Yu Yu Hakusho Fan Fiction ❯ Two Hearts, Two Minds, One Soul ❯ Betrayal and Regret ( Chapter 33 )
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By: Mitsukai no Awai 
Gwen feels betrayed by Hiei and runs home to see her father die.
Anime/Manga: Yu Yu Hakusho Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Hentai / Romance / Angst | Type: Alternate Universe | Uploaded On: 08.07.2005 | Pages: 5 | Words: 4.3K | Visits: 156 | Status: Completed
Gwen feels betrayed by Hiei and runs home to see her father die.
Anime/Manga: Yu Yu Hakusho Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Hentai / Romance / Angst | Type: Alternate Universe | Uploaded On: 08.07.2005 | Pages: 5 | Words: 4.3K | Visits: 156 | Status: Completed
Sorry if It's been too long since I last updated, I had too much homework. I'm in the top classes of my grade. I'm doing pretty good!
Hiei: Hn. Hai, while running away from people.
MNA: It's all Yusuke's fault! I'll kill that jerk! That preverted jerk!
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Yusuke: ACHOO! Man, I hope someone's not saying stuff about me!
Kurama: *chuckles* It's most likely someone is.
^o^o^Back with the authoress^o^o^
MNA: I don't own Yu Yu Hakusho. Only Gwen since she is my muse!
Carnation: Ahem!
MNA: *jumps on Hiei's head* AHHHHHHHHHH!
Hiei: -_-+++
Carnation: *evilly smirks* Read and Review.
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Two Hearts, Two Minds, One Soul
Chapter Thirty-Three
Betrayal and Regret
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Gwenevere, struggling to walk, let alone stand, entered her room. The girls were still present and awake, looking at her with concern. "Are you all right, Gwen?" Keiko asked as Gwen collapsed on her bed, her face covered by her pillow.
"Hai..." she answered in a muffled voice. Carnation's antennae drooped a bit, as Shizuru motioned the girls out of the room. "Come on, girls. Gwen needs her rest." Being the last one to leave, Shizuru sensed a deep sadness in Gwen and decided to give her some space.
When Shizuru left, Carnation walked to Gwen. ~Maybe it was just a misunderstanding...~
Gwen sat up, tears casading down her cheeks. ~But...what if it's not? What if...~ Gwen fell back to her pillow.
~You may never know unless you ask him.~
~I don't want see him...ever!~
Carnation jumped as Gwen thought out the last word. ~You don't mean that...~
~Hai, I do! I never want to come back here again!~ Gwen thought as she got up again, the wound hurting more as she cried. She slowly walked to get her things in a backpack she brought a few days ago. She stuffed all of her clothes and possessions in it and started walking toward the door. Carnation looked at her concerned, but helped her all the same.
They walked out of the castle unnoticed, and Carnation made a portal to Ningenkai. When the hanyou and her neko arrived in Ningenkai, they traveled to Genkai's temple, seeing as the gang was still at Mukuro's Castle. No one was at the temple; Gwen guessed Genkai was away for business. She put her bag down and plopped onto the couch, Carnation curling up at her feet.
Gwen's mind was too preoccupied to fall asleep, even if it would help heal the injury Hiei had caused. 'Why would Hiei do this to me...?' Gwen thought as she cried herself to sleep.
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Gwen walked home, Carnation deciding to wait for Yusuke and the others at Genkai's. It was a school day, but Gwen didn't feel like going.
Her wound was healed by her healing tears, her hair being naturally two toned. Her bag swung over her shoulder, Gwen looked up at the grey sky, feeling tiny raindrops dripping down.
When she arrived home, she heard a voice calling her. "Gwenevere!"
Gwen twirled around, seeing her next door neighbor. "Ms. Peycuo?"
The middle aged woman ran as fast as she could to the teen. "Gwenevere, your father's at the hospital! I called just two nights ago! He had a stroke, Gwenevere!"
Gwen just looked at her in shock. 'No...' She dropped her bag, running to the hospital as fast as she could, feeling the rain fall harder. It was quite a ways away, but Gwen didn't care; she just wanted to see her father. Gwen heard the faints calls of Ms. Peycuo, but decided to ignore them.
People gasped in shock as the girl pushed by them. The gang, including Hiei, walked that way, spotting Gwen as she ran past them.
"Wonder what's up?" Kuwabara asked stupidly. They all looked at each other and ran to the hospital.
Gwen saw the hospital, hearing sirens and that just made her heart race even more. She scrambled in, getting the receptionist's attention.
"Goodness! You're drenched!" she exclaimed.
"Where's Hakusa Donawo's room, please!?" Gwen asked urgently, in between breaths, seeing as she held it all the way there.
Looking at a file, the receptionist replied, "Room 333... Wait! Where are you going!?"
