Yu Yu Hakusho Fan Fiction ❯ Your Friend Instead ❯ Your Friend Instead ( Chapter 1 )

Your Friend Instead

By: ika11

 

Warning: This is a yaoi fic featuring Hiei and Kurama… if they look ooc, sorry for that but I do not really mean it… this an Angst fic… but if you want me to make it a happy ending, e-mail me then hehehe

Summary: Hiei reflects his feelings for Kurama starting from the moment he arrived at Alaric castle. HxK. Angst (?) One-shot (?) it depends on your wish!

Disclaimer: I do not own Yu Yu Hakusho, but I sure do hope so… A good friend of mine wrote the poem. It is HIS, Not mine!

Note: italics - poem

 

Your Friend Instead:

 

Hiei's POV:

 

 

 

What are these fears for?

Are they here to bring you back?

Every night they keep on falling,

Telling me, you are the one I lack

 

 

“Black Dragon!!!!”

As easy as that, the 200 plus demons were dead. Some of them managed to hide, but they taught that I am too tired. Unfortunately, for them I sliced them up. 300 demons from Mokuro were dead.

 

 

At this time, I am weary. As I shut my eyes, I began to dream once more about my past. Hn. The Forbidden child and Yukina. It is not new for me to dream about that, but there is one person who keeps coming emerging to my dreams. His red locks flowing gracefully at his back jointly with the serene green eyes and striking smile. Then it turned to its much more beautiful form with silver hair, bright golden eyes and playful smirk. Gradually, it started fading. I woke up not wanting it to continue. Why am I having these fears? I had to stop thinking about him. I am now here in Makai and about to fully accept Mokuro's offer. I have to stop.

 

 

 

 

And as I let the darkness pass,

I am still bound to the memories we have made

I maybe torn in half

However, my feelings will be left unchanged

 

 

I won over Shigure and become Mokuro's right hand man. I was sure back then that that fight would be my last but Mokuro revived me. Hn. I never thought that Mokuro is humane and a female. Her past and my past are fairly the same. Taking her offer is not too bad after all. Besides, she has my tear gem.

 

 

She trained me to become her second best. The harsh training made me stop thinking about HIM though sometimes it would remind me of HIM. From the moment we met, gain each other's trust, join the Rekai Tantei, the Dark Tournament, beat Sensui and until the last night I saw HIM.

 

 

I thought accepting Mokuro's partnership would make me overlook my unwanted feeling for HIM. I am the forbidden child after all; I am not allowed to love someone, especially as beautiful as HIM. Moreover, Mokuro is there to help me forget Kurama. Nevertheless, it seems it is not working.

 

 

 

 

Now I watch from afar

Like a shadow you will never see

A forgotten part of who you are

Wondering if you ever yearn for me

 

 

I find out that you already arrived at Gandara. From that minute, I seemed to stop every now and then. I cannot picture you being with Yomi. I expect that you will be fine with him. However, just to make sure, I send a dutiful spy to look over. I know that Mokuro would get furious if she discovers about it, but your safety is somewhat vital now.

 

 

I question if you had forgotten me. Maybe being back with your old friend is good for you. My psyche appeared to be happy when the spy told me that you and Yomi are not likely intimate except for being his second-hand man. I decided to let the spy go when I learned that Touya, Chuu, Rinku, Ginda, Wakamaru and Suzuki were there to work under you.

 

 

 

 

I try to blind myself from reality

As I walk my path alone

Wishing this pain would leave,

With the dreams of calling you my own

 

 

Raizen had just died and Yusuke is on his way to your place. It is interesting to see what Yusuke will do so I decided to follow him. On the other hand, is that really my reason or do I want to see you?

 

 

Mokuro and I stand outside the small building were you and the others are having a conference. I presume we masked our Ki so well that you never went out to verify on me. So the detective decided to have a tournament. Hn. Mokuro and Yomi accepted it, then there will be a tournament.

