Yu Yu Hakusho Fan Fiction ❯ Under the Sakura Tree ❯ Under the Sakura Tree ( One-Shot )

Author's note: I was inspired to write this after reading a depressing but very good fanfiction.

I'm still surprised at how I came up with this. So please read and review!!!!

This is written in Dreia's P.O.V. by the way.

This is good to read while listening to "Remember When the Rain Fell Down" by Josh Groban.

Dreia has a xanga which you might be interested to check out. The website is http://www.xanga.com/dark_wolf_moon

She is currently writing entries based on an RP she's doing with `Hiei' .

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Why did you do this to me?

What had I done to you to deserve this from you?

Was it because I was cold-hearted to everyone else?

You've misjudged me.

Just like everyone else did.

Except for Koenma and Genkai.

They never did.

And they know why I am the way I am.

I'll never be missed. That I know for sure.

Not many people would ever care if I'm gone.

So what's the point of living on?

This pain hurts me so much.

Hurts me as much as I was hurt when I lost my family.

But before I die, tell me.

What had I done to you to deserve this?

Please tell me.

So I can move on. And so can you with your new girl.

It's about time that I die. I think I've lived long enough to know that I'll never be missed.

But then I hear you call out my name under the Sakura Tree.

Telling me that you still love me.

I can never believe your empty words.

I saw you with my own purple eyes.

What you did hurt me so much.

So I'm leaving you behind.

Knowing that I was never good enough to love someone.

So I prepared to end this.

The pain, the misery, the sorrow.

With the sword that will end my life only inches away from me.

You called out to me, and said you loved me.

Those words mean nothing to me now.

My purple eyes....

They would never lie to me like you did.

You beg me to put down my sword.

Your voice is nothing but a whisper in the wind to my ears.

You might as well forget those memories.

Because I'll be nothing to you when I'm gone.

I finally realized what I was to others.

Nothing more than a plain shadow.

Cold hearted because of what happened in my life.

And I'm glad that I finally knew.

So now I can move with my life.

It was nice to know the Spirit Detectives.

They never got to know me more, because I shoved them away.

And now they've completely turned away from me.

And so did you.

For that ningen onna.

She expresses herself, and she's not afraid to show it, unlike me.

I concealed everything in the shadows, hiding it away from everyone else.

The sky began to become gray. Thunder began to roll in, and lightning flashed. The wind also began to blow hard, blowing away some of the cherry blossom petals that had fallen to the ground from the Sakura Tree.

I shed what would probably be my last two tears, as the rain began to pour down, as if protesting my action to commit suicide.

There was no other way to end this misery.

I felt like I could never live on.

Losing my family was so painful....

But learning that you found a ningen girl to replace me hurt me even more.

Is that what I've been to you?

Something easily replaced?

Tell me.

Before I die.

What had I always been to you?

Thunder boomed, and I saw you open your mouth to speak.

I couldn't hear what you had said.

Did it really matter to know what it was?

You open your mouth to speak again.

"I didn't go out with a baka ningen girl. I never did."

You're lying.

How much more lies are you going to tell me?

Don't you know I've been hurt already?

Can't your crimson eyes see that?

Your eyes that held coldness, and hidden sadness.... couldn't they see my misery and pain?

"Dreia, don't kill yourself!"

Since when did you start to care about what I did to myself?

You never cared. No one else did.

No one ever noticed when I slowly became thin.... thinner than normal.

I never came out of my room.

I spent most of my time crying....

And thinking why I had ever loved you in the first place.

What was it that I saw in you that made my heart come out of the shadows, where it had been for most of my life?

I stared into those crimson eyes of yours.

They were filled with worry.

Why worry over nothing but a shadow?

Isn't that what I am to you, and your friends?

A shadow too cold to be friendly to other people? A selfish demon?

Just a plain bitch?

"Dreia....

Whatever it is that you saw me do, I never did it."

You lie more to me.

I don't know how much more lies my heart can take.

It's ready to burst with so many emotions.

I could smell your ningen onna's scent all over you.

The rain could never wash off that stench.

What's the point of living if I'm nothing to anyone?

I stared at the sword.... my sword....

Which would end all my misery.

I should get on with this.

So I raised the sword, and closed my eyes.

In mere moments it would all be over.

I felt a sharp pain enter me. It became more and more painful.

I opened my eyes.

I finally did it.

In a few moments I'll be in Rei Kai.

I won't be a burden to anyone anymore.

I won't be a burden to you.

My eyesight began to get blurry.

I walked a few feet towards the edge of the cliff.

I turned around to face the Sakur Tree, and you, your eyes flowing with tears, and at the bottom of your feet....

Tear Gems.

The first ones you've made.

