Yu Yu Hakusho Fan Fiction ❯ Found In The Dark ❯ Lost in the Clouds ( Chapter 4 )

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Summery: Botan starts to think about her life, or what it once was, and goes into depression and no one seems to notice, except one person. This is going to be a Hiei/Botan story.

Disclaimer-I do not own Yu Yu Hakusho, never had, and never will -Goes into the corner and cries-

Title: Found in the Darkness

Chapter Four: Lost in the Clouds

Botan felt helpless as she hung over Nilo's shoulder. She knew that she would only get more hurt if she struggled but she didn't want to go through torched again. Nilo was flying again in the direction of his castle. `He doesn't really think that Hiei doesn't know where that is, does he?' she thought.

"Well, Botan, it seems that they are following us once again." He said. Botan lifted her head and saw Kurama not too far behind them. Botan felt some peace come over her at the fact that she might be saved. "To bad he won't be able to save you." He said. "None of them will."

Botan once again felt dread overcome her. He did have that kind of power. He could out run Hiei and outsmart Kurama. Why was he so set on getting his revenge? She couldn't have saved him from those demons, unless she wanted to die, while she was already dead. Was that possible? And why was he so set on hurting Hiei also? What did he do? Unless, he was somehow related into how Nilo became a demon. Could he have been?

She yelled as he suddenly dived in the direction of the ground. As he got closer she felt his grip on her weaken until he dropped her and pulled up. She screamed as she fell to the ground. She shut her eyes and cried as she believed this to be her last moments alive, or dead?

As she thought this was the end she fell into a pair of hands. She opened her eyes and found herself looking in the red eyes of the fire demon, Hiei. She felt a rush as he started to run after Nilo again. "What is he planning." He commanded from her, rather than asked. Botan paled a bit at the tone of voice he was using.

"I-I don't know."

"What do you mean you don't know?!" He shouted at her.

"I-I don't." she said weakly. He growled a bit before he dumped her on the floor and ran after Nilo. Kurama appeared behind her.

"What happened?" he asked her.

Botan got up from the ground and rubbed her bruised arms. "I…He…Um…I don't know?" she said confused. What was Hiei planning? And why hadn't Nilo held on to her? Did he think that they wouldn't catch her? This was all getting to confusing to her. "I think Hiei is going after him." She said as she started to walk off.

"Where are you going?" Kurama called after her. Botan just kept walking. She was confused, hurt, and wanted to be alone. So she closed her eyes and was gone, leaving a very confused Kurama behind.

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Botan opened her eyes and smiled. She was at her old home. The one from when she was alive. A small old fashion Japanese town. The homes weren't very fancy as many others were but the village was undisturbed. The homes were run down with birds resting on many of them. She looked till she saw the one by a shrine with a big apple blossom tree in the front yard. She walked over to her old home that she stared in with her mother.

The paper doors were torn in many placed and some had been torn off and thrown on the floor. She looked at feathers and scratch marks on the floor. She felt herself cry as she remembered her last day as a human, with a family.

-Flashback-

It was in the spring that she went to visit her mother while her father and nurse went to Sweden for business. Her smaller step brother came along with her to visit her mom. He was about one year and had dark black hair, and bright blue eyes.

Botan had recently discovered that her hair was blue naturally and every time she bathed the nurse put coloring in her shampoo. She liked having blue hair, but the other children would constantly mock her for it. So she would turn it blond when she could.

Now her hair was in a ponytail and the blue streaks where showing. Her mother stood on her porch in her yellow kimono.

"Welcome Botan. How are you and your brother?" she asked as they walked into the home.

Botan put down her brother and smiled up at her mother. "Hello mother. Kinto is doing well. He really does look like the nurse though." She told her as she hugged her mother. Even after the divorce her mother wouldn't remarry. She said that her father still held her love and she didn't wish to love another.

Kinto got up and ran over to the small table with food on it. "Guess he is hungry than eh?" he mother said as she walked over and started to show him how chop sticks worked.

"I want to go see Mr. and Mrs. Milzakei mom. Be back in a few minutes." She said.

"Ok, dear. Be careful." She said. Botan rolled her eyes, wondering what she should be careful of.

"Sure mom." She said as she left the house. She walked out and across the dirt road to see an elderly woman on a chair looking at her grandchildren playing in the yard. "Hello Mrs. Milzakei." Botan said with a small bow. The woman smiled at her.