Once the room number was said, Gwen sped off, searching. As she was running, a very depressing thought occurred to her.
'If things start to go right for me, they always end up going bad... Everything I do...ends up badly...'
After ten minutes of wandering, she found room 333. She ran in, seeing her father in bed, eyes closed, tubes in him.
"Otousan..." Gwen murmured as she stood before him. But as soon as she said that, just that one simple word, the machine began beeping drastically.
"No! Otousan, please!" Gwen screamed. Doctors came rushing in, nurses treading behind them.
"Get this girl out of the way!" a doctor yelled. A couple of nurses came up to Gwen and moved her to a corner of the room. Gwen stared at the tile floor.
'He never said "I love you" to me... Why am I so unloved!?' A couple of tears slid to the floor, never dissolving. 'Why have my parents abandoned me? Why must I end up alone!?' More tears fell, and the two nurses tried to calm her down.
"Leave me alone!" Gwen screamed, the tears uncontrollable.
The nurses seemed taken aback, and the doctor called for their assistance so they left Gwen's crying form.
A minute later, the head doctor shook his head, covering Gwen's father's body with the white sheet. Just as the doctor had done that task, Hiei and the others ran in the hospital, finding Gwen's ki. Reaching room 333, they saw the covered body with doctors and nurses surrounding it and Gwen on her knees, crying.
The girls gasped in shock as the doctors exited the room. Hiei walked in the room, glancing at the bed, then Gwen, who was staring at the floor. He kneeled down in front of her, his face unreadable.
"Hanyou, you baka," Hiei started. "You almost got caught by the ningens for shedding your Linhgea tears." He looked down, seeing puddles of the healing substance.
She didn't respond, only continued to cry.
"Baka hanyou, listen to me!" He grabbed her by the shoulders to make her look at him. Then Gwen started thrashing about, trying to slip from the tight hold.
"No! I will not listen! I want to be alone! Leave me alone!" Gwen screamed as Hiei held her even tighter. She screamed, yelled, kicked...trying to get away from the person who stole her heart...who almost killed her...
The Reikai Tantei could only watch helplessly as they watched Gwen's struggle. But, the amazing fact that made them uneasy was that Gwen's ki was increasing. Hiei saw that, also, and tried to keep her under control.
"I hate you!" Gwen shouted as loud as she could. Hiei growled, his patience running out. Then, Hiei slapped her hard.
"Hanyou, wake up. Your otousan is dead. That's reality," Hiei yelled at her. Gwen placed a hand on her red cheek, allowing an uncomfortable silence to begin.
"...I...just...want to be loved..." she whispered, leaning into Hiei's chest and began crying again. Hiei wrapped his arms around her, as the others walked in the room slowly, Gwen's ki decreasing. However, her necklace's pendant started to glow faintly...
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That night was the wake. People who lived nearby came to pay their respects, even classmates of Gwen's. Gwen sat in one corner of the room, feeling so...empty...
She ignored the people who tried to comfort her, just staring off into space, inside her own little world.
As the people left, her friends showed up, excluding Hiei. She sensed that he wasn't there, but she didn't care. When her friends came over, Botan asked gently, "Are you going to be all right?"
'Enma, that's a stupid question, Botan,' thought Gwen, but she didn't say anything out loud.
"Cheer up, Gwen," Yusuke said. "I thought you hated your otousan."
Gwen shook her head, tears spilling onto the floor. "...I want my parents back... I wish I can have a normal life..."
Keiko was glaring at Yusuke. "Look what you did, Yusuke! You made Gwen cry!" With that, she smacked him upside the head. The girls gave Gwen a group hug, letting her cry her tears. Carnation, her antennae drooped, jumped onto Gwen's lap, and laid down.
The three teenage boys looked at each other sadly. Tomorrow was the funeral and they knew that it would be a long day.
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The funeral went well; Gwen had been quiet and hadn't spoken at all since the day before. The girls luckily dragged her out of bed, taking her to the funeral. That morning it had poured.
Gwenevere walked to the tree where she had met Kurama. She sat on the swing, looking at the sunset.
"Gwenevere?"
Gwen turned around, seeing Kurama.
"Are you going to be all right?"
"I don't really know, Kurama," she answered honestly. "I just feel so...empty..."
"That's what happens when you lose a loved one," Kurama replied, pushing the swing, making Gwen feel the breeze on her face. "You'll move on."
They stayed there for a half an hour in silence, just comfortable with the tranquility. Kurama walked her home, giving her a hug.
"You'll feel better, Gwen," Kurama said, smiling a bit.
Gwen nodded, returning the hug and walked into her house. She took a steaming shower, lost in her thoughts.
Fifteen minutes later, Gwen walked up to the attic in her white nightgown, looking around, the moonlight the only source of light. She spotted a box that labeled "Family Albums." She sat down, opening the box and taking out a photo album. She looked through it, placing it on the dusty floor as she took out another album. Repeating the same step, Gwen was looking for something.
