Yu Yu Hakusho Fan Fiction ❯ the Shadows that Bind (marina's finest work) ❯ Kurama chapter: Dreams of a past you never knew ( Chapter 8 )

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You were lying on your back, falling… falling fast through the abyss of deep darkness. Unsure of where you were, nor how long you had been falling… The darkness eats away at your sanity, you never knew if your eyes were closed nor open… All you knew, was that this place was all too familiar… you had been here before…

It was the start of the dream…

You had been here so many times… out like a light for days… possible weeks on end… yet no time passed in the real world… it drove you to the brink of madness time and time again…

"Now little one… it is time to remember some things…" you heard her, the one who always haunted your nightmares, trying to make you listen, even though no words came out of her mouth. She had white hair, and deep blood red eyes, on her back, was a pair of bat wings, like Maku's… she smiled, showing off her long fangs…

"What must I remember?" you frowned, and she laughed,

"You shall see…" suddenly, tendrils of the darkness bound you, and pulled you into itself, suffocating you, pulling you in deep…. Into the real dream…

You awoke to the sounds of roaring flames, and smoke. You opened your eyes, you were in the middle of a ruined city, you gasped, all around you were the carcasses of many dead demons… the flames licking around you, burning them, heating you, to the point of death, but not burning you…. The people….

You remember them… don't you?

Your eyes widened, you had seen this place before… the lady of shadows had shown you this city… it had been brimming with positive energy… and life… Suddenly, in front of you, through the smoke and flames, you saw the silhouette… and slowly, through the smoke, she came… her hair was white, but the tips were black, some of it had spilled from under the hood. She wore a hooded, black cloak, but you could tell it was a her…

She's familiar to you little one… do you know why?

Voices resounded in your head, pummelling into your mind…

"Who… who are you?" you asked, red eyes glowed from within the hood… she put out her hand…

"Die…" she whispered,

The voice… you know it, don't you? Or have you forgotten it?

You watched as everything went black and white… time stopped, your soul left your body… and you looked at yourself, and the cloaked woman. The shadow lady appeared, and stood next to you.

"You know… don't you? Do you understand?" she looked to you, you shook your head,

"No… what does this mean? Who is she?" you asked, the shadow woman looked disheartened,

"You don't…?... You're caught in there deeper than I expected…" the woman shook her head and sighed, "That should have jogged your memory…"

"What do you mean, I'm caught in there deep? Why should that have jogged my memory?" The woman shook her head,

"My turn is done here… it is now the other one's turn to remind you…" you and the scene were swallowed by swirling darkness… and you were falling… falling…

"Ah… I see that SHE failed… as I expected… I made sure your life would not be ruined like mine…" The albino lady grimaced, and stroked your cheek, "You look so much like… so much…" she shook her head, and took her hand away, "No… it is not the time for sentiment… it is time for the other half of you to remember… little one…" Darkness one again claimed you into its grip… taking you down… too…

"What will you pay for this fine Shadow Mistress?" you were chained to the floor of a stage, you could not see yourself, it was like it was block off from you… the demon auctioning you… it was…

"Cassius?" you muttered to yourself, what was he doing here?

"I say 10!" You heard a demon say, you looked and saw a cloaked figure, ears coming out of the hood, familiar ears… one blue with black stripes… the other black with blue stripes… but you just couldn't focus…

"20!" Another growled, you looked and saw…

"Hiei!?" you gasped, how strange… so many you had seen before…

"30!" The eared cloak said, glaring at Hiei,

"40!"

"50!"

"1000…" another voice became known, you looked and you gasped… the most handsome person… or… demon you had ever seen had just bet… He had silver hair, and amber eyes. His fox ears and tail were silver. He was wearing a white shirt, loose and comfortable, it looked like the old traditional Japanese clothing… the whole package… you blushed… you couldn't place it… but he reminded you of someone…

"1000, from… Youko?!" Cassius gasped,

"5000…" Another voice growled, you looked, and saw another cloaked figure, wings came out of the cloak, and red eyes glowed from under the hood, from the darkness.

"…. Going once! Going twice! SOLD! TO- GAH!!!!" the figure vanished, and appeared right up at Cassius, and had snapped his spine.

