Yu Yu Hakusho Fan Fiction ❯ Darkness and destiny ❯ Darkness and Destiny ( Chapter 1 )

Darkness and Destiny

 

Disclamer: I don't own Yu Yu Hakasho.

 

Dark_lites: Guess who?

 

 

The dark, eerie silence I felt all around me was uncanny…

 

The cold, unparallel to anything I had ever felt, anything I could ever wish to feel...

 

Yet I was feeling it, and I felt all of it…

 

It was lasting an eternity…

 

It was like my heart was being ripped out and stepped on...

 

But the pain, it wouldn't stop...

 

Nothing could ever make it stop…

 

I was hurt too many times and nothing can change that…

 

The past can't change and the future has already been turned into destiny…

 

I've heard many people, humans and demons alike, saying that no destiny could ever control them…

 

That they wouldn't let something they couldn't see control them…

 

But in the end they were all calling out for a God, or destiny in other words, to take their pain away…

 

To stop the pain that was eating away at their souls…

 

Destiny happened then…

 

It either ended their life…

 

Or make them oblivious to ever feeling pain or any other emotion…

 

And that was worse than losing your life all together…

 

The pain I feel will never be let out…

 

It will never be released from my soul…

 

And that is in the end worse that death itself…

 

Because I will never be released, it will always have a tugging hold on me and my soul…

 

In return for them taking away my physical pain, destiny has made it enable for me to love…

 

Enable for me to take specific care for anyone around me…not even my sister…

 

She doesn't know I am related to her in any way, shape, or form… but that is better for her…

 

Why would anyone want to be related to me?

 

A heartless bastard… a person unable to feel emotion… even for those they care about the most…

 

I can't act like I care… I stay to my self… I keep apart…

 

It is easier that way…

 

No emotional attachments… No promises to keep…

 

But sometimes I do think… what if?

 

What If I was actually to act like I care for some one?

 

If I actually learned to live for love instead of living to die?

 

It doesn't matter…

 

This is how I am…

 

I won't care what anyone thinks about me… I never have…

 

And this isn't a good time to start…

 

I'm at war with humans, demons, but most of all with my self.

 

No one can save me… because I don't want to be saved…

 

I want to be by myself… I want to be alone for once…

 

 

Dark_lites: Ok now guess which Yu Yu Hakasho character this is! What do you think? I bet you know. Ok you guessed right! HIEI!! Yay! This was my first one shot, how people feel thing, and I was sort of on a sugar high when I was writing this so it may not really be like Hiei but it wasn't my fault. Ok it probably was my fault. I shouldn't have eaten 3 bags of skittles and 2 two liters of mountain dew. Ok so Rate and review or not. I don't care. Tootles.