Title: Past is painful

Author: eternal radiance

Email: zeni24@hotmail.com

Rating: pg13 for non graphic rape and violence

Pairings: K/Ty, implied R/M, D/D and D/D ^^

Summary: A plan to win turns into a plan to get rid of a certain someone… a certain blue-eyed, blue haired someone…

Author's Notes: Chapter 6 is up!! Finally!! Few more chapters to go!! Are YOU ready for it???

Disclaimer: BB and its characters does not belong to me…

Thanks to:

KawaiiAngel4: First off, I don't think Kai plans on being dumped and second of all, I don't think Ray and the others plan and Kai being dumped… and third of all…. WHAT KIND OF STORY WOULD THAT BE???!!! Lol. Dun worry. They get together… opps… saying too much now… See how getting older makes me say things I dun mean.. I mean… hehe, no offence to anyone older then me… Means you get to drive!! That's a good thing. Well, next chapter, updating… EXCELLENT>>> look for the next chapter, (after this of course) soon… verrrryyyy soon… hehe (too much suga)

Firehedgehog: Thanks… I think… lol

Chibi-chan: How did you find my fic? Cuz I'm trying to see if I can find some more good Ty/Ka, but dun wanna go through every single story looking for one cuz authors dun put up notices about the pairings or whether it's a yaoi or not… ^^; And yup, Tyson won't be down forever. Thanks for reviewing!

Angel-Goddess: Um…what can I say? Tyson is just so very irresistible for his own good. Oh my… every 3 days?? Can you say obsessed?? J/k. Guess I better update faster, then, ne? And yes your doing a great job reviewing, makes me feel bad now… But seriously, I always look forward to you and everyone else's reviews! I love getting feedback from people! And I promise to review lots beter when you get your next chapter/fic up. I really luv your idea for a fic, and no I won't steal it… I dun think my art teacher would go for just a story…Oh yeah, I haven't checked out your site, but I will soon! Soon as I've got the time. I wanna draw too! I'm working on my own site now… actually, it's just going to be a portfolio, but I'll send you the url later, soon as I finish.. which won't be for a while. I've never made one before, so this is all new to me.. Should I use DreamweaverMX, or FlashMX? Or maybe Frontpage?? I dunno… Oh well, thanks for the review and I promise to try harder!

Joce: Kai angst, ne? More like both of them, but oh well. Yup, I try to update as fast as I can... dun wanna keep you guys waiting!

Minezaki Kenichi: Nope, T is no longer a chibi. I'm really sorry if it sounds confusing, so I'll try to explain. During the night, before Tyson got taken, he was happy (becuz of Kai) and sp he turned back. Then he got kidnapped. So he's a normal boy now.. well, as normal as he gets.

Minted*candi: YAY! Fav author! *happy, happy* I'm really glad that my fic helped you get rid of your writer's block. I'm looking for your next chapter to be up! Yup, end of year project. Nope, I'm not in IBO. I'm in a program called CyberARTS. It's like art and tech together. Kinda fun. Takes time though… always havta skip lunch… can't be good for me… Ooo… manga.. let me know when your done, k? And your gonna have some fight over Ty, cuz I wanna own him too!

Darkarc: YUP! Updating! I'm so glad that makes everyone so happy! And they'll be together, soon… somewhere.. um… that's doesn't work… oh well. No worries!!

Fans Yaoi: I'm glad you like my fic! They do loo cute together! And to whoever doesn't think so… *nyahhhh* opps…um… yes… 16-year-old girl… too old to stuck out tongue… nah… no wonder everyone thinks I'm younger… ^^;

Darkspider: Interesting... hehe. Glad you think so. Oh, Kai won't be disappointed for long… no worries!! I hope I can get the next chapter out too…

Lina the Outlawed Bomber: Your characters sound so cool!!!! And I wanna see your pics. Send my the url as soon as they're up, please??? I dunno Gene Satrwind, but I bet your characters are really cool. They sound cool… I'm repeating myself now… ^^; And I am so happy that so many people like my fic… Thank you so much!!!

AN - Well, I'm on my sixth chapter!! Thanks to all the people who've read and/or reviewed my story! Love you all! You call tell I'm in a happier mood, nene?? Dunno why I am… oh well, happy mood means more stories, which means more happy other ppl! So I'll be happy so that I can make other people happy!! That's my logic. Lol and you wonder if I'm actually really turning 16 or I'm lying. I'm not lying, I swear on… on… umm… I dunno, but I'm really turning 16 in… 5 days!! WAHOO!

