Yu Yu Hakusho Fan Fiction ❯ Jealousy ❯ Silent thoughts of a lonely soul ( Chapter 1 )
[ Y - Young Adult: Not suitable for readers under 16 ]
By: Suryallee 
The watchers view.
Anime/Manga: Yu Yu Hakusho Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Drama / Hentai / Romance | Type: Continuation | Uploaded On: 11.12.2005 | Pages: 2 | Words: 1.5K | Visits: 253 | Status: Completed
The watchers view.
Anime/Manga: Yu Yu Hakusho Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Drama / Hentai / Romance | Type: Continuation | Uploaded On: 11.12.2005 | Pages: 2 | Words: 1.5K | Visits: 253 | Status: Completed
Jealousy
Part one of four
Silent thoughts of a lonely soul
Beta: [Amanda san]
Type: Continuation, Romance, Adventure, Action, Angst, Dark fiction
Category: Hentai, Shonen Ai, Yaoi, Het
Pairings: x/ x/ x, three some, M/M/F
Disclaimer: I do not own any of the characters or the story of Yu Yu Hakusho itself. I only wrote down my imagination, that’s all!
Warnings: Hentai, Adult situations, Out written sexual acts, Oral, Penetration, Blood, M/F, Waff, Fluff, Anal, Bi, some plot bunny’s jumping around, I don’t know!
Rated: NY17, Not for children!
Description:
One watches two other and wishes for something the first one thinks it can not have.
Jealousy
What is that?
An emotion called a feeling, that twists your gut in knots, that makes you howl in pain of being left out?
The sudden realization of being entirely alone when you see the other two you love so painfully much, having fun with each other.
It makes your head swim in the haze of the moment when you see the ones you want with each other.
Together.
Moreover, you realize that you are alone and without any chance?
Jealousy, it surged through it's body with an unknown strength that took the watcher's breath away. Every time it watched the two others from here, it was evident in its eyes to see. The hurt, the pain, the entire emotion of it shone out of its eyes when it forced itself the emotional pain of watching the two others.
It had watched them since it had learned of them, watched them intently with burning hunger and burning pain that twisted the first one's stomach into knots with its force! It hated to be left outside of their loving embraces all the time, wanted to hate the two affectionate lovebirds in its view but could not even bring itself to do even that.
Sometimes when the first one saw and watched the two others it wanted nothing more than to grab them both and take them away with it, away where they could not ignore it any longer!
Could not avoid it any longer!
It could not do that either.
Much to it's shame and hurt inside, it did not want to do that really, it would have destroyed too much!
It watched the two lovebirds every chance it could.
Every free time it found the way to do that and every time anew it hurt itself beyond words to watch them both!
The first one could not tear it's gaze from them for one second, it watched intently over the two others, even if they never would know that.
Never would know how much it wished in it's soul to be part of their wonderful love. How much it wished and silently prayed each and every single day to be part of them forever!
How deeply its feelings truly ran for both of them!
The male one in its view made it jealous because he got all of the affection and complete devotion of the female. What ever he did to her, she always took him back and seemingly loved him beyond words!
It never cased to amaze the watcher that the female did that all the time!
The male it was jealous of the because he had the female all this time it had known the pair, and so never saw the watcher or even acknowledged the watcher's care about them.
They never saw it really...
Sometimes it wished simply it could die.
But then again, it wished it could...
It watched with glowing eyes the two people of it's secret desires lay together in the rumpled bed sheets and whispered sweet nothings in each other's ears. In those beautiful ears the watcher wished to whisper it's secrets too all the time.
Secrets it would never dare to tell them both, because, because that would have ruined their rare friendship forever.
It watched them having slow and affectionate sex with each other, and it's stomach twisted again into painful knots because again it felt the emotion jealously surge powerfully through it's entire self.
It tore the watcher painfully in half, in body, mind and soul to have to watch these two there all the time and could not be there with them!
They would never accept it this way ever, it was sure of this.
Who could?
It never had felt alone like this before in it's entire life here in the human world or before.
The male had caught it with his endless trust in it. Moreover, in more than one harsh battle he had stood beside it and had watched it's back and had even protected it with his own life.
