Yu Yu Hakusho Fan Fiction ❯ Healing (My Kitsune p3) ❯ Healing 5 ( Chapter 5 )

[ Y - Young Adult: Not suitable for readers under 16 ]
Healing 5 (New York 11-20-02)

...Say you'll share with me one love one lifetime,
Let me lead you from your solitude,
Say you'll need me with you here besides you,
Anywhere you go let me go too.

...Love me
That's all I ask of you...

-That's all I ask of you (Phantom of the Opera): A.
L. Weber



A god?" Kurama asked.

"Aa." it's still talking...

(...and with your Jagan you can use a person's energy
and make it your own, your capacity, strength and
energy are way beyond the size of your frame, with me
within you we can trancend the flesh and become
immortal, your potential for growth is staggering. You
can finally avenge your Kitsune. What that youkai did
is unforgivable...)

I shut it off and in effect closed Kurama from me. I
frowned. I did not want to do that, I can't feel his
prescence within me. A sharp intake of breath made me
look at Kurama and I saw the look of surprise in his
eyes, his hand went to his chest slowly. He looked
like he lost something.

He looked at me and frowned.

This meant that I can't have my kitsune the way I
want him. I looked down and away, I'm as dissapointed
as he is but I do not want to listen to that... that
thing.

"Hiei?" he asked his soft warm fingers caressed my
chin.

"I want it gone. Let's destroy it first thing
tomorrow."

I can't say the thing didn't tempt me, I can sense
the truth in it's words but it has an agenda of it's
own. It thinks for itself but is not very clever. It
would be another battle of wills. I lost my taste for
power when I realized it is not the be all and end all
of my existence. I have new reasons for living now.
One of them is to be with my Kurama. If I trancend the
flesh and become a god... I can't be with Kurama.

And if we don't destroy that thing soon I'll... no...
what good is power to destroy a world when I won't
have anywhere to go?

Without my Kurama...

Power at par with Enma Daiou's...

Immortality, the ability to see the future, to
command every human and demon by simply willing it, to
grant death regardless of spiritual strength...

Hmmm....

And what kind of god would I become? The three-eyed
god of fiery death? I have no skill for healing I am
not benevolent or kind nor am I an adept at caring,
hell I'm still learning this love thing.

Kurama would never never want that.

What's the use of all that power without my Kurama?

It's settled then. Destroy the Eye of the goddess of
mercy.

I made sure to get rid of all the knots in Kurama's
hair. First off I thought it was impractical, it's
long enough to reach his waist and so thick it frames
his face and gets into his eyes. After I earned the
right to fondle it and pulled out almost 30 pieces of
plant material, I changed my mind.

He combed my hair too, I never bothered combing my
hair because it stays that way always. It's been like
that since I was born and it will remain like that
more or less until I die. It feels good though, so I
didn't tell him my hair didn't need that attention.

Washing, now that felt nice. He lowered me into the
hot tub with him, hissing and ooohhing as we settled
down into the warmth. We scrubbed each other's hair
with that shampoo that smelled like dark musky roses,
afterwards I leaned against one of the set of
agitators and sighed as the the jets of water gave me
a massage. I made sure Kurama won't blister from the
temperature by surrounding him with my ki, he's
flushed to the roots of his hair as he leaned on his
set of agitators his head thrown back, swirling waves
of contentment surrounded him.

He held a hand out to the flowering bushes
surrounding us and touched a leaf on one of them, I
saw that plant burst into more flowers filling the air
with it's heady exotic scent. It intoxicated me, not
unpleasantly, it drove away my concerns and worries
and all the things we have to think of in order to get
rid of that thing in Kurama. Those are flower scents I
will forever associate with my kitsune and this
moment, roses, Night Jasmine, and citrous calamoundin.

I moved from my seat and sat on his lap with my back
to his chest. He parted his legs and wrapped them
around me, his arms surrounded me, I brushed my cheek
against his before I leaned on him my head a little
lower but next to his. Now this is even better. I
sighed closed my eyes and let myself drift into a nap.

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The water is so hot it's making me drowsy, the
agitators are massaging me, the scent of rose oil in
the bath, jasmine and calamoundins in full bloom
filling the space around us with their exotic
invigorating scents and finally Hiei against me, the
finishing touch to this recipe for bliss.

He rubbed his cheek against mine before he slid lower
and rested his head on my shoulder. His hands were on
mine as I held his waist in a loose hug our legs
twined underwater.