"Now… bitch… you're finely mine…" the cloaked figure smiled, and stood over you… you shuffled as far from him as possible… "You cannot run…" suddenly, a whip… a rose whip… came and took hold of the cloaked figure, it was from, the one called Youko… but wasn't that Kurama's trade mark? You wonder… The whip snapped, and the figure glared at Youko. "You mess with what you don't understand…" the figure shook his head,

"I understand perfectly… Demon Slayer… I know your ritual…" Youko glared back to the figure…

You know who the figure is… you know…

You felt alone, and afraid, ritual? Demon Slayer? Why had you been called a Shadow Mistress? More voices pounded your mind, the scene was suddenly frozen… and went black and white. The albino lady appeared…

"You understand now… don't you? Your memories must have returned by now!" she smiled deviously,

"What is there to understand, this is just a jumble of stuff…" you glared at the albino, who was shocked,

"You… you don't…?... you really are deep within…" she sighed, "It will become clear… eventually…" she faded away, as did the scene… into more darkness. And left you falling into your dark realm… your dream…

No… this is not your dream…

You saw him, the cloaked figure who had betted on you…

"You're back… this time… I WILL kill you!" he put out his hand, and a scythe made of what looked like light appeared. You stepped back, and started to run…

You can't run from the inevitable…

Dark tendril took hold of you again, and held you down… binding you to your fate…

This is not your realm…

The cloaked figure smirked, and raised his scythe… and stabbed it through the marking gem…darkness started to eat your vision… you saw black blood running down your body…

This is mine…

"I wasn't told you had been marked already… this changes everything…" you faintly saw the cloaked figure pull back the hood, unable to see real detail, only red eyes, and white hair… you felt energy bloom over your heart…

Already marked… yes… this does change everything, loyal servant…

"Yes… master…" you heard the white haired guy whisper, he pulled his hood back up, and he vanished…

A pair of hands came through the darkness to you, you reached out to them, and felt the smooth, warm grip… so familiar… it sent shivers down your spine… 'Kurama?'

You slowly opened your eyes… and saw everyone was around you, when they realised you were awake, they all sighed with relief.

"What? What's up? Why is everyone here?" you yawned, and looked out the window, it was sunrise… the sky a palette of orange, pink, purple and red… shards of golden light burst into your eyes as the glorious sun rose slowly over the horizon. The stars had all winked out… the light sent golden threads over the trees and painted the whole place gold…

"Well… Maku started screaming in pain… when we came, we saw why… a dark energy had taken over the room, it took hold of Maku, and was squeezing her to death. Hiei saved her, and…" Genkai paused, as if thinking of what to say… and how…

"You were surrounded by an orb of darkness, Kurama broke through… and… and…" Yukina shuddered,

"What Yukina tried to say was, there were shards of Shadow crystal surrounding you, and it looked like someone had stabbed into your heart. Your blood… it was… it was black… Than, before our eyes, the energy vanished, and your wound slowly, reversed, all the shards flew back to your heat, and created a gem, over your heart…" Kurama looked away from you, and shuddered…

"Why didn't you tell us you had been marked?" Genkai growled, Hiei, you noted, was holding Maku in his arms, not letting her out of his grip…

"I… I didn't think it was necessary…" you whispered, Genkai rolled her eyes,

"You didn't think… BAKA!! Now… this changes everything…" Genkai turned her back to you… "We'll have to bring in everyone one… we can't afford to take any chances now…" she muttered, and ran out…

"Hn… the old hag's right…" Hiei rolled his eyes, and ran, still holding Maku in his arms… Yukina sighed,

"I should go… I will have to welcome everyone…" she smiled and walked out… Leaving you and Kurama alone…

"____... why didn't you tell me?" his emerald eyes looked right into yours, you were defenceless, and felt his eyes make you lose yourself, and you felt him strip your layers away… slowly… you pulled yourself from his power, stopping him from seeing the real reason… you didn't want him to think of you as a freak… and misfit… or a danger… or anything that would harm your relationship that was so delicate..

