Yu Yu Hakusho Fan Fiction ❯ Fighting ❯ Chapter 1

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Please tell me what you think. It's my first real attempt at making a fic planned to be shown to the public. Flames are welcome too, I haven't had S'mores in such a long time. ^.~

Anime/Manga: Yu Yu Hakusho Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Romance / Angst / Shoujo | Type: Songfic | Uploaded On: 12.24.2007 | Updated On: 01.06.2008 | Pages: 3 | Words: 3.4K | Visits: 648 | Status: Completed

The chilled winter air blew in from the open window in the darkened bedroom, but neither demon noticed, wrapped in the warm barrier of each other's arms. It had been a long week, but miraculously, they had gotten through it. The bitter memories were still fresh in their minds, though, and would be for some time to come…

I said I'd moved on and I'dleave it alone,
But before I walk out there is something that I need you to know,

Hiei glared back at the red-haired fox as he stood before the open window, one foot resting on the sill. “I told you I'll not bother with your sulking, if that's what you want to do for the rest of your pitiful life,” he bit out, not caring how much the words stung to the already despairing demon. “But I'll let you know, I tried to help because I care.” Without giving his lover a chance to reply, Hiei flitted from the window out into the December snow.

I got lost in a blink of an eye,
And I can never get back, no Inever got back,

He refused to look back, knowing that it would only mean seeing that beautiful face peering after him, eyes rimmed with tears. He knew it would only lead to him trying to take back words that he'd be unable to erase anyway. He hadn't meant it the way he said those things. But the fox deserved it, he tried to convince himself. Hiei had tried to comfort him, but had only been brushed aside like a useless insect. Kurama couldn't have done that if he truly cared, if Hiei meant anything to him. So, Hiei went to the next best place that he knew to be safe. He ran to the Makai, to Mukuro. Maybe she'd know what to do.

You were not there when I wanted to say,
That you were everythingright and it wasn't you but me to change,

“I tried to tell him everything!” Hiei screamed to the remnants of his pillow, torn to shreds and thrown across his room. “I tried so many times! He wouldn't listen to me! I was wrong, ok? I was going to fix it! It's his fault! All his fault that I couldn't fix it!” He sunk down in the only corner of his room not covered with feathers and broken furniture, bringing his knees up and hugging them to his chest. Mukuro's advice had been useless. She just told him to go and admit all his mistakes in acting too callous, to simply promise to fix it, and everything would be alright.

Now I got to go it alone,
But I'll never give up, no I'll never give up

But it wouldn't be alright. Kurama had rejected him. He knew the fox needed support, but what was he to do if the support he tried to give wasn't accepted? Besides, the koorime admitted to himself within the darkness of his own quarters, he needed support, too. He had always been afraid that Kurama would forget about what they had, would eventually push him away like a toy that had gotten boring. The red head had promised him, over and over, it wouldn't happen. “So what is this then, you lying son of a bitch?!” Hiei yelled into the mess of glass and cloth and papers. “It's your fault you know!”

Whatam I fighting for,
There must be something more,

“Compromise,” Mukuro said simply from the doorway to her heir's bedroom. “There's something you need to fix, and there's something he needs to fix. He'll work it out with himself in time, and you need to be by his side when he does.”

For all these words I've said,
Do you feel anything

“What if he won't let me by his side anymore?” the dejected fire demon sniffled into the soft cloth of his trousers. “What if he works himself out, only to find he doesn't need me to do it?” He couldn't take another rejection from his only love. “Would you let him by your side, after the smoke has cleared?” The ruler asked gently. “Of course!” Hiei said emphatically, giving her a shocked look for even asking. “Then how do you know he won't? Go try, Hiei, or you bring his rejection only upon yourself!” She walked away after that, trusting her heir would do what he needed to.

I said I'm ok but I know how to lie,
You were all that I had,
You were delicate and hard to find,

Kurama sat quietly in a corner of his own room, unknowingly mirroring Hiei's position a world away. He made no attempt to stop what seemed to be lately like an unending stream of tears. “I'm not just sulking…” he murmured to himself quietly, startling himself with his hoarse voice. “I'm sorry. I'm alright. Please Hiei,” he pleaded, as though the fire demon were still standing there listening. He knew it was just another lie, he hadn't been alright since he got the phone call from his stepfather. But he had to believe it, to make Hiei come back, and he had to make Hiei believe it, to make his lover stay.

Got lost in the back of my mind,
And I can never get back, no Inever got back

“I'm sorry, Shuuichi,” his stepfather said quietly, “she did pass away peacefully, if that helps any.” Shuuichi just nodded numbly, as his gaze slipped again to the floor, “Yes.” Mr. Hatanaka tried to put his hand on his step son's shoulder to comfort him, but Kurama slipped just out of his grasp. “Shuuichi,” he said softly, trying again, “I know it's hard. She was very important to you. We've all suffered a great loss, and I just hope you know that I'm here if you'd like to talk.” Again all he received was Kurama's automatic nod. “Ok,” he nearly whispered, then turned and walked out of the house, away from her scent which still lingered all around. Already, he had begun his descent into the deepest depression he'd experienced yet.