Although I can still feel Hiei around me and within
me, it wasn't as intense as it used to be. I couldn't
feel the low shimmer of his thoughts but I can still
feel his emotions. It's the eye, he's actually
avoiding it, he's avoiding a call to power. That is
something the Hiei of old would have grabbed with both
hands even at my expense. Not my Hiei though, he wants
to destroy it, he can see it's evil and it's
consequences.

It talked to him... I guess I'm a bit jealous because
the thing is inside me and I didn't hear anything.
Hiei is special, I think the thing wants Hiei for what
he is, a powerful psychic and a passionate fighter.
It's his tempered passions that summon his power to
greater heights. Kinda like how Yusuke gets stronger
after every fall. Both of them would force themselves
to their feet and Yusuke would reach deep inside him
for that final burst of strength, while Hiei would
realease that burning passion deep within him that he
always kept under control.

Control, that's the key word. I understand why it
took him months to free himself from Kissaki, he had
to keep himself together while he battled his newly
implanted Jagan and fought off the mask that
controlled him, all this he had to do despite the
sedatives he'd been force fed. Building his strength
little by little, biding his time till he was strong
enough to break free. Once again I am in awe of his
strength.

He's decided we can't do much tonight and I didn't
press. We are not in a hurry. It's just 6pm, we could
go out for dinner or call room service or tour the
city our way or...

Or is good, I am so jealous, I want to make love with
him, let me Shuichi, please let me?

But you said he'll challenge you if I let you and-

I can handle him.

He gives you that dissapointed look and you'll trip
all over yourself trying to please him.

What? Don't you have faith in me?

Not where Hiei is concerned, your still in denial.

I am not!

I snorted, he sounded indignant but did not continue,
so I guess I made my point. I picked up a bath luffa,
soaked it in the bath till it was soft then poured
some of the body wash they have for us on it. I worked
up a nice handful of suds and started scrubbing him.
From the neck, down one arm, wrist, between his
fingers... he sighed and I could feel he is pleased by
this. I grazed his nipples on my way to the other arm.
I didn't take his ward off, it's not my place to do
that. The Youko was brash enough to do it because the
scent of Hiei's blood staining his arm ward was
upsetting.

"Hmmmm..." that's how it began then it got lower and
deeper and turned into a sound I've never heard from
him before. It vibrated against my own chest and I
understood it's not a sound made by the vocal chords
anymore. I kept my mouth shut, I know he's going to
deny it, if I told him he's... purring.

I bit my lower lip to contain a burst of humor that
would have given me away and ruin the moment. I
continued scrubbing him using more body wash now that
I have to scrub underwater. His back, his chest, his
belly, down one leg to his toes, up the other leg...
and the sound never paused with his breathing.

Why are you surprised? His kind do that when they're
wooing their females or when the females want some
action.

I'm surprised because I never thought he had that, I
mean he looks nothing like them...

He is full of surprises isn't he ? (sigh) I envy you
Shuichi, he wants you, he bit you and marked you as
his own. They do that too you know, they are
polygamous, the male who has more than one woman has
several sets of teethmarks, same with the female. I
want his teeth on me, I want him to mark me too. He's
going to ask you for it, to mark him and... to take
him.

He'll get used to you, don't worry, you said so
yourself, he's the kind who challenges his fears and
faces them. He never ran away from anything, he always
faces his enemies head on.

I put body wash on my hand and gently but with firm
pressure began cleaning him down there sans luffa. He
parted his legs to present himself to my touch. I
touched him gently the Youko hovering at the back of
my mind, feeling with me, guiding me because he's done
this before.

"Hmmm... Kurama." I almost pouted because he stopped
purring.

"Yes my love?" he seemed to rise from sleep when he
moved languidly to turn his head and kiss my neck. It
sent a shiver of fear and anticipation through me.
Will he bite? Will the next pass of that hot tounge
end in blood? I brought my finger down to his entrance
and began teasing him there on the outside. He moaned
and twisted around to face me.

"Kurama, this time, I want you inside me." He
breathed his words against my chin in that husky voice
of arousal.

Another thing Hiei is famous for is his copius
amounts of patience. "Are you sure Koi?"

He straddled my hips and offered his chest to my
lips. "My goal is your Youko form, I'm used to your
prescence," I parted my lips over the center of his
chest and his hands enveloped my head "I want to have
all of you, I want to know you completely."

