Yu Yu Hakusho Fan Fiction ❯ A family I never knew ❯ Decisions, decisions, decisions ( Chapter 3 )

 

 

Yuusuke Urameshi blazed a trail across the rugged terrain of his ancestral `home'. The sky was alight with the fury that reflected his mood. Lighting flashed across the sky and struck any demon that was foolhardy enough to come even twenty yards of his presence. Winds blew harshly against the land and made the Toushin's unruly black mane whip wildly behind him. But worst of all was the water that pelted down upon him like cold razors cutting into his skin. Blue markings glowed with a power unrivaled by any, untamable just like it's wielder. The turmoil of his emotions had indeed affected the weather in the makai quite thoroughly.

 

Fortunately even in his rage Raizen's heir had enough presence of mind to vacate the human world before he let go of his tenuous control. Contrary to popular belief no matter how many times Yuusuke followed his instinct; the young hanyou was not impulsive as he led others to believe. He usually analyzed the circumstances before plunging head long into the situation. Unfortunately, Yuusuke's break up with Keiko Yukimura was not one of those cases. The words Hikime told him continued to echo in his mind taunting him, infuriating him.

 

“It was her choice, just as it was your choice to keep my daughter from me which you had no right to do, Hikime how could you”?

 

The woman looked at him in the eye for the first time since their latest encounter.

 

“You didn't have to see her tears Yuusuke”

 

Looking back at me I see
That I never really got it right
I never stopped to think of you
I'm always wrapped up in
Things I cannot win

 

He ran through the forest and passed the desert away from the quilt and pain that wanted to consume him. It was bad enough Keiko had retreated from him but to hide the fact that they had a child was worse. The fact that Hikime helped didn't bode well either. Not to mention the fact that Koenma had waited fifteen years of his daughter's life to tell him.

 

“WHY DIDN'T YOU TELL ME”?

 

Koenma flinched, “I'm not all-knowing Yuusuke I didn't know until Keiko died and even then do you have any idea what my father would do if he ever found out that you had a child”?

 

“Then why are you telling me now” the former spirit detective asked scathingly

 

The child ruler sighed tiredly.

 

“Because she has caught Reikai's attention by traveling back in time before the Kikai Barrier and hunting down a mystical artifact called the Shikon no Tama”

 

Yuusuke quickened his pace determined to suffer the memories in solitude if only for a few moments.

 

You are the antidote that gets me by
Something strong
Like a drug that gets me high

 

“What will you do now Yuusuke” asked Kurama

 

Yuusuke had left Genkai's to figure out that very same thing only to bump into the kitsune and his partner Hiei. He had confided in the fox hoping that the former thief would answer the question for him. Alas Kurama didn't know the answer. And as for Hiei, well as usual the diminutive demon had little to say.

 

“I don't know”

 

Hiei snorted, “Then go find out detective, confront the ningen who took your offspring”

 

What I really meant to say
Is I'm sorry for the way I am
I never meant to be so cold

 

Yuusuke snarled it was a mistake on his part to have listened to Hiei's advice. A mistake that had forced the hanyou to accept the truth, it was his fault that Keiko had left. So focused on the splintering pain in his heart that Yuusuke nearly ran off a cliff. He abruptly stopped his mindless running just in time to not fall over the edge. It wasn't like the fall would kill him it was only a few miles down and for a demon of his caliber it was merely a step. He wasn't even winded from the run that he just undergone.

 

(“What is it like, being a demon”?)

 

He fought back the waves upon waves of agony that coursed through him. His entire life he was called a monster when Keiko started to see him as one Yuusuke began to snap.

 

(“Why can't you be-”?)

 

(“Normal”?) He finished, (“Keiko I'm me and no one else, I pretend for no one”)

 

To you I'm sorry about all the lies
Maybe in a different light
You could see me stand on my own again
Cause now i can see
You were the antidote that got me by
Something strong like a drug that got me high

 

Looking back now they were destined to fall apart. Keiko forgot how to love Yuusuke for who he was and Yuusuke became cold to Keiko. But this, this was adding insult upon injury after gutting disemboweling and serving his heart on a platter. The platter wasn't even silver. Yuusuke snorted. It didn't matter anymore Keiko was dead Hikime made no attempt to reconcile the situation saying `Kagome has a good normal life'.

 

“You call traveling back in time and battling demons normal”?

 

Hikime's lip twitched, “she's your daughter”

 

Yuusuke sighed. Finally the brunt of his emotions was ebbing away into nothingness and the storm that seemed to follow him with it.

 

“Jeez there' Urameshi, you wind be blow'n away te good feel'n what's eat'n you”

 

“Yes I two find my self wondering what you are doing in the makai as well Yuusuke and why you feel the urge to commit mass murder”?

 

Collecting his self control Yuusuke plastered on his patented cocky smirk and turned to look upon the two intruders that disturbed his thoughts.

 

“Hey Jin, Touya didn't expect to see you guys here”.

 

Neither of the former shenobi were fooled by the hanyou's deceptively light tone. They had long ago been trained to read body language and agitated twitch of the former detective's hands were quite visible. Yuusuke was a very powerful demon and one of the most influential in both human world and demon world. Had Yuusuke wanted he could kill them without so much as a thought. But they refused to back down; both Jin and Touya knew that Yuusuke wouldn't kill them even if he were angry. They had his loyalty after all.

 

I never meant to be so cold

 

“What is wrong Yuusuke?”