"It is good to see you in good health Botan." She said as she called for her husband inside the home.

"Hello Botan dear." He said with a bow, followed by one of her own. "It is wonderful to see you here again. We missed you."

"And I missed you. I hope you are all in good health?" she asked.

"Yes. The gods seem to look on us with grace. No one in my family had lived over seventy-five years. And yet here I am, Seventy-nine." The woman said smiling. Botan smiled back and looked out into the yard.

She was now nineteen and much more mature than she once was. She had greater respect for those around her.

"How is Tokmy?" she asked as the small boy ran past with his sister in his wake.

"He and Nilky are well. I wish they didn't have as much energy though." The elderly man said. Botan smiled.

"Well, I must leave and help my mother with dinner. Have a good day." She said with a smile and a bow. She walked over to the other side of the road and waved at the boy named Yamki over at the other home. When she was little and grew up with her mother and father they lived her. She and Yamki would always play together. She and him had become friends instantly after that. His black hair was always tied back into a small ponytail.

He smiled back and came over. "Hi Botan. How is your life?" he asked as he played with a stray strand of his hair. Botan smiled at him.

"Mine is boring and missing things." She always would tell him exactly what was on her mind. "You?"

He looked up at her and smiled. "I am well, my father has left us recently to the afterlife and now I am in charge of the family. Mother is getting sick and Hinko is growing far to fast." He said with a frown. "I don't know how father could deal with all this." He said looking down at his hands. Botan grabbed his hand and made him look at her.

"Why don't you and your family join mine for dinner? You all might like the company." She said as she pulled him with her to her home. Once he saw Kinto he paled.

"I-is he yours?" he asked. Botan frowned.

"No. He is my step brother." She said. He instantly regained the coloring in his face.

"Oh. He is cute, your father and nurses?" he asked bending down and patting Kinto on the head.

"Yea." She said as he smiled up at her. Botan blushed slightly and looked over to her mother, who was smiling wisely at her. "Um…Mom? Yamki is going to join us with his family for dinner. Is that ok?" she asked. Her mother smiled and nodded yes. "Ok. See you in a while." She said as he left to his mother and brother.

"He is nice." Her mother said. She always said that when he visited.

"Yes, he is." She replied.

Later that night the two families sat together eating and chatting. Her mother was busy talking to Yamki's mother about some kind of new product out for cleaning or something, and the two small boys where throwing food at one another and giggling.

Botan felt extremely nervous at the moment as she felt Yamki was planning something. "So. How is India?" he asked her. Botan relaxed a bit.

"It is very nice this time of year. But poverty is growing quiet a bit." She said as she put some rice in her mouth. She shifted in her blue Kimono that she wore for the occasion.

"That is nice." He said.

Un-noticed to them there was a large group of men outside the village. They wore complete black suits of ninja's and had pale skin and dark eyes. They had been planning to raid the city for weeks. They had been paid well by a man named Shilno. He said something about an artifact there that he must have. They didn't ask questions though. They just did their jobs. Silently they crept into the village sticking to the shadows. Many of the lights were off and people were sleeping. On home still had it's light on and you could hear voices inside.

One man in front gestured for them to proceed into a home across from the home with the lights on. In the room they found two elderly people sleeping silently in the night. The man struck them with his sword making them gasp in pain. The woman looked up at them with pleading eyes as she slowly died in her bed. The man, had a heart attack and died.

The ninja's looked around the home for the gold statue but did not find it so they moved across the street. Inside they could hear laughter and talking. A large family sat around the table. The man pointed to the roof and they got on. He them made a hole in it and they all jumped down and onto the table.

Botan screamed as a man stuck her brother with his sword and pulled it out, blood dripping off of it and onto the rice on his plate. The man looked around at them and jumped down attacking. Yamki grabbed Botan and ran with her into the bedroom. He pulled one of the swords off the wall and turned to her.

"What ever you do stay here!" he exclaimed as the noises of swords on flesh could be heard. Botan grabbed his arm, begging him to stay. "I will not let them destroy the only family I have." He said before he kissed her and turned to leave.

Botan felt tears running down her face as she could hear cries of pain in the other room. And she could do absolutely nothing for her family of Yamki. She fell on the futon and brought her knees to her chest as she heard silence in the other room. She heard footsteps coming her way and she prayed to the gods that it was Yamki or anyone for that mater, who wasn't one of the ninja's.

