Yu Yu Hakusho Fan Fiction ❯ Broken ❯ Broken ( Chapter 1 )

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Broken

This is story is from your perspective okay? This is my first song fic so be nice...
MidNightRoseKitsune:Hey Guys! I am glad you couls be here
Kurama: It was no problem
Hiei: I only came for rhe sweet snow
MidNightRoseKitsune: Here you go Hiei
*takes sweet snow and eats it in the corner*
Kurama:That was very nice of you
MidNightRoseKitsune: He maybe a hardass sometimes but deep down he is a softie
Kurama:I want to ask you something
MidNightRoseKitsune:What is it Kurama?
Kurama:What is your real name?
MidNightRoseKitsune:Mel
Kurama: I mean your full name silly
MidNightRoseKitsune:You will know in time
Kurama:Please *puppy dog eyes*
MRK:NO NOT THE EYES!!!
Kurama:*puppy dog eyes*
MRK: Fine its....*whispers in Kurama's ear*
Kurama: It is a very pretty name it suit you very well
MRK: Thanks,*blushes* Hiei will you tell the disclaimer please???? *puppy dog eyes*
Hiei: Damn it.....MidNightRoseKitsune doesn't own YYH, or her friend Crystal and she is by the way hot for a human, and lastly she doesn't own you....
MRK:except for my own ideas.....On with the story....