Lightning struck the Cherry Blossom Tree, burning the wood and the petals.

Slowly I began to step back, towards the edge of the cliff.

I had to make sure I will never be a burden, even after I die.

I was going to throw myself off the cliff.

Onto the sea, which will take my body away.

I reached the edge of the cliff, and took another step.

I began to fall.

Falling into the abyss.

At last it was over.

Or so it seemed.

I didn't feel my bones break, nor the hard rocks at the bottom of the cliff, which the waves crashed upon.

I looked up, to see you holding my hand.

Why did you save me?

Why don't you just let me die?

So you can move on with your life?

I felt myself being lifted up.

Tears flowed down my cheeks, washed away by the rain.

You pulled out my sword, which was covered in blood.

I didn't wince at the pain I felt as you took out the blade.

The rain began to wash off the blood that covered it.

I could still feel my life slipping.

Everything was becoming more blurry.

"Don't leave me.... please...."

Your voice sounded so distant.....

I waited for Death to come and claim me.

Waiting for it to take me away.

Away from everyone.

Away from you.

I felt like I had been nothing more than a burden to them.

You raised me up like a bride, and began to walk back.

I wanted to struggle, to break free, to run to that cliff and jump off.

But I couldn't. I was so weak.

Maybe I'll die before you could bring me back to Genkai's temple.

But I didn't.

You got there, and quickly went to your room.

You laid me down on your bed, and ran off to find your sister, whom you thought could save me.

Can't you understand?

I just want to die.

I don't want to live anymore.

With the small strength I had left, I transported myself back to the edge of the cliff.

I crawled, and crawled.

My Jagan glowed, telling me that you had left to find me again.

Why won't you let me die?

Why don't you spend your time with your ningen onna instead of wasting your time on a selfish bitch like me?

I could sense you tracking me down with your Jagan.

I couldn't hide myself using my powers. I didn't have the strength.

I tried to crawl faster to the edge of the cliff. I could reach it now.

It was then I felt a pair of strong yet gentle hands....

Your hands....

Carry me, and turn me around.

I faced your crimson eyes again, and that gentle face I had once loved so much.

The look of pain and sadness all over it.

"Dreia....

Please stop."

All I could do was reach out and touch your cheek with my knuckles, and then my hand fell down.

I became cold.

It was done.

I was finally gone.

But was I?

I could feel a faint heart beat within me.

I was still.... alive.

Weakly, I looked at you, who was crying.

Then you screamed out my name in the rain.

Followed by thunder and lightning.

"I will avenge you, Dreia. I promise.

I'll find out who did this to you. And I'll make sure that person will pay."

I was carried back to Genkai's temple, and I could see the gang looking at you.

Yukina gasped in shock, and burst into tears. Keiko and Yukina clasped their mouths, and tried not to cry.

"What.... happened?"

I heard Yusuke choke on his words.

"Someone.... who decided to look like me.... did something.... it hurt Dreia so much....

She killed herself."

Keiko and Botan broke into sobs.

The three guys looked down.

Tears began to flow down Genkai's cheeks. She never blinked.

"Bring her inside, Hiei.

Tomorrow we will bury her."

"No."

Everyone looked at you.

"I will not bury her to the ground, and let her body rot."

Had I been wrong about you and the others?

Why do they cry over me?

Am I not just worthless to them?

"But Hiei.... you can't keep Dreia's body forever like it is," said Kurama.

"I'll find a way," I heard you answer.

"We'll think about it tomorrow.

But now we must rest," said Genkai.

I shut my eyes, and could hear footsteps, dragged on the floor.

They must really think that I was gone.

If you weren't with that ningen onna, where were you?

Where were you when I suffered?

Where were you when I felt alone?

I felt a soft bed underneath my back.

With my eyes slightly open, I watched you sit down next to me, those pair of crimson eyes of yours staring at me.

"I wish I could have told you this when you were still alive, Dreia.

I love you.

But I was afraid to show it....

Afraid that the others will think of me as a weakling.... afraid that my reputation will be ruined.

I hadn't thought about how you felt....

And I wish I could say how much I'm sorry.

But now you're gone away."

Your Jagan glowed, and the sad and miserable expression on your face disappeared.

Death was near the door of my life, ready to knock and take me away from you.

Forever.

I wanted to sleep and never wake up.

And never did I wake up.

My last thoughts.... I wished I could have shared them.

It seemed like a dream come true.

You and the others were under the Sakura Tree. It was alive, and there wasn't any trace that the lightning had struck it.

"Hello Dreia."

Your voice....

I no longer felt sad or lonely.

I felt comforted.

All the burden that was on me had been lifted.

It was finally over.

Over for you.

Over for me.