Yu Yu Hakusho Fan Fiction ❯ Never Had A Dream Come True ❯ Never Had a Dream Come True ( Prologue )

Oooh-oooh
Everybody's got something
They had to leave behind
One regret from yesterday
That just seems to grow with time

[Kurama daydreams, thinking about all the good times he had with Hiei. Now the fire demon is gone, and he'll never come back. His friends look at him with concern as a tear slides down his cheek, but Kurama just smiles and rubs his eye, saying he has something it it.]

There's no use looking back or wondering
How it could be now or might have been
All this I know but still I can't find ways
To let you go

[Hiei sits in the tree he spent the night in, deep in the Makai. His memories plague him; memories of Kurama. They bring a fierce ache to his already heavy heart. He shakes his head and resists the powerful urge to go back, knowing it's over, but unable to accept it. The words that were said between them that night were unforgivable, especially on his part.]

I never had a dream come true
'Til the day that I found you
Even though I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby

[Kurama goes out with his friends, but his mind is elsewhere, with the little youkai who affected his life in stupendous ways. He laughs at something with his friends, but halfheartedly. When his friends aren't looking, he takes a worn photo from his pocket and caresses the scowling face lightly with his thumb.]

I never found the words to say
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where life takes me to
A part of me will always be with you, yeah

[Hiei thinks about his feelings for Kurama, angry at himself for never voicing them, for never being able to say the right words. Everything he wanted to say always came out wrong. There were no words that could describe the feeling in his heart. He travels through the Makai, each night in a different place. But always, his soul is with Kurama.]

Somewhere in my memory
I've lost all sense of time

[Kurama sits at the table in the coffee shop, hearing what his companions are saying, but from a distance, lost in his own thoughts, his memories. The present and the future seem unreal, so unreal that he can't seem to live in them. He lives in the past, unable to think of anything but his former lover.]

And tomorrow can never be
'Cos yesterday is all that fills my mind

[Hiei fights a youkai who wants him dead, his heart not really in the fight. He easily kills the demon, not really even noticing the fight's end. In his mind is Kurama, always and forever. And he can't concentrate on anything else.]

There's no use looking back or wondering
How it should be now or might have been
All this I know but still I can't find ways
To let you go

[Kurama can't remember when he last got a good night's sleep; he's forever haunted by the way he and Hiei had parted, the cruel, harsh words that were exchanged between them. He wonders what would had happened if Hiei had stayed, but he shakes it from his mind, knowing that it will depress him even more. But he can't stop thinking about it, and regretting everything that was said. He can't let Hiei go.]

I never had a dream come true
'Til the day that I found you
Even though I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby

[Hiei remembers life before he met Kurama. Tears roll down his cheeks, unbidden, as he remembers what it had felt like to finally be loved. He remembered Kurama telling him, holding him as he'd never been held before. Loving him when he had never even known the meaning of the word. He knows that he'll never be able to truly leave Kurama, his first and only love, even though he's tried. He'll always love Kurama, and being separated from him is pure torture.]

I never found the words to say
You're the one I think about each day

[Though Kurama always told Hiei how much he loved him, it had never really represented how deep his love for the little youkai really ran. Hiei had been one of the people to teach him what true love really meant, along with his mother. He can't think of anything else; it's always Hiei on his mind. Being separated from his one true love is torture.]

And I know no matter where life takes me to
A part of me will always be with you, yeah

[Hiei is through the portal to the Ningenkai before he realizes it. He curses softly, but finds himself inexorably drawn to the familiar ki that he can already sense. He knows that he can't turn back, not now or ever.]

You'll always be the dream that fills my head
Yes you will, say you will
You know you will, oh baby
You'll always be the one I know I'll never forget

[Kurama awakens with a start, feeling the familiar ki somewhere in the Ningenkai. He sinks back into his blankets, knowing that it's just his mind playing tricks on him. But he can't sleep, as the ki comes closer. He gets up and dresses quickly, then heads toward the ki that comes closer every second, hoping against hope.]

It's no use looking back or wondering
Because love is a strange and funny thing

[Hiei stops running as he feels Kurama's ki move, coming toward him. He waits in the deserted park, wanting time to sort out his feelings. He still hasn't managed that when the fox reaches him, nearly ten minutes later. The fire demon stands there, staring at Kurama, his face impassive but his eyes lost. His voice is gone. It left him as soon as he saw the kitsune moving toward him, as beautiful and graceful as ever.]

No matter how I try and try
I just can't say goodbye, no, no, no, no

[Kurama smiles sadly at Hiei, watching the fire demon's face. After a moment, he chances a glance at the Hiei's crimson eyes and is startled by the lost look he sees in them. Running to the fire demon, he sweeps him into a tight embrace, whispering "I missed you" in his ear.]

I never had a dream come true
'Til the day that I found you

[Hiei looks at Kurama in shock. How can the fox forgive him after what he said? After a second he hugs his lover back, burying his face in Kurama's chest as he feels the tears coming on. He feels like a ten-ton weight has been lifted from his heart.]

Even though I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby

[Kurama holds Hiei close, as he did that first night so long ago, letting the fire demon cry, aware of tears running down his own cheeks as he buries his face in the fire demon's spiky black hair and breaths deep Hiei's scent. He whispers the three words that have never been enough.]

I never found the words to say
You're the one I think about each day

[Hiei pulls away at those words, knowing that he can't express what he feels with words. He suddenly gets an idea and pulls he headband off, opening his Jagan. He asks permission and is immediately granted it, he enters Kurama's mind and pulls his love's soul into his heart, showing him, rather than telling him, how he feels. At the same time, Kurama pull his soul into his heart, and the fire demon is suddenly surrounded by depthless love for him. When the Jagan finally closes, they clutch each other, tears streaming down their faces. They know in their hearts that they will never fight again.]

And I know no matter where life takes me to
A part of me will always be
A part of me will always be with you, ooh