I'm sitting on the window sill at home watching the thunderstorm outside,"Its been three years since you made me broken. Even thought I hate you for what you did deep down I still love you very much."
Three years ago...
"today marks our three year anniversary," I said to myself I was so happy and full of life back then. I told Kurama to meet me at the park at the spot where we first kissed. I had a gift for him I worked for four months to get him this gift. Inside the box was pure silver chain with a silver fox dangling from it on the fonx it had inscribed on it K+M 4ever."I spent all my money in this," I said to myself again. I got all dolled up too. I wore my blue summer dress and the rose necklace you gave me and I can't forget the ring too.After I got dressed I went downstairs to headed out to park. I felt like walking that day for some reason I guess it was because for the first time in my life I was truly happy...
I was at the park and looked at the sign above the me and it said 'Memorial Park'. I walked inside the park and say families eating picnics, friends hanging out, couples holding each other. I always felt so safe in your arms, secure yet gentle. I saw the weeping willow tree from our first kiss. I really wanted to surprise you so I walked over to the tree as slow as possible but not being to slow. I got to "our place" and I saw you with another girl. I heard you say I love you to her and that broke my heart but what really broke me was the passionate kiss you gave to her. I froze and dropped the necklace I bought for you and it fell hard to the ground. I clutched the necklace you gave me and ripped it off my neck and threw it on the ground. My hand was bleeding but I didn't care. I was holding back the tears that filled my once happy now lifeless eyes. You saw me and pushed the other girl away and ran to me.
"(NAME), I am sorry....I can explain what happened...I never meant to hurt you. I was going to break up with her HONEST," was what you said before I interupted you.
"I hate you," I said in a monotone voice filled with anger. You tried to hold me and tell me good things but I pushed you away," DON'T TOUCH ME!!! YOU OF ALL PEOPLE SHOULD KNOW THE HELL I WENT THROUGH..YOU PROMISED YOU WOULD BE HERE FOR ME!! I SEE IT WAS ALL LIES NOTHING BUT LIES...STAY AWAY FROM ME KURAMA, " I said and I got my legs to work so I ran, harder than I ever ran in my life. You weren't to far behind. I did everything possible to lose you but you never fell for any of my tricks. I ran back to the temple without shutting the door and locked myself in my room. After seconds of being in my room I hear you screaming my name over and over.
"(NAME), LISTEN TO ME I AM SORRY. YOU DIDN'T DESERVE IT! PLEASE LET ME EXPLAIN," you yelled through the door. I ran to get my suitcase and I put as much as I could in there yet fitting what I needed. I quickly wrote a note explaining that I am going away to Australia. While I was doing this I could still hear you saying I'm sorry I love you more than anything. I would die if you weren't with me. I blocked out your voice. I didn't pack much clothing I just packed my paintings, drawings, pictures, jewelery, and other accesories. I found pictures of me and you and I kept them with me I don't know why. When I got done I could still hear you and I could have sworn I heard you crying but I didn't take that chance I was too upset to think. I climbed out my window and out to the tree with my suitcase with was more like a backpack. I lost my balance and fell hard on the ground you must have heard or gave up or something. I got myself up and pain shot through my body. I ran to my car and quickly getting in. Before I turn out of the driveway I see you runnin to my car pleading to talk to me. I quickly turned away and sped off in my car not looking back.
Present time.
Now I look back at another terrible memory from my terrible past and I begin to feel guilty, " I miss everyone so much. I mean I haven't talked to anyone other than Crystal she is my best friend I can tell her anything. Even about the fact I was a demon she still accepted me," I decided to pick up my phone and call my best friend.
"hello," Crystal say
"hey," I say
"(NAME)! I miss you!! What's up," she askes
" I am thinking about coming home to visit," I say
"That is great! When?,"she askes
"tonight," I answer and I could hear smile through the phone
"(NAME)!! That's great" she says happily.
"I'll be at your house later okay I gotta get going," I tell her
"later,"she says and she hung up the phone and so did I.
I packed enough for a about a week. While I wa packing I slammed my hand on the dresser,"DAMNIT!!!!," I screamed out. I look down at my hand and I see the ring on my finger you gave me. I loved the ring so much, I couldn't take it off. I finally finish packing and head for the airport.
*~*~*~*~*~*
I finally landed and it was late in the night. I grab my bag and head outside to get a taxi. I finally get one and I head to Crystal's place. I could have sworn I felt someone watching me the moment I left the airport but I brushed it off. I get there and she greets me with a rib crushing hug.
"(NAME)! WOW!!! you look great come in and tell me what's going on in your life,"she said and dragged me into her house.
I thought to myself, ' I'll tell you what's going on in my life Crys, I am broken.'
It was great seeing Crystal again, she was so happy and seeing her reminded me of the good old days when we would sit around and talk all night. I told her how I persued my dream about coming a writer and how I started making a cd. She told me about her boyfriend and that she wanted me to meet him tomorrow and his friends.
I got curious and asked, "who is the new man in your life."
Her answer was something I was looking for, "hiei remember?"
When I heard that I couldn't breathe. I thought to myself 'How does she even know Hiei I never introdued her to him...DAMN!!! I did!! SHIT!!!! I am so boned! This means that Kurama will be there and I don't know if I can face him.. WHY DOES THIS HAPPEN TO ME!!!!, ' I screamed the last part in my head.
"No, I can't go I got some things to do here. Like visit my parents, go see my sister and my little brother," I asked hoping no.
"(NICKNAME) come on!! you're only staying for a week besides Kurmam will be there and whenever I see him he askes about you. He wears the necklace you gave him still," Crystal says.
"He got it fixed even after it was broken," I say to Crystal.
"yeah he never stops talking about you. No matter what the topic is he bring you up," she says, "It gets kinda creepy."
I heard a noise from the tree I turn and could have sworn I saw a red blur but I ignored it.I kept one secret, well actually a lot of secrets from Crystal after all these years and she deserves to know this secret,"Crystal I have to show you something."
