Yu Yu Hakusho Fan Fiction / InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ First Love ❯ Chapter 20

I want to live, grasping tightly your little hand towards your place
I want to cry, that was, that was a beautiful sky
I tried softly reciting a wish upon a shooting star
I want to cry, you won't reach my feelings in this sky...

 

First Love

 

Chapter Twenty

 

Youko gazed down at Kagome's sleeping face with a slight frown as he remembered the previous nights occurrence.

 

There was no doubt in his mind that it had been more pleasurable for him than for her. He brushed a strand of hair out of Kagome's face. He had been with many different kinds of demon woman but he had never been with a virgin human before. It was a first and sloppy experience for both of them but Youko was determined to make the second time much more pleasurable for her. He had been too greedy their first time and felt disgusted at himself for it.

 

It seemed that the only beautiful thing about their lovemaking was the fact that she was now his and he smiled down at her at that.

 

Mine.

 

He felt her shift against him and her breathing quicken. She would wake up in a matter of moments at her own pace; he didn't want to rush her.

 

Kagome turned over and snuggled into the warmth that radiated beside her, she started to move her leg but regretted it when she felt a jab of pain. Opening her eyes she came face to face with Youko.

 

“Good morning.”

 

Her eyes widened as she realized what had happened a few hours ago. She blushed madly at the thought.

 

“Are you alright?” asked Youko, placing a clawed hand on Kagome's bare hip under the fur covers. He had not missed her wince but it didn't take a genius to figure out why.

 

Kagome's eyes looked down at her hand that was placed beside her head. “I'm in a little bit of pain…” she blushed again when she felt his hand rub her hip before making its way to her back and into her hair.

 

Their eyes met. “Forgive me, last night was not pleasurable for you,” his hand brushed through her hair. “It was rushed and I apologize. Next time I will take my time.”

 

Kagome smiled nervously.

 

He just apologized, something she had never heard him do before. It amazed her how far their relationship had actually gotten from the first time they met. She could have only dreamed of this before but now… now it was a reality.

 

And he was also talking about a `next time'? Hopefully he wasn't thinking about doing anything with her today or maybe even all week. She was still sore and wasn't exactly in the mood to do anything but sleep.

 

Youko pulled her closer. There was something about this woman in his arms that made him want to be as close to her as possible. Was it her scent? The way she smiled sheepishly at him? Her blush? He didn't know why but there was one thing for sure.

 

He didn't mind it and he wanted more.

 

“Should we go and bathe?” he asked as he took her hand in his and kissed her palm, never taking his eyes off of her.

 

She smiled softly. “Yes, that would be nice.”

 

He grinned and released her to rise from the bed and stood stark naked in front of Kagome who let out a small scream before disappearing under the blanket. She couldn't believe she had actually forgotten that he was naked for a moment.

 

“What are you doing Kagome?” she heard him ask right by her ear. She hadn't even heard him move.

 

“Umm…”

 

She could feel him tug at her only cover and grabbed onto it desperately before uncovering her head to look at him.

 

He was looking at her with a raised eyebrow as he bent over her, waiting for an answer. “Well?”

 

Her eyes went from his face to his bare chest and back up. She didn't want to look any lower. “It's just…umm…”

 

She then mumbled something to herself but thanks to Youko's sensitive hearing, her `whisper' was just the same as if she talked loudly.

 

“I've already seen you naked,” he stated plainly, causing Kagome to laugh nervously.

 

How did he hear me?

 

“So?” she questioned and Youko rolled his eyes as he straightened.

 

“You can keep yourself covered if you wish until we get down to the spring.”

 

Kagome sat up and held the blanket to her chest and smiled up at him, making sure to only look at his face. “Thank you.”

 

He extended a hand to her and after making sure the blanket was securely around her, Kagome placed her hand in his and let him help her stand.

 

The walk down to the spring was very awkward for Kagome since she was trying with all her might not to look down too far and see or touch any parts of Youko she wasn't sure she was ready for.

 

When they finally reached the bottom, Youko did not wait for her but instead entered the water before turning to look back at Kagome with a fanged grin.

 

Kagome's mouth opened slightly, realization dawning on her. That pervert!

 

“Come here.”

 

His command was not rough but amused and Kagome frowned as he looked up and down her body.

 

She sighed. “Fine.”

 

And with that, Kagome walked over to the spring and into the water, still covered in the fur from Youko's bed and it remained on until her body was totally submerged under water.

 

After walking over to the edge and placing the now soaked blanket on the side, Kagome turned to look at Youko and saw his ears flat against his head, looking at her with furrowed eyebrows.