See? He wants you too, patience my older self.

"It will hurt." I pulled him away from me so I can
look him in the eyes "I might hurt you, and he will
definitely hurt you if you force him."

He looked straight at me his eyes darkly serious, his
stubborn streak was there in the firm line of his
lips. "So?" he asked.

I and the youko within me sighed.

"Kurama," his finger went under my chin and lifted my
face to look at him. "Help me." His eyes...

Could we? Shuichi?

Oh goddamit! He used his secret weapon! See? I told
you you wouldn't be able to say no to him.

You can help him, get him used to you first then
we'll see from there. I won't interfere, I won't take
over, do it your way. Take him!

I saw dissapointment filter into Hiei's expression
while I hesitated, goaded from within and without
against my better judgement. So I gave him my answer,
I took his nipple between my lips and continued
touching his nether mouth.

He hissed. But he pulled my lips away from him and he
made me look at him. I sighed and let him carry my
head for me. "I want to, I want you, but I don't want
memories of me written right next to the memories of
your captivity." He was silent for along while.

"But, when?" he asked a deceptively simple question.
Hiei is telling me he's going to be patient, but he is
dissapointed. If the Youko was physically here he
would have swatted the back of my head and called me a
moron.

"I'm sorry Hiei, right now is as good a time as any."
I looked up at him "I'll take care of you, but it's
going to hurt."

He nodded grimly " I know." I felt his lips on my
head "Your not them Kurama."

"Why are you always in a rush?" I asked him as I
wrapped my arms around his waist.

"Because we don't have a lot of time."

My eyes went wide open. "Did you..."

"That eye told me, I don't trust it, it could be
wrong but... what if..."

I sighed and nodded. "What if..." I wrapped him
closer to me and stood up carefully. Water, even if
it's hot, isn't a fire demon's element. I put Hiei
down outside the jacuzzi, he took his soaked wards off
and left them on a corner of the tub. His brows
furrowed as he exerted his control over his dragon and
his Jagan opened a peek before stopping. I toweled him
dry. "How long do we have?"

He picked up one of the towels and toweled my hair
dry while I did his legs "It said... before the
longest night of the year is over, I will be alone." I
looked up at him indignant, a month? That's all? He
frowned "The future is always moving, nothing is
certain. I have limited foresight but even that I
don't trust. We create our futures by the decitions we
make, only our beliefs make things preordained." he
draped the towel around my shoulders and tossed me
another towel to wrap my hair in. He left me there
contemplating time and it's many paths, Inari...
when's the winter solstice? In 34 days? That's so
unfair!

But what he said is true, nothing is certain, our
future is created by the choices we make. If I believe
something enough it will come true... or... is there
such a thing as destiny, and prophecies, and... and...

I made a decition to believe in Hiei. I will live
everyday with Hiei like it's our last day, I will
enjoy every moment and not waste any time, I will
leave no room for regrets. It dosen't matter if we
have 10 hours or 10 decades, every minuite is precious
and will pass by never to be retrieved.

I picked up the tube of free body lotion and a fresh
towel then followed after Hiei. I found him sitting on
the bed, naked as the day he was born and completely
at ease with it. His Jagan is open just a slit, he's
wrapping his arm carefully and that was the only piece
of cloth he had on.

He's such a hottie, he's got a spare ward between his
lips while he wrapped his forearm, back straight, legs
slightly parted, that thin down of curls framed his
semi awake littler self, his feet dangled from the
bed's edge, the golden glow of the night lamp defined
every muscle in light and shade, the crimson and gold
comforter he sat on made him look like an exotic pet
in a sultan's harem.

I can see clearly why they kept him, it wrenched my
heart because I also know why. He looks innocent and
beautiful in a childlike way, until you see the death
in his eyes and realize this is no child but a learned
assasin. Then you have a mystery in your hands, who is
this little man who shows so much passion trapped
under layers of ice. Why confine that heat? Why hold
back that power? Why struggle for more when all he
need do is open up his heart to it, and let go his
control? How can he be burning hot and freezing at the
same time?

His hot tight body, that cold 'fight' in him, the
danger of courting something that could get loose and
destroy you anytime...

I fell in love all over again. I was so smitten by
the sight and knowledge of him I stopped and leaned
against the doorframe to admire the view some more.

He raised a brow in inquiry. I sighed "Your beautiful
Hiei." I said.