Finally, the last album in the box, the one that was collecting dust for so long. She slowly reached for it, holding her breath. Gwen opened it, seeing her father as a young boy, seeing pictures of Genkai here and there. Then, she found it, the pictures that made her heart skip a beat.
"Okaasan..." Gwen whispered as she looked at a protrait of her mother in human form. She was very beautiful, her long whitish-blonde hair, her misty-grey eyes, her smile...
She turned the page seeing a huge picture of her parents together, laughing...smiling...loving each other...
Gwen bit her lip, tears starting to form. "Why did you leave me?" She never noticed walking back downstairs, carrying that album, collapsing onto her bed.
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Gwen opened her eyes slowly, hearing the soft sobbing coming from downstairs. Then hearing glass break.
She sat up, listening to two familiar voices.
"Donawo, please! We're talking about your daughter!"
"No! I will not have a wretched hanyou as a daughter!"
"Donawo!"
Gwen heard her parents' voices. She ran out of her room, then slowly walked down the stairs, hearing the voices more clearly, but much more louder.
Gwen hated to hear her mother's soft crying. It put guilt into her heart.
"Why have you told me, Aliana? Why have you told me about your...heritage?"
"So that you wouldn't be shocked when our daughter has wings when she's born!"
"I am shocked! But you shouldn't have told me! I won't love a youkai!"
"Donawo, why can't you accept me for being a youkai?"
Gwen reached the kitchen, glass covering the floor. Her mother standing a few feet away from her angered father.
"You're from a different species. Youkai are evil creatures!" her father shouted, her mother putting a hand on her stomach.
'No, they aren't, Otousan...you're wrong...' Gwen thought as she watched their quarrel.
"Some youkai are evil, but some aren't. Like me."
Tears were still falling from her mother's face. Gwen couldn't believe her mother was crying; she had never seen her mother cry.
'Please otousan, please make okaasan stop crying...' Gwen thought out to him, trying to get them back together.
"You're trying to trick me. One day I bet you'll kill me in my sleep!"
"No, I'm not! Shimatta, Donawo! Can't you understand I'm giving up everything for you!?" Aliana shouted.
"Everything? What's everything to you, filthy youkai?" Donawo muttered as he left.
Aliana slid down to the floor, a couple of feet away from the broken glass.
"My homeland...my pride...my friends and kin... That's what I would've given up for you..."
Aliana moved her hand across her stomach.
"Hush, baby... Mommy's going back home. I'll take care of you with the help and support of Zarie."
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Gwen woke up, tears running down her face.
'It's my fault...my fault they broke apart...' Gwen scanned her room, sliding off the bed. She fell to her knees, putting her hands to her face, feeling the loneliness increase... Gwen hated that feeling, the feeling where it just sucks away all interest in everything. She picked her head up, then stood up, finding out what she needed to do. She ran out of her house, away from it all. Gwen couldn't stand it anymore. She wanted to leave everything behind.
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Koenma appeared at Genkai's temple where the Reikai Tantei were hanging out.
"YUSUKE!" Koenma shouted. "You have a mission!"
Everyone except Hiei, Kurama, and Carnation jumped in shock.
"The Hell, toddler!?" Yusuke yelled at the demi-god. "Haven't you noticed we're pretty down because of Gwen's dad dying and all!?"
"That's what I've come to speak to you about," Koenma said, sucking on his binkie a bit.
~What are you talking about?~ Carnation asked, her antenae still drooped.
"Not what, but who," Koenma replied. "Gwenevere, I'm talking about."
"What about her?"
Everyone turned to Hiei.
Koenma kept an unquavering stare at him. "She's disappeared."
"Nani!?" everyone shouted at the prince of Reikai, making him wince.
"I've looked for her everywhere! I can't spot her in Ningenkai, Makai, not even Reikai!"
"But, wait. Isn't Gwen able to take care of herself?" Kuwabara asked. "I mean, isn't she as strong as any of us, guys?"
Koenma frowned, but answered, "Hai...but, youkai have found out about Gwenevere's Linhgea tears. Remember the incident where she was almost captured about a few months ago?"
Hiei glared at Koenma as he continued. "That is why I've always kept a close eye on her. I was glad she teamed up with you guys. I've had too much paperwork."
"Nani? We've been babysitting Gwen the whole time?" Yusuke asked.
"Not exactly..." Koenma said as he sweatdropped.
"What happens if she is alone?" Kurama asked, getting the attention now.
"That's up to her, but I've brought her back to life because of her being an Adehriea. I brought her back to life since I thought she would be a great healer for when she or anyone else dear to her were injured on any of her cases."
"But, would she try anything?" Botan asked, a bit scared.
