Beyblade Fan Fiction ❯ Shattered Glass ❯ Big Decisions Brotherly Advice ( Chapter 20 )
[ X - Adult: No readers under 18. Contains Graphic Adult Themes/Extreme violence. ]
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(I feel so loved! …I really am sad…)
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Chapter 20 - Big Decisions Brotherly Advice
Tala shot him a look, `Jun, do you know where she is?'
Jun nodded his head, `Yeah, she's staying in some hotel round here, why?'
`Because I think we should pay her a little visit, don't you guys?'
Everyone in the room nodded.
Everyone that is, except Kai.
`Guys, I don't know, I mean we can't exactly get revenge on something I already had coming to me.' he said sadly.
They looked at him, `What the hell do you mean by that?' Spencer asked.
Kai looked around at the sea of confused faces,
`Well, the only reason she did what she did was to spite me, not Rei or Jun, or anyone else for that matter, and she did it because I hurt her in the first place, I know it was wrong of her to involve you two, but at the end of the day I deserved what she did. I deserve her hate…I deserve all your hate.'
Max wrapped his arms around his friends neck and hugged him,
`You know that isn't true, sure you made a mistake a few years ago, but it wasn't your fault, you were forced into it, and we know your sorry, and we've all forgiven you, hell everyone makes mistakes, the important thing is that you learn from them, and we know you have so no Kai, you didn't deserve that.'
`…Thanks Max' Kai whispered to him and wrapped his own arms around him, `Ohhh…. now I see why they call you a teddy bear!'
Everyone let out a laugh and Max blushed, `What?'
Kai pulled back, `Everyone says you're like a big teddy bear, I never really saw it but now I know why, you're so damn cuddly!'
Rei cleared his throat playfully and Kai chuckled, `Not as cuddly as you though Koi.'
Rei nodded, `You're damn right.'
A knock came from the door, and Dr. Myers and Flynn entered the room.
`Whoa, full house I see.' Flynn joked when he saw how crowded the room was.
`Guys, sorry to break this up, but we need to talk to Kai in private.' Dr. Myers said.
They nodded and got up to leave, each giving Kai a small smile of support when they saw the worried look on Kai's face.
Rei started to peel himself away from Kai, but Kai held him back, `Stay with me…please...' he pleaded, his voice filled with anxiety and worry.
Before he could reply, Flynn cut in, `We really need to talk to you alone, but I promise we will try and make it as quick as possible so your friends can come back in.' he smiled reassuringly, but Kai's worry only grew.
`What exactly are you going to do to me?' he asked.
Dr. Myers spoke, `Don't worry, I promise we only need to speak to you.'
Rei looked down at his lover, `Kai, its ok, I'll only be out in the corridor, as soon as they're done talking I'll come right back.' He kissed him on the cheek and hugged him hard; he got up and left the room.
After the door was closed, Dr. Myers and Flynn pulled up a chair and sat at Kai's bedside.
`Now Kai, the reason we need to talk to you is to discuss a few options with you.' Dr. Myers started.
`What kind of options?' Kai asked worried.
Flynn leant forward and rested his elbows on the side of the bed.
`Well, we've been discussing it and we feel that we may need to take more measures to make sure you get better.'
Kai scowled at them, `There's nothing wrong with me!' he protested.
The doctors raised their eyebrows, `If that's true then would you care to explain why you've been in here twice in less than a week, both for suicide attempts?'
Kai felt tears prickling in his eyes, he didn't know why.
`I just…I mean…I've just felt a little down lately that's all…' he said with a stutter.
`Nice on Kai, give them the lamest excuse possible…' he said mentally to himself.
`Lately?' Flynn said, `Because if I didn't know better I'd say that you've been feeling `a little down' as you put it for some time.'
`What would you know?' Kai yelled, `you don't know me! How dare try and tell me how I feel! How can you just `assume' that I'm some kind of psychopath?'
Flynn sat up straight, `we're not saying you are, and I'm saying that I think you have for a while because when Dr. Myers examined you the first time, he saw that some of the scars on your arms aren't recent.'
Kai remained silent.
Flynn sighed, `Look Kai, we're not trying to insult you, or make your life difficult, but you need help, your not going to fight this on your own, and from what I've heard you've always been independent, so I know it will be difficult for you.'
Kai looked to them, unwanted tears brimming in his eyes, `So what are you going to do to me?'
Flynn sighed, `Well, I never did get to start those sessions with you, so we may have to start those, but a few more.'
`What? But you're already seeing me three times a week, isn't that enough?'
Flynn smiled, `Well it's always nice to know you're wanted…' he joked, `But seriously, what we plan to do is see you four times a week instead of three, see not a whole lot more, and as you progress we will cut the number of sessions, we also fell we may need to give you some more medication, but we will decide on this when we pin-point how serious your depression is.'
Kai let a tear fall down his face, `So you do think I'm a psychopath?' he asked sadly, as Emily's voice flooded his mind.
