Yu Yu Hakusho Fan Fiction ❯ Awaiting One's Self in The Dark ❯ Chapter 4 “Knocking on fates door” ( Chapter 4 )

(`Wakatimasken desu' that means `I don't understand {what?})

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Chapter 4 "Knocking on fates door"

-Dream-

"Where am I?" all I could see was blackness. I hug my knees knowing only of what might hurt me. The dark shadows around me seem so clear yet hidden by some unknown wall. "Hello?" I call out knowing no one would answer. But a voice much like mine calls back, let me out let the real you out. Allow me to rid the world of what has caused this pain upon myself and I. let me show you how to used that power. "How are you?" I was going in to a panic. Who am I?! I am you. The you, you cannot see. The you that is within and hears your sorrow cries. I can see that you, myself, have had a great deal of pain let me ease it. Let me kill… "I'm fine on my own. I don't need your help…who ever you may be I don't care LEAVE ME ALONE!!! IF YOU DON'T I'll……." you'll what??? Call for Shuichi or Hiei? How pathetic. You sicken me…I'm ashamed of myself… "how did you…NO!!! I don't need them or you…some one get me out of here!!!" I yell as the shadows vanish and a familiar voice calls to me…

-Dream end-

"Kie, wake up. Kie!" Shuichi shook me franticly. "stop shaking me, I'm awake…" I glare at him. "what do you want? Where am I? Take me home." I was slowly losing my temper again. "Please calm yourself Kie, I mean you no harm." He tried, was failing. "You don't get it do you? I need to go home…my mom...my dog…I need to help them. My father will…I just need to go please…I won't ever bother you again just please." I was on the verge of tears, but then he said, "ok I'll take you but you have to be back in three days. If not I will come for you ok?" "Why do I have to come back?" I ask in my emotionless voice again. "Well we need to show you how to control that power of yours. If you wish to withdraw I will leave you be, but please think it over." He seems so sure to get me back so I said ok. Why? I do' no he was getting on my nerves…(or so she saids)

Walking home I think of what is to become of me. I had been at that house for about 3 weeks now. My mother, and Fi'Fi, I hope that they're ok. As I near my home I look at the trees. It was winter, they were dieing. A picture of Hiei came to mind, `why the hell…WTF…why am I thinking of him at a time like this?' my father was sure not to be happy of my homecoming. Just to think of what he might do to me, that enough made me fear. `No I will not give him that honor. He's just another human, person for me to hate. No he doesn't even deserve that, it's too high of an honor for him.'

When at my door, I stand there. "Are you going to open the door or not?" a voice came form behind me. Not knowing whom it was I froze. But turn to see who it was…Shuichi. `What the hell is he doing here?' "What the hell are you doing here?" I ask with no emotion. "You said that you would let me go alone." "Sorry, I ask for your forgiveness? I had to follow you. I felt that I would be needed." At least it wasn't my father. At that moment the door flew open. I look to see who it is. It was my mother. I guess she heard me talking and came to see who it was. "Kie?! Where have you been. Your father is out looking for you. Hurry get inside before he comes home." My mother pulled me in the house and I grabbed Shuichi in as well. Why? Don't ask me.

My mother looked at Shuichi and stood there a moment. "hey aren't you that boy Kie left with. Yes you are him…where did you take my daughter you fucking bastard?" my mother yelled at the top of her lugs. "Umm, I'm sorry miss…" "No I don't want to hear it!" "MOTHER LEAVE HIM ALONE!!!" I yelled over her. She looked at me shocked. "He helped me mother. He saved me after it happened again…" "It?" "Yeah" my mother hugged me thankful I was alive. She knew of what I meant. "What is the meaning of this?" all three of us looked at the door. My father stands there with an angry face. "Kie, where have you been? Why didn't you come home? And why is that boy in my house?" my father started to walk toward Shuichi. I Ran in front of him. "No, please don't father. He has nothing to do with this. Don't hurt him…" my father looked at me then grabbed me by my neck and pulls me the other way. I can't breathe. "You little bitch, you think you can boss me around? You have been missing for weeks, and you ask me to not hurt him? Who do you think you are?" his grip keeps getting harder, and it's harder and harder to get air.

`Help me…' "Ryuen, please don't. She just got back; let her rest…" my mother tries to get my father to stop but no good. Shuichi stands there just looking at what is unfolding in front of him. Then, "Kie?" is all that comes out of his mouth. My father pulls me up agents the wall. (She was in her school uniform) I feel the most painful feeling that a girl could feel. Blood run down my inner thigh, and made drizzle sounds on the hard wood floor. My father had injected his finger in my entrance, so forcefully that I screamed out in deep tormented horror. "Kie!!! Get off her…" I could hear Shuichi scream put still no rescue from my nightmare. "No don't, you'll only make it worse for her…" my mother, I guess, stopped him.