"I hope not," the demi-god said. "Carnation, can you get a hold of her?"
~No, I've tried the past ten hours,~ Carnation responded.
Koenma turned to Hiei. "Can you, Hiei?"
"...Hn." He wore a scowl as he turned away.
Koenma tore his gaze from the Forbidden Child to Yusuke and the others. "Kurama, you saw her last. Did she say anything...peculiar?"
Hiei snapped his head to Kurama. Kurama closed his eyes and said, "She was very depressed. She told me she felt...empty. I found this strange since at Genkai's death two years ago, she never said anything like that, and Genkai being her favorite relative we've known... It's odd how Gwen feels strange after the death of a relative she doesn't even call close enough to be her father."
"Then it's settled," Koenma declared. "You guys have to find her before it's too late."
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Gwen kept running, unaware of the light emitting from her necklace. She felt rain pouring down, but didn't care. She was so drenched, her nightgown was sticking to her skin. She found a cave and entered it.
She looked around, seeing only darkness. That was when she noticed the glowing pendant. But once she looked at it, the light became brighter, making Gwen feel light-headed and she fainted.
Gwen opened her eyes, slowly looking around. The rain was still pouring, and Gwen could hear it hit the ground. Gwen looked toward the inner part of the cave, seeing a person with wings.
"Who are you?" Gwen asked, standing up. When she focused her eyes on the figure, she gasped. "Okaasan?"
"No, I'm not Okaasan..." the figure said, turning to face Gwen. She had a cold gleam shining in her eyes. "I'm you."
"Nani? But how...?" Gwen asked.
"I'm your youkai half," the hawk replied. "And I longed for this day, Gwenevere. I longed to have a body. I was trapped in that for too long!" The hawk pointed at the necklace which was lying on the floor between them.
"I'm still confused. What are you talking about?"
"You were only a baby when you acquired the Hanyou Gemstone. Okaasan asked Zarie to get one for you, knowing I would get out of hand.
"Zarie agreed. Then it was that visit that Hiei gave you the necklace. The Gemstone traps the stronger half, which of course was me. I was trapped for seventeen years..."
"Yeah, so what? Okaasan probably was right."
"Hai, she was right... I still am. That's why I want to kill all ningens and traitors. Just like I killed all those Falcons that killed Okaasan."
"Nani?" Gwen shouted.
"It's true, ningen. Once you became unconscious, I found out I could control our body. So I did, killing all those kisama," the hawk laughed. "It was your fault you were too weak to save Okaasan. It was all your fault!"
"No! It's not! I was only four! I couldn't save her..." Gwen shouted back, eyes closed.
"...You're right. You couldn't save her. You were too weak."
"Urusai!"
"Besides, if Zarie had only came sooner... Okaasan would've been alive..."
"Don't blame it on her!" Gwen yelled.
"Right... So it was Hiei's fault. He said he would protect you, but he never came to your rescue when you were threatened with your life!"
"I said urusai!" Gwen said, punching her youkai half, feeling a punch being thrown at her. Gwen took a step back, touching her cheek.
"Didn't you know? If you hurt your other half, you also get hurt. However, I can hurt you since you're the weaker half. Hell, I could probably kill you and still be alive..." the hawk said, smirking evilly.
Gwen glared, and then both started a battle.
"I have been in that torture chamber for far too long... I'm not going back," the hawk explained. "Seeing mother's death... always repeating... I have thought of Hiei being dead, but ever since I found out that Hiei never came to rescue us, I began hating him. I despise him. I hate him and the ningens. They're too weak to be alive."
"Those are my friends you're talking about..." Gwen said in a deadly calm voice, dodging a high kick.
"So what? I'm gonna kill them when I see them. But before that, I must get your half of our soul into the pendant so that I can wipe you out. I would've been wiped out, but I never gave into its illusions."
The hawk glanced at the necklace, flying to it.
"No you don't!" Gwen yelled, pushing her into the cave wall. Then as the dust settled, she saw that the youkai was missing, so she created her Rei bow and looked up. She saw the hawk, glaring down.
"How dare you do that to me, ningen!" she snarled. "You're gonna pay!" She flew down toward Gwen, who stayed still as stone.
Gwen created a Spirit arrow, pointing it at the charging youkai. Hesitating to let go at first, she finally found enough courage to fire. The arrow pierced the hawk's chest, making her crash to the ground. Gwen walked toward the motionless body, or at least, it looked like it was. When she was close enough, she felt that she was being lifted up, then thrown into the far wall. All of a sudden, the ceiling began to crack. Gwen slowly looked up, seeing chunks of rock falling toward her. But she didn't move at all, letting a pile of rocks cover her.
The youkai smirked, pulling the arrow out of her, making it disintegrate. "Ha! What did I tell you! I can live without you here! Now I have to pay Hiei a little visit..." With that, she walked out of the cave, rain pouring down as she walked away, feeling triumphant.
