Yu Yu Hakusho Fan Fiction ❯ Would Not Come ❯ Would Not Come ( One-Shot )

A/N- I got an idea for this songfic while listening to my Cd and riding on a bus. It jumps around with POV's a lot so bear with me.

Disclaimer- I own nothing. The song is Alanis Morissette's "Would Not Come" and the characters are just the tools I am using to make the story interesting.

Warning- Sex scene. Hiei/Kurama. Yaoi.

Would Not Come

Hiei-

If I make a lot of tinsel then people will want to

If I am hardened no fear of further abandonment

It was a hot day today, even for me. The temperatures rose to one hundred and with added humidity, my perspiration evaporated off my body. I had to use my Koorime half to keep myself cool. However, as I gazed down to the kitsune walking on the sidewalk below me I noticed how the heat did not seem to affect him at all.

I glare at the stupid fox, how he annoys me. His stupid ningen customs and the way he carries himself around them. Like an equal. These are the reasons I tell people he annoys me, but it goes deeper than that. I do not want to admit it to even myself, so how could I tell someone else about it? How could I tell them the fox drives me mad? The torturous dreams, and the way his smooth slender body moves with such grace. Even as I merely think about him my body responds. I want to caress his long red tresses and run my hands up his powerful chest.

The kitsune easily sensed my ki. I had been too distracted to mask it. Damn his beauty. He calls to me. "Hiei, come down and walk with me."

I say nothing but jump from my tree nevertheless. He smiles as I land. I smile I find quite enticing... "That's better Hiei."

"Hn."

"Come now, at least talk to me. I had a pretty good day, what did you do?"

If I am famous then maybe I'll feel good in this skin

If I am cultured my words will somehow garner respect

What did I do? I don't even remember the last time I was asked that question. I doubt I ever was asked it. If I was, the person didn't live long enough to tell anyone else what I did. "What do you think I did kitsune no baka?"

Pain flashed in those emerald eyes and I wanted to choke on my words. Why am I so detached from him? Is it fear? Do I fear him? No. I fear he won't want me like I want him. I fear he will laugh or tell me his feelings were just a cunning plan to gain my trust only to prove to me that to trust someone is the worst thing to do. I still hated myself for paining him. If only I could say the words. If only I could tell him how I feel. But I won't tell myself I care for him. And if I can't do that, surely I could never tell him, the one person who needs to hear it.

I would throw a party still it would not come

I would bike run swim and still it would not come

"Hiei?"

I almost jumped at the unexpected voice. I looked at Kurama and my heart lightened. He was smiling now, no longer pained by my icy words. I looked up and saw we had arrived at his house while I had been thinking, I nodded and watched the kitsune turn to go inside. Instead of going in the back and climbing into the tree and then through his window, I walked the streets. I could see the sun bright and warm like always. If someone were to look out the window they would think a child was walking down the road and wonder what type of parents would let their kid do that. I smirked at the thought of being considered a child. Usually it irked me, but not tonight. In fact, I thought it might make a nice foreplay game.

I could see it now, I am a lonely child, lost. I laughed to myself at the thought that I could ever get lost. Kurama would be some kind hearted stranger who found me and took me home. There we would talk into the night and he would hold me tightly. Our lips would touch and we would make passionate love before a fire. My eyes snapped open, knowing I should rid my mind of these thoughts. Kurama could never want me that way. Never. I walked back to his house and saw him lying on the ground, not moving. I had been gone for an hour and here he was, asleep outside. I tried to shake him awake but nothing. I was panicked. Finally he opened his eyes and said, "Hiei." Then he collapsed in my arms.

I'd go travelling and still it would not come

I would starve myself and still it would not come

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Kurama-

If I'm masculine I will be taken more seriously

If I take a break it would make me irresponsible

Hiei had brought me inside and helped ease my fever. Finally I had regained a decent temperature but I was still a little warm. Afterwards Hiei had left, saying that he would come back later to check up and make sure I was still alive. What a sweet guy.