 

She smiled at his expression. He did look rather cute like that.

 

“What?” she asked innocently before she dunked underwater for a moment to get her hair wet. The warmth of the water did help with the slight pain she felt and relaxed her muscles. She had always known it would hurt for the first time, she had heard it from girls her age or younger. It was common but Kagome couldn't help but wonder how women younger than her could actually face the pain, no matter how insignificant it was compared to a stab wound or something. Wouldn't they be scared, even just a little?

 

When she resurfaced, she came face to face with Youko. His eyes were gleaming with something she did not recognize.

 

“You don't need to hide your body from me,” his arms snaked around her back and pulled her close, “I don't mind looking at it.”

 

What Kagome had tried to avoid while walking down to the spring before, she could now feel full on. Bare skin to bare skin, there was nothing between them.

 

Youko bent his head and nipped at her ear, “I don't mind it at all.” His tail came around and wrapped around her thigh and raised it slightly so his leg could go between hers as he dragged them to the edge of the spring.

 

When Kagome felt the cold stone touch her back she bit her lip at the slight sting of pain that came from both hitting the wall a little too roughly and the way Youko placed her let around his hip so she could feel…it.

 

She would not dare to look down but she knew it was there and ready for anything.

 

He brought his lips down to hers and ran his tongue along her bottom lip and when he was granted access, he deepened the kiss. He pressed himself against her, trying to get as close as possible, there was just something about this woman that made him go insane. Just touching her was intoxicating and he couldn't get enough.

 

His lips left Kagome's and kissed a line from her mouth down her neck. He heard her moan softly and he felt himself shiver.

 

“Youko-”

 

He stopped his pursuit abruptly, slowly taking his lips from her neck and resting his forehead on her shoulder. He had gotten carried away and hadn't even thought of her. Raising his head, his eyes met her startled ones and he grinned slightly. “There's no harm in touching is there? As long as there is no intercourse.”

 

Kagome blushed and Youko pulled away from her. Even though they were already in a hot spring, having him so close had made her even warmer and when his body released hers, the skin that was exposed to the air had goose bumps.

 

“Come,” he said, reaching for a bowl that rested on the side of the spring. He raised his muscular arm and let his long fingers dip into the bowl and scooped some liquid from it.

 

Kagome followed him and waited before he turned and addressed her.

 

“Turn around.”

 

She did as she was told and after a moment, she felt the cold liquid on her head and shivered as Youko began to work it into her hair.

 

Kagome repeated the same process with Youko and when they were both bubbly they dipped their heads under the water and rinsed their hair.

 

Kagome giggled at Youko's `wet dog' look after he resurfaced. He glared at her slightly before running a hand through his hair. “I think I've had enough of this bath.”

 

Kagome nodded. “Yea, I'm starting to turn into a prune,” she said, looking down at her hands with a slight frown.

 

Youko was the first of the two to make his way to the shallow part of the spring and out onto the rock floor. Kagome quickly turned around once she saw him rising and did not turn to look at him until he called her name.

 

He was holding a robe out for her while he was only clad in his pants as he gestured for her to come out. She did, although slightly embarrassed and when her body started to become revealed she covered herself and ran into the robe and rushed to get it around herself. After she tied it tightly, she turned and saw Youko looking at her incredulously again.

 

She smiled shyly, “Well I guess its time to go back up!” and with that, she took the steps two by two up the stairs, not bothering to wait for her companion. She had to admit though that the bath had immensely helped to ease the pain in her body.

 

She sat down on the bed and waited for Youko to come up, letting her legs hang off the edge of the bed somewhat. She smelt rather refreshing as she inhaled slightly. She still couldn't believe Youko had actually bathed her basically.

 

She let her head fall back slightly to look up at the ceiling. These kinds of situations had her still feeling a little sensitive because they were so new. Everything was fresh for her, nothing was routine now and she knew she would have to get used to it but she wanted to take it all in slowly.

 

An image of Hojo passed through her mind and she wondered how he was doing. She wondered if he was still doing well with medicines and such. Maybe he had even found a new girlfriend or wife? She had been gone for a long time now; she hadn't seen him in months.

 

She knew she missed him as a friend but that was all. If she were to go back, she only hoped that Hojo had moved on and that she was as far away from his mind as possible.

 

Moment out of the left corner of the room caught her eye. It was Youko with the fur comforter in hand. He glanced at her before he threw it down onto the bed and then let himself lay down next to her sitting form.