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Well, I think this is a good chapter! It's getting to the good parts! I've been thinking of this chapter for about five months. Now it's actually typed! I feel so proud!
Um...right...feeling proud when on top of a short tempered, yet kawaii, fire/ice youkai...
Awkward silence...
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MNA: @_@ Ow....
Carnation: Hee hee. That was interesting! Poor girl... *pokes MNA with her paw*
Hiei: -_- Hn. Review.
Hiei: Hn. Hai, while running away from people.
MNA: It's all Yusuke's fault! I'll kill that jerk! That preverted jerk!
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Yusuke: ACHOO! Man, I hope someone's not saying stuff about me!
Kurama: *chuckles* It's most likely someone is.
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MNA: I don't own Yu Yu Hakusho. Only Gwen since she is my muse!
Carnation: Ahem!
MNA: *jumps on Hiei's head* AHHHHHHHHHH!
Hiei: -_-+++
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Two Hearts, Two Minds, One Soul
Chapter Thirty-Three
Betrayal and Regret
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Gwenevere, struggling to walk, let alone stand, entered her room. The girls were still present and awake, looking at her with concern. "Are you all right, Gwen?" Keiko asked as Gwen collapsed on her bed, her face covered by her pillow.
"Hai..." she answered in a muffled voice. Carnation's antennae drooped a bit, as Shizuru motioned the girls out of the room. "Come on, girls. Gwen needs her rest." Being the last one to leave, Shizuru sensed a deep sadness in Gwen and decided to give her some space.
When Shizuru left, Carnation walked to Gwen. ~Maybe it was just a misunderstanding...~
Gwen sat up, tears casading down her cheeks. ~But...what if it's not? What if...~ Gwen fell back to her pillow.
~You may never know unless you ask him.~
~I don't want see him...ever!~
Carnation jumped as Gwen thought out the last word. ~You don't mean that...~
~Hai, I do! I never want to come back here again!~ Gwen thought as she got up again, the wound hurting more as she cried. She slowly walked to get her things in a backpack she brought a few days ago. She stuffed all of her clothes and possessions in it and started walking toward the door. Carnation looked at her concerned, but helped her all the same.
They walked out of the castle unnoticed, and Carnation made a portal to Ningenkai. When the hanyou and her neko arrived in Ningenkai, they traveled to Genkai's temple, seeing as the gang was still at Mukuro's Castle. No one was at the temple; Gwen guessed Genkai was away for business. She put her bag down and plopped onto the couch, Carnation curling up at her feet.
Gwen's mind was too preoccupied to fall asleep, even if it would help heal the injury Hiei had caused. 'Why would Hiei do this to me...?' Gwen thought as she cried herself to sleep.
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Gwen walked home, Carnation deciding to wait for Yusuke and the others at Genkai's. It was a school day, but Gwen didn't feel like going.
Her wound was healed by her healing tears, her hair being naturally two toned. Her bag swung over her shoulder, Gwen looked up at the grey sky, feeling tiny raindrops dripping down.
When she arrived home, she heard a voice calling her. "Gwenevere!"
Gwen twirled around, seeing her next door neighbor. "Ms. Peycuo?"
The middle aged woman ran as fast as she could to the teen. "Gwenevere, your father's at the hospital! I called just two nights ago! He had a stroke, Gwenevere!"
Gwen just looked at her in shock. 'No...' She dropped her bag, running to the hospital as fast as she could, feeling the rain fall harder. It was quite a ways away, but Gwen didn't care; she just wanted to see her father. Gwen heard the faints calls of Ms. Peycuo, but decided to ignore them.
People gasped in shock as the girl pushed by them. The gang, including Hiei, walked that way, spotting Gwen as she ran past them.
"Wonder what's up?" Kuwabara asked stupidly. They all looked at each other and ran to the hospital.
Gwen saw the hospital, hearing sirens and that just made her heart race even more. She scrambled in, getting the receptionist's attention.
"Goodness! You're drenched!" she exclaimed.
"Where's Hakusa Donawo's room, please!?" Gwen asked urgently, in between breaths, seeing as she held it all the way there.
Looking at a file, the receptionist replied, "Room 333... Wait! Where are you going!?"
Once the room number was said, Gwen sped off, searching. As she was running, a very depressing thought occurred to her.
'If things start to go right for me, they always end up going bad... Everything I do...ends up badly...'
After ten minutes of wandering, she found room 333. She ran in, seeing her father in bed, eyes closed, tubes in him.
"Otousan..." Gwen murmured as she stood before him. But as soon as she said that, just that one simple word, the machine began beeping drastically.
"No! Otousan, please!" Gwen screamed. Doctors came rushing in, nurses treading behind them.