The door slid open and in walked the group of ninja's that still lived. Botan couldn't breathe as they eyed her. She know she was about to die, and she had no control over it. The man in front went over to her dresser and pulled off the small statue on it her father had given her many years before. And he left. The room was dark and she heard breathing from the other room.

With a gasp she felt the sword go through her side and it pulled back. She fell to the ground struggling to breathe again. The men left her alone in the room to slowly bleed to death. She pulled herself in the other room and next to Yamki. "I am sorry." He breathed with little breath. "I never got to tell you…that…I…Love…you…" he said as he soon after died. Botan was crying again as she saw the only man to ever love her like that die before her eyes. She clung to him as she felt herself grow dizzy from the blood loss.

"I…I…loved…you…tooR 30;" she said as she then died.

-End of the Flashback-

Botan was crying in the spot where his body once was. She had never been told that she was loved other than from her mother and on occasions, her father. Yamki had said that as his dieing words and she felt awful about it. Why couldn't he have told her before?!

She clung to her knees as she leaned on the wall. She didn't even know why the ninja's came. They just did. She sniffed as she got up and walked to the other room. She didn't get to go to haven like the rest of them did. She got to live on, if you can call this living. She got to see others go to haven, but never herself.

She sat down on the dusty futon that had years and years old blood on it from when they attacked her. She fingered the bed with longing as she played with the him of the end. She sniffed. `I wonder how everyone else is.' She thought as she fell back and looked at the ceiling.

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Hiei was annoyed for two reasons. One; Nilo had gotten away and he couldn't find him. And two; Kurama was making him go and find Botan, again. Once again he was her keeper! His frowned deepened when he thought about what Kurama said she did. She just…disappeared. That bothered him. Since when could she do that?

He looked around till he found the direction she was in. `Stupid girl,' he thought. `Always making me come and rescue her.'

He came to a run down village with bugs and weeds everywhere. "Why come here." He wondered as he looked at the houses. Many of the old paper doors were torn down, closed, opened, or ripped. He looked at the house that he knew she was in. As he walked to it he looked up at the Apple Blossom tree by the door. The flowers were just now coming in and the tree looked beautiful.

He walked in to see a huge mess all over the walls and floor. The table in the back was broken with plates and cups everywhere; some broken, others nor.

He could hear her sniffing in the other room and he quietly walked over to it. Botan lye on an old futon looking at the ceiling with her eyes closed and tears running down her cheeks. He walked over to her and looked down. "Why are you crying?" he asked as gently as he could. Botan's eyes shot open and she shot up. She looked at him and him with a small blush at him seeing her cry.

"I um…was just thinking."

Hiei decided to press on. "About what?"

Botan looked at her shoes and felt like crying again. But she wouldn't do that in front of him, he would just laugh at her and call her a weakling. Instead she bit her tongue.

"Why do you care?!"

"I don't. But I like to know things." He replied. Botan looked up at him and let out a breath.

"I was thinking about how I died." She said.

Hiei decided to sit and listen to her story. "Go on."

"What?"

"Tell me how you died."

Botan looked back at her hands as he sat against the wall on the other side of the room. "Me and my family and some friends where attacked one day by ninja's." she said simply.

"Something tells me there is more to it than that." He said. Botan nodded.

"It is more about what I learned as I died than anything."

"And that was?"

"My best friend was in love with me. He told me as he died next to me." She said letting a tear escape. Hiei watched as it fell on her knee and then looked up at her pink eyes. "But…I lied to him by telling him that I loved him back. At least not in the way he wished, so he died after I lied!" she said as she gave up and let out a sob. She didn't care if he called her weak, or laughed at her. She just wanted to cry.

Hiei watched as she hugged her legs to her and cried. He hated when he got in situations like this. He never knew what to do and most of the time he didn't care. Botan whipped her eyes and looked at him.

"Thanks for not laughing or calling me weak." She said with a sniff. In a strange way, that was comfort enough. He nodded and looked up at the torn roof.

"Why did you want to come to a place that makes you cry?" he asked her. Botan shrugged.

"I like to remember what I once had. I don't know why." She said when he gave her a look. "I can't explain it." She said as she pulled her legs tighter to her. Hiei just looked at her and sat there making sure nothing bad was to happen to her again.

