Yu Yu Hakusho Fan Fiction ❯ The Depth Of Demon Bonds ❯ Painful Decisions (Original) ( Chapter 7 )

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Chapter 7

Painful Decisions.

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The fire demon crushed his lips to the fox’s in a harsh kiss. The redhead responded with as much enthusiasm wrapping his arms around the little demon’s neck. Hiei let go of the shirt only to snake his arms around Kurama’s waist, drawing him tightly against him. While their tongues dueled for dominance, their bodies began to as well. They rolled across the floor literally fighting for control.

When Hiei realized what was going on he broke the kiss and gently pushed Kurama away. Both demons were out of breath and trying to come to terms of what just happened. Hiei was the first to move. He stood up and went to the small closet getting his katana and putting it on. He then walked over and picked his shirt up off the floor, pulling it on. Hiei picked up his cloak off the couch and pulled it on before finally turning to meet the very confused eyes of his fox. He shook his head sadly before turning and walking into the bedroom.

Kurama finally came to his senses and jumped up running into the bedroom. He was expecting it to be already empty with a single open window. The fox stopped suddenly when he saw Hiei standing by an opened window staring at the night sky.

“Hiei?” Kurama asked softly while moving closer. He wasn’t sure of what else to say. The fire demon turned around with sadness on his face that actually reached his ruby red eyes.

“I am going to be straight with you Kurama. It is obvious that we both want something to happen between us. It has been coming about for a long time now. The problem is nothing can happen between us.”

“Why do you say that?” Kurama asked stepping closer. “Something can happen if we let it.”

“No we can’t. Judging from the way we both fought for dominance over that kiss, we both are very dominate semes.” Hiei replied turning slightly so as not to look into those pleading green eyes.

“So what?”

“Kurama have you ever been mounted?

“What?!! What does that have to do with anything?”

“Just answer the question.” Hiei demanded forcefully.

“Of course not! I have never been mounted in either of my two lives. ” Kurama replied shaking his head. “It’s simply not allowed.”

“Hn, That’s exactly what I am talking about. I have never been mounted either. Like you said, it is not allowed. In that lies our problem. If one of us were to bend to allow mounting, we would break. Do you want to be the one to break me?”

“No! I want you to stay just as you are.”

“I am the same. I do not want to be the one to break you.”

“But…….” Kurama started. Hiei held up his hand cutting him off. He moved to stand in front of the redhead.

“If you need help to fight Yomi, I will help you. No one should be a slave and have a child taken from them by force. I have lived through the horrors of that kind of life. Know this I will never come back here, you will only see me in battle.”

“What?!!!!”

“It’s to tempting fox.” Hiei said raising his bandaged hand, running a finger down the fox’s cheek and across his lips. “You are too beautiful.”

“So are you.” Kurama smiled sadly placing a hand flat against the strong chest of the fire demon.

“Did you really want me? Did you really want a connection with the forbidden one? Even though, you don’t know why I am truly forbidden? To hell with the risks and the consequences?”

“Yes I did.” Kurama replied without hesitation. Hiei slipped his hand behind the fox’s neck and pulled him downward into a soft kiss. One that nether would try to control. When they parted, a single tear slid down Kurama’s cheek. Hiei quickly wiped it away with heavy moisture in his own eyes that he refused to let fall. He took a deep breath trying to find the courage that seems too have fled him.

“I’m….I’m…..I’m sorry.” Hiei whispered uttering the first verbal apology of his life. He wouldn’t have done it for anybody else except his fox. Kurama was having a hard time holding all his emotions in. He never dreamed Hiei would ever say that least of all to him. The fire demon leaned forward placing another small kiss on trembling lips before stepping backwards. “I wanted a connection with you as well.” Hiei disappeared in a blur of black.

Kurama dropped to his knees, staring out the open window. He didn’t know how long he stayed that way. Hiei was right about everything. They were both strong, dominate semes. He had just assumed Hiei would be the uke because of his height. There would be no bending only breaking for either one of them and neither wanted to do that to the other. This hurt worse then any wound ever inflicted on his body.

Kurama forced himself up off the floor and slowly made his way to the bathroom. After a long shower, he finally emerged and headed straight for the bed. The fox didn’t bother putting on any clothes; he would have no visitor tonight. He laid down, emotionally drained. For the first time in the fox’s two lives, he finally knew what it was like to be the one with the broken heart. He drifted to sleep with his mind still racing. Two thoughts standing out among them all. What was Hiei doing? And. What if one of them could learn to bend without breaking?

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The lonely days turned into weeks with the occasional evil demon stopping by. Hiei held to his word. He fought side by side with the fox every time he was needed and did not see him otherwise. His fighting style changed again, dramatically. Hiei was now down right vicious when it came to the fights. Even Yusuke and Kuwabara had noticed the change. They had asked Kurama about it but he just shrugged. The fox couldn’t tell them the truth. His own fighting style had changed too. They both fought cruelly if the evil demon tried attacking the other. They no longer were fighting for just their own lives. They now fought to protect each other. This was something that neither thought they would ever do for anyone.

Kurama was lying on his bed with another sleepless night ahead. He was worried about Hiei. The nights were getting colder and that night was supposed to be the coldest yet. After about 30 minutes of trying to go to sleep, the fox got up. He needed to think and the apartment was not helping. He quickly got dressed before reaching into the nightstand drawer. He pulled out two handfuls of seeds and stuffed them into the jeans’ pockets just in case they were needed. Kurama went to the closet and grabbed his old jacket. He refused to wear the jacket that matched the one hanging beside it, Hiei’s jacket.