"Get this girl out of the way!" a doctor yelled. A couple of nurses came up to Gwen and moved her to a corner of the room. Gwen stared at the tile floor.
'He never said "I love you" to me... Why am I so unloved!?' A couple of tears slid to the floor, never dissolving. 'Why have my parents abandoned me? Why must I end up alone!?' More tears fell, and the two nurses tried to calm her down.
"Leave me alone!" Gwen screamed, the tears uncontrollable.
The nurses seemed taken aback, and the doctor called for their assistance so they left Gwen's crying form.
A minute later, the head doctor shook his head, covering Gwen's father's body with the white sheet. Just as the doctor had done that task, Hiei and the others ran in the hospital, finding Gwen's ki. Reaching room 333, they saw the covered body with doctors and nurses surrounding it and Gwen on her knees, crying.
The girls gasped in shock as the doctors exited the room. Hiei walked in the room, glancing at the bed, then Gwen, who was staring at the floor. He kneeled down in front of her, his face unreadable.
"Hanyou, you baka," Hiei started. "You almost got caught by the ningens for shedding your Linhgea tears." He looked down, seeing puddles of the healing substance.
She didn't respond, only continued to cry.
"Baka hanyou, listen to me!" He grabbed her by the shoulders to make her look at him. Then Gwen started thrashing about, trying to slip from the tight hold.
"No! I will not listen! I want to be alone! Leave me alone!" Gwen screamed as Hiei held her even tighter. She screamed, yelled, kicked...trying to get away from the person who stole her heart...who almost killed her...
The Reikai Tantei could only watch helplessly as they watched Gwen's struggle. But, the amazing fact that made them uneasy was that Gwen's ki was increasing. Hiei saw that, also, and tried to keep her under control.
"I hate you!" Gwen shouted as loud as she could. Hiei growled, his patience running out. Then, Hiei slapped her hard.
"Hanyou, wake up. Your otousan is dead. That's reality," Hiei yelled at her. Gwen placed a hand on her red cheek, allowing an uncomfortable silence to begin.
"...I...just...want to be loved..." she whispered, leaning into Hiei's chest and began crying again. Hiei wrapped his arms around her, as the others walked in the room slowly, Gwen's ki decreasing. However, her necklace's pendant started to glow faintly...
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That night was the wake. People who lived nearby came to pay their respects, even classmates of Gwen's. Gwen sat in one corner of the room, feeling so...empty...
She ignored the people who tried to comfort her, just staring off into space, inside her own little world.
As the people left, her friends showed up, excluding Hiei. She sensed that he wasn't there, but she didn't care. When her friends came over, Botan asked gently, "Are you going to be all right?"
'Enma, that's a stupid question, Botan,' thought Gwen, but she didn't say anything out loud.
"Cheer up, Gwen," Yusuke said. "I thought you hated your otousan."
Gwen shook her head, tears spilling onto the floor. "...I want my parents back... I wish I can have a normal life..."
Keiko was glaring at Yusuke. "Look what you did, Yusuke! You made Gwen cry!" With that, she smacked him upside the head. The girls gave Gwen a group hug, letting her cry her tears. Carnation, her antennae drooped, jumped onto Gwen's lap, and laid down.
The three teenage boys looked at each other sadly. Tomorrow was the funeral and they knew that it would be a long day.
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The funeral went well; Gwen had been quiet and hadn't spoken at all since the day before. The girls luckily dragged her out of bed, taking her to the funeral. That morning it had poured.
Gwenevere walked to the tree where she had met Kurama. She sat on the swing, looking at the sunset.
"Gwenevere?"
Gwen turned around, seeing Kurama.
"Are you going to be all right?"
"I don't really know, Kurama," she answered honestly. "I just feel so...empty..."
"That's what happens when you lose a loved one," Kurama replied, pushing the swing, making Gwen feel the breeze on her face. "You'll move on."
They stayed there for a half an hour in silence, just comfortable with the tranquility. Kurama walked her home, giving her a hug.
"You'll feel better, Gwen," Kurama said, smiling a bit.
Gwen nodded, returning the hug and walked into her house. She took a steaming shower, lost in her thoughts.
Fifteen minutes later, Gwen walked up to the attic in her white nightgown, looking around, the moonlight the only source of light. She spotted a box that labeled "Family Albums." She sat down, opening the box and taking out a photo album. She looked through it, placing it on the dusty floor as she took out another album. Repeating the same step, Gwen was looking for something.
Finally, the last album in the box, the one that was collecting dust for so long. She slowly reached for it, holding her breath. Gwen opened it, seeing her father as a young boy, seeing pictures of Genkai here and there. Then, she found it, the pictures that made her heart skip a beat.
"Okaasan..." Gwen whispered as she looked at a protrait of her mother in human form. She was very beautiful, her long whitish-blonde hair, her misty-grey eyes, her smile...