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Yuskue had gone home once Hiei had gone out to find Botan. His arms hurt and he missed his hair. He scratched his head and mumbled some curses. His head itched a lot now that his hair had been cut.

He opened the front door to find his mother on the couch with the TV on and drool coming out of the side of her mouth. He sighed and took the remote and turned the TV off.

He put the remote back on the table and turned around yelling in surprise at who was there. "Keiko?!" he said trying to whisper.

"Hello Yuskue." She said softly. Yuskue gave her a confused look.

"What are you doing here?" he asked.

"We need to talk." Was all she said as they walked up to his room.

"I don't like the sound of that." He said to himself as he opened the door for her. Keiko turned to him and sat down on his bed while he took a chair in front of the desk. "So…" he started.

"Yuskue, I need to ask you something." She said looking down at her hands. He looked up at her.

"And that is."

"What about school?" That wasn't what she really wanted to ask, but it was a start.

"What about it?"

"Well, what are you going to do with your life and all," she started before getting cut off.

"Keiko, you know that I really don't need it. I am a spirit detective and all. I don't think I need schooling for that."

"Than why is Kurama still going to school?" She asked him.

"His mother," he said.

"What about yours?"

"She doesn't need me too."

"What about supporting her? She hasn't had a steady job for months." She pointed out.

"I'll get a job."

"How will you get a job with out an education?"

"There are some jobs I can take with out one."

"They don't pay near enough for you to support your mom and you."

"Then I will marry someone who can take care of me," he said starting to get annoyed.

"And who will that be?!" She said standing up and glaring at him.

"I don't know! But apparently it isn't going to be you!" he said angrily. Keiko stared at him with tears in her eyes. For the past few years they had been in a strange relationship. She was the only one who could put up with him all the time and she planned on always being there for him.

Once he said that he knew he made a mistake. "Keiko?" he asked her as he reaching out for her. She pulled away and whipped away her tears.

"You know Yuskue, I think we need to spend some time apart, you need to think about a few things and so do I. I will see you at school tomorrow, I hope." She said as she left the room and walked out of the house.

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Botan woke up in a very dark room. At first she panicked not knowing where she was but relaxed when she saw Hiei on the far wall, seeming as if he was sleeping. She pulled her legs away from her body and tried to stand up. Her legs protested at first as she stood. She scratched her legs and looked over to Hiei.

He wasn't there.

Botan looked around the room trying to find him. "Hiei?" she asked when she didn't see him. "Where did you go?" She heard movement at the ceiling and looked up. Hiei sat at the edge of the hole and was looking up at the starry sky. "What are you doing?" she asked when he looked down at her.

"Looking at the stars." He said simply. Botan nodded and looked for a way for her to get to the roof. Once she got an idea she left the room and walked out of the home and to the tree. She started to climb it, with difficulty, trying to get to the far branch to get onto the roof.

Her feet kept getting stuck or slipped as she climbed till finally she felt herself start to fall. She felt herself fall into someone's arms and gasped as she was lifted into the air quickly. She looked up to see Hiei looking down at her. "T-Thanks."

He just nodded and carried her up to the tip of the roof. He put her down and she sat down. He soon joined her. "What are you thinking about?" she asked him.

"Something that I don't plan on telling you," he said in an annoyed voice.

"That's fair." She said. She looked up at the sky and wondered about the others again. "Where is everyone else?"

"Most likely at their homes," he said.

"Why haven't you left yet?" she asked him.

Hiei looked over at her. "I don't see a reason to leave." Botan felt herself blush and looked away and back at the sky.

"Oh." Was all she could say.

She played with the end of her now ripped shirt and looked back at him after a few moments. "Can you take me to Keiko's? I want to go back."

Hiei looked over at her once again and nodded. He got up and she climbed on his back getting comfortable. "Thank you for everything Hiei." She told him. He simply replied with an `hn'. Botan put her head against his back and looked up at the sky as he raced back to Keiko's. A shooting star passed and Botan pulled on his hair making him stop.

"What?!" he hissed as he rubbed his head.

"Make a wish." She said pointing at the star. She closed her eyes and thought of the one thing she wished for most of all. Hiei looked over at her and sighed. He made a wish.

"Why do you make a wish?"

"Sometimes it may come true." She said looking back at him. Hiei just looked at her before letting her back on his back.

"Time to go." Was all he said as he once again raced off to Keiko's with Botan on his back.

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To Be Continued

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