Yu Yu Hakusho Fan Fiction ❯ Numb: I Can't Feel You There ❯ Numb: I Can't Feel You There ( Chapter 1 )
[ Y - Young Adult: Not suitable for readers under 16 ]
By: Gabbi 
Songfiction to "Numb" by Linkin Park. Kurama realized how angry he is for what he had done to himself and now goes into rage.
Anime/Manga: Yu Yu Hakusho Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Angst | Type: Songfic | Uploaded On: 10.23.2004 | Pages: 4 | Words: 1.4K | Visits: 226 | Status: Work In Progress
Songfiction to "Numb" by Linkin Park. Kurama realized how angry he is for what he had done to himself and now goes into rage.
Anime/Manga: Yu Yu Hakusho Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Angst | Type: Songfic | Uploaded On: 10.23.2004 | Pages: 4 | Words: 1.4K | Visits: 226 | Status: Work In Progress
Welcome to my new Fanfiction, Numb: I Can't Feel You There! Okay, Let's start!
TITLE: Numb: I Can't Feel You There
AUTHORESS: Gabbi: Queen of Kurama Torture
SUMMARY: Kurama is angry at himself from when he cheated Death and even altered his human form. Wanting to ruin anything ever perfected by himself, he gets obsessed into the world of Self-Mutilation.
DISCLAIMER: I do not own Numb, YYH, or Kurama. I do, however, own this plot. Please do not steal my ideas without my permission. I hate that.
WARNINGS: Self-Mutilation, Kurama Torture, Yaoi, Rape?, Cirtrus?, Songfic to Numb, ~*Song Lyrics*~, Suicide?, Character Death?, OOC.
PAIRINGS: HieixKurama, for now. Pairings are subject to come and go.
NOTES: I keep reading all these fanfics of Hiei doing things like this. I love these fics and all, but why not Kurama? Count on the queen of Kurama Torture to think of this. I love Linkin Park and this song is the coolest!
DEDICATION: This one is to all the people that have followed my insane escapades through fanfiction. Anyone who dared to put me in their faves. And, of course, my Torture Family, Dark Kurama, Karen Rhine, and DeFlIs. Luv ya!
RATING: R
EDITED BY: C-Kun
FINAL WARNING: Please, this fic is not for the sqwimish. Kurama's cutting gets pretty graphic. So if you don't like blood and stuff, don't read. Please.
FINAL NOTE: If your name is Casey "C-Kun" Robinson, this is the fic that Kurama punches out a mirrior.
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Numb: I Can't Feel You There
Chapter I: Reflection
***
~*I'm tired of being what you want me to be,
Feeling so Faithless,
Lost under the surface*~
"Look what I did to myself..." Kurama whispered. He fingered through his long, red hair. "I don't even look human. Why did I listen to my whims... I became something I am not..."
He peered at his forlorn, dark green eyes.
"I am lost within myself..." he whispered. "I can't feel anything..."
~*I don't know what you're expecting of me*~
"My 'Kassan' has no clue... and it's all because of YOU."
He pointed to his reflection in the mirror that had become Youko's.
Youko's eyes narrowed. "You brought this upon yourself. We are one person. I am just instinct. I altered us and I am happy."
"HAPPY?!" Kurama screamed. "We killed Shiori's baby!"
(A/N: It is okay Love... we will gets the Preciousss... oh...! Wrong thing!)
"The baby was to die in childbirth! We were strong enough to survive!"
"Why did we alter destiny, then? Maybe she wasn't ment to have the baby...."
"Youko snorted. "You have got to be kidding me..."
"No," Kurama snapped. "I mean it. We sinned. We cheated Death."
"Going to Hell sure won't hurt. I've been through worst," Youko's eyes narrowed. "Being in this Godsforsaken body with you..."
Kurama screamed. He pulled his arm back and punched out the mirror. It shattered instantly. The glass cut most of his open skin.
"Gack..." He cradled his bad hand.
"SHUICHI!"
(A/N: When C-Kun proofread this part, he screamed like a girl and said, "Shuichi's gotta be the worst name you can name your kid... Kurama is so much better..." C-Kun's my editor... he hates Broken Toy though...)
She tried to open up the door.
~*Put under the pressure,
Of walking in your shoes...
[Caught in the Undertow, Just caught in the Undertow]
Every step that I take is another mistake to you...
[Caught in the undertow, Just caught in the Undertow]*~
"Foolish!" Youko snapped.
Kurama laughed and passed out.
Shiori opened the door with a Bobbie Pin [1]
She screamed his name again.
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Kura ma awoke in pain. He felt his arm bandaged against his side.
"You're awake..." Yusuke whispered.
"Hai..." Kurama said softly.
'Dammit...' Kurama thought.
'What do you mean?!' Youko asked sharply. 'Besides, punching out a mirror can't keep you dead...'
Kurama groaned. 'I know...'
"Kurama?" Kuwabara asked. He, too, was there.
"Ano... where's Hiei?" the fox asked.
"Selfish guy... didn't want to come..."
'What a shame... I wanted to play...' Youko moaned.