You were not there when I needed to say,
I hit the bottom so fast that my head was spinning 'round for days,

Kurama had been walking around in a silent stupor. He still went to work everyday, and did his routine chores. But he stopped going out with the gang, instead staying home to do what they could only hope wasn't cutting himself. The few times they did drag him into the open, he just followed silently, never saying a word to any of them, and slipping away at the soonest opportunity. He just couldn't figure out what was going on in his own head. Emotions swirled into an indecipherable blur: despair and hate, longing for comfort, but wanting nothing more than to be alone.

Now I gotta go it alone,
But I will nevergive up, no I'll never give up

But now that confusion had just cost him the most important person in the world. He had closed himself off, not wanting to dump his feelings on any of the others. They had tried, and he knew what he was doing was a bit selfish, but he didn't think it had hurt any of them that bad. Now, he truly regretted his decision. “I'm sorry, Hiei,” the red haired fox whispered. “I'll do better, I swear I will, just please come back…”

What am I fighting for,
There must me something more,

“I'm so stupid,” Kurama berated himself. “To let myself hurt him so. I don't deserve for him to come back!” The though spawned a new wave of tears, though. “Please come back, Hiei. I'm sorry.”

For all these words I've said,
Do you feel anything

Did he even care, though? Did he truly mean what he had said, and mean to truly leave for good? “No! Hiei, you know I didn't mean it! I didn't know I was hurting you! Just give me another chance, koibito! I'll do better now!” Out side Kurama's window, with his energy concealed, Hiei watched his lover apologize over and over to the empty walls. Did the fox mean it that much?

What am I fighting for,

“Why am I doing this? Hurting the most wonderful person in all three worlds. Just like the damned person I am…” Hiei shook his head, ashamed of himself.

What am I fighting for

“How could I do this? Hurting the best thing I've ever had in all three worlds. What a bastard I am…” Kurama dropped his head into his hands, ashamed of his actions.

Never give up on this
Never give up on this

“I'm sorry, Kurama.” Hiei whispered, landing on Kurama's window sill. He looked deeply into the fox's eyes, trying to express the guilt he felt through that one look.

Never give up on this

“I'm sorry, Hiei.” Kurama whispered, lifting his head to the window. He looked deeply into the koorime's eyes, trying to express the shame he felt through that one look.

Said I'm ok but I know how to lie,

I will never give up, no I'll never give up

“I know what I did was wrong. But I swear I'll not do it again. I'll make it up to you, koibito.” Kurama professed, standing and taking a step towards Hiei.

What am I fighting for,
There must me something more,

“I shouldn't have left you Kurama, not when you needed me. I won't do it again, I promise.” Hiei answered, stepping in from the window towards his lover.

For all these words I've said,
Do you feel anything

“Do you mean it?” They asked in unison. “Of course!” They both replied simultaneously. Kurama smiled through his tears, “I love you, Hiei.” Hiei smiled back, “I love you too, Kurama.”

What am I fighting for (No I'm never gonna give up, give up)
What am I fighting for (No I'm never gonna give up, give up)

“I didn't mean what I did, koibito,” Kurama said gently, taking another step closer to Hiei and holding his arms out to his small demon. “I didn't mean what I said, fox,” Hiei said just a quiet, taking the last step between them and straight into his beautiful kitsune's arms.

Said that I'd fight for the one that I've found,
I'm gonna stay here while I wait for you to come around,

“I know it hurts, fox. But remember that I'll be here for you the whole time,” Hiei said, standing on tip toe to kiss the human who had stolen his heart.

I fight you'reapart of me now,
And I will never give up, no I'll never give up.

“I know, Hiei. And I'll always be here for you, too.” Kurama replied, leaning down and meeting the koorime halfway.

And as the chilled winter air blew in from the open window in the darkened bedroom, neither demon noticed, wrapped in the warm barrier of each other's arms. It had been a long week, but miraculously, they had gotten through it. The bitter memories were still fresh in their minds, though, and would be for some time to come…

They had plenty of time.

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Song: Fighting

Artist: Yellowcard

Anime: Yu Yu Hakusho

Author: Me

Story © Me

My inspiration was derived from a video I saw on Youtube made by DrowningInFlame: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pcT60XHAIyA Thanks for giving me my idea, DrowningInFlame! XD I did change a few things up in the storyline she gave, though. Maybe not what she imagined, but hopefully as good. So this story's dedicated to her!