I stretched my arms and glanced at the clock. Midnight. The previous mission had cause my homework to pile up greatly and I was still only halfway done. There was a knock on my door. "Come in mother," I called.

"Shu-chan, are you still doing homework," Shiori asked, opening my door to look at me.

"Yes mother." I turned to my printer and pulled out the essay I had just typed. "I'm nearly finished."

"All right. Just don't stay up too late. And please dear, close the window. You never know what might be lurking outside, and with that tree just there." She closed her eyes and shook her head.

I turned to the window. "I know mother. I'll close it before I go to bed. And don't worry, I won't be up much longer." I don't like lying to her. I have no intention of shutting the window or going to bed soon.

"Goodnight dear," she said.

"Goodnight mother." I heard the door click shut and turned my attention to my math homework, not feeling the need to worry her with my little fall. Trigonometry, such a useless subject. I rubbed my eyes with one hand and closed my book. Hiei had not come at all like he had told me earlier. Even on nice evenings he usually comes by to talk or just sit around for a while but I thought he would show up since it was so hot. Apparently he had something else to do. I wonder what's up with him.

If I'm elusive I will surely be sought after often

If I need assistance I must be incapable

The little fire demon had no clue how much I wanted him. If he did, he would either kill me, or laugh in my face. I could barely tolerate his coldness but if he laughed at me, I would break down. I finished my work and walked to my window. The clock's reflection told me it was three in the morning. If Hiei hadn't come by now it should be safe to close the window. I shut it but left it unlocked. I then turned to my bed only to find the certain fire demon curled up in it. I smiled. I must not have noticed him while I had been working and being tired prevented picking up on his ki. I crawled into bed next to him and closed my eyes. Sleep came slowly but I felt an arm wrap around me and hold me to a hot body. Knowing fully well Hiei was asleep I snuggled in and let sleep overcome me at last.

I slowly opened my eyes and they met two rubies. Hiei had awoken first. "Good morning Hiei."

"Morning," he mumbled. I was somewhat shocked by his closeness and his greeting but tossed the notion aside. Hiei was in my bed, next to me, and his arm was around me. I cared about nothing else in the world. Hiei appeared to either not notice he was holding me, or he didn't care. I was happy either way.

I'd be filthy rich and still it would not come

I would seduce them and still it would not come

We ate at the table. Mother had prepared pancakes, eggs, toast, and juice for me with leftovers in the fridge. I warmed the food and placed the plate in front of Hiei. He glared at the fork and knife and just dug in with his hands, getting syrup all over them. I laughed when he licked it off and found that his hands remained sticky anyway. I led him to the sink and washed them off, he was like a helpless child. "Thanks fox," Hiei muttered then went back upstairs. I heard the shower turn on and smirked. Hiei had been treating this like a hotel he could check into whenever he pleased. I honestly didn't mind.

I cleared the table and went into my room. I was in the middle of changing when Hiei walked in, completely naked. "Hiei! Why aren't you wearing a towel?!"

He shrugged his shoulders and I felt myself harden with his movement. My eyes locked on his manhood. "There were no towels in there."

I chuckled in my mind and walked over to Hiei. I felt his eyes travel over me, in nothing but my boxers. For a split second I thought he might notice the slight bulge in them but if he did he said nothing. "Hiei," I said quietly. "Would you like to borrow some clothes?"

Again he shrugged. "Why?"

Why? I thought to myself. I'll tell you why. So you stop making me so damn horny that's why.

'Why are you horny fox?'

"Oy Hiei! Why are you in my head?!"

Hiei pulled me into his arms and said, "If you're horny I think I can take care of that."

My breath caught in my throat. Was Hiei suggesting what I thought he was? I gulped unsure of how to respond to this. I wanted it so badly but could he be joking?

'It's no joke.' His voice echoed in my mind. All doubt was wiped away as he pressed his lips to mine.