He blushed, that small almost not there smile made
it's apperance. "I'm insulted, I think." I chuckled
and pushed myself off the doorframe.

But I can see in the slight tension at the corner of
his eye that he's forcing himself. Perhaps it's
because of that something shown to him by a sentient
item we both don't trust. This isn't right, but
there's no denying his determination.

He looked up at me as he finished tying up his arm
ward, he did his Jagan ward next with practiced ease,
I felt something in me relax the instant that slit of
power dissapeared, I smiled at him. He saw what I was
holding and reached behind him to show me the tube of
body lotion we used last night. I planted a kiss on
his shoulder as I stopped next to him. "Lie down, on
your belly." He hesitated but did as I told.

I draped the towel over his hips and straddled him.
He looked at me curiously from the corner of his eye.
I winked at him and stuck the tube of lotion under his
belly "Warm that for me love, we'll need that later."
He snorted.

"Why do you people like using me as a, a warming
thing? Yusuke asked me to warm him like a space
heater, he even asks me to light his cigarettes and
bonfires, you made me warm up that pool during that
pool party with everyone, and now your making me warm
up this tube of lotion."

I chuckled "Stop whining love and just do as your
told." I ran my bare teeth over the back of his neck.

"Igh! Kurama!" he shouted and tried to rise to his
elbows.

Ah-ha! Found a tickle spot! I pressed him down so he
couldn't turn over and retaliate while I tried vainly
to suppress a burst of humor. I began kneading his
shoulders and whatever smart retort he was coming up
with got replaced by a groan. He slumped back to the
bed and buried his head into the pillow.

His shoulders are tense, it told me of his
'controlled' apprehensions, but we have time, we have
all night to get this right. I want to make this night
perfect for Hiei, I want this to be the memory that
will replace all his bad ones.

I picked up handfuls of his skin kneading them loose
encouraging bloodflow to the hard well developed
muscles underneath. Hiei has that grownup sculptured
body that has no spare inch of fat, people would think
he works out because he almost always looked 'ripped'.
But we both know it's just his metabolism etching the
lines between his lean natural muscles.

When his back felt relaxed enough I took the tube of
Crabtree and Evelyn rose scented body lotion from
under him and squeezed some on my palm. I snorted
because it was warmer than my hand, and it smelled
good but I figured it would be too strong so I added
some of my unscented Vaseline to it. He took a deep
breath and sighed heavily under me, utterly content
and relaxed.

My first assult on his past is a success, the
apprehension was set aside and forgotten. I began the
second assault with my dollop of combined body
lotions.

Kami-sama, bless my travel agent.

Method of choice? Deep friction. I love this massage
in the spas I used to go to, it involves the use of
thumbs, the pads of fingers, knuckles and the heel of
the palm to deeply stroke muscles into relaxing. The
goal? To turn Hiei into a vegetable.

I was succesful by the time I was done his back, he
was limp and almost asleep. I gave his side a light
spank and asked him to turn over.

He groaned and did so slowly and heavily, he was
frowning as he settled on his back "How come I never
made you do this before?" he asked, he opened an eye
to glare at me. It was a pathetic glare, it wouldn't
scare an old man, I chuckled at him.

"I don't know love, guess we we're busy." I re-draped
the towel over his hips hiding his turgid member
before I straddled him again and began working on his
chest and arms.

I'm not going to hide the fact that all this is
turning me on. That towel is the only barrier between
us and to me it felt like it was several inches thick.
I wanted nothing more than to take it off and feel
Hiei's need against mine. But then I won't be able to
finish massaging him. He opened an eye to look at me
while I pressed my thumbs on his palms and he smiled
at me.

That was all the reward I needed actually. I kissed
his palm when I was done and did the other shoulder.
He never took his eyes off me and that secret almost
not there smile remained.

I was hard and ready by the time I reached his feet.
He's feet are so small and like his hands, delicate, a
woman's foot.

If you value your life, you do not, I repeat, you do
not tell Hiei that he has a woman's delicate hands
and feet. It's like calling him shorty to his face.
Only Kuwabara and Yusuke have the guts to call him
that, and fate have blessed them with circumstances
that put them in Hiei's very short list of friends.

Me? I have privilages! "Your feet are so cute." I
opened my mouth and sucked on his middle toes.

"Quit that Kurama." he drawled out, trying to glare
me into submission with his half mast eye.

"Hmm, no coz you like it." I stuck my tounge between
his toes. They taste like water and the bath oils we
used.