"I… I don't know! Ok?" You said this a bit louder than you would have liked Kurama looked slightly hurt, and sighed, and nodded,

"I see… well… We'll start training later…" Kurama walked out of the room… 'Great going, wonder dummy…' you sighed, and went into the walk-in wardrobe, looking at the clothes for the first time, and gasped,

"How did they know I like Esprit!" (AN: I love Esprit, if you don't like it… um… *shruggles* just replace it with something you like) you smiled, feeling a bit better. You took out a black shirt, with 'Esprit' written on the front entwined with blue flowers on green vines, the font was in blue too, it made you feel calmer, and more relaxed. You wore comfortable stretch black pants, with a double white stripe down the leg, and a white tie at the front. You put on some comfortable slip on DKNY's, there was a full sized mirror on one of the door, your hair was a total mess… you saw a new brush on a shelf in the wardrobe, you started to brush your silken hair, (AN :In this you have long hair, why? Ah… it is a secret…) it flowed over your shoulders like a beautiful carpet, each hair unique and different, giving the whole blend of hair a different hue at every look. You put your hair into a bunch, easy… and simple… perfect for every occasion…

You found your way to the kitchen, where two new boys were… One was the ugliest thing (AN: Sorry Kuwabara fans… I hate him… I just… can't like him… no offence you guys, I know you exist… somewhere… there's a fan for everything…. Even the ugliest creation ever must have fans… in some…place… ) ever seen on earth, orange hair, ew! Ugly eyes, everything ugly! The other one, was okay looking, but not up to Kurama… no way… he had chestnut brown eyes, and slick back, black hair, he wore a green uniform, as did the ugly guy… the ugly guy ran up to you, and wrapped his arm around your waist…

"I have heard you need protection, never fear, for I am the great Kazuma Kuwabara, and I'm here to protect you, babe!" your left eye twitched, and you pushed him off you,

"You make this place unsafe… and DON'T EVEN THINK ABOUT TOUCHING ME AGAIN, YOU BIG UGLY MORON!" Kuwabara cowered at your yelling, and slowly crept over to Yukina, suddenly, he was in the opposite wall, Hiei standing only a short distance from where Kuwabara had been . 'Wonder what that's all about…'

"…My names Yusuke Urameshi, you must be _____, I'm another one of your body guards, and Kuwabara… he's MEANT to be a body guard to…" Yusuke laughed,

"That… thing's a body guard!?" you raised a brow, Hiei smirked,

"Finally someone who agrees with me that it is not worth calling the oaf anything… but it or the oaf…" Maku nodded in agreement, you hadn't noticed her before, she was leaning against the wall in the shadows… You laughed, Kurama was sitting on a cushion at the table… thinking… brooding…

"Hey, Kurama, why so down?" you asked as you walked over, and sat next to him, he looked to you and gave a half hearted smile,

"Just… a little tired… that's all…____" Kurama nodded to you, Genkai suddenly entered the room, laden with breakfast,

"I decided we'd try some of the food from some English countries, I'm sure you're used to it, and like it, _____" Genkai smiled, and put the food down on the table, everyone sat down, all the group looked strangely at the food in front of them. There was bacon, eggs, English muffins, pancakes and maple syrup, toast with marmalade, jam, honey and butter, scones and cream, bangers and mash with gravy (AN: Translation: sausages and mash potato, in case you didn't know)… everything! You smiled, and took a bit of everything, everyone else followed suit, Hiei took pancakes, Kuwabara and Yusuke took bacon and eggs… Genkai took the scones, Yukina toast, Maku took the bangers and mash with gravy, while Kurama took the English muffins with some butter Yukina didn't use. Everything tasted delicious, absolutely perfect…

"Now we have to start training, ____" Kurama said, as he got up, you followed suit. He walked to the door, and exited, you followed him.

He led you to a small field in the middle of the forest.

"Now, we'll start of with finding your spirit energy…" he smiled, you nodded, "First you put your hands like this, and close your eyes, sitting down also helps. Look deep within yourself… until you see your energy…" You sat cross legged on the grass, and put your hands together as he showed you too, than you closed your eyes…

'Look deep within yourself…' you thought to yourself, and you dove into the depths of your soul, it was like an endless search, you looked and looked… nothing… just when you were about to give up, you saw it, a bright shimmer of light, you went in and looked closer… It was your energy, it was a ball of ever shifting darkness… and light mixed into one…

With in the deepest darkness there is the brightest light, and within the brightest light, the deepest darkness…

You took hold of this energy, and forced it to take on a physical presence, you heard a gasp, and you opened your eyes, all around you there was a bright light and darkness… you looked to your hands, with their grasp was a small ball of energy like the one within your soul…

"Incredible…" Kurama whispered, he shook his head, and smiled, "Now, focus on turning this energy into a weapon…" You nodded, and closed your eyes…