She turned the page seeing a huge picture of her parents together, laughing...smiling...loving each other...
Gwen bit her lip, tears starting to form. "Why did you leave me?" She never noticed walking back downstairs, carrying that album, collapsing onto her bed.
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Gwen opened her eyes slowly, hearing the soft sobbing coming from downstairs. Then hearing glass break.
She sat up, listening to two familiar voices.
"Donawo, please! We're talking about your daughter!"
"No! I will not have a wretched hanyou as a daughter!"
"Donawo!"
Gwen heard her parents' voices. She ran out of her room, then slowly walked down the stairs, hearing the voices more clearly, but much more louder.
Gwen hated to hear her mother's soft crying. It put guilt into her heart.
"Why have you told me, Aliana? Why have you told me about your...heritage?"
"So that you wouldn't be shocked when our daughter has wings when she's born!"
"I am shocked! But you shouldn't have told me! I won't love a youkai!"
"Donawo, why can't you accept me for being a youkai?"
Gwen reached the kitchen, glass covering the floor. Her mother standing a few feet away from her angered father.
"You're from a different species. Youkai are evil creatures!" her father shouted, her mother putting a hand on her stomach.
'No, they aren't, Otousan...you're wrong...' Gwen thought as she watched their quarrel.
"Some youkai are evil, but some aren't. Like me."
Tears were still falling from her mother's face. Gwen couldn't believe her mother was crying; she had never seen her mother cry.
'Please otousan, please make okaasan stop crying...' Gwen thought out to him, trying to get them back together.
"You're trying to trick me. One day I bet you'll kill me in my sleep!"
"No, I'm not! Shimatta, Donawo! Can't you understand I'm giving up everything for you!?" Aliana shouted.
"Everything? What's everything to you, filthy youkai?" Donawo muttered as he left.
Aliana slid down to the floor, a couple of feet away from the broken glass.
"My homeland...my pride...my friends and kin... That's what I would've given up for you..."
Aliana moved her hand across her stomach.
"Hush, baby... Mommy's going back home. I'll take care of you with the help and support of Zarie."
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Gwen woke up, tears running down her face.
'It's my fault...my fault they broke apart...' Gwen scanned her room, sliding off the bed. She fell to her knees, putting her hands to her face, feeling the loneliness increase... Gwen hated that feeling, the feeling where it just sucks away all interest in everything. She picked her head up, then stood up, finding out what she needed to do. She ran out of her house, away from it all. Gwen couldn't stand it anymore. She wanted to leave everything behind.
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Koenma appeared at Genkai's temple where the Reikai Tantei were hanging out.
"YUSUKE!" Koenma shouted. "You have a mission!"
Everyone except Hiei, Kurama, and Carnation jumped in shock.
"The Hell, toddler!?" Yusuke yelled at the demi-god. "Haven't you noticed we're pretty down because of Gwen's dad dying and all!?"
"That's what I've come to speak to you about," Koenma said, sucking on his binkie a bit.
~What are you talking about?~ Carnation asked, her antenae still drooped.
"Not what, but who," Koenma replied. "Gwenevere, I'm talking about."
"What about her?"
Everyone turned to Hiei.
Koenma kept an unquavering stare at him. "She's disappeared."
"Nani!?" everyone shouted at the prince of Reikai, making him wince.
"I've looked for her everywhere! I can't spot her in Ningenkai, Makai, not even Reikai!"
"But, wait. Isn't Gwen able to take care of herself?" Kuwabara asked. "I mean, isn't she as strong as any of us, guys?"
Koenma frowned, but answered, "Hai...but, youkai have found out about Gwenevere's Linhgea tears. Remember the incident where she was almost captured about a few months ago?"
Hiei glared at Koenma as he continued. "That is why I've always kept a close eye on her. I was glad she teamed up with you guys. I've had too much paperwork."
"Nani? We've been babysitting Gwen the whole time?" Yusuke asked.
"Not exactly..." Koenma said as he sweatdropped.
"What happens if she is alone?" Kurama asked, getting the attention now.
"That's up to her, but I've brought her back to life because of her being an Adehriea. I brought her back to life since I thought she would be a great healer for when she or anyone else dear to her were injured on any of her cases."
"But, would she try anything?" Botan asked, a bit scared.
"I hope not," the demi-god said. "Carnation, can you get a hold of her?"
~No, I've tried the past ten hours,~ Carnation responded.
Koenma turned to Hiei. "Can you, Hiei?"
"...Hn." He wore a scowl as he turned away.
Koenma tore his gaze from the Forbidden Child to Yusuke and the others. "Kurama, you saw her last. Did she say anything...peculiar?"