"Feels weird." he said in what was almost a whine.

"Not to me, hmmm, yummy toes." I nibbled his big toe
gently, he gasped and pulled his foot away from me.
Ahh, found another tickle spot!

"Quit that! Your not done my other leg yet." He
offered me his other foot and raised his brows to make
me behave.

"Alright, but I get to play with your toes after I'm
done?" I asked as I obeyed him.

He sighed as I began working on his thigh "Maybe...
depends." he drawled out, closing his eyes again, he
smirked.

I ran my thumbs up his heel to the back of his knees.
"Depends on what?" he didn't answer, I was pressing
the bottom of his feet with my thumbs when I decided I
will not let my question go unanswered, I gently bit
his heel, sliding my teeth over that tender mound of
flesh. He jerked his foot away and sat up in one swift
motion.

"Stop that!" his eyes flew open and a badly
suppressed smile told me my second assault is a
success.

"Ah-ha! Your ticklish!" I said pointing at him. He
glared death at me, then he crossed his arms over his
chest and snubbed me.

"It's rude to point at people." I went over to the
other side where he can see me and I pointed at his
face.

"Your ticklish." He bared his teeth and growled then
swift as a blink tossed me over flat on my back, I
laughed as he began in earnest to look for my tickle
spots.

It was a wrestling match, which ended in fevered
kisses, and equally feverish touches. I managed to
toss him over on his back and he spread his legs for
me, inviting me to touch him there. Our tounges
parried while I prepared him, his hands tangled in my
hair, he moaned into me while I stroked his silky
insides with a finger. When he was relaxed enough I
introduced a second.

He hissed, so our lips parted ways, I moved down to
kiss his littler head to distract him from the
preparation. The Youko's done this to Hiei before on
that fateful day in Hong Kong when he had his way, it
was that and the long foreplay which made Hiei relax
and enjoy this expirience. When he was ready I took my
fingers out, he looked at me with disppointment, but
it didn't stay long he knew what was coming next. I
squeezed another dollop of lotion on my hand and made
myself ready for him, then I sat back on my heels and
held my arms out.

He looked at me, then at my arousal and the choice I
have given him. He nodded solemly, he came into my
arms and knelt high above me. "Here I fall deeper and
deeper..." he whispered as he poised himself over me.
I held his waist and held myself. "Kurama... do you
love me?"

"With all of me." I said against his chest.

"Tell me, please?" his voice was barely a whisper, so
low I almost didn't hear it.

"I love you," I began as I planted kisses on his
fevered skin "I love you like grass loves sunshine. I
need you like wildflowers need rain. Your the moon
that lights my path in the dark. Your rare smile,
when you give them to me fullfills my every desire."
he pushed against me and I had to hold him up to keep
him from rushing things, I smiled, he could be so
predictable, "Hm, I love the way you do things, the
way you fight, the way you growl and glare, I love
your kisses, the way they burn their way into my soul
and I ache for your fierce love. Ah!" I had to pause
as the tip of my need entered him. Gods he's hot in
there, and so tight!

I heard a hiccuping sound and looked up at him, his
eyes were wide and they looked through me, at memories
only he can see, his mouth worked soundlessly. "I love
you Hiei, please, come back to us koishii, I have
waited so long for you, Hiei, how I longed for this
very moment, I don't have enough words to tell you how
much I wanted this." I lowered him slowly and he
arched his back as he looked up at the ceiling,
another hiccuping sound escaped him. "You gave me a
reason to go on, I was dead when you found me and you
brought me back to life. You make me so happy. Hiei!"
I cried at the shock of being suddently inside his
heated sheath, he had sat himself down forcefully.

He opened his mouth for a scream but not a sound
escaped him and this from Hiei is almost eerie. He
gasped for breath then his arms around my shoulders
went slack and fell to his sides. I can't see his face
well because he was bent away from me, only my hand on
the small of his back was keeping him from falling
over. I can feel him shuddering, the heat is leaving
his body.

"Hiei, love, come back to me, Hiei." I kissed his
chest "It's me your Kurama, come back to me my love,
Hiei." I kissed his bared throat. I heard a breath
forced in through gritted teeth followed by a ragged
exhalation, I cupped the back of his neck and made him
look at me and the sight I saw made my heart stop.

His eyes... bled. I watched in awe and fear as a
single tear gathered and fell from his lashes. He
covered his face with his hands before it could fall
past his cheek, a dark blood red hiroseki.