 

 

I saw you follow a pissed Yomi outside the building. You told something to him but I was not able to get it although I am sure it is enjoyable for the reason that you made him smile. How I longed that you will make me calm again when I am mad.

 

 

 

 

I just want you to be happy

However, it hurts me deep inside

You may never be with me

Nevertheless, the wounds will heal in time

 

 

The tournament started and I am pleased that I was able to talk to you and Yusuke before it.

 

 

Fuck. You are going to fight Shigure. I do not know why I am feeling uneasy though I know you can win it with your Youko form.

 

 

Why won't you changed lastingly to your Youko form? Your ningen body is not sufficient to beat a class-S demon. I can sense that Yusuke, your other teammates, Shura, the Gandara supporters and Yomi are getting worried about you. Kurama, please win this.

 

 

You won your fight as a ningen. But you're badly injured. As soon as Mokuro looked at the other side, I run fast to your way, catching up with Yusuke and the others. When we arrived, you were talking with Yomi saying that you never regretted and forgotten your past in the Makai. Does that mean you will continue leaving at Ningenkai? Shit. Yusuke took you instead of me. Stupid detective.

 

 

Kurama, are you really going back? If that makes you happy, how can I object?

 

 

 

 

Therefore, I will be the stranger you will never know

That will guard you until my death,

If loving you means letting go,

Then I will be your friend instead

 

 

I learned that you are heading back to Ningenkai. I came to talk to you about my feelings.

 

 

I toss my tear gem to you and you look stunned yet pleased. But my hopes went down when you said, “Hiei, I know that we're friends but I do not feel about you like that.” I hide my feelings right away and said, “Stupid fox, that's not for you.” “I know it's for Yukina. But please Hiei, you must be the one to return it to her.” And you throw back the gem to me. I need to go far away from you Kurama before I broke down so I retorted, “Hn. Very well then, goodbye Kurama.” With that, I was gone. I did not have the courage to stop running or else I might not be in command of my feeling and ruin my friendship with you.

 

 

I never imagined that I would use the word friend in my life. And I never once anticipated that I would fall in love.

 

 

 

 

- After one month -

 

 

Hiei's POV:

 

 

A month had passed, Yusuke had returned to Ningenkai. With nothing left to do, I flopped myself down at the chair in Mokuro's room, thinking about you once more. Why can't I stop thinking about you Kurama?

 

 

 

 

Meanwhile, at Ningenkai,

 

Kurama's POV:

 

 

 

It's been a month Hiei and you didn't come back with Yusuke. When can I see you again? Our last day together always haunts me, making me wish that I stop you back then.

 

 

 

- Flashback, Kurama's POV -

 

 

I'm going back to Ningenkai and then you came infront of me. My heart leap from joy.

 

 

You toss your tear gem to me and I know I look stunned yet pleased. But I cannot keep my hopes up knowing that you're starting to change because of Mokuro. Before the tournament started, there were rumors that you and her are getting to be more intimate. I then decided to let time heal my pain and just live at Ningenkai. I cannot let my feelings ruined your newfound happiness but I want to reassure that you really do not feel something for me so I teasingly said, “Hiei, I know that we're friends but I do not feel about you like that.” I hide my feelings right away when you said, “Stupid fox, that's not for you.” I tried to crack a smile to let you know I do not mean it and replied, “I know it's for Yukina. But please Hiei, you must be the one to return it to her.” And I throw back the gem to you. With that, you said, “Hn. Very well then, goodbye Kurama.” Then you were gone. I did not have the courage to stop you or else I might not be in command of my feeling and ruin my friendship with you.

 

 

After crossing the gateway to Ningenkai, I flop myself to the ground. Hiei, please take care of yourself. I love you Hiei.

 

 

- End of Flashback -

 

 

After all the things I experienced with Korunue and Yomi, I never imagined that I would fall in love again.

 

 

- owari -

 

 

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