 

He sighed in exasperation, “Oh nothing much, I just found out I pulled a Raizen on Keiko”

 

They blinked, blinked, and blinked again before a grin so wide it would have cracked the red head's face made its way onto Jin's face. Touya was smiling as well watching as the happy go lucky wind master began to heartily congratulate their' would be king. But then he noticed how instead of joylessly celebrating with Jin Yuusuke seemed terse and barely holding his temper. Reviewing what the former detective just said the ice master fought back the urge to narrow his eyes.

 

“She never told you, did she”?

 

Abruptly Jin stopped jostling around the irate half demon and turned to stare at his friend and former sect member.

 

Yuusuke snorted bitterly, “Of course she didn't, as usual I fucked up again and she took it the wrong way”

 

“Don't cha go on worrying bout the Mrs. Urameshi, women be that way all te time demon and human alike ya know” comforted Jin.

 

But his other comforting words were stilled by the look Yuusuke shot his way. Even Touya as calm and level headed as he was had the presence of mind to flinch. The smart alec fifteen year old they had come to look upon as a friend and leader had changed. His demon nature though not completely dominating his human character was drawing power off of the emotional waves that he was so desperate to hold back. It was dangerous to hold all that anguish inside; Touya knew this from first hand experience from watching human breakdowns in torture sessions. It was a simple matter of time and Yuusuke's emotional resilience was wearing thin.

 

“How long”?

 

He snarled, “fifteen years”

 

Wisely Jin said nothing, knowing that his friend was on the edge. Touya felt the turbulent turning of his stomach. Demon children were quite strong and didn't need as much care as a human child. But like Yuusuke his offspring would be human first and only become demon if (or in Yuusuke's child's case when) he or she became strong enough. This was disturbing in its self-considering that Enma wouldn't hesitate to kill anything powerful enough to threaten his authority. The ice demon did want ask but he knew he had to.

 

“What did Keiko have to say about all this”?

 

Yuusuke met his gaze and Touya curse fluently at what he saw. The pain and utter defeat stared back at him with animalistic rage and sorrow swirling in the bloodied depths. Jin refused to move even as the wind around the former detective began to pick up.

 

“YUUSUKE CALM DOWN”!

 

Instantly the storm that was beginning to brew ebbed and said hybrid turned his gaze to the new intruders of his personal hell. Just a few feet away from himself, Jin, and Touya was Koenma, Genkai, Yukina, Kurama, and Hiei. The group looked at him with varying expressions. Kurama and Yukina looked upon him with silent understanding while Genkai and Koenma displayed worry and annoyance. Hiei was cold as always but his support of Yuusuke was shown by the pure fact that he was there at all.

 

“What do you want”?

 

In spite of the cold fury that was coiled Yuusuke's tone the ruler of spirit world was determined to help him and so was the others present.

 

“The real question dimwit, is what do you want”

 

“Its fifteen years a little too late to get what I want Genkai” he retorted

 

Yet before the old psychic could retort it was the usually quiet Yukina who spoke up to Yuusuke. Resolve filled her gentle ruby orbs and she stared at him with a strength that he never knew she had.

 

“Its never too late to help the ones you love Yuu-san”

 

Looking at the people gathered before him once more Yuusuke wondered what he did to deserve friends like he had right now. All of them were loyal to the point where they were some type of dysfunctional family, but when shit went down no matter what they were there. Yuusuke knew that he was little more than a thug turned lapdog yet they stuck with him even the idiot Kuwabara. He turned away from them unwilling for them to see him break down before their eyes.

 

“What can I do”? He gritted his teeth, “my daughter has a life of her own, a happy one”

 

“Yuusuke if you don't do something your daughter won't have a life at all,” said Kurama

 

Touya nodded, “You know how king Enma” he spat the name like a disease, “deals with threats to his order”

 

“You must protect her Yuusuke, you're the only one who truly can”

 

“That still leaves the how part out, doesn't it” the irate half demon retorted.

 

Koenma smiled almost mischievously, “I have a plan Yuusuke but that will mean that you leave this time and wait till this time frame rolls around once again and that your daughter might share the same fate”

 

Yuusuke was quiet for a moment, staring. Could he leave the world he knew behind? Absolutely. Forever was something that he never considered he was a human before he was a demon after all. But now Koenma was forcing him to confront the idea that he would be in existence for a very long time. Then the idea that his child would have the same fate was a bit discerning. She would probably never be able to see her friends in her own time again. But then he thought of all the things the king of the dead would do to get her and any hesitation vanished from him. Hell would freeze over and Raizen would turn in his grave before Yuusuke let harm come to his child.

 

(“What do you wish for the most Yuusuke”?)

 

The half demon wrapped his muscled arms around his wife. Affectionately, he breathed in her unique peace lily scent.

 

(“To wake up with you in my arms every morning, hearing our child call us to make breakfast”)

 

Keiko smiled, (“such a simple dream”)

 

Yuusuke two smiled.

 

(“It's the simplest dreams that are usually the best ones love”)

 

I never really wanted you to see
The screwed up side of me that I keep
Locked inside of me so deep
It always seems to get to me
I never really wanted you to go
So many things you should have known
I guess for me there's just no hope
I never meant to be so cold

 

Yuusuke shook himself out of his reverie.

 

“Do it Koenma”

 

What I really meant to say
Is I'm sorry for the way I am
I never meant to be so cold

I never meant to be so cold

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