Read and review please!!!

Hikari zen: HAPPY B-DAY TO ME!!! HAPPY B-DAY TO ME!!! HAPPY B-DAY TO MEE-EEEEeeee, HAPPY B-DAY TO MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!! MWHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!

Yami zen: maybe I should be Hikari zen… *sweatdrops*

~ change of POV or time gap

"speaking"

'thinking'

(author note's)

<flashback>

//bit beast talking to master//

Past if Painful: Chapter 6

By: eternal radiance

//Then you don't know Kai well. He loves you a lot.// Dragoon argued.

'…He'll forget about me…' Tyson thought, more to himself then to his bit beast.

~

Behind the door, Kai was watching Tyson sadly. He'd only been able to hold the blue-haired angel for a day. Not even. His arms itched to be around the other boy again. 'Why did I even hesitate today?' He asked himself, but he already knew the answer. He was scared.

Tyson as a chibi didn't know that it was wrong for a boy to love another boy. All he knew was that someone was giving him the love he had never received as a child. But now he did. What if Kai had confessed his feelings again? What would have happened? Would Tyson push him away? Call him names? Say he'd never want to see him again?

There was a bigger chance of him saying that then there ever was of Tyson returning his feelings. All he could do is wait and hope. Maybe the blue- eyed angel did return his feelings.

Kai smiled faintly of course. Wouldn't do to have anyone see him smiling. Only Tyson could see his smile. He was the only one that Kai would smile for.

After that, he returned to the living room where the other members were sitting, having already been served breakfast. Kai noticed first that Tyson was not among them and second that he had never seen Tyson come out of the kitchen during his musings.

"Where's Tyson?" He asked.

Max shrugged. "He said he wasn't hungry. I think he went out back." The blonde said, going back to the scrumptious eggs and bacon in front of him.

"I never knew Tyson could cook so well." Kenny commented to the others but Kai ignored them, going back to his favourite past-time. Tyson-watching.

~

Tyson could feel himself being watched. 'Does he have to do that?' He asked himself. It unnerved him a bit. 'Face it. You like it.' Another voice in him spoke.

'… I do. But… it's better this way…'

He pulled out his beyblade. 'Come on, Dragoon. We might as well train. We have nothing to do anyways…'

He felt his bit beast nod and they walked to the back where there was a ring, made especially for the Bladebreakers to use and battle in.

Tyson sent Dragoon and watched as the blade whirled around in a circle, letting out sparks from scratching the bottom of the ring too hard. He watched as the ring suddenly contained a tiny tornado. Tyson smiled and in his mind he directed the tornado, testing if the blade would follow his instructions.

Suddenly, out of nowhere another blade flew past him into the ring. Tyson turned to see his best friend grinning at him.

"Hey, Tyson! Mind if I join ya?" The blonde asked.

Tyson shrugged and gave a smile. "Not at all, Max. What's up?" He asked as he watched the two blades go right at each other. Sparks flew everywhere but the boys ignored it.

Max came up beside him. "Is there something you're not telling us?" He asked. "We're best friends you know."

Tyson gave a carefully placed smile. "Of course not! I'd tell you everywhere!" He waved his arms around, trying to avoid eye content.

Max frowned but he wouldn't let the subject drop yet. "Even about a certain beyblading leader of ours?"

Tyson's head shot up and he stared at Max for a while, an almost nervous look in his deep-blue eyes. Then just as quickly as it came, it left, replaced by a confused look. "What are you talking about, Max? What about Kai?"

Max bit his lip before opening his mouth. "Do you… care about him? Care for him?"

Another hurt look was found on Tyson's face before being replaced yet again. "Of course I do! Don't you? He is part of the team…"

The blonde shook his head, not sure whether Tyson was just really naïve or whether he was pretending. Seeing as strange hurt looks passed his face every time Max said something about Kai, he guessed that it was the latter. "You know I'm not talking about that, Tyson!" He almost growled and was surprised when he saw Tyson flinch. "Um… sorry Ty, I didn't mean to…"

"It's okay.." Tyson made a feeble attempt to smile. "I think… I should… go…" And without even picking up his beyblade, he took off from the room and ran back to the sanctuary of his bedroom.