The fox left the apartment at a run. At first, he had no clue where he was going but then decided to go to his secret place. He hadn’t been there since he had taken Hiei there, five weeks ago. When Kurama entered the small clearing, he criss-crossed it spreading the many seed he had with him. With a smile, he walked to the center of the area and knelt down. Kurama put his hand to the ground and sent out short bursts of his energy but not enough to draw attention from any spiritually aware person. The small clearing was transformed into a beautiful but very deadly paradise. If any demon tried to attack the redhead, he would find himself in the jaws of a hungry plant. There were many plants from both the Makai and the Ningenkai, all of the fox’s favorites.

Kurama was lying on his back in the middle of a very large blood red flower from the Makai. The petals were moving as if they had a life of there own but it was just the fox’s turbulent energy. He stared at the stars above him, his eyes heavy with moisture. He had come to a very painful life altering decision.

“It’s to cold out for you tonight, Kurama.”

“Same goes for you Hiei.” Kurama replied without moving. He knew the fire demon was about thirty feet behind him in a tree.

“So why are you out here?” Hiei asked jumping down from the tree.

“Thinking about my future.”

“Your future?”

“Yes I came to a very important decision about it.” Kurama replied sadly. Hiei walked towards the redhead already knowing he was not going to like it. Kurama sat up watching the fire demon when he felt his energy start moving. He knew it was not going to be easy to convince the stubborn demon of his decision. It really was best for everybody. The fire demon jumped up to the flower and sat down in front of his fox, raising the temperature around them.

“What decision is that?” Hiei asked watching the redhead intently.

“I’m giving up this life.”

“You are?”

“Yes. I’m going back to the Makai.” Kurama answered taking a deep breath before continuing. “I’m going back to Yomi.”

How the hell did we wind up like this?

“NO!!! WHY?!!!” Hiei yelled getting on his knees.

Why weren’t we able?

To see the signs that we missed

try to turn the tables.

I wish you would unclench your fists,

And unpack your suitcase

lately theres been to much of this

but don’t think its too late

“I don’t want to continue having everyone fighting my battles and getting hurt for me.”

“What about your ningen mother?” Hiei asked, trying to find something to change the fox’s mind.

nothings wrong

just as long

as you know that someday I will

“I have done wrote a long letter explaining everything about me, where I am and what I am. It will be found among my belongings when I go missing.”

someday

some how

gonna make it alright, but not right now

I know you’re wondering when

you’re the only one that knows that

“You are Youko Kurama. Why are you giving up?”

“I’m just plain tired of fighting.”

“I DON’T BELIEVE THAT!!!!” Hiei yelled grabbing the fox by his jacket and shaking him. Kurama looked down refusing to meet the demon’s angry eyes. He knew it was going to be hard but this just purely hurt.

someday

some how

gonna make it alright, but not right now

I know you’re wondering when

 

“I’m sorry. I just can’t fight anymore. I have nothing left to fight with.” Kurama said shaking his head. “I’m tired of fighting just for myself. I have nothing worth fighting for. My ningen mother won’t even care after she gets my letter.”

“What about me?” Hiei growled clenching his fist tighter in the jacket.

well I’d hope that since we’re here anyway

we can end up saying

things that we always needed to say

so we can end up staying

“What about you?!!!!!!” Kurama yelled snapping his head up to glare at the fire demon. “You made it abundantly clear that we can be nothing more then friends. You have no say in the matter.”

now the stories played out like this

just like a paperback novel

lets re-write an ending that fits

instead of a Hollywood horror

“What have I been doing then? I fight hard for you, to help protect you.”

“So does Yusuke and Kuwabara. They don’t even know the whole story.”

nothings wrong

just as long

as you know that someday I will

someday

some how

gonna make it alright, but not right now

I know you’re wondering when

you’re the only one that knows that

“I don’t care if they don’t know all of it!” Hiei shouted his voice rising again with every word. “I’m not letting you return to Yomi. You will not become that demon’s toy.”

someday

some how

gonna make it alright, but not right now

I know you’re wondering when

“What does it matter if I’m his personal toy?” Kurama shot back angrily.

you’re the only one that knows that

“Because you belong to me, fox. I will not let anyone touch you or take you from me.”

How the hell did we wind up like this?

Why weren’t we able?

To see the signs that we missed

try to turn the tables.

“Just go away Hiei.” Kurama said hanging his head. “Just please go away.”

Now the stories played out like this

just like a paperback novel

lets re-write an ending that fits

instead of a Hollywood horror

“I’m not going any where.” Hiei replied softening his voice.

nothings wrong

just as long

as you know that someday I will

“Please just go away!!! It hurts too much when you talk like that. I can’t handle it right now. Please go.”

“I’m not leaving. You are going to continue fighting and I’m going to be beside you the whole way. You might as well get used to the fact that you belong to me and no one else.”

someday

some how

gonna make it alright, but not right now

I know you’re wondering when

you’re the only one that knows that

“You keep saying that but I don’t belong to you either.”

someday

some how

gonna make it alright, but not right now

I know you’re wondering when

“Would you not give up and continue to fight if you had something worth fighting for?” Hiei asked softly, so unlike him.

“Yes I would.” Kurama nodded, finally looking back to the demon’s red eyes and noticing the change in his voice. “Are you going to give me something worth fighting for?”

I know you’re wondering when

you’re the only one that knows that

I know you’re wondering when

you’re the only one that knows that

I know you’re wondering when

“Yes!…………………… ……..Me!” Hiei whispered before yanking Kurama into a desperate kiss.

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