"You wouldn't touch him if you dare!" Kurama hollared.
"Whoa! Kurama, calm down!" Yusuke yelled.
"Urameshi... he must be just tired..." Kuwabara warned.
"Daijobu!" Kurama yelled.
"Okay..." they said wearily.
Kurama looked at the ground.
Yusuke put his arm out and patted Kurama's back.
Kurama turned to him, his eyes wide.
~*I've
Become so numb,
I can't feel you there,
Become so tired,
So much more aware,
I'm becoming this,
All I want to do,
Is be more like me,
And be less like you*~
Kurama felt suddenly cold and... numb.
Numb. Simple word...
'Kurama?!' Youko yelled.
Kurama's pupils looked dialated.
"Kurama?!" Yusuke and Kuwabara yelled, "Are you okay?!"
Kurama just stared at him. "I..."
He passed out.
"Get a doctor!" Yusuke yelled.
Kuwabara ran. Yusuke saw that he had tons of cuts from the glass.
"Why did he do this?!" Yusuke yelled.
'I don't want to be you... I don't want to be you... I don't want to be you...' Kurama repeated in his head. 'I DON'T WANT TO BE A MURDERER!'
'GIVE UP!' Voices yelled. 'YOU MURDERED ROTO, KARASU, AND MANY MORE! YOU KNOW THAT!'
'I didn't mean to!'
'BUT YOU DID!'
Kurama felt like the mirror he smashed. Every part of him was nothing. It didn't feel anything. It was... numb...
~*And I know,
I may end up failing too,
But I know,
You were just like me with someone disappointed in you*~
'It doesn't matter if I die!' Kurama thought. 'IF I DIE, YOU'LL DIE TOO, YOUKO!'
He got up in a dark realm. He saw a long green dagger, like his eyes.
His eyes narrowed slightly at the glint of the blade.
'So beautiful...'
'What the hell are you doing?!' Youko screamed.
'Something...' Kurama took the dagger and pressed it against a light scar from his battle with Touya.
'WHAT ARE YOU DOING?!' Youko screamed.
Plip...
plip...
Too late...
Blood spilt against the dark ground.
And Kurama laughed.
~*I've
Become so numb,
I can't feel you there,
Become so tired,
So much more aware,
I'm becoming this,
All I want to do,
Is be more like me,
And be less like you*~
Kurama picked the dagger up again and slashed it across the other arm.
The blood just poured more, like a crimson river, like the way his hair falls down his shoulders.
'KURAMA! STOP!' Youko screamed.
Kurama didn't. He still slashed.
And slashed...
And slashed...
His arms were nothing but bloody parts of him streaching out from his body.
'Long as I am not like you, Youko,' Kurama said, closing his eyes.
~*I've become so numb
I can't feel you there,
Is everything what you want me to be,
I've become so numb,
I can't feel you there,
Is everything what you want me to be?*~
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
THE SONG IS ON RIGHT NOW!
R&R and I shall continue!
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ *~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
[1]= My mom does this to me all the time. She picks the lock... X_X;
TITLE: Numb: I Can't Feel You There
AUTHORESS: Gabbi: Queen of Kurama Torture
SUMMARY: Kurama is angry at himself from when he cheated Death and even altered his human form. Wanting to ruin anything ever perfected by himself, he gets obsessed into the world of Self-Mutilation.
DISCLAIMER: I do not own Numb, YYH, or Kurama. I do, however, own this plot. Please do not steal my ideas without my permission. I hate that.
WARNINGS: Self-Mutilation, Kurama Torture, Yaoi, Rape?, Cirtrus?, Songfic to Numb, ~*Song Lyrics*~, Suicide?, Character Death?, OOC.
PAIRINGS: HieixKurama, for now. Pairings are subject to come and go.
NOTES: I keep reading all these fanfics of Hiei doing things like this. I love these fics and all, but why not Kurama? Count on the queen of Kurama Torture to think of this. I love Linkin Park and this song is the coolest!
DEDICATION: This one is to all the people that have followed my insane escapades through fanfiction. Anyone who dared to put me in their faves. And, of course, my Torture Family, Dark Kurama, Karen Rhine, and DeFlIs. Luv ya!
RATING: R
EDITED BY: C-Kun
FINAL WARNING: Please, this fic is not for the sqwimish. Kurama's cutting gets pretty graphic. So if you don't like blood and stuff, don't read. Please.
FINAL NOTE: If your name is Casey "C-Kun" Robinson, this is the fic that Kurama punches out a mirrior.
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
Numb: I Can't Feel You There
Chapter I: Reflection
***
~*I'm tired of being what you want me to be,
Feeling so Faithless,
Lost under the surface*~
"Look what I did to myself..." Kurama whispered. He fingered through his long, red hair. "I don't even look human. Why did I listen to my whims... I became something I am not..."
He peered at his forlorn, dark green eyes.
"I am lost within myself..." he whispered. "I can't feel anything..."
~*I don't know what you're expecting of me*~
"My 'Kassan' has no clue... and it's all because of YOU."