 

His hair was splayed out beneath him while his arms were stretched outward from his body behind Kagome. She felt a light tapping on her leg and looked down. It was his tail.

 

Smiling, Kagome gently placed it on her lap and began to pet it as if it were really alive. The feeling of his tail was extremely soft, even more so than the furs they slept under, and it tapped her lightly in satisfaction.

 

Just as Youko pushed himself up there was a knock on the door. Kagome's eyebrows rose while Youko looked at the door angrily.

 

“What is it?” asked her companion.

 

“Can I come in?” It was Kuronue.

 

Youko stood at this point and retrieved a shirt and after placing it on, he walked over to the door. Opening it slightly so that only Kuronue could see Youko's face he asked, “What do you want?”

 

The fox was a little irritated and refused to let Kuronue see even a glimpse of Kagome. He smiled. “I need to talk to you, it's important. I'll meet you downstairs.”

 

Youko nodded and shut the door, turning back to Kagome. Why did Kuronue always have to ruin things? He didn't want to leave, he would always choose to stay near her instead of going to talk with his long time friend. But, it had to be done.

 

He eyed the girl a few feet away from him. She stared back at him with a slight grin on her face in understanding. “Kuronue and I need to discuss things, I will be back shortly.” And with that, he disappeared behind the door.

 

Silence engulfed Kagome and she looked down at her hands and sighed. Why had Kuronue chosen right now, at this very moment to talk with Youko?

 

It didn't matter now though, Youko had gone and now she was left to herself. So, deciding not to wallow in disappointment, Kagome stood and went over to retrieve a yukata.

 

It was a pretty yukata, one of Kagome's favorites since it was blue and was covered in light blue and golden flowers, which tied around her with a golden obi.

 

After making sure it was tightly around her, Kagome tied her hair up into a ponytail and went over to the few steps that lead out to the outside area only to be assaulted by the cold breeze that swept through the forest.

 

It seemed that the temperature had dropped once again. Winter was coming and Kagome idly wondered how things would change from here on out because of the new relationship she held with Youko. She still couldn't believe what they had done exactly. It was so...surreal.

 

And what the heck would her mother think? Did she even know about demons? What would she say?

 

She slowly walked over the large branch that acted as the protection between the end of the floor and the long drop. Resting her hands against the thick branch, she leaned slightly to look out over the other trees to observe.

 

Did she…did she know about Akihiro's death and what caused it?

 

Kagome rubbed her face with her hands. Would her mother hate her for not preventing his death? Would she hate her for loving Youko and not Akihiro?

 

No…right?

 

“There wasn't anything I could do…”she whispered to herself, “why does this still haunt me?” She released a shaky breath before letting her hands fall to her sides to lean against another thick branch.

 

The birds were chirping all around Kagome it seemed. She tried to find them above her but it was no use. It seemed that Youko had manipulated the branches to be a roof and Kagome smiled.

 

She didn't know how long she had been standing out there but when she felt something warm wrap around her along with a pair of strong arms the time didn't seem to matter. It still amazed her how quiet he could be.

 

“Isn't it too cold for you to be out here?” she heard him ask from behind her.

 

Kagome turned around in his arms to face him. “It's not so bad, but thank you for the blanket,” she replied smiling. Tentatively, she brought her hands up to wrap around him while resting her head against his shoulder. “Why did Kuronue want to talk with you?”

 

He didn't reply as quickly as Kagome thought he would but he did nonetheless. “There are rumors of another rare treasure that Kuronue has brought to my attention. I will be leaving soon to get it.”

 

Kagome lifted her head to look at him, eyes slightly widen before she looked down. “Oh…”

 

Youko's eyes never left Kagome's face even when she looked away from him. “Are you still in pain?” he asked.

 

Kagome blushed. “A little…” Why did he have to ask her about it? If he was trying to get her to stop thinking about him leaving her, he had a weird way of doing it. She turned so that her back now rested against his chest.

 

She felt his hand squeeze her hip. “Don't worry, it will feel much better the next time.”

 

Kagome's eyes widened.

 

“`Next time?'” she whispered to herself. Oh that infamous `next time'. It still gave her goose bumps.

 

“Did you really think we would only do it once in our life?” he asked her seriously.

 

Kagome's eyes stayed glued to the floor, butterflies seemingly sprouted in her stomach in a mad rush.

 

Our life.

 

She couldn't believe it. Youko had included her in his life whether he realized it or not.

 

“I-I didn't know,” she finally managed to stammer.

