Yu Yu Hakusho Fan Fiction ❯ In a Very Unusual Way ❯ Kurama's reflections ( One-Shot )

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It was impossible for him to know how much he meant to me. I enjoyed his company silently. I was good at masking my feelings with a friendly smile. When I smiled at him, though, it was different.

Anime/Manga: Yu Yu Hakusho Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Romance | Type: Songfic | Uploaded On: 12.22.2006 | Pages: 1 | Words: 864 | Visits: 352 | Status: Completed

DISCLAIMER: I don't own Yu Yu Hakusho or this song. This song belongs to Linda Eder.

In a very unusual way one time I needed you.
In a very unusual way you were my friend.
Maybe it lasted a day, maybe it lasted an hour.
But, somehow it will never end.

It's strange how you never realize how much you care for someone until they're no longer with you. At least, I find it strange. Every bit of this is strange and new to me. Never before have I experienced this overpowering feeling of loneliness. I guess I really do need him nearby to feel content. You see, we we're friends, but not in the normal sense. Actually, you can decide for yourself whether or not we're friends. It doesn't matter to me. All I know is that we talked. We silently trusted one another. I'd even go as far as saying we silently understood each other. Those days we spent together were wonderful. Even if they're gone, I'll never forget them.

In a very unusual way I think I'm in love with you.
In a very unusual way I want to cry.
Something inside me goes week,
Something inside me surrenders.
And you're the reason why,
You're the reason why

I think they stay alive because I'm in love with him. It doesn't matter that he's not with me now. The thought of him not being here saddens me. You see, when I was around him, I dropped my guard. No one knew I trusted him that much, but I did. I don't know why, but I gave in to the desire to completely trust him. You could say his presence weakened me. I don't know why. Maybe it was because I felt so strongly for him. In a way, I still do.

You don't know what you do to me,
You don't have a clue.
You can't tell what its like to be me looking at you.
It scares me so, that I can hardly speak.

It was impossible for him to know how much he meant to me. I enjoyed his company silently. I was good at masking my feelings with a friendly smile. When I smiled at him, though, it was different. I lit up when I saw him; talked to him. It was so subtle; even he couldn't pick up on it. If I'd acted how I'd felt, then I would have never been able to talk to him.

In a very unusual way, I owe what I am to you.
Though at times it appears I won't stay, I never go.

You could say he changed me. Sure, it was my mother who taught me how to love, but this boy taught me a lesson in love. A lesson of love never dies. Even when we weren't in the same room, we could feel a strong connection. It was unspoken, but still there. I suppose, no matter where I was, there was always a bit of him with me.

Special to me in my life,
Since the first day that I met you.
How could I ever forget you,
Once you had touched my soul?
In a very unusual way,
You've made me whole.

Ever since the first day I met him, I knew there was something special. Call it instinct if you will. I have good memories of him, but all they're still only memories. He's become more than just another person, but a part of me. These lonely memories are a part of me now. I guess what I've been trying to say is, “I miss you Hiei.”