I felt it, my father having his way with me once again. Impaling his finger into me over and over. `Why? Why dose he do this to me?' I felt my father going for my breast. "NO!!! mother please…help" I yelled. "ahhh" my father went flying toward the wall. I fell to the floor and looked up. "Hiei?" he was here, protecting me…"get away from here you jackass. He'll kill you…" "uh, as if. I'll kill him before he gets a chance to blink." I sat there on the floor, watching Hiei beat my father to nothing. "Kie? Oh baby are you ok?" "mother, yeah I'm in fine. Oh where's Fi'Fi?" my mother looked away form me and I knew what that meant. "your father…well…" she pointed to a small white ball in a corner. "no…Fi'Fi" "Hiei get the hell away from him…!!!" I shouted. He did as I asked. As I get up to I look at my father. "how? How could you do that to her? She's never done anything to you…I'll kill you for what you did. Let you feel the pain of what you have done to me and her…you ASSHOLE!!!" my eyes go demon-like again and all goes black.

When I could make out my surroundings, I looked around. My home was nothing but ruble. "Mother?" I get up and search for my mother. "Kie, over here." I look behind me and see Shuichi pointing at something. I walk over and an eerie shriek came from my mouth. Lying on the ground, my mother's body, Her inner parts were shrouding her. And her heart was about a foot away from her body. Blood everywhere, all around her. I can barley make out her face. No tears, no sorrow cry, I just walk away. "ruu..urf" I jerk me head. "FI'FI!!!" she was alive. I run over to her but then Hiei stops me by going in front of me. "What, I ask you to remove yourself from where you are." "Hum, you there demon. What are you doing here?" Fi'Fi started growling at Hiei. "I see you're not going to make this easy." Then he disappeared then reappeared in front of Fi'Fi. She howled and became…HUGE. My little Fi'Fi become this big wolf, with lime-green eyes, two large brown spots on her back, and also, the red collar that I made for her. "Fi'Fi?" that's all I remember before everything went black again.

When I woke, I found myself in that room that I was before. "Hello? Hiei, Shuichi?" as I looked around, I find Fi'Fi (still big) in the corner. "Kie, your awake. How are you? Do you feel ok?" Shuichi came in, I guess, to check up on me. "I'm fine you don't need to ask so many things." I look away from him not allowing him to see my pain. "I'm sorry. I should of let you go when you asked. I never knew that you had to go through so much. I had Kuwabara bring in all your things. You can stay here for as long as you like. Oh and you don't need to go to school tomorrow." He just smiled at me with all this. He really was a pain. Hiei is better then him. He doesn't say much. `Go away…' I wasn't even in the mood to yell at myself. "Would you like to look around? I can show you." Shuichi just would not give up…"fine."

He showed me Genkai's temple, from the stairs to the training grounds. "This is where she kills her students…?" "You could say that…" no I would not laugh or show that I was having a good time. And for the first time I realize I wasn't in my clothes. I had a white dress on. It was plane but looked wonderful on me. (Or so the author says.) Anyway… "Oh and here is where I spend most of my time. This is the garden…" (Figures) there were flowers of all colors. Some I never had seen before. "This is…" "I know…I come here to think when things are hard." As I walk around I fine a raven on the ground. I pick it up and it becomes better out of nowhere. "Well, I think I'll keep you little one. I will call you Tita." She looked at me then hoped on my shoulder. I smile…(that's a first…) I began to sing in my moment of peace.

"on a snow white day,

even if the sun shines,

there is darkness,

there is pain, my heart…

my soul, is in that darkness,

4ever and all,

no matter what they say…

I am the one of shadow…"

"You have a lovely voice, why don't you speak much to others when near?" there he goes again using way to many words… "I'm not much for words." I stand there, nothing seem to lift me anymore. My raven had flown off at the end of the song. "Hey, fox. Koenma wants to speak with you. Oh yeah, and this dog here was looking for you kid." Hiei walked out of nowhere. Seeing him sent my heart racing, I'd never felt this way before. Fi'Fi was at his side; I couldn't look him in the eye. Not after what happened. What would I say? `Why do I care so much?' cuz you like the boy. Yes the redhead is nice, but he bores me… `Shut up I do not like him. I like no one. I don't need them…so go away.' What ever…think what you want? But I know the truth.

"You do know I can hear your thoughts right? You think really loud…" with that I glared at him. "Get out of my head and burn in the pits of hell." (With Kikyo LOL ^_^) I hate them all. Hiei left soon after my remark. "Hey Fi'Fi, what do you want?" why was I talking to my dog? Because I can understand her…now I know why. "Lady Kie, I ask that we leave this place, soon. So many youki, and hanyous stay here. Much danger will come to lady Kie." She seems so sure of herself. "Why would they bring danger to me?" "They are of the ones that threaten to condemn me to death. I ask, please, let us go before you…" "before what?" I watched her eyes worry. let me out you fool. My consrens are correct. I WILL come out!!! `No' my body felt like it was on fire. A pain like my insides would be ripped form me. A scare shown in between my collar bone; shaped like a V. glowing; oh how it burned, I was being killed from the one that says she is me. "Owaraseru, OWARASERU!!!"

Well that's all for this chapter. Oh and in case you didn't figure it out, Fi'Fi is a Demon…who knew? Tell what you think. REVIEW!!)

Owaraseru: stop {put an end to}