 

She felt his hands come up to rub her stomach, sending an electric shock through her body. He rested his chin on her shoulder. “You don't need to be embarrassed. Aren't you at the age…?”

 

She nodded dumbly.

 

Youko smiled into her hair. “Why don't we sit?” He could feel her slightly shiver and he wasn't sure how much longer she would be able to stand.

 

“O-Okay,” said Kagome as she let Youko guide her into sitting in his lap on the ground.

 

She felt him poke at her stomach a few times before she found herself on her back with a gasp.

 

“Kagome?”

 

“Y-Yes?!”

 

“What usually happens after a couple has sex?”

 

WHAT? Kagome's mouth opened slightly, “The girl usually becomes…pregnant.”

 

She saw him nod and his hand was on her stomach again. “I don't think I will be able to tell if it's happened…”

 

Kagome remembered his words. Don't worry, it will feel much better the next time. “Wait, so you want to give it another try?” she asked in disbelief.

 

“Why not?” There was a hint of playfulness in his voice as he eyed her before bringing his lips down to kiss her.

 

It was one of those passionate kisses she had heard about when she had lived back at the village. She felt his tongue slide along her lower lip and she instinctively opened her mouth to let him in to deepen the kiss. At first it was a bit awkward but Kagome soon let Youko lead with ease.

 

When the finally parted for air, she felt him kiss her forehead before getting up, leaving her on the floor with the blanket.

 

“Where are you going?” she asked, catching her breath.

 

He turned to look at her, tail swishing behind him. “I've got some business to take care of. It wont take too long, I promise.” And with that he disappeared.

 

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Youko hated to leave her there. Especially after she responded so readily to his kisses. He loved to kiss her almost as much as he loved to touch her and as he walked through the crowd, he felt the anxiousness to get back to her.

 

It had only been while stealing a treasure he felt this feeling; the feeling to return and grasp it and never let it go. It thrilled him.

 

But he wouldn't let his anxiousness get the best of him at the moment. There was a reason he was down here after all and after looking through groups of demons he finally found who he was looking for.

 

“Ai.”

 

The said female demon turned to look at him, ear turned in his direction before standing up abruptly after recognizing who exactly had called her name. “Y-Yes Youko-sama?”

 

Yes, his most trusted female fighters would do.

 

Even if she were a rabbit.

 

“I need you to watch Kagome while I'm gone, starting tomorrow,” he said, eyeing her confidently.

 

“Of course!” She jerked her head up and down without hesitation, her large ears not able to keep up looked rather ridiculous.

 

He was in mid term when her voice stopped him.

 

“Does this mean Taro will be going with you?” she asked, looking him straight in the eye.

 

He nodded his head.

 

“I see…” she turned and gazed at the ground.

 

“And Ai,” continued Youko. When she looked back up at him he continued. “Don't let Koga near her. If he tries anything, don't hesitate.”

 

Figuring she had nothing more to say, Youko resumed walking, keeping an eye out for Kuronue all the while. When he didn't see even an inch of his long time friend, he guessed he should have looked in the conference room first anyway. It wasn't like Kuronue to be out with the others constantly anyway.

 

Finding his way to the small one room building, Youko opened the door and found his friend staring out the window.

 

Kuronue turned to look at him, “Well it took you long enough.”

 

Youko didn't bother to reply, just walked over to a chair, pulled it out from the table and sat down. “What information do you have on this item?”

 

Kuronue made his way over to the table and stood across from Youko. Placing his hands slighly spread out on the surface he smiled. “Well, this item that I've found out about is a very rare one that costs quite a bit.”

 

“Oh?”

 

At the sound of Youko's bored tone, Kuronue felt he needed to work a little harder to convince him. “There is only one of its kind…”

 

“So?” questioned Youko. “Just because there is only one, doesn't mean it's worth stealing.”

 

Kuronue frowned, standing straight up and placing a finger to his lips. “Well, it is heavily guarded. Others have tried to steal it and have been caught. Oh and they were killed. Hmm. What else…” He glanced down at Youko and saw him in was looked to be a `thinking' mode.

 

“You say no one has been able to get past the guards?” asked the fox.

 

Kuronue nodded.

 

“And how much do you think this item will be worth?”

 

“Probably thousands, if not more.”

 

Youko stood at this point. “I want this to go as quickly and as smoothly as possible. No screwing up.”

 

Kuronue's face lit up. “Of course. It will only take…maybe a week or so.”

 

Youko sighed. “Fine.”

 

“I knew you'd want to even though you pretended you didn't want to go!” laughed Kuronue.