"Hiei." I whispered, I wanted to touch his face, to
kiss away his blood red tears but his hands served as
a wall between us.

"Kurama," he said voice muffled by his hands "Kurama,
take me Kurama, please." he let his hands fall from
his face, and I didn't see his eyes because they were
tightly shut or where the gem went because he wrapped
his arms around my neck tight enough to choke me and
kissed me like he was being torn from me. I crossed my
arm over his back and laid him down, carefully.

I wrapped his legs around my waist "Look at me, Hiei,
look at me." he let my neck go and laid back on the
bed. His eyes were rimmed with unshed tears, and it
made me fear for him because I have never seen
anything like it. I've heard of it but... the Youko is
silent.

I started slow and shallow, our faces mere inches
from each other. I breathed in his whimpers and the
small hitching sounds he was making. I let him kiss my
face until his hands went around my neck again and he
arched his back towards me..

He's looking hard at me memorizing my face, burning
me into his memory, planting kisses randomly. His hips
came up to meet mine and I thrust deeper, and I felt
his heat building back to when it was. Not a sound
escaped him though, I changed my angle and when I hit
the right spot his lips parted for another silent
scream and his breathing stopped. He pulled himself up
to me, and in a shaky voice low enough to pass unheard
he said.

"Your are Kurama, my Kurama, my Kitsune." I nodded
and his eyes lost their wavering, he breathed hard
with something akin to relief. His arms loosened as he
lay back on the damp sheets, he became focused on the
moment, his eyes on me had lost their panicky edge. I
smiled and rolled us over carefully.

"Yes Hiei, your Kurama, your stupid fox." I took hold
of his need and stroked him slowly "Now, ride me
beloved, give us what we both need. Free yourself from
your mask!"

His eyes went wide with understanding. He leaned over
me our eyes locked to each other as he moved his hips
to nature's ancient dance. I braced myself and moved
with him, we found a hard fast rythm, watching each
other's faces contort into the many forms of pleasure.

It didn't take us long to find our common goal, we
raced for it, our eyes never once leaving each other,
his sweat gathered to drop and mingle with mine, our
mouths opened to breath each other in. I saw the
instant he reached his goal, his eyes went wide with
shock, and a suppressed guttural groan escaped his
clenched teeth as he spilled himself on me. I moved to
catch up and held his hips down when I felt myself
explode. The warmth of my seed cooled my spent need.

I swallowed several times catching up with my breath,
waiting for the thunder of my blood to subside. Above
me Hiei was looking at his spilled seed. His shoulders
were shaking as he dipped a finger into a puddle. The
surprise in his face told me he had never seen his cum
before. That could simply mean that he matured late,
no one knows for certain how old he is, or... he
wasn't sexually mature when they took him. He stared
at it, transfixed by the sight, I took his hand and
put that drop of him between my lips.

I wasn't prepared for his reaction. He jerked away, I
saw a glimpse of his back before the bathroom door
slammed shut.

"Hiei!" I ran after him I knocked on the door but he
didn't answer, I tried the knob, it was locked. I
heard the splash of water. "Hiei! Let me in! Hiei
don't lock yourself away from me. Hiei!!" I slammed my
fist at the door. I tried the knob again, what the
hell!?! I rested my head on the door and tried to calm
down.

He fainted when the Youko touched him that time, he
didn't see it. On our second encounter he was in me
and the weight of my experience backed up what he
could have seen or felt. That was my cum on my belly
back then, he didn't witness his own completion.

But he was alright during the last part, he was with
me, he was his old self. I don't understand! I
remmember things about him, but his memories come and
go within me, they need triggers and circumstances. I
looked at my hand, the sticky traces of his completion
still on my fingers. I licked my fingers then traced
his seed on my belly. I saw a falsh of memory that
made me hiss.

"Hie-" the door swung open, I stumbled in and found
him in the hotub with water up to his chin. "Hiei?"

"Sorry..." He said then ducked under the water.

I sighed and sat on the edge of the tub. I kept my
back to him as he rose from under the swirling waters.
"You alright?" I asked. His warm arms came around my
hip and I looked down to find his head resting against
my hip.

"Aa. Just... freaked out." he said quietly.

Freaked out? I smiled softly down at him "Afraid of
yourself?" I asked.

"Aa. I'm just like them, I... do that." I put my hand
on his head.

"Wanna tell me about it?" he was quiet for a long
while.

