Yu Yu Hakusho Fan Fiction ❯ Ghost Story ❯ A Hundred Days ( Epilogue )

A Hundred Days

~A hundred days that make me older

Since the last time that I saw your pretty face

A thousand lies have made me colder

And I don't think I can look at this the same~

I can't remember the last time I saw you. Has it been that long, or is it my loneliness that makes time slow down? Were you ever here? Sometimes I try to convince myself that you weren't, but then I remember everything we did together and I can't lie to myself anymore. I break down every time I think about you. It is almost too much for one person to bear alone. For now I am alone. I am truly alone in this forsaken world.

~And all the miles that separate

All disappear now when I'm dreaming of your face. ~

The only real solace I find is in my sleep. In my dreams I am with you. These dreams aren't planned, and I don't control them, but every time I fall asleep you're there. It's an ongoing thing, the first time I had the dream I told you everything I should have told you from the beginning but didn't. In my dreams we live together now, in your old apartment.

~I'm here without you baby

But you're still on my lonely mind

I think about you baby

And I dream about you all the time~

Gods above I miss you! I love you! Why can't those three words bring you back! Those are the words that are supposed to fix everything, why can't they fix this?! I wish I could stop thinking about you, but I don't. I don't ever want to let you go, but it's hard to deal with all this pain.

~I'm here without you baby

You're still with me in my dreams

And tonight it's only you and me. ~

Another night of the most beautiful dreams any one person could posses. I was with you in a field; we had decided to go on a picnic. It was a beautiful day in the Ningenkai. We were in the park sitting on a blanket, eating our lunch. You pulled me close to you and linked our hands. You stared deep into my eyes and said the words I'll never hear: "Ai Shiteru."

~The miles just keep rolling

As the people make their way to say hello

I heard this life is over-rated

But I hope it gets better as we go. ~

I am so far away from you, so far from what I had wanted to be. At one time I had wanted to be the most powerful demon and take over anything and everything. Then I had wanted to be with you. I wanted to live with you, live for you. I wanted your love. I wanted you. Now I want to leave this world. I want to go to where you are, but they do not allow demons in the Reikai. I will never see you again, but I hope against hope that I will.

People, demons, everyone is on the fast track of life. They're all going forward and I am stuck in time. I wish that I wasn't, but the thoughts of you keep me back, and I cannot lose the only solace I have. They are all happy, I am sad. They are all saying `hello'; I am learning to say `goodbye.'

I can't do it! I can't go on in this life! I cannot bear the pain, but then I remember some words that your mother told to me when I went to tell her everything that you hid, I know you wanted her to know it all. She told me that `life is what you make of it. Things will not get better until you will them to. It hurts so much to lose one so dear, but what else can we do than move on? I know that it sounds cold and heartless, but we must go on for the sake of those who have passed before us. Life is not over-rated.' Life is over-rated. I heed her words though; I try to make it better. I hope it gets easier to live.

~I'm here without you baby

But you're still on my lonely mind

I think about you baby

And I dream about you all the time~

Can I not get you off of my mind for one second?! I keep dreaming of you! I cannot bear the pain of your loss! It is too much for me, I fear. I never cared for anyone so deeply as I cared for you, not even my sister, and I didn't even notice until it was too late.

~I'm here without you baby

But you're still with me in my dreams

And tonight it's only you and me. ~

Oh to be alone with you. To hold you in my arms. Will this bittersweet torture never end? I know that you are not really there, and yet I do this every night. I pretend that this dream is real, and that my reality is the dream. I cannot convince myself.

~Everything I've known

And anywhere I go

It gets hard but it won't take away my love~

It's gotten worse now. Everywhere I am you are there. You are everywhere. You are everything. Life is so hard without you. I have no friends, I have no family, I have no you, I have nothing. I guess I forgot to tell you that I don't have friends. They still don't believe that I didn't kill you. They won't believe. They just can't face the truth, that some random demon came to the Ningenkai and killed a totally random person. I bet you didn't even know what hit you. They left me. They left me all alone. This is what I get for opening myself to these emotions. I get hurt. Why do you think I never wanted to open up? It's happened every time I've tried. Every time I've opened up I've been hurt and betrayed. They left me, the koorime threw me off the island, everyone.

~And when the last one falls

And when it's all said and done

It gets hard, but it won't take away my love. ~

No matter what happens, no matter what has happened, I will love you. I can't stop. I've denied these feelings long enough. I don't want to give up this love. I don't want to give up the happiness that might have been. I don't want to give up these dreams. No matter what happens during the day, I will come back to my dreams and I will be with you. That is all that matters.

~I'm here without you baby

But you're still on my lonely mind

I think about you baby

And I dream about you all the time~

The day is a bleak existence. I fall to my bed and am instantly asleep. I have fought for my pathetic excuse for a life yet again. I don't care to go back to it for a while. I am going to the solace of my dreams.

~I'm here without you baby

But you're still with me in my dreams

And tonight girl it's only you and me. ~

"Hiei?"

"Yes Kurama?"

"What are you doing here so early? I thought you were at work with Mukuro."

"I left early."

"Hiei… please tell me you didn't get yourself killed."

"I am Hiei, not Kuwabara. I am perfectly capable of taking care of myself."

"But Hiei, there were four of them, and you weren't in peak condition."

"I could beat them blindfolded for you."

"Hiei…"

"I destroyed them. I'm fine. Can't you tell?"

"… Hiei, the fact that you are here worries me."

"Why?"

"You never come before nine."

"Why are talking about my horrid dreams as if they were my reality?"

"Because they are your reality Hiei, this is the dream."

"It can't be."

"Why? Because I'm here? I'm dead Hiei; you know that better than anyone. Why are you here so early? Do you really hate your existence that much?"

"… I was tired…"

"Tired? What kind of tired?"

"Why are you worried? If you're dead it shouldn't matter to you!"

"I care about you so much Hiei! You should know that from these dreams! I love you!"

"Then why did you leave me?!"

"Why are you here?"

"… I was tired so I took a nap."

"Did they hurt you?"

"Just a few scratches."

"Hiei, to you a scratch is a mortal wound."

"So?"

"Hiei! Are you… you can't be… you have to live…"

"Don't cry Kurama, I will be with you always."

Hello. I have gotten way too many requests for a sequel to "Ghost Story", so I attempted one. This song is, I believe, "A Hundred Days" by Three Doors Down. I love this song. I believe that it is the perfect song for a sequel, even if the story isn't great. If you didn't like the story, ignore it. Pay attention to the words, whichever suits your fancy is my sequel. I truly hope you liked this.

-Ifurita