 

It was true. Kuronue probably knew Youko better than most people.

 

“Kuronue?”

 

The raven haired demon ceased his laughing. “What is it?”

 

“Have you heard anything of Lord Hirohiko?”

 

Kuronue shook his head. “Not since the last time. As far as I know hes still trying to find Kagome.”

 

Youko nodded his head in understanding.

 

“Does she even know everything that's been going on?” questioned the winged demon.

 

Youko's face was emotionless. “No. And I want it to stay that way.”

 

Kuronue sighed. “That might not be such a good idea…you must be really starting to like this human girl in order to keep this just between you and me. And the fact that her scent is all over you doesn't help if you try to deny it.”

 

Youko glared at him, not bothering to reply.

 

“Its ok, you don't need to admit it out loud.” It was always fun to tease the fox. It didn't happen as much now as it used to and Kuronue made sure he enjoyed every minute of it.

 

Youko shook his head. “We'll be leaving tomorrow.”

 

Kuronue barked out a laugh, “Finally! I'll get a group together and we'll meet you tomorrow.”

 

 

Kagome had been restless the whole day. There was no way to stop it. She had walked around the room both inside and out for what seemed like forever but she just could not shake the feeling. Her hair was dried now, had been for a while and she now sat in Youko's bed again where he had first left her.

 

She tried to focus her thoughts and nerves on other things. Maybe something happy? Something that wouldn't stress her out…like flowers…some daisies maybe?

 

It didn't work.

 

What if…what if she actually became pregnant?

 

What if she was already carrying his child?

 

Her face turned red, hands immediately coming up to cover her face as she let herself fall back onto the soft surface under her.

 

Why would he even want a baby with me? She asked herself. I'm not good-looking and I'm not a demon woman. I'm just human.

 

There was also the question of if she could even do it. Was it possible? She had never heard of a human becoming pregnant by a demon. Hell, she hadn't even known demons existed until that nasty thing had attacked her.

 

But there was a big question that nagged at Kagome in the back of her mind.

 

Would their relationship change?

 

She wasn't sure how demons handled pregnancy. Did the husband or male partner leave the woman to go to another because they became too big and didn't want sex as much?

 

Kagome let out an aggravated sigh. She shouldn't get herself worked up so easily.

 

Hearing the door open, her attention was brought to the figure that was now entering the room. It was Youko.

 

He walked straight over to her and climbed onto the bed next to her. Reaching out, he pulled her against his chest.

 

They stared at each other for a moment before he spoke.

 

“I'm gong to be leaving for the next couple of days,” he saw her face fall. “Ai will watch over you and get you anything you need. She is very reliable and will not let anything happen to you.” Or rather, let anyone get to her.

 

She searched his eyes with her own. “Are you going to go and steal something?” It hurt her to say it. Hadn't they killed Akihiro while they were trying to steal something from him?

 

“Yes,” he answered simply.

 

Her breath hitched. “Will you kill anyone?”

 

The arm around her waist tightened. “I don't know. It will depend if my life is in danger.”

 

Silently she hoped that the people would just let him take whatever he wanted without trying to fight him. She had seen first hand what he could do and there was no way a mere human could survive it let alone try to escape.

 

“Do you usually kill people on these…trips?” she asked.

 

He shook his head. “The only reason why myself or any of my men kill is if they feel they are in danger of being caught or killed themselves. Why do you want to know?”

 

She looked down at his chest. “No reason.”

 

Did Kuronue think he would get caught when he raided Akihiro's place? Did he think that Akihiro had actually stood a chance at killing him? Is that why he killed Akihiro?

 

Youko, seeing her expression sadden, decided to take her mind off of whatever she was talking about.

 

Running his hand through her hair, Youko lightly grasped the back of her neck just as he brought his lips down to kiss her. She opened her mouth without giving him the chance to ask and he deepened this kiss. He felt her small hands come up and touch his face as he rolled them over so that he was on top.

 

There was something in the way he kissed her that Kagome felt she needed to respond more feverishly to. She couldn't help it and she didn't want to stop it and when they finally broke she had tears in her eyes.

 

“I don't want you to go.”

 

She reached around Youko's shoulders and hugged him to her, burring her face in the crook of his neck.

 

 

OMG IT'S BEEN FOREVER!

I hope you all liked all the fluff and stuff. There was a lot of KagxYouko stuff in here. But I'll be surprised if I have any reviews aha. To those of you who do review. You have my love! And I will keep trying to post more long chapters. This one was 14 pages in word :D