I would drink vodka and still it would not come

I'd have an orgasm still it would not come

My hands responded quickly. I clung to the little youkai and walked us to my bed. He pushed me to the bed and pulled his lips away from mine. They traveled to my highly sensitive nipples and he gently bit down. I moaned in the intense pleasure he was giving me. How long I had dreamed for this. Switching his attention to my other nipple, Hiei's hands slid down to my boxers and he caressed me through the thin material. "Hi...Hiei, pl...plea...please!"

Hiei knew what I wanted. He complied by literally ripping my boxers from me and enveloping my manhood with his mouth. It felt so good. I moaned louder and I swear I heard a low purr coming from my lover. I was on the brink of losing control and Hiei knew it. He gently pulled himself from me, ignoring my protests. He stuck three fingers in his mouth until they were very moist. He gently inserted one into me. It hurt at first but pain quickly was replaced by pleasure. He stretched and touched my prostate, hard. I cried in pleasure. My hips bucked against his probing finger. He used his other hand and ran it up and down my shaft. I screamed with pleasure, writhing beneath the love of my life. Hiei inserted another finger, the pleasure so intense that I didn't notice the pain.

His hand continued to rub my hard shaft, and his fingers probed deeper, making me cry out with pleasure so intense I thought I would explode. Hiei desisted the stimulation that he was giving me. Instead of rubbing my manhood he turned his attentions to the sweet spot behind by sack. I screamed aloud at the new sensation. My body, burning at every inch.

I was crying his name and enjoying his attentions so much that I never noticed his third finger enter my body. I only knew what was going on as he replaced his fingers with his own bulging manhood.

If I accumulate knowledge I'll be inpenetrable

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A/N- I'll make this quick. We have the scene you've all been waiting for! Sorry, though, it's a little short, this is my first fic like this.

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Hiei-

If I am aloof no one will know when they strike a nerve

I rocked backward and then thrust forward with all I had. Kurama cried my name and I repeated the move. It was slow, but very effective. I felt Kurama's narrow channel pulling at me, squeezing me. The fox would make me loose control soon. But I held it a little longer, wanting him to release first. The pleasure grew intense and I began to cry out his name in rhythm with his own pleasure filled screams. Our hips moved in perfect harmony, each causing the friction that let us experience this wonderful feeling.

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Kurama-

If I keep my mouth shut the boat will not have to be rocked

I had lost all control. My passion fogged mind no longer held any coherent thoughts other than pleasure. I felt a warm liquid cover my abdomen and knew that I had gone over the edge. However, my lover continued on. He never missed a chance to make me scream. I called his name repeatedly and soon his own pleasure filled groan echoed around my ears. I felt him quiver within me and knew that we had become one. I sighed and my head fell back onto the pillow, darkness closing on my mind.

I opened my eyes and saw brightness around me. I felt the warmth of Hiei next to me and turned to him. "Koi," I called. Hiei rolled over on his side and smiled at me, a true smile, not a smirk, it was comforting.

"Yes, fox?"

"Say you'll stay with me forever."

"What do you mean?"

"Hiei," I said with a pleading sound in my voice. "I need you, I love you, stay with me forever. Be mine, always."

Hiei sat up and leaped from the bed. He began to put his clothes on in haste.

"Hiei," I questioned.

He stopped and turned to me, the cold glint returning to his once warmth filled orbs. "It was nothing fox. Just one moment between two demons when they sought release. If you think it was anything more than that, you are foolish."

His tone was cold and struck me like a harsh wind during a blizzard, but this blizzard was of fire. "But Hiei..." I started. However, he interrupted me.

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Hiei-

If I am vulnerable I will be trampled upon

I hated the look the stupid fox gave me now. It made my heart twinge with pain but I couldn't let him close. I couldn't let anyone close, especially one I loved so much. "Don't speak Kitsune, no baka. You will regret your words." I finished dressing and turned to the window when he called out to me.

"Hiei, ai shiteru," he said.