"What is it (NAME)," she askes with concern. I took off my armwarmers to show her the maky cuts on my arms. Her eyes got wide and for the first time in years I saw her cry, "(NAME), WHY DID YOU? WHY DO YOU? I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU DIDN'T TELL ME, IS THERE ANYTHING ELSE YOU WANT TO TELL ME."
I put the armwarmers back on looked at her saddened as well,"I'm broken." I heaved a heavy sigh and added," I can't live any more. it hurts to much."
She sits next to me and hugs me and for the first time in three years I was somewhat safe.(A/N: NOT IN A DIRTY WAY!!!! GET YOUR HEAD OUT OF THE GUTTER) It wasn't the same being held in Kurama's arms but this will do for now. After a few minutes we let go and fell asleep.
My dreamless sleep slowly turned into a nightmare.It was memories from my past that haunt me today from my demon's past to my own. From her village being slughtered to my family being murdrered in front of me. From Youko's death to Kurama' s kiss. At that instant I woke up out of breath and shaking. I looked out the window and saw it was a full moon.
"I wonder if he is broken too," I ask myself and slowly fall back asleep. All night I felt someone watching over me and I wasn't sure who it was but it scared me a lot and I didn't know what to do.I was awakened by something wet and cold
"(NAME), time to wake up. it's almost noon...., " I was slowly getting upo not in a happy mood because I am wet and also because no matter what I do Kurama is on my mind. After I get up Crystal leaves the room so I can change. I changed into my black pants with the zippers on them and rips across my knees, My black tee with my drawing of a blue fairy, my favorite red and black converse sneakers. I grabbed my cellphone and my blue trucker hat and headed to the city.
I remembered the city fairly well even though I haven't been here in three years. I saw one of my favorite stores Sage's Flowers and herbal remedies. I walked in and looked around and saw the roses I quickly headed to the roses and picked out a small bouquet of pink and white rose for my parents, lillies and orcids for my sister and a sunflower for my brother. I went up to the register and say Sage.
"(NAME) where have you been," she askes happy to see me
"I moved to Australia," I reply.
"Kurama keeps coming in here everyday hoping you'll be here," she tells me
I froze I am so confused about how I should feel about him," well if you see him give him a white rose and tell him even though I am broken I still love and I can't live any longer."
Sage nods and I pay for the flowers and I get out of there as fast as possible without ruining the flowers. I am in deep thought and I bump into a tall man that has a very familiar scent," I am so sorry. I didn't mean to bump into you."
"it is quite alright miss,"he says to me and I could have sworn I reconized him but I wasn't sure so I hid myself in the hat.
" I have to go but I am really sorry again about bumping into you sir," I say to him and quickly get out of there before I made a fool of myself.
This is from the man's POV
I bumped into a girl while I was thinking about (NAME). Her scent was very familiar to the girl I lost. Crystal told me she was here and I was overjoyed. I thought to myself maybe I can fix my broken heart and our broken relationship.
After that little incident I went to Sage's store. She came up to me with a white rose and I was really confused, "here Kurama this is from (NAME) and she also said even thought I am broken I still love you and I can't live any longer"
I didn't know what to say I but I had to ask, "did you see the girl I bumped into before I came in here."
She smacked her forehead shook her head, "Kurama you're so stupid sometimes you know. THAT WAS (NAME)!!!"
I couldn't believe what she is saying to me so I took the rose (NAME) gave me and I was determined to find her and tell her how I feel.
Back to your POV
I walked through the cemetary looking for my parents and I finally found them covered in vines. I could barely reconize them.I ripped off the vines to see their names on the stones in front of me. I knelt in front of the graves and put roses on each grave. I put the flowers down for my brother and my sister and I reached my hand toward my father's grave and traced the designs with my finger. I said a prayer that their souls are safe, and that they're happy. After a few moments I picked up the flowers and got up and started walking towards my sister's house. Then to my luck it started to rain I didn't mind though I enjoyed the rain so much. I found her house and it was run down and the grass was up to my hips and the shutters were dangling from the hinges. I look at the dog's cage and see nothing there. I thought this was very odd. I slowly walked to the house and the door was unlocked. There was something very different about her house that made me wonder.
"DANIELLE!!, ALAN!!! WHERE ARE YOU GUYS," I screamed. I couldn't see much because the house was so dark. As I walked I tripped over something. I looked down and saw a arm. I thought it was a fake one so I didn't think to much on it. I turned into what I assumed was the living and I flipped the switch and saw something that was worse than a horror movie.I saw my sister and brother's bodies ripped apart and dried blood all over the walls. When I saw this the flowers fell to the ground. I see a white paper on the table being the curious I am I walked to the table to get the paper and it had my name on it. I looked away from what I saw on the walls and read the note, 'Dear, (NAME) I am sorry I am not here anymore, I broke my promise to you and Alan that I would protect you guys. I love you so much and I hope to see you again. Love, Dani'. I dropped the paper with the necklace of the angel I gave her. I fell to my knees because I remembered the promise I made to Alan that I would protect him from all dangers. This made me snap. I grabbed the necklace and clutched it in my hand for dear life and ran out of the house. I could feel tears in my eyes and I ran to the park. It was the only place I could go to think, and to admire the stars. I saw the weeping willow and climbed up the tree I climbed as far as I could and wrapped my arms around my knees.
"I've lost everything. I can't live anymore. I broke my promise to Alan and he gets killed all because of my stupid emotions. I wish I never fell in love," I whispered and I was about to say more when I heard a familiar voice below me. I pull my head out of my knees and see someone sitting at the base of the tree holding a white rose. I sat quietly and to hear what he was saying
"(NAME), I miss you so much, after what happened I could never forgive myself. I feel so broken without you. I wish I could see your face again. I love you so much," Kurama says to the skies and I could have sworn I heard him choke on a tear then I hear him sing.
"I wanted to know, I love the way you laugh
I want to hold you high, and steal your pain away
I keep your photograph, and I know it serves me well
I want to hold you high, and steal your pain.