'Focus on a weapon… focus the energy into the weapon…' your mind flicked through so many choices… but one stuck in your mind… a whip… slowly, but surely, as you focused harder on the whip… you felt the energy in your hand take shape… the grip slowly moulding to your touch, the whip coil lengthened in your other hand. When you opened your eyes, the beauty of your weapon was beyond belief. You uncoiled it, and looked it over, the black and white was swirling in on its self, making it seem like an endless expanse of nothingness…

"Very good…" Kurama smiled to you,

"Thanks!" you smiled back,

"Now, do you know how to use it?" Kurama sighed as he saw the blank look on your face… "This is going to take longer than I thought…"

Kurama went through the basics at first, and as soon as you mastered those, he went onto advanced uses and holdings, but there was on you just couldn't get right…

"No… you hold it a bit more like this…" He put his arms over your own, and positioned your hands over the grip correctly, his touch was so soft… like a warm summer breeze… his head was over your shoulder your hair mingling with his red locks… his breath warm and soft on your ear. He smelt like roses… It was so strange, how your body seemed to fit against him perfectly, you blushed. "There, you see?" you nodded, and he moved away from you, you sighed lightly, maybe today had been good after all… "Well… that's all that I wanted to teach you today… tomorrow, we'll start with finding your flower…" you frowned, and he laughed, "I use a rose to create my whip, so we'll see if you can transform something into a weapon tomorrow." You nodded, sot of understanding him… Out of no where, a freezing cold breeze blew over, you shivered, Kurama noticed this, and took off his jacket, and put it around your shoulders, you blushed wildly.

"Thank you… Kurama…" you whispered, he smiled,

"No problem…"

As soon as you got back, dinner was served, it was exactly like the last dinner. Hiei didn't get brain freeze this time… Kuwabara did…

"GAH!!! BRAIN FREEZE!!! AHAHAHAHAHHA!!!!" Kuwabara yelled to the ceiling,

"That's impossible Kuwabara…since when did you have a brain?" Maku smiled, you giggled, Hiei smirked. You saw him look to Maku, who blushed, as if he had said something… even though not one word passed over those lips.

"So, ____... what do you think of this place?" Kurama smiled,

"It's very nice…" you smiled, 'Especially you…' you added in your mind… if you weren't so scared of rejection, you would say… but… you were scared… and that wasn't going to change any time soon…

"That's good…" Kurama opened his mouth, as if to say something more, but instead shook his head and smiled "You should get back to your room…"

"Yes… Goodnight Kurama…" you smiled,

"Goodnight…. _____..." he smiled, and you left, Maku right behind you, she wrapped her tail around herself, and sighed…

"What's got you in such a good mood?" you looked at her slyly,

"Oh… um… well… nothing!" she chuckled nervously, she was the worst liar in the world…

"yeah… sure… and a dodo just flew past!" You rolled your eyes,

"ALRIGHT!!! I'll tell you back in our room…"

When you did get back to your room, she closed the door, closed and locked all the windows, and made sure nothing could get out of the room…

"Hiei… may be interested in me!!!" she smiled, and her eyes glazed over as she went to the happy zone…

"How do you know?" you smiled,

"…None of your business!" she growled, you nodded, you went into the walk in wardrobe ,and got into a pair of nice Tweety pyjamas (AN: You know, Tweety, as in Sylvester and Tweety,) which were blue, with quarte length pants, and short-sleeved top. You slipped off the shoes, you slipped under the silken sheets and lay for a while on the soft futon bed… you heard the door open, and you closed your eyes, pretending you were asleep. You felt a soft hand caress your cheek, you opened one eye a crack, just so whoever it was didn't notice… it was Kurama, he lightly kissed your forehead, and stroked his fingers through your hair.

"Sweet dreams… ____..." he stroked over your cheek once more, and kissed your nose lightly, and he left the room, you lay awake for quite some time… his actions sending you straight to the Happy zone… Kurama style… But soon, you fell out of you zone ,and into the dark abyss once more… fear crept through your heart… would you be tossed into another dream? Or thrown into a nightmare? Or maybe… left to your own insanity?

Another chapter completed! Hell… the start was dark…

Yes… it was…

DAMN THE VOICES IN MY MIND!!! No… I take that back… they told me to write this story… O.O

Damn right we did…

Heheheh… anyways… review!

There is a total of 3502 words in this story, including my notes… ho that's long…