He pointed to his reflection in the mirror that had become Youko's.
Youko's eyes narrowed. "You brought this upon yourself. We are one person. I am just instinct. I altered us and I am happy."
"HAPPY?!" Kurama screamed. "We killed Shiori's baby!"
(A/N: It is okay Love... we will gets the Preciousss... oh...! Wrong thing!)
"The baby was to die in childbirth! We were strong enough to survive!"
"Why did we alter destiny, then? Maybe she wasn't ment to have the baby...."
"Youko snorted. "You have got to be kidding me..."
"No," Kurama snapped. "I mean it. We sinned. We cheated Death."
"Going to Hell sure won't hurt. I've been through worst," Youko's eyes narrowed. "Being in this Godsforsaken body with you..."
Kurama screamed. He pulled his arm back and punched out the mirror. It shattered instantly. The glass cut most of his open skin.
"Gack..." He cradled his bad hand.
"SHUICHI!"
(A/N: When C-Kun proofread this part, he screamed like a girl and said, "Shuichi's gotta be the worst name you can name your kid... Kurama is so much better..." C-Kun's my editor... he hates Broken Toy though...)
She tried to open up the door.
~*Put under the pressure,
Of walking in your shoes...
[Caught in the Undertow, Just caught in the Undertow]
Every step that I take is another mistake to you...
[Caught in the undertow, Just caught in the Undertow]*~
"Foolish!" Youko snapped.
Kurama laughed and passed out.
Shiori opened the door with a Bobbie Pin [1]
She screamed his name again.
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
Kura ma awoke in pain. He felt his arm bandaged against his side.
"You're awake..." Yusuke whispered.
"Hai..." Kurama said softly.
'Dammit...' Kurama thought.
'What do you mean?!' Youko asked sharply. 'Besides, punching out a mirror can't keep you dead...'
Kurama groaned. 'I know...'
"Kurama?" Kuwabara asked. He, too, was there.
"Ano... where's Hiei?" the fox asked.
"Selfish guy... didn't want to come..."
'What a shame... I wanted to play...' Youko moaned.
"You wouldn't touch him if you dare!" Kurama hollared.
"Whoa! Kurama, calm down!" Yusuke yelled.
"Urameshi... he must be just tired..." Kuwabara warned.
"Daijobu!" Kurama yelled.
"Okay..." they said wearily.
Kurama looked at the ground.
Yusuke put his arm out and patted Kurama's back.
Kurama turned to him, his eyes wide.
~*I've
Become so numb,
I can't feel you there,
Become so tired,
So much more aware,
I'm becoming this,
All I want to do,
Is be more like me,
And be less like you*~
Kurama felt suddenly cold and... numb.
Numb. Simple word...
'Kurama?!' Youko yelled.
Kurama's pupils looked dialated.
"Kurama?!" Yusuke and Kuwabara yelled, "Are you okay?!"
Kurama just stared at him. "I..."
He passed out.
"Get a doctor!" Yusuke yelled.
Kuwabara ran. Yusuke saw that he had tons of cuts from the glass.
"Why did he do this?!" Yusuke yelled.
'I don't want to be you... I don't want to be you... I don't want to be you...' Kurama repeated in his head. 'I DON'T WANT TO BE A MURDERER!'
'GIVE UP!' Voices yelled. 'YOU MURDERED ROTO, KARASU, AND MANY MORE! YOU KNOW THAT!'
'I didn't mean to!'
'BUT YOU DID!'
Kurama felt like the mirror he smashed. Every part of him was nothing. It didn't feel anything. It was... numb...
~*And I know,
I may end up failing too,
But I know,
You were just like me with someone disappointed in you*~
'It doesn't matter if I die!' Kurama thought. 'IF I DIE, YOU'LL DIE TOO, YOUKO!'
He got up in a dark realm. He saw a long green dagger, like his eyes.
His eyes narrowed slightly at the glint of the blade.
'So beautiful...'
'What the hell are you doing?!' Youko screamed.
'Something...' Kurama took the dagger and pressed it against a light scar from his battle with Touya.
'WHAT ARE YOU DOING?!' Youko screamed.
Plip...
plip...
Too late...
Blood spilt against the dark ground.
And Kurama laughed.
~*I've
Become so numb,
I can't feel you there,
Become so tired,
So much more aware,
I'm becoming this,
All I want to do,
Is be more like me,
And be less like you*~
Kurama picked the dagger up again and slashed it across the other arm.
The blood just poured more, like a crimson river, like the way his hair falls down his shoulders.
'KURAMA! STOP!' Youko screamed.
Kurama didn't. He still slashed.
And slashed...
And slashed...
His arms were nothing but bloody parts of him streaching out from his body.
'Long as I am not like you, Youko,' Kurama said, closing his eyes.
~*I've become so numb
I can't feel you there,
Is everything what you want me to be,
I've become so numb,
I can't feel you there,
Is everything what you want me to be?*~
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
THE SONG IS ON RIGHT NOW!
R&R and I shall continue!
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ *~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
[1]= My mom does this to me all the time. She picks the lock... X_X;