Yu Yu Hakusho Fan Fiction ❯ Why? ❯ Why? ( Chapter 1 )

[ X - Adult: No readers under 18. Contains Graphic Adult Themes/Extreme violence. ]

Why? That's how it always starts out. Just a simple qu estion without an easy answer. I guess
its just like the old woman said. Everything happens for a reason, you may not understand it now but
when you get older everything will become clear. How old is older? How long do we have to wait to
understand something when its happening to us n ow and we don't even know what's going on?
Maybe I should think back to when if first started. I guess it was the day I first met him. The
first day he ever lost a battle. T he first day I noticed anyone. The first day I fell in love.
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I had just gotten the second artifact and was on my way to get the last one and save Keiko.
Honestly I wasn't sure if I could beat him once I found out how fast he was but I did. I was the hero
he was the villain. T hat's just how things work ed out. After that Keiko and I started to k ind of date.
I'm not really sure why, maybe its was just my way of hiding the fact that every time he came
around I got a woody. I know, it was stupid, but you have to understand that I grew up thinking
being gay was a bad thing. Frowned upon by society. Don't get me wrong as soon as I realize what
was happening I went to the porn store and bought every gay porno they had just to make sure that I
wasn't, turns out I'm not. I'm just attracted to him. I don't even know why. Its not like he did
anything special or made me feel better about myself. I just am.
Anyways a couple of years went by and Keiko finally got tired of me and split. I tried my
hardest to make it work but I don't think it was meant to be. After that he started to hang around
more. Then he started to hang around just me more. Well I finally grew some balls and told him that
I love him and he said "I cant".
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And with just those two words I was shot down like a pebble falling off the Grand Canyon.
"W hat?" Yep that was the best response I could pull out of my very blurry brain.
"I cant be with you." This just pissed me off.
"And why not?" Maybe I should have gone to school more. Its very possible my comebacks
for stuff like this would be more intelligent.
"Because I'm not good enough." I just barely heard it even with my Mazuk o hearing.
Luckily I was prepared for something to go wrong and locked all the doors and windows. I wasn't
about to let him leave without an answer better than that. And just as he tried to run my Mazuko
blood kicked in and I got there just in time to stop his hand from hitting the window to get out.
"Explain to me because I'm feeling a cloud of stupidity fall over me and I don't think I
understand what you r saying." I growled trying to hold back from breaking his arm but still
keeping it tight enough to hold him still.
"I'm forbidden don't you understand! Noone is supposed to love me, care about me, or even
realize I exist. The only reason they do is because I have made myself powerful enough to be
recognized. Don't you get it. Your not supposed to love me no matter what. I'm forbidden." All this
ended in a whisper with a few tears leaking out and falling to the floor as gems.
"I don't care. Since when have you known me to follow everyone else. Since when have I
judged you for being you. I want you to listen to me Hiei, there's not to many things I do care about
but your one of them. I don't think I could take it if you rejected me. Please just tell me how you
really feel." Yeah that's right I pleaded with him. If he wanted I would have even gotten down on
my knees.
That's when he pulled my face down to his and gave me the best damn kiss I ever had.

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