Yu Yu Hakusho Fan Fiction ❯ I can't help ❯ 1. ( Chapter 1 )

- I decided. I've enough of all that YAOI fics…What, all yaoi and no yuri??? Are you CRAZY?!

We absolutely have to improve the amount of YYH yuri fic here…Bye Blabbermouth-

The means a change of point of view.

I can't help

I can't help staring at her.

We're all here, at Genkai's den. Keiko and Yusuke are quarrelling because he felt her ass, Genkai's drinking some tea in a corner, Kurama's trying to convince Hiei to act civil, Shizuru's smoking and…he's chatting with her. But the only thing I can do is just to stare at her, thinking if there will ever be a “we”.

I can't help thinking of her.

Even if I should pay attention to poor Kazuma-san, she's always in my mind. Her beautiful pink orbs, that speak volumes, showing her every emotion, haunt me at night, preventing me to sleep. I wonder when I'll be able to tell her how I feel.

She doesn't even know that I'm watching her, craving for only one of her sweet smiles that she shows him often. But I have no rights to ruin their bliss. As long as she's happy, that's what matters. Now I think I'll go out and take a walk, I need some cool air.

While Kazuma-san is threatened by Hiei-san for a point I don't understand, I notice that she's no longer here.I take profit by their argument to go silently outside, unseen. I can't see her anywhere, but I have an idea of where she could be…

I've walked for a few minutes, and now an amazing view stands before my eyes: a little, peaceful lake in the middle of the forest. I just she was here to enjoy this wonderful view with me.

“I knew I'd found you here. Is beautiful, isn't it?”

My heart suddenly stops. It's her. “ Yes it is. Do you go here often?”

“ Quite often, when I know that Kazuma's arriving and I don't want to see him straight”.

“Really?! And would you do that because of me?” I chuckle, trying to hide my worry.

“Never. You're company is always pleasant”. And she looks so serious that it leaves me any doubt.

“I'm relieved to hear that. I'm glad that, at least , you stand me..”

“No way I can stand you! You're really important to me, and I could never think of you just like a bearable person!”

I've never seen her so… agitated. Or worried about me. “Thank you. I'm relieved to hear tha; it makes me glad to know that”.
“It's the least I can do for you…”

For me? “What do you mean?”

“You're always so kind and caring. Yes, I noticed that; and not only once. And… I know that you may feel something for me; I happened to notice that you were gazing at me in a strange way, while I was talking to him”.

“I guess you're not as naïve as everyone believes. You deserve to know. Well about before, you're right. I was watching you. I was watching you because I'm jealous”.

“You're jealous? Because of Kazuma-san and me? Listen, I don't want him the way you think and-

“I'm jealous because I love you!”

“ And I… well, I only know that when you smile I feel like the whole world could fall but still, there'd be only me and you. When you're sad I feel so helpless because I know I won't be the one to cheer you up and make you smile again…In a few words…I think I love you too.”

“ You really make happy, Yukina”. And surprisingly she tip toe, and kiss me gently on the lips.

“ I promise I'll always try to make you happy Botan-chan: now and forever”.

I definitely can't help loving her.

THE END