Yu Yu Hakusho Fan Fiction ❯ the Shadows that Bind (marina's finest work) ❯ Hiei chapter: From the grave ( Chapter 21 )

Bitterness is in the mind

It burns the soul and corrupts the thoughts

But once it's there it sticks for a long, long time

And you can't scrape it away without taking something else with it

Darkness slips into the mind so easily,

Cracks the heart

And poisons the thoughts

Friends can vanish so quickly

Back stabbing is seemingly part of friendship,

They'll all stab you eventually and bring you down

There's nothing you can say to stop them

They just always stab you when you turn your back

People just don't understand when I do what I can

I always am trying to do my best

The signals are everywhere

I'm falling

They just don't understand

I'm drowning

I can't say what's wrong

I'm burning

The only way I can convey myself is through these words

I'm crashing

When someone asks 'Is something wrong?'

I can't just say yes

I'm falling, drowning, burning, crashing all in my own insanity

There's nothing that can change what's going on

Don't say what you think is wrong with me

Others are always wrong

Friends are always looking over me

Thinking that they've figured me out

They're wrong

Friends are rarer

Enemies common,

People say it's all just me

I don't think so

How could everything I do be wrong?

How can it just be me if what they say hurts me?

'Hannah listen, and remember that it's all in your head'

That's what they say

But how come it hurts when they call me pessimistic?

Saying my drawings are piles of c*ap

That I shouldn't try and write stories

That my singing sucks

I'm on my last legs and I know just a push or two will make me fall

Maybe they're trying to make me die

So that they haven't got any competition

Well, I'm not leaving to I've finished my goals

But when they're finished

I'll vanish and you won't know it

No one will care

But I won't mind

No one will cry for me

Hell, they all know I'm already dead

I'm not going over the edge

I'm over it

Going suicidal

Like my lying friend (I know she ain't suicidal)

I'm slowly slipping down into the darkness

It consumes and haunts

There's nothing you can do to stop it

Light always goes out

Hope always gets crushed

Dreams are naught but fantasy

Only your goals matter

Nothing else

But goals...

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Before you could react to hearing his heart restart, his arms were tight around you, keeping you close, not allowing you to leave... pulling you into an intimate position against him...

"Hiei!?" you gasped, looking up to the living corpse's face...his red eyes smirked with LIFE down on you...

"You didn't think I'd let you be free without doing what I want?" he kissed through your hair,

"I should have known that was a trick... so like you Hiei...." you growled, how low could he stoop? He had pretended to die, just so you would be in his power...

"Trick? I wasn't faking that death, baka..." Hiei growled, your heart beat faster as the intoxication began again... his deep sexy voice... his eyes, you couldn't stop yourself, your lips met his in a fiery kiss, his hands stroked down your back, sending shivers down your spine, your body felt like it was on fire, and it felt so right this time...

This time he didn't force you to let his tongue into you, you let him without him even having to ask...

You always had been a sucker for romance...

It was Hiei who broke the kiss, his smirk slightly bigger this time, "And you think I have desires..." he said this seductively...

Your heart pounded in your chest, you had given yourself up to him, he could see through into your real emotions now, he had peeled off the layers...

Anything he wanted from you, he now knew he just had to ask...

He was passionate desire, and he now knew you wanted him, you were... what were you?

Maybe Hiei understood what you were, but you still didn't even know WHO you were, let alone WHAT...

So, what was he going to do with you?

Hell, he knew he could do WHATEVER he so desired...

But what scared you was you didn't care...

You wouldn't mind if he raped you,

Not caring what he did

You had given into the passion, the desire

"So... are you ready?" his voice so seductive... so smooth... you saw his hand go down your swimsuit,

"No! Don't!" you pulled Hiei's hand away, he had almost touched the gem,

"What... was that for?" he spat, he glared directly at you...

"You... You almost touched the gem, don't you remember what will happen if you touch it?" your eyes were wide, almost fearful, you knew he would probably hurt you anyway, he smiled, no, not evilly, not sadistically, not smirked... but smiled,

"So... you do care about me...." his grip slackened around you, his eyes had stripped away his own emotions, and showed you his love...

"Hiei..." you smiled, so... he didn't just desire you for sex appeal, he loved you for WHO you were...

"____..." his hand gently stroked through your white hair, you purred with delight,

"I really do love you Hiei..." you kissed his chest, and snuggled close to him...

"I know...and I... I love you to, ___..." he was being so kind, so wonderful... had you been able to penetrate his heart?

What a man... he died for you, he helped you, ok... he had his rough edges, but DIEING for you made you allow yourself to overlook his previous actions...

Now he had said those words every girl wants to hear from a man...

Lucky you...

And that's where I'll leave it! ^_^