Yu Yu Hakusho Fan Fiction ❯ Blades and Blood Petals ❯ Un-Break My Heart ( Chapter 1 )

Un-Break My Heart

Disclaimer: nope sorry don't own yu yu hakusho. If I did I don't know what I'd do with it. I'm just fooling around with the characters. ^_^ I also don't own un-break my heart. I just like that song.

Summary: it's a songfic based on the song Un-Break my Heart by Toni Braxton between Hiei and Kurama. Warning: shonen ai/yaoi. If u don't like that then don't read. O this is my first fic so please review ^_^

He remembered that fateful day. It was only two days ago after all. The day when he confessed his love to the only one who wouldn't return his love. Tears began to well up in his green orbs as he stared out into the dark night, wishing that Hiei would return, even though he knew he would never see the fire demon again. Kurama could never remember when he was last in this much pain simply because of rejection. But that was because he had never been rejected. He was the legendary Yoko Kurama, who everyone in the three worlds wanted to be with, even if it was only for a night. Kurama had never loved anyone like he loved Hiei, not even his human mother Shiori. It all started when he first saw him saving his life as well as Yusuke's and Kuwabara's at the Gate of Betrayal during their first mission as Rekai Tantei. He watched as Hiei pulled his hand away from the switch, then slaughter the Saint Beasts' servant and save them all. At first he thought that if he just ignored that warm feeling it would leave, but it only grew and grew. Eventually it began to drive him insane. If he didn't confess his love then he would surely burst. It was a warm night with a full moon. He had been taking a walk outside to clear his head from the many images of Hiei that flashed before him so he could concentrate on his homework. He had unconsciously walked to the park he loved so much. Walking amongst the trees always calmed him, and he was so absorbed with his thoughts that he did not notice that Hiei was next to him until he stood directly in front of him.

"Hiei! I'm sorry I did not see you I'm afraid. I was thinking about my homework and how I am possibly going to finish it all" he lied with a smile on his face.

" Baka no kitsune. I'm not an idiot. You NEVER think about homework that deepely. What are you really thinking about?"

"Well, to tell you the truth I was thinking about the person I love, and how I am ever going to tell them how I feel" he replied sighing.

"What a stupid problem. Just tell them."

Kurama laughed. "Well that would be the obvious answer I suppose."

"Of course it is. I don't understand why you make everything into a much bigger problem."

"Ok Hiei, then when should I tell them if I make everything into bigger problem than necessary?"

"As soon as you see them next obviously. Honestly Kurama, you lack common sense."

"Well then, I'll just have to say it now then. Hiei, I love you."

Hiei's eyes widened as Kurama leaned forward and kissed him square on the mouth. But once it was over he disappeared into the depths of the park. After a moment Kurama realized what had happened and tears began to fall from his large green eyes. He stood there alone in the part silently weeping and it began to rain.

Don't leave me in all this pain

Don't leave me out in the rain

Come back and bring back the smile

Come and take these tears away

That had been two nights before, and Kurama was still crying. He still could not believe how stupid he had been to believe that he had been foolish enough to believe that Hiei would actually have feelings for him. Sure he probably considered him a good fighting partner and maybe a friend, but that was most likely it. There was probably no love in his heart for anyone, with the exception of Yukina. He had not left his room since that night. He told his mother that he was ill, which enabled him to get out of school and to not have to leave the house. His mother would bring up him food, and question him about how he felt, to which he would simply say "Better" and "Thank you very much Kaasan". Then she would leave feeling a little reassured that her son only had the flu. In truth, he was slowly wasting away. He had never felt more alone in his long life, not even when he was first born into the human world as Minamono Shuichi. For then he had the love his mother, even if he didn't appreciate it then. Now the only other person he had ever loved rejected him, and he was left all alone in the night.

I need your arms to hold me now

The nights are so unkind

Bring back those nights when I held you beside me

He could feel his heart breaking at the thought of never seeing Hiei again. He walked over to his desk and pulled out a small picture from under his books. It depicted him with the rest of the Rekai Tantei, as well as Yusuke's girlfriend Kieko. And there to his right in the picture was Hiei dressed all in black as usual with the exception of his white scarf looking away from the camera scowling. He smiled a little at the memory of taking that picture. He and Yusuke had conned Hiei into taking the picture only when they threatened to inform Yukina the identity of her long lost brother. The entire situation was very amusing, but Hiei refused to talk to either of them for a while afterwards. But it was definitely worth it. A single tear fell from his forest-green eyes onto the face of Hiei.

Un-break my heart

Say you'll love me again

Undo this hurt you caused

When you walked out the door

And walked outta my life

Un-cry these tears

I cried so many nights

Un-break my heart

My heart

It began to rain again. Raindrops pounded against the slightly fogged window of Kurama's bedroom, and wind howled in the tree next to his window. He sighed. Before he confessed Hiei would always come to his window during storms and they would stay up all night and talk about nothing in particular. Now he would probably be taking refuge from the storm at Genkai's temple with Yukina and the old sensei. If not then he would be sitting on some random tree branch in a forest or maybe he had gone back to Makai. Kurama decided to call the temple to see if he was there. Picking up his phone he dialed the number and waited for someone to pick up. "Mushi mushi?" a girl asked after three rings in a sweet voice. "Konebawa Yukina-san. It's Kurama. I was just wondering if Hiei was over their keeping out of the rain."