`As for the Bladebreakers, well couldn't they have just left that freak at home…
If you want to befriend a total psycho then go ahead! Say Kai, does insanity run in the family or something…?'
`…Guess she was right…' Kai thought sadly.
`No Kai, we don't, from where I am, I just see someone with an undeserving dreadful and traumatic past, someone who was never shown any kind of affection in his life and someone who yearns for help, but doesn't know how to ask for it or accept it.'
Kai looked at him, but remained silent, he knew what he was saying was right, he did want help, he wanted someone to help him get over his past and get on with his life.
Kai felt more tears escape their prison and fall freely down his face.
Flynn leant over and handed him a tissue, `Ok, I think that's all… don't worry Kai, it'll all be ok, we'll do everything we can to make sure of that.'
Kai accepted it and wiped his eyes, `Thank you…'
Dr. Myers put his hand on his shoulder, `I know what will cheer you up, pack your things up and go home with your friends, everything's fine, just promise you'll take it easy the next few days ok?'
Kai nodded and gave a small smile, Dr. Myers shook his finger up and down playfully, `And I don't want to see you here again, understand?' he said in a gentle voice, Kai's smile grew and he nodded again.
The others came in as quickly as the doctors' left; Kai held his arms out to Rei and Rei resumed his position on the bed, arms wrapped around his lover.
`So what did they say?' Tyson asked impatiently.
`They said I can go home, so I'll get changed in a minute and they said that Flynn's going to come over four times a week instead of three, and see how things go from there.'
They all smiled at the fact that he was allowed home.
`Well what are you waiting for! Get up and get ready!'
`Hey, hey! Don't harass my patients! He's supposed to be taking it easy!' came a mock annoyed voice from the door.
`Whoa, you really should stop popping up everywhere, you scared the hell out of me!' Tyson said.
Dr. Myers smiled, `Glad to know I haven't lost my touch, but I just came to tell you that Dr. Yates is coming Monday afternoon as well as your original sessions.'
Kai nodded.
`And I want you guys to make sure he takes it easy for a few days.'
Everyone nodded and smiled.
Kai got up, `Ok, I'm gonna get changed an we can get out of here!'
A few minutes later Kai was ready to go.
`Guys come ON! Lets go already!' he said as he tried to get his group of friends out the door.
They finally got back to the apartment, and the demolition boys and Bladebreakers separated into their own apartments.
`Ok, well its only 12pm now so we'll meet you at four ok?' Tala said looking at his watch.
The Bladebreakers nodded and went inside.
`Well, I don't know about you, but I'm exhausted, I'm gonna go lie down for an hour.' Tyson announced.
`Yeah I'm pretty tired as well.' Max added, following Tyson, Kenny yawned and followed them, waving at Kai and Rei as he went.
Rei looked over at Kai, `well, we're alone now, I may as well ask…' He thought.
`Hey Kai, can I talk to you about something?'
Kai looked at him worried, `Is something wrong?'
Rei smiled, `No, no, I just want to talk about something… lets go to our room.'
They went into their bedroom, and Kai sat on the edge of the bed, watching Rei's face trying to detect what he wanted to talk about.
Rei smiled at him and pushed him down onto the bed, making him lay back; he leant forward and captured his lips in a tender kiss.
`Lets lay down properly.' He said and moved Kai and himself onto the bed properly.
`Rei, what's going on?' Kai asked impatiently.
`Nothing, it's not a big deal I just wanted to ask you something…'
`…Well?' Kai asked.
`Kai, I've been thinking a lot, and I've realized how much I love you, and I've been thinking of ways that I can prove just how much I really do love you, and I was thinking…what do you think about taking things a bit further?'
Kai's eyes widened, `You mean…like further, further?'
Rei laughed, `I mean I want to show you how much I love you, I want us to have sex.'
Kai didn't know what to say, `uhhh, well I…'
Rei cut in, holding Kai's face in his hands, `Kai if you're not ready I understand, we've got our whole life together ahead of us, I can wait, I just wanted to know what you thought.'
Kai brought his hand up and took hold of Rei's, `will you give me some time to think about it?' he asked timidly.
`Take all the time you want, I just want to say that I'm not trying to pressure you, I just wanted to know what your thoughts were about it, there's no rush…'
Kai smiled and kissed Rei's hand, `Thank you…'
They lay there together in a comfortable silence, just enjoying each other's presence.
Kai suddenly got up, `I just need to see Tala, I think I gave something to him and he didn't give it back.'
Rei nodded, `Ok Koi, see you in a while.' He said in a muffled voice, he was falling asleep.
Kai left the apartment and walked down the corridor, he stopped outside the demolition boy's room and knocked on the door, Spencer answered.
`Hey Kai, what can we do for you?'
`Hey Spence, is Tala there?'
`Yeah, come on in.'
Kai followed his friend in, and he was led into the living room, where Ian, Bryan and Tala were sitting.