'Coz I'm broken, when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away.

You gotta win, you don't feel me anymore."
I couldn't fight it anymore I couldn't take not seeing him another day. I jumped out of the tree and I stood in front of him. He smiled at me and I smiled at him and I sang with him.

"The worst is over now, and we can breathe again
I wanna hold you high, and steal my pain away
There is so much left to learn, and no one left to fight
I wanna hold you high, and steal your pain.

'Coz Im broken, when I'm open
And I feel like that I'm strong enough
'Coz I'm broken, when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away.
He moved closer to me and I moved closer to him and now we looking into eachother's eyes.

'Coz I'm broken, when I'm open
And I don't feel like that I'm strong enough
'Coz I'm broken, when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away.

'Coz I'm broken, when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away.

'Coz I'm broken, when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone.

You gotta win, you don't feel me anymore." We ended the song together and I could feel tears in my eyes and for the first time in three years I cried. I tried to hide my emotions and I couldn't anymore. I feel to my knees and hide my face from him so he couldn't see my tears. He came next to me and held me in his arms and rubbed my back. We were like this for a long time and after I couldn't cry anymore I looked up at Kurama and he wiped away my remaining tears. His eyes light up and for the first time so did mine.
"(NAME), I am sorry for hurting you. I never forgot about you. I love you so much. I heard you were home and I had to see you," Kurama says to me.
"I am sorry I should have listened to you and I forgive you. I never forgot about you either I was just afraid to come back,"I admit to him."I understand if you don't ever want to see me again. Hell, I wouldn't even want to see me."
He laughs a bit,"(NAME), I want to be with you more than anything in the world without you I'm broken," he says and he leand towards me and kisses me. My saddness washed away those few moments we kissed. I never wanted it to end but sadly it did. Then the images of my brother and my sister flooded my mind. I didn't want to burden him with the news of my siblings but something inside me told me I had to tell him.
"Kurama, before I came here I went to my sister's house to visit her and my brother and they were slaughtered. I broke my promise to Alan that I would protect him and.." I was about to say more when Kurama put his finger to my lips.
"(Name), I am sorry for your loss and I am here for you that is if you still want to be with me," he askes and gives me his million dollar smile I couldn't resist. I hugged him and smiled because I've wanted to hear that from him for such a long time.
"I want to be with you. You have helped me with my loss of my parents and I need to you now more ever, " I tell him and he was thrilled. For the first time in three years I feel like I am safe and my heart is healed. I am no longer broken.

Well That's my songfic sorry if it totally sux please tell me if you liked it would mean a lot to me.
Yusuke and Kwabara come in
Yusuke:HEY!! did I miss anything
Kwabara: yeah, did we miss anything?
Kurama: you missed the whole thing
*Yusuke and Kwabara cry*: THAT'S NOT FAIR!!!
MRK:Don't worry guys soon I will be writing a story and you guys can help me out ok?
Kwabara: ok
MRK: who wants to say please review for me?
Yusuke: I will
Kwabara: No I will
Yusuke : I incist
Kwabara: I want to do it
*yusuke and kwabara fight*
*MRK and Kurama sweatdrop and Hiei still eats his sweet snow*
MRK: would you do it Kurama?
Kurama: I would be honored. Please review and stay tuned for more stories
MRK: that was lovely
Kurama: Thanks Melanie...OOPS!!
*Yusuke, kwabara and Hiei stare at her*
Yusuke: that's your real name Melanie?
MRK:Yes
Hiei: I knew all along
MRK: riiiiiiiight.....KURAMA!!!!
Kurama: sorry
MRK: I CAN NEVR TRUST YOU WITH A SECRET AGAIN!!! *runs out of room*
Hiei: smooth fox real smooth
Yusuke: that's a great way to get a girl like you....
Kwabara: why is she upset???
*Hiei glares at Kwabara*
Hiei: Fox spilled MidNightRoseKitsune's secret
Kwabara: Yeah thats bad Kurama and I thought you were a ladies' man
Yusuke: Well he lost his chance of him being her man
Kurama: what do I do??
Hiei:Prove you care about her
Kurama: oh man.....love is so complicated