Max stared at him, angry with himself for raising his voice when he knew Tyson had just- wait a minute!

A while ago, Tyson wouldn't have flinched when someone was angry with him or yelled at him. Instead he would have retorted back. The blonde wondered whether Tyson had really forgotten what had happened to him, or he was choosing to forget because it was too painful. He also wondered how much he really knew his best friend now. He gave a soft sigh. There was so many things to think about, too many questions and too few answers.

He knelt down to pick up his best friend's beyblade and his own. "Guess it's up to Ray then?" He sighed quietly before leaving the room.

~

Tyson was hiding under his blankets, trying to pretend that nothing was real. That this was all a dream. Max had not just yelled t him and Kai really didn't love him. Maybe it wouldn't have caused this big problem in the first place…

But it didn't seem like an illusion. A dream. It was real. Too real…

He gathered the pillow close to him and held it to his chest. The tears started to run down his cheeks and he hugged the pillow tighter, biting his lip as he tried to stop crying.

'Stop crying!'

'You're so weak!'

'Shut up, you brat!'

'I wish we never had you!'

His mind remembered the memories. The memories that had hurt so much. That he had tried to keep deep down. He tried taking deep breaths to calm him down and stop crying. When he finally got control over his sobs, a knock was heard on the door.

"Tyson? It's me Ray. Can I talk to you?"

Tyson wiped the tears from his face and was trying to decide whether to answer the door or to make Ray think that he was asleep. He decided that if no one else were with him, then he would let him in. Tyson didn't really feel like talking to Max or Kenny, and especially not Kai.

When he didn't say anything Ray spoke up again. "Tyson? It's only me. Please open the door." He heard a bit of shuffling on the other side of the door. He was about to speak again when the door cracked open and he saw one deep blue-grey eye peek out. Assessing that there was no one but the tiger boy, Tyson opened the door wider and beckoned him in.

Ray entered, not saying anything about how secretive Tyson was. He sat on a part of the dark covered bed while Tyson crawled to the middle, with his arms wrapped around his legs, which were pulled tightly to his chest.

There was a moment of silence as Ray thought of how to start. He didn't want to scare the younger boy off by saying something hurtful. He didn't have to think any longer when Tyson spoke up instead. "You know, don't you?"

Ray was surprised, but he understood what Tyson meant. It hadn't been that hard to guess that the dark-haired beyblader had tried to deceive his teammates, but they just didn't know why. It wasn't as if they would treat him differently then before. He was still the same Tyson, just maybe a bit more fragile.

"And you want to know why."

It wasn't a question; more like a statement when Tyson had said it. He knew that his teammates couldn't be fooled for too long. 'So why did you think you could?' A voice inside him mocked, but he brushed it away.

"You can't tell Kai, ok Ray?" He asked before revealing anything. Ray nodded, but didn't promise anything. He felt that this reason Tyson had would only split the team if it were told. Especially to Kai. Plus, he, Kenny and Max were already taking the matters in their own hands, all having witnessed what had already happened and knowing their captain's feelings for the boy.

Tyson saw the nod and with a sinking feeling he knew that he really couldn't stop Kai from finding out. 'Especially with all the times I've caught him watching me…' Maybe that was why Ray was at his door; to find out info for Kai.

Tyson sighed and brought one hand up to brush through his hair. He wouldn't really be able to explain much without telling Ray the whole story - starting from his childhood. So he did. He told Ray about his parents; how they all of a sudden started to hurt him, how his grandpa had fought with them and won custody over him, placing his parents in jail where they deserve.

Ray listened as Tyson spoke, and the blue-eyed boy found that it didn't hurt as much as keeping it inside him forever. But Ray still heard only a monotone voice. Only once did Tyson's voice shake, when he was telling of the… rape. By his dad and Dean and his team.

As Tyson reached the most painful part, Ray reached over to give him a friendly hug (WAIII!!! Calm down! Ray is Max's and Tyson's Kai's! No mixing! FRIENDLY hug, mind you!) He winced as he saw Tyson flinch, but the boy didn't pull away and so he held him.

Tyson started to cry, but bit his lip to try and stop. Ray saw this and hugged him tighter. "Ty. Tyson. Stop biting your lip. It's okay to cry."