"Gomen nasai Kurama-san I'm afraid Genkai-san and I are the only ones here. Why? Is something wrong with Hiei?"

"Maybe I'm not sure. I'd better go find him and get him out the rain. Domo arigotou goziamas Yukina-san."

"You're welcome Kurama-san. I hope you find him."

"So do I."

Take back that sad word good-bye

Bring back the joy to my life

Don't leave me here with these tears

Come and kiss this pain away

I can't forget the day you left

Time is so unkind

And life is cruel without you here beside me

Kurama ran out of his room while pulling on a dark red raincoat. It was fortunate that Shiori was at work or else he would be sent straight to bed. Running out into the rain, Kurama began to head towards the park where he had last seen Hiei. If the fire demon was still in Ningenkai then he would surely be there. It was his favorite place after all, with many tree branches to sleep on and a good view of the city. Once he reached the park Kurama began to mask his energy as to not alarm Hiei if he was in the park. Walking silently and gracefully through the trees he began to scan the area for any signs of life besides that of a few birds, small animals, and insects. He had arrived in the center of the park where the tallest tree was. It was a grand evergreen tree, with needles as green as his eyes. Peering up through the branches he saw a small shadow on a branch halfway up the tree. It looked like a small boy with spiky hair was sleeping on a tree branch. He began to climb.

Un-break my heart

Say you'll love me again

Undo this hurt you caused

When you walked out the door

And walked outta my life

Un-cry these tears

I cried so many nights

Un-break my heart

My heart

Feeling eyes gazing upon him, Hiei slowly opened his blood red eyes to see forest green ones staring into his. He sat up.

"Fox, what the hell are you doing here?"

"I was worried about you being out here alone in the storm, so I called the temple and when Yukina said you weren't there, I figured you were here. You should find better shelter from a storm like this than in a tree Hiei. You could get sick."

"Hn. I don't need to go anywhere. I won't get sick. I'm not even cold." But a sudden shiver and cough betrayed his words.

"Hiei, please come with me to get out of the rain."

"No! How many times must I tell you that fox? I'm fine, and no matter how many times you try I will never love you!"

With that he flickered away a second time, but this time Kurama caught a slight glint of hesitation and maybe even sorrow in his eyes. So once again, he was left alone in the rain.

Don't leave me in all this pain

Don't leave me out in the rain

Bring back those nights when I held you beside me

Kurama walked slowly back to his home and back to his mourning of his lost love. `Why did I even bother finding him? I knew that he would just run away. Even if he does have feelings for me he would never admit them.' He slammed his fist into a tree beside him. "Why?" he cried. "Why does the one person I've ever loved hate me? Why was I so stupid to believe that he would love me? Why? Why?"

With that he sank down onto his knees and wept, unaware of the blood red eyes watching him from the tree's branches.

Un-break my heart

Say you'll love me again

Undo this hurt you caused

When you walked out the door

And walked outta my life

Un-cry these tears

I cried so many nights

Un-break my heart

My heart

Kurama looked up when he felt something hard fall onto his right shoulder. It was a smooth black tear gem. A Hiruseki. `But aren't hiruseki's all pale blue?' he wondered. Then it hit him. Looking up he saw Hiei sitting on a branch above his head hugging his knees to his chest silently crying. His eyes widened. `Could it be that I wasn't imagining what I saw in his eyes?' Kurama again climbed the tree. Crawling next to Hiei he gently put his arm around his shoulders to comfort the demon. He had never seen him cry, and had no idea he could cry hiruseki stones. At last he spoke.

"Why fox? Why me? You could have any person in any of the three worlds but you picked me, the Forbidden Child. Why?"

"Because I love you for you not what you are called."

Hiei hugged his knees closer to him and shuddered as more hiruseki stones fell from his eyes. Not knowing what else to do, Kurama pulled him closer and hugged him as warmly as a mother would with a heart broken child.

Un-break my heart

Come back and say you love me

Un-break my heart

Sweet darlin'

Without you I just can't go on

Can't go on

Rain drops mingled with tears ran down both of their faces. Finally the storm began to stop, and once the clouds parted the moon, not quite full, shown its pale light onto them. Gazing at Hiei, Kurama said "Hiei don't run from your own heart. If you truly don't love me then I will leave. But if you do love me as I believe you do, then please tell me. Without you I just can't go on."

Hiei looked up and looked into Kurama's forest green eyes. "a….ai shiteru," he sofly whispered and closed the gap between his lips and Kurama's. After their kiss ended he whispered "I don't know what to do Kurama. For the first time I'm afraid for someone besides Yukina."

Kurama pulled him close "I won't ever leave you Hiei. I promise. I'll never leave you."

Japanese translations:

Ai shiteru: I love you

Konebawa: good evening

Mushi mushi: greeting that you use over the phone. Not really sure what it means exactly

Hiruseki: tear gem that Koorime cry

Gomen nasai: I'm sorry

Domo arigotou goziamas: thank you very much

O on the spelling of these words I may be wrong, so don't kill me if I am I don't speak Japanese ^_^;;

Darkdemonchild: awwww isn't that a cute ending? Well I think it is. It's better than what I was originally gonna do, which was have kurama die or hiei die or both or some other sad ending. Anyway, its my first fic so please review! ^_^