`Hey Kai! What brings you here? Tyson getting to you already?' Bryan asked.
Kai laughed, but felt uncomfortable, `No, I was just…wondering if I could talk to Tala…'
They saw how awkward he felt, `Sure, come sit down, what's up?'
Kai rubbed the top of his arm, `Actually I was wondering if I could talk to you privately…'
Tala was surprised by his tone of voice, `Ohhh this is something important isn't it?'
Kai nodded and Tala took him by the arm and led him into his room, he gestured for him to sit on the bed.
`Ok, spill, what's up?'
Kai felt nervous, `Tala, you've done it right?'
Tala felt shocked by his younger friends question, `You mean have I had sex?'
Kai nodded, Tala smiled, `Yeah, why?' Kai grew red.
`Was it with Bryan?' he asked, and Tala looked at him suspiciously, `Yeah…why are you asking?'
`It's just…well I was talking with Rei, and the subject came up about…you know…'
`Sex.' Tala filled in, and Kai nodded.
`Yeah…anyway…Tala how did you know if you were ready?'
Tala smiled and wrapped his arms around his younger friend,
`Well, with me, I knew that I loved Bryan, I felt, and still do, that I'm never going to feel that way about anyone else, and I knew he felt the same about me, I can't describe it but it just felt like it was the right time. But Kai, you'll know if you're ready, no-one can tell you if you are or not.'
Kai hugged his friend back, `but I don't know, I mean I love him so much, I don't think I'll feel like this with anyone else, and I want us to be together for the rest of our lives, but still…'
Tala sighed, `you don't sound so sure…look my advice is that if your not 100 sure, don't do it, he's not putting pressure on you is he?'
Kai looked up, `No, no…he's being great about it…but what if he gets bored with me if I say no?'
`Then he's not worth it.' Tala answered plainly.
Kai sighed. `I think I am, but I guess I'm scared, what if I do something wrong? I mean I've never done anything like that; I haven't got a clue about what to do, what if I put him off me? Or what if I'm no good?'
Tala held him tighter, `Everyone thinks like that their first time, but I know Rei won't be put off, I can tell he loves you, if you do decide your ready then you'll be fine!'
Kai leant into his friends hug, `Thanks…. Tala?'
`Hn?' Tala replied.
`What's it like?'
Tala grinned, but before he could answer there was a knock on the door.
`Guys! Are you done in there? We have to go!' came Ian's voice.
They both got up, Tala put his arm on Kai's shoulder, `Ok, I'll be brief, it hurts like hell at first, but just relax and trust me, it feels great!'
Kai smiled, `Thanks Tala.'
Tala smiled back, `No problem, what are big brothers for?'
Kai sighed and hugged Tala, `God I wish you were my brother…'
Tala smiled, `me too, that would be cool, but don't start going mushy on me!'
Kai laughed and they both walked out the apartment and met the rest of the team and the Bladebreakers, Rei saw Kai and pulled him into a hug, `Did you get whatever it was back?'
`Yeah…' Kai lied, Rei leant forward and kissed him on the lips gently and Kai returned it, they pulled back and Kai turned to Tala, who gave him a supportive and knowing smile.
The Bladebreakers walked in front of the Demolition Boys, which gave the rest of the D-boys a chance to question Tala.
(`So what did you and Kai talk about? It looked important.') Bryan asked Tala.
(`Bryan! You really think I'm going to tell you? I'm ashamed!') Tala replied with fake shock.
(`Please Tala!') Ian begged.
Tala rolled his eyes; he knew they wouldn't shut up about this. (`Ok, but you promise you won't say anything?')
They nodded, eager to hear.
Tala sighed, (`Ok, I'm not going into detail because Kai trusted me, but lets just say our little Kai is growing up…')
Ian scowled (`What the hell is that supposed to mean?')
Tala laughed, (`I can't say anymore, that would be wrong, but he just wanted some brotherly advice…')
Bryan and Spencer let out a sly smile, (`I think I know what it was about…') Bryan said, Tala grinned at him, (`Me too…') Spencer added.
Bryan whispered in Tala's ear and Tala smiled and shrugged, (`Maybe…')
Bryan and Spencer smiled at each other.
Ian was getting annoyed, (`Will someone please tell me what's going on?')
They laughed at how agitated he was getting and Tala gave a sarcastic sigh,
(`Sorry Ian, you have to be at least this high to know…') he put his hand to his waist.
Ian scowled and walked in front of them sulkily, Spencer laughed, `Nice one, that pissed him off…shame he'll be in a mood all evening.'
Tala shrugged, `Ahhhh he'll get over it…if he uses a step-ladder…'
Ian turned around, `I heard that asshole!' he yelled angrily.
They laughed hysterically, `God it's fun annoying you Ian!' Bryan said.
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Done….Sorry if I babble or it makes no sense…I am literally falling asleep here!
I'm too tired to write an authors note, sorry!
Night night everyone, I can now go to my lovely, comfy, warm bed!
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