Tyson tried to shake his head but Ray took his face in his hands and looked him in the eye. "Ty, it's okay to cry." He repeated. Then he understood what the younger boy had implied when he shook his head. "It's no weak, Tyson. Everyone cries. It doesn't automatically make you weak if you do though."

Tyson looked deeply into Ray's golden eyes and whatever was in there, whether it was the sincerity in Ray's voice, or the gently sparkle in Ray's eyes, we don't know, but it must have convinced him that the tiger boy was speaking the truth. He took a few gulping breaths then relaxed. Not completely, but enough.

Ray smiled and rubbed the small of Tyson's back gently, soothing him. "See," he said when the tears dried up. "It wasn't that bad now, was it?"

Tyson stuck out his tongue, half-heartedly. "'Course it was." Then he yawned, a sign of his fatigue.

"Let's get you to bed," Ray said, helping Tyson climb beneath the blankets. He drew them up to the dark-haired boy's chin. "Get some sleep." He said not giving any room for arguments.

"Yes, big brother." Tyson said sarcastically.

Ray pretended to think as he stood at the door. "Well, I am older then you by almost a year…" (I'm not sure about this fact… but let's just say its something like that…) He chuckled and ducked while a fluffy white pillow was thrown at his head, "Now, no staying up or no desert for you."

Tyson blew him a raspberry, (hehe… I just figured out what that meant… O.O), and snuggled into his blankets. Ray left the door slightly open in case something would happen. After on last thought though, he walked back in to place Dragoon on the table beside the bed. Tyson had already fallen asleep and Ray reached out to draw the blankets up to his chin once more. "Sleep tight." He whispered.

The tiger boy walked out to join the others in the living room of the hotel suite.

Kai was nowhere in sight, Ray noticed before a blond bundle bounced into the startled boy's arms. "RAY!! How's Tyson?" Max asked, looking up into the golden cat eyes.

Ray smiled down at him and sat on the couch, drawing the blonde into his lap. "He's sleeping. You better keep quiet."

Max made a zipping motion on his lips and smiled.

"So, what happened?" Kenny asked from the other side of the room quietly.

Ray hesitated in telling the younger two boys, but Tyson hadn't said that they couldn't know and plus, they had the right to know about their teammate. So he told them a shortened version of Tyson's past. He watched as the expressions on their faces went from shock, to disbelief, to anger and back to shock as more and more of Tyson's tale was unfolded.

At the end, he sat back, waiting for the others' reactions.

"Hold crap…" Kenny finally said, shocking his teammates and his laptop as he said it. His fingers had bee placed over the keyboard, typing as he listened, but now they had froze, fingers over the keyboard, but not touching. They just froze right there and were motionless. But Kenny's use of a swear word made Max get out of his shock as well.

"What… what do we do?" Max finally asked.

"Do about what?" Kenny asked, confused.

"Hello? Any genius at home? Dizzy asked sarcastically. "Do about Kai and Tyson of course!"

"Oh…" Kenny said.

"Well…" Ray thought out loud. "It's obvious of Kai's feelings for Tyson. And I think we can safely say that Tyson has the same feelings for Kai."

"But Kai thinks that Tyson doesn't like him." Max argued.

"And Tyson thinks that he doesn't deserve Kai, although we know they're perfect together." Ray finished.

"So… what do we do?" Dizzy asked.

"…The 3 MATCHMAKERS to the rescue!"

Then they all remembered that Tyson was still asleep and so Ray out his hand over Max's mouth, Max's over Kenny's and Kenny's over Ray's.

"HEY!" Dizzy complained and 3 "shhs" were directed towards her.

"Sorry…" She whispered. "Don't forget about me!"

Ray gave a chuckle after prying Kenny's hand from his mouth. "Fine. The 4 Matchmakers."

Max and Kenny gave an evil grin. (really hard to imagine, but try anyways???!) "So, how'd we start?"

TBC…

Hikari zen: Matchmaker, matchmaker,

make me a match,

Find me a find

Catch me a catch.

Matchmaker, matchmaker,

look through your books,

And make me a perfect MATCH!!

Yami zen: I think we should ban Hikari from singing… *plugs her ears*

ANYWAYS… Lol. Funny, funny… review please?? For my birthday present??

PS: this was one of my longer chapters… wow… anyways.. my friends are asking me what I want for my birthday… I dunno… what do I want?? Any ideas???