Hiei snapped his head to Kurama. Kurama closed his eyes and said, "She was very depressed. She told me she felt...empty. I found this strange since at Genkai's death two years ago, she never said anything like that, and Genkai being her favorite relative we've known... It's odd how Gwen feels strange after the death of a relative she doesn't even call close enough to be her father."
"Then it's settled," Koenma declared. "You guys have to find her before it's too late."
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Gwen kept running, unaware of the light emitting from her necklace. She felt rain pouring down, but didn't care. She was so drenched, her nightgown was sticking to her skin. She found a cave and entered it.
She looked around, seeing only darkness. That was when she noticed the glowing pendant. But once she looked at it, the light became brighter, making Gwen feel light-headed and she fainted.
Gwen opened her eyes, slowly looking around. The rain was still pouring, and Gwen could hear it hit the ground. Gwen looked toward the inner part of the cave, seeing a person with wings.
"Who are you?" Gwen asked, standing up. When she focused her eyes on the figure, she gasped. "Okaasan?"
"No, I'm not Okaasan..." the figure said, turning to face Gwen. She had a cold gleam shining in her eyes. "I'm you."
"Nani? But how...?" Gwen asked.
"I'm your youkai half," the hawk replied. "And I longed for this day, Gwenevere. I longed to have a body. I was trapped in that for too long!" The hawk pointed at the necklace which was lying on the floor between them.
"I'm still confused. What are you talking about?"
"You were only a baby when you acquired the Hanyou Gemstone. Okaasan asked Zarie to get one for you, knowing I would get out of hand.
"Zarie agreed. Then it was that visit that Hiei gave you the necklace. The Gemstone traps the stronger half, which of course was me. I was trapped for seventeen years..."
"Yeah, so what? Okaasan probably was right."
"Hai, she was right... I still am. That's why I want to kill all ningens and traitors. Just like I killed all those Falcons that killed Okaasan."
"Nani?" Gwen shouted.
"It's true, ningen. Once you became unconscious, I found out I could control our body. So I did, killing all those kisama," the hawk laughed. "It was your fault you were too weak to save Okaasan. It was all your fault!"
"No! It's not! I was only four! I couldn't save her..." Gwen shouted back, eyes closed.
"...You're right. You couldn't save her. You were too weak."
"Urusai!"
"Besides, if Zarie had only came sooner... Okaasan would've been alive..."
"Don't blame it on her!" Gwen yelled.
"Right... So it was Hiei's fault. He said he would protect you, but he never came to your rescue when you were threatened with your life!"
"I said urusai!" Gwen said, punching her youkai half, feeling a punch being thrown at her. Gwen took a step back, touching her cheek.
"Didn't you know? If you hurt your other half, you also get hurt. However, I can hurt you since you're the weaker half. Hell, I could probably kill you and still be alive..." the hawk said, smirking evilly.
Gwen glared, and then both started a battle.
"I have been in that torture chamber for far too long... I'm not going back," the hawk explained. "Seeing mother's death... always repeating... I have thought of Hiei being dead, but ever since I found out that Hiei never came to rescue us, I began hating him. I despise him. I hate him and the ningens. They're too weak to be alive."
"Those are my friends you're talking about..." Gwen said in a deadly calm voice, dodging a high kick.
"So what? I'm gonna kill them when I see them. But before that, I must get your half of our soul into the pendant so that I can wipe you out. I would've been wiped out, but I never gave into its illusions."
The hawk glanced at the necklace, flying to it.
"No you don't!" Gwen yelled, pushing her into the cave wall. Then as the dust settled, she saw that the youkai was missing, so she created her Rei bow and looked up. She saw the hawk, glaring down.
"How dare you do that to me, ningen!" she snarled. "You're gonna pay!" She flew down toward Gwen, who stayed still as stone.
Gwen created a Spirit arrow, pointing it at the charging youkai. Hesitating to let go at first, she finally found enough courage to fire. The arrow pierced the hawk's chest, making her crash to the ground. Gwen walked toward the motionless body, or at least, it looked like it was. When she was close enough, she felt that she was being lifted up, then thrown into the far wall. All of a sudden, the ceiling began to crack. Gwen slowly looked up, seeing chunks of rock falling toward her. But she didn't move at all, letting a pile of rocks cover her.
The youkai smirked, pulling the arrow out of her, making it disintegrate. "Ha! What did I tell you! I can live without you here! Now I have to pay Hiei a little visit..." With that, she walked out of the cave, rain pouring down as she walked away, feeling triumphant.
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Well, I think this is a good chapter! It's getting to the good parts! I've been thinking of this chapter for about five months. Now it's actually typed! I feel so proud!
Um...right...feeling proud when on top of a short tempered, yet kawaii, fire/ice youkai...
Awkward silence...
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Another awkward silence....
MNA: @_@ Ow....
Carnation: Hee hee. That was interesting! Poor girl... *pokes MNA with her paw*
Hiei: -_- Hn. Review.