"I hurt you." he said.

"We weren't exactly in our right minds so to speak."
I said while I raked my fingers through his hair. I
can't see his face, but I think this is best if he
wants to talk. He's more comfortable this way.

"They hurt me, and they left that on me. I swore I'd
never... are you really alright?" he looked up at me.

I left my seat and knelt down the side of the tub so
I can press my face against his. "I was hurt, but I'm
alright, you are nothing like them, I love you and
that makes all the difference." I kissed his eyelids
as I ran my fingers through his wet still spiky hair.
"Are you alright?"

"Yes, I'm... I'm alright. I think I've had enough
confrontations for today." I laughed softly. He
smirked at me. "We made love Kurama, we are equals
now. You can have me and I can have you and there's no
one and nothing standing between us."

Tears stung my eyes, he brushed his lips over my
lids. "Your very welcome my Hiei." I said as I
caressed the back of his head. I opened my eyes to see
his barely there smile gracing his lips, it made me so
happy to see it, I gave him that smile I reserve only
for him.

And we kissed, and in that kiss is a vow deeper than
any spoken word. A wordless pledge to cherish each
other till death and loyalty beyond the grave.

Two souls, two separate beings, two different paths
of destiny, became one tonight. Here, now, in each
other's kiss, we are truly married. Destined to hold
each others hand while we walk this sordid path of my
own creation. Together we will look for a ray of hope
that will lead us to our happiness.

Together. Us. We.

"Yes, that's true." He whispered his lips still
pressed on mine, his own hands came to enclose my
cheeks. "Married, bound for life, with you, only you."
he whispered with every kiss.

"Forever, my husband." I replied.

"Hn, husband, I like that. What do I call you?" he
asked as he tugged me to join him in the bath.

"Stupid fox? Kitsune? Kurama? Wife? Or onna if you
wish? I don't care love, as long as it came from you.
That's all that matters to me." I said as I climbed in
and put my arms around him from behind.

He shifted around gathering me slowly but gently into
his arms, he ran a hand down my back while he looked
up at me with adoration clear in his eyes.

"Husband. We are equals, a part of each other, I'll
have it no other way." And my tears did come, he
blurred before my eyes as I wept with joy. He rose to
his knees and began kissing my tears, licking my
cheeks clean of their salty trails.

"Maybe you should call me woman," I said snorting at
myself "I haven't done this much crying in centuries."


"Tears of joy don't count koishii." he kissed my
forhead and nuzzled my damp cheeks. He took handfuls
of water then to wash my chest, my throat then my
face. He used his thumbs to get the water out of my
eyes and nose as he brought handfuls of water over my
head, annointing me, washing me clean...

When he was satisfied he pulled me out of the tub
with him. He tossed me a towel and we had some fun
toweling each other dry. When he was dry enough I
swept him off his feet and carried him to bed. He
clung to me surprised by my gesture, then he relaxed
in my arms trusting me not to drop him. When we got to
the bed I shifted him so I can free a hand to pull
back the covers.

He sighed and wrapped his arms around my neck in a
loose hug as I settled him down between the sheets. He
pulled me down for a quick kiss before he shifted to
give me space. "Your wards..."

"Never mind that, these are my spares. They will dry
out." I settled myself down and embraced him, he threw
an arm over my waist and pressed close to my chest. I
didn't bother pulling the comforter up because the
room is quite warm, thanks to my husband.

I grinned. "Hiei?"

"Hn?" he asked.

"What do you feel right now?" I asked as I ran my
hand down his hip to gently cup his firm behind.

"Hn, sore, but I'm better than alright." I felt him
frown "I guess I'm a little... dissatisfied."

"Dis-? Ahh." I said as I understood.

"It was an increadible expirience, and you really
took care of me, you gave me the choices and made me
take control of my own... exorcism. Thank you, I
didn't know it could be that pleasurable." He planted
a kiss on my chest "But it would have been more
increadible if I could feel how you felt like
thrusting into me. Like the first time."

He's right, it wasn't as explosive as the one we had
when his Jagan joined our minds and souls and bodies.
It was wonderful but it pales compared to the oneness
we shared.

I held him tight, "There's an island near Staten
Island that's a giant dumpster somewhere along the
coast of New York, no one goes there except the
garbage workers, I bet it's deserted at night." I
said, I felt him nod.

"Tonight then? After a nap?" he asked.

"Yes, tonight."