have you been? You made all of us worry!” Shippo lectured, shaking a paw at Inuyasha.

 

In a flash, Shippo's head was between Inuyasha's fists. “What's it to you runt?!”

 

Ignoring everyone (Shippo and Inuyasha had started to fight), Hiei just concentrated on Kagome. He watched as she sadly watched Inuyasha, but quickly replaced it with a fake cheery face. `Hn. The hanyou must have been really important to her.'

 

While all the fighting was going on, she turned towards him and their eyes locked. “I think I left my bag by the well. I'm going to go get it okay?”

 

Before he could even answer, she quietly slipped around the group and ventured out into the dark. Hiei took one glance at the group before shaking his head and racing after her.

 

When Inuyasha had finally gotten Shippo off his face, he looked around. `Where did Kagome and shorty go?' “Oi. Where's the wench?”

 

Everyone stopped talking and looked around. Inuyasha was right kagome was missing.

 

Miroku coughed gaining the attention of the others. “I believe the other youkai, Hiei, is also gone.”

 

“Where could they have gone?” questioned Sango silently, though everyone wondered the same thing.

 

“Hmp. I wouldn't worry about the girl. He could take care of her.”

 

Shippo growled and pounced on Inuyasha again. “How could you be so mean to Kagome?!”

 

“RRRRRR! Get off you runt!” And the immature ones once again started a fight.

---

 

Huffing, Kagome made her way towards the well. Her bright yellow backpack made it easy to spot it in the dark. After seeing her backpack, she sat down next to it, her head resting on the well.

 

Even though she had come to terms with the way Inuyasha felt, it still hurt seeing him. Memories came back, along with the heartbreak. Tears started running down her face. Propping her legs up, she covered her arms over her knees and started crying.

 

Suddenly, she gasped and looked around frantically. She felt a huge amount of jewel shards, along with an evil youkai aura. Concentrating, she pinpointed the source of the shards coming from straight in front of her.

 

“My poor little miko.” A deep said in fake pity. “Why are you crying? Did the inu hanyou break your heart?”

 

Kagome's eyes narrowed. “Naraku!” she spat out. Standing out, she reached for her arrows. Her eyes widened when she realized she forgot to bring any. `Kuso! I was being too careless!'

 

She felt a gush of wind, and in a matter of seconds, large hands were wrapped around her. One on her stomach, the other cupping her chin, forcing her to look at the one person she despised.

 

Her miko powers flared, trying to break his hold. His hand restricted tighter around her, crushing her to him. “Now now, don't be in such a hurry to leave. I know what you've been through. I watched as the hanyou threw away your love.”

 

Kagome screwed her eyes shut and tried to block out the spider hanyou as best as she could. She didn't need to hear his nonsense.

 

“But…” he continued. “I came across something very interesting a few days ago.” He gently ran a finger over her smooth cheek. “Our dear old friend Inuyasha, wasn't embracing Kikyo, but someone else.”

 

Her eyes flew open. `There was someone else?! No… Naraku must be lying.' “Like I would ever believe you!” she spat out angrily. She wouldn't give him the upper hand by letting him control her emotions.

 

“Oh? But I can show you…”

 

Just as he was about to summon Kanna and her mirror, a black blur cut his arms off, thus releasing Naraku's hold on Kagome. As soon as she was free, she stood behind her savior.

 

Hiei was not happy. He had come across this filthy half-breed to be touching what was soon to be his (yes… protective instincts were kicking in…too OOC?). He glared at Naraku, that could have burned him to hell if he wanted to. But he wasn't going to give him such an easy death; he was going to make it torturous and painful.

 

With a whoosh of air, he was gone and had already striked Naraku 15 times. The spider had no time to react, and with a scowl on his face, he called his insects (someone care to tell me what they're called?) carried what was left of his sliced up body away.

 

He glared at the one who cut his time short with the beautiful miko. The short youkai would pay. As his eyes traveled to Kagome, he smirked evilly. “Always remember, that your companions may not be as truthful and honest as they seem.” Cackling, he disappeared into the sky, the clouds helping him with his escape.

 

Kagome stared at the sky with a confused look. `What was he talking about?' She clutched the jewel shards to her chest. `And why hadn't he taken the shards?'

 

A determined look came over her features. “Next time he comes, I'll be ready.”

---

 

Naraku started laughing while flying through the sky. `I have already planted a seed of doubt into her mind. All I need to do is give her the proof of the inu hanyou's relationship with the exterminator. Then, she will be mine to control.'

 

If Kikyo couldn't be his, then her reincarnation will be.

 

 

 

 

 

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