The female caught it with her fiery spirit that matches it's own. The deeply running emotions that it had felt from her one time only and the seemingly endless love and devotion to the male; it so badly wished to have for it's own.
Both again had accepted it simply for what ever it was supposed to be, or what ever it was.
Never asking what it had done in the past or what it was supposed to be, simply they both accepted it for itself.
Groaning it watched their beautifully shaped bodies entangled in an ageless dance on the mattress.
Watched with unmasked hunger, as they abandoned themselves into each other as they had almost each night since the last few months.
Since then, it had gotten worse for it.
More than once it had fled the enticing and alluring sight. To relieve itself, deep in the woods around the town they all lived in, practically howling out their names when it found a short release in it's imagination and fell deeply into a never-ending hole of depression afterwards.
It wished nothing more than to abandon itself with the couple.
With another groan, it buried a perfectly shaped face into equally beautiful hands.
The silent watcher clamped it's hands into the deeply colored hair in it's sadness and pain. To never have them both!
Even if it had been for only one single night, for one single hour, it would have been happier than anything else.
Beautiful deeply colored eyes closed in pain as it tugged at it's ears in it's helpless tries to block out the wonderful sounding soft cries and moans that the wind carried over to it, made from the couple of lovebirds inside the room.
Spellbound, it watched them find their release in each other before they settled finally down to sleep.
Beautiful big eyes looked longingly at the two occupants of the bed, it wished so badly to occupy with these particular two, that it held so near to it's heart.
How many nights had it stood here before to watch their wonderful bodies dance with each other anyway?
It has lost it's count long ago.
Not that it mattered to it any longer, it only knew that it wished for something that it could never have!
Again, it's insides twisted painfully when it watched them both sleep peacefully in each other's arms.
The watcher's big and normally so shiny eyes looked now dull and lifeless.
Suddenly it jumped carefully onto the small balcony that framed the window of their room.
Careful it had to be all the time, they could discover it!
Slowly, almost tenderly it laid one of it's almost delicate looking hands against the window glass as if it could reach out to the two sleeping people inside this way.
Only to close the eyes in pain for once more and then the watcher ran away once more again from the two others. Right into the comforting silence of the night around it, to find itself once again a place far away from the two it loved silently, to find a little peace from it's own self.
Accompanied only, with it's silent wishes, it's loneliness and the silent love the being held for the two sleeping people in the room.
Well let me know what you think of this one here.
I would like to know.
Suryallee
Part one of four
Silent thoughts of a lonely soul
Beta: [Amanda san]
Type: Continuation, Romance, Adventure, Action, Angst, Dark fiction
Category: Hentai, Shonen Ai, Yaoi, Het
Pairings: x/ x/ x, three some, M/M/F
Disclaimer: I do not own any of the characters or the story of Yu Yu Hakusho itself. I only wrote down my imagination, that’s all!
Warnings: Hentai, Adult situations, Out written sexual acts, Oral, Penetration, Blood, M/F, Waff, Fluff, Anal, Bi, some plot bunny’s jumping around, I don’t know!
Rated: NY17, Not for children!
Description:
One watches two other and wishes for something the first one thinks it can not have.
Jealousy
What is that?
An emotion called a feeling, that twists your gut in knots, that makes you howl in pain of being left out?
The sudden realization of being entirely alone when you see the other two you love so painfully much, having fun with each other.
It makes your head swim in the haze of the moment when you see the ones you want with each other.
Together.
Moreover, you realize that you are alone and without any chance?
Jealousy, it surged through it's body with an unknown strength that took the watcher's breath away. Every time it watched the two others from here, it was evident in its eyes to see. The hurt, the pain, the entire emotion of it shone out of its eyes when it forced itself the emotional pain of watching the two others.
It had watched them since it had learned of them, watched them intently with burning hunger and burning pain that twisted the first one's stomach into knots with its force! It hated to be left outside of their loving embraces all the time, wanted to hate the two affectionate lovebirds in its view but could not even bring itself to do even that.
Sometimes when the first one saw and watched the two others it wanted nothing more than to grab them both and take them away with it, away where they could not ignore it any longer!
Could not avoid it any longer!