I flinched and opened the window, the breeze calling out for me to leave and the voice of my love calling for me to stay. I was torn. "Good bye stupid fox," I said coldly and rushed out the window. At once I regretted my action but refused to turn. This was for the best.

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Kurama-

I would go shopping and still it would not come

I screamed for Hiei out the open window but he was already out of sight. The next thing I knew I was falling...

Falling

Falling

Falling into a dark abyss.

I opened my eyes to see my mother staring at me. "Shu-chan," she whispered with a hint of relief in her voice.

"Mother," I said. I had no idea why she was here. She should have been at work. I looked around and saw my surroundings were most familiar. The last time I had been here was when Shiori was... I sat up in bed, shocking my ningen mother. "What happened? Why am I here?"

Shiori smiled gently.

"Don't you remember dear? On your way home from school yesterday you collapsed on the sidewalk. Your friend, Hiei, had been walking with you and brought you here. Said you collapsed about ten feet from our front door. Right after you had started saying something to him. He stayed with you until I came and then said he had to leave for work, and that you would know what he meant."

I nodded. It had all been a dream. One wonderful dream. I tried to remember falling to the ground while talking with Hiei but the memory would not come. The dream had been so vivid. I guess that I had said Hiei and then fallen, going into my dream state. Then I thought harder, trying to find a way to disprove the information given to me. What I found only proved the story. Everything I thought had happened between me and Hiei, I found I could remember not only my feelings and thoughts but his as well. It had to have been a dream. Finally accepting the truth I smiled at my mother and said, "I guess it really was hot out huh?"

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Hiei-

I'd leave the country and still it would not come

I visited the fox in the 'hospital' and that seemed to cheer him up. I told him how Koenma wanted me to go to America and find a sword master who was supposedly going to be attacked while he was on vacation. So I would be leaving. However the reason to Kurama's faint spell wasn't very clear. I thought and thought but no answer came to me. He had seemed fine... Of course, my game had helped him out...

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Kurama-

I would scream and rebel still it would not come

Hiei visited me everyday until he left. I was released after a week of being kept in the hospital. My teachers were happy I'd returned and said that without me, none of the girls had inspiration to work. I chuckled and smiled at everyone, in my mind I was screaming against the happiness.

Hiei should have stayed here.

It should have really happened.

This wasn't right.

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Hiei-

I would stuff my face and still it would not come

I feasted with the sword master as a thank you for protecting him. He was a kind gentle old ningen. Despite the fact that he was human, I liked him. It seemed that Kurama had rubbed off on me. I shook the idea from my head and went to sleep.

I'd be productive and still it would not come

I'd be celebrated and still it would not come

I'd be the hero and still it would not come

I returned to Japan and met with Kurama to be filled in on yet another mission. I couldn't help but wonder what he would say if I told him everything.

"Hiei," he called out to me.

"Yes fox?"

"Did you hear my question?"

I shook my head.

"I asked you if you accepted the mission," he sounded exasperated.

"Of course I will." Though I had no idea what I was agreeing to I didn't care, I could do it.

"Thanks Hiei."

"Hn..."

I returned to my thoughts and imagined the look on his face...

The look he would give me if I...

If I told him...

Told him that is was me who...

Me who planted that lovely dream in his mind.

If I told him I wished to make it a reality.

But I could never tell him.

Not for anything.

I had to renunciate the thought and never think of those actions again.

Although I knew that I would fail that mission.

I knew that each night I would dream the same thing until I made it a reality.

I'm content with my dreams.

I would renunciate and still it would not come

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A/N- Yup, it was all a dream that Hiei planted in Kurama's head after Kurama had fainted. When he fainted he had woken up and said, "Hiei," then fainted again. Instead of Hiei taking him inside Hiei had taken him to the hospital. There Kurama had his lovely little dream. That was my first songfic and my first H/K fic. I worked on it piece by piece for a few months. Let me know what you think.

Eirwen Lai

P.S. Don't forget to read Angered Fox Within Me. I just started it a little while ago...