Beyblade Fan Fiction ❯ Silwery Eyes ❯ chap six ( Chapter 6 )

[ Y - Young Adult: Not suitable for readers under 16 ]

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Chap six

Akira was still asleep when Kai woke up the next morning.The sun was shining through the window.

He blinked and moved out of Akira's arms.The floor felt cold against his bare feet and he was completely naked. He shuddered as he left the bed and warmth behind to go to the bathroom.

He was shocked when he saw his own reflection in the mirror. His skin was bruised in several places and he had trails of bite marks along his neck and shoulders. He hissed as he touched the marks.They ran deep into his pale skin. And it hurt...His body hurt like hell, especially his back. Regret welled up in his chest and he felt the urge to empty his stomach. Different urges and feelings surged through him. Tears formed in his eyes and he let them fall.

He felt so fucked up at the moment and he dropped to his knees, curling up in a ball. He wanted Akira to hold him, wanted to feel his warmth. But the pain made him wish he had never met the silver haired boy. He knew that Akira had never meant him any harm.

He cried for a little longer before he stumbled back into the bedroom on shaky feet. He collapsed onto the bed again, feeling exhausted. Right now he just wanted to sleep for eternity.

Kai just didn't care about his grandfather anymore. He wanted to strangle him-leave behind this fucking mansion that he hated so much. But everytime he talked about it Akira told him that he would get his revenge, he would leave this place soon. But for now he would have to go along with what his grandfather said, obey his wishes. Kai only obeyed Voltair because Akira told him to. Everytime he had done something good he would be rewarded...Sometimes with a smile, other times with a touch or a kiss. And to have the silverhaired boy making love to him wasn't bad either.

Kai loved Akira more than he had loved anything in his whole life. Sometimes when he played his violin he would ponder upon which would be easier to abandon, Akira or the violin. He still hadn't settled with an answer to that question yet.

At the moment he was standing in front of the mirror in his bathroom with his upper body bare. With ternbling fingers he touched his wounds, trails of bite marks, nails marks and other wounds along his chest, shoulders and neck. At first it had hurt when Akira did these things to him. But after a while the pain had vanished and left him with a strange feeling.The other boy seemed to be in need to hurting him physically for some reason.

He welcomed anything Akira might want to do to him with open arms. He was so lost now that his mind was walking along a fine edge. One day he would trip and fall. But he didn't mind at all really. Their love was dark and forbidden, driven by lust and passion. Kai couldn't see the strings that were attached to him, the strings that allowed Akira to pull him in any direction he wanted.

With one last glance at his body he walked back into the bedroom, expecting to find his lover sound asleep. But the bed was empty and the doors to the balcony were open. He found Akira standing on the balcony, completely naked against the empty darkness.

Slolwy Kai approached to him, softly calling his name.The older boy gave no respond to the sound of his voice. Kai stood behind him and wrapped his arms around his waist for warmth.They stood in silence for a while before Akira spoke.

"Look at her Kai..Is she not the most beautiful thing you have ever seen?" he asked.

Kai realised that he was talking about the moon and raised his head.The moon was full tonight, her white light the only light in the dark wasteland. It fell upon their naked skin, making them glow.

"No", he replied and took a step backwards. Akira's face became puzzled, his eyes confused. Kai smiled and pulled him closer.

"You",he said.

The silverhaired boy's eyes widened in surprise and tears started gathering.

"Why do you love me, Kai? You should get away before I devour your heart too".

Kai didn't understand why he was saying these things, what he meant.

"I don't care what you do to me as long as you stay by my side. I am forever yours",he said.

Akira wanted to cry in the moment.This boy was already lost. From now on there was no turning back, he was beyond saviour. He wanted to shout at Kai-drive him away. But at the same time he wanted to love him and take care of him, to crush him and destroy him. It was too much for his mind to take. He felt dizzy as his demons tore at him and lifted a hand to his temple.

"..Are you alright?"

He nodded and walked back inside. Kai was worried about his lover. Lately he had been having bad headaches. At night when they slept Kai would sometimes wake up to the sound of Akira's whimpering, or just because he was tossing around in his nightmares. But he refused to say anything about it. Kai felt it as if Akira didn't trust him.That hurt mroe than he was willing to admit. He stood in front of the bed for a moment before he sat down and curled up by the silverhaired boy.

"Akira? Do you feel ok? I am worried about you".

No answer but the silent breathing of his partner. What if he was the reason for Akira's suffering? He would never be able to forgive himself if that was it.

"..Don't push me away like this", he begged quietly and sat halfways up, leaning on his elbow.

The older boy looked up at him with a face lacking of expressions and it was difficult for Kai to understand the things he saw in those silvery eyes. Such an enigma..How come that he would never be able to understand him?

Kai could swear that he saw a flash of something strange and rather vicious in Akira's eyes.

In the next moment he suddenly found himself lying on his stomach, his face pressed against the matress.

"Akira! Stop it!" he protested as the other boy pinned his arms down.

"Stop it now!" he shouted with tears in his eyes as Akira's hand rested on his tigh, his lips planting rough kisses along his shoulder and back. Kai cried out in pain when he sank his teeth into one of his wounds. He started to struggle against him but found that he was helpless in this position.

"Shut up and lay still", Akira hissed into his ear.

Kai stopped fighting and wept quietly as the other boy possessed him. He wanted to just leave his body, but couldn't.

When it was over he just lay there feeling so little and helpless. He had stopped crying, there were no tears left in him. Akira possessivly wrapped his arms around him, pressing him against himself.

"You are mine Kai, don't ever doubt that".

Kai didn't understand what was going on. Sometimes the silverhaired boy would get a sudden change in attitude. It was like he was two different persons at once. Kai was scared shitless of the cold, rough Akira that never listened to his pleas.The other Akira was kind, warm-hearted and observant. He never forced Kai into anything and was normally careful.

He wondered what had happened to make his lover become like this. Hee wanted to know more about Akira's past.The silverhaired boy never told him anything about himself while he appeared to know everything about Kai. It just wasn't fair, he thought. But he didn't dare ask any questions when Akira was like this. He would wait until the Akira he loved returned again.