It could not do that either.
Much to it's shame and hurt inside, it did not want to do that really, it would have destroyed too much!
It watched the two lovebirds every chance it could.
Every free time it found the way to do that and every time anew it hurt itself beyond words to watch them both!
The first one could not tear it's gaze from them for one second, it watched intently over the two others, even if they never would know that.
Never would know how much it wished in it's soul to be part of their wonderful love. How much it wished and silently prayed each and every single day to be part of them forever!
How deeply its feelings truly ran for both of them!
The male one in its view made it jealous because he got all of the affection and complete devotion of the female. What ever he did to her, she always took him back and seemingly loved him beyond words!
It never cased to amaze the watcher that the female did that all the time!
The male it was jealous of the because he had the female all this time it had known the pair, and so never saw the watcher or even acknowledged the watcher's care about them.
They never saw it really...
Sometimes it wished simply it could die.
But then again, it wished it could...
It watched with glowing eyes the two people of it's secret desires lay together in the rumpled bed sheets and whispered sweet nothings in each other's ears. In those beautiful ears the watcher wished to whisper it's secrets too all the time.
Secrets it would never dare to tell them both, because, because that would have ruined their rare friendship forever.
It watched them having slow and affectionate sex with each other, and it's stomach twisted again into painful knots because again it felt the emotion jealously surge powerfully through it's entire self.
It tore the watcher painfully in half, in body, mind and soul to have to watch these two there all the time and could not be there with them!
They would never accept it this way ever, it was sure of this.
Who could?
It never had felt alone like this before in it's entire life here in the human world or before.
The male had caught it with his endless trust in it. Moreover, in more than one harsh battle he had stood beside it and had watched it's back and had even protected it with his own life.
The female caught it with her fiery spirit that matches it's own. The deeply running emotions that it had felt from her one time only and the seemingly endless love and devotion to the male; it so badly wished to have for it's own.
Both again had accepted it simply for what ever it was supposed to be, or what ever it was.
Never asking what it had done in the past or what it was supposed to be, simply they both accepted it for itself.
Groaning it watched their beautifully shaped bodies entangled in an ageless dance on the mattress.
Watched with unmasked hunger, as they abandoned themselves into each other as they had almost each night since the last few months.
Since then, it had gotten worse for it.
More than once it had fled the enticing and alluring sight. To relieve itself, deep in the woods around the town they all lived in, practically howling out their names when it found a short release in it's imagination and fell deeply into a never-ending hole of depression afterwards.
It wished nothing more than to abandon itself with the couple.
With another groan, it buried a perfectly shaped face into equally beautiful hands.
The silent watcher clamped it's hands into the deeply colored hair in it's sadness and pain. To never have them both!
Even if it had been for only one single night, for one single hour, it would have been happier than anything else.
Beautiful deeply colored eyes closed in pain as it tugged at it's ears in it's helpless tries to block out the wonderful sounding soft cries and moans that the wind carried over to it, made from the couple of lovebirds inside the room.
Spellbound, it watched them find their release in each other before they settled finally down to sleep.
Beautiful big eyes looked longingly at the two occupants of the bed, it wished so badly to occupy with these particular two, that it held so near to it's heart.
How many nights had it stood here before to watch their wonderful bodies dance with each other anyway?
It has lost it's count long ago.
Not that it mattered to it any longer, it only knew that it wished for something that it could never have!
Again, it's insides twisted painfully when it watched them both sleep peacefully in each other's arms.
The watcher's big and normally so shiny eyes looked now dull and lifeless.
Suddenly it jumped carefully onto the small balcony that framed the window of their room.
Careful it had to be all the time, they could discover it!
Slowly, almost tenderly it laid one of it's almost delicate looking hands against the window glass as if it could reach out to the two sleeping people inside this way.
Only to close the eyes in pain for once more and then the watcher ran away once more again from the two others. Right into the comforting silence of the night around it, to find itself once again a place far away from the two it loved silently, to find a little peace from it's own self.
Accompanied only, with it's silent wishes, it's loneliness and the silent love the being held for the two sleeping people in the room.
Well let me know what you think of this one here.
I would like to know.
Suryallee