Blood+ Fan Fiction ❯ First Kiss, First Confusion ❯ A Kiss pt. 1 ( Chapter 4 )

A/N: I dun own Blood+!

 

Alex: *blinks up from her laptop a peice of pocky hanging from her mouth* Hi ya'll! I'm back with another chapter for this little…um….thingy! It's not really a story in like actual `has a plot' sense but I like it. So here we go. This takes place right after the fake Liza tells Saya the half truth. I also want to thank everyone on both websites for sending so many reviews, you guys have made me uber happy! Now if only I could get this many reviews on my other fic *pouts and continues munching pocky*. And just as a side note I've added a little scene in here, next chapter will take place a the Zoo….damn I wish this show would come out in English on dvd *sobs*. Also just as those of you know I'm infatuated with vampires *looks all evil and gleeful* and the concept of giving someone blood in a kiss is just freaking sexy to someone like me who is totally twisted and screwed up in the head.

Sally: You know they have a word for what you are…. This chapter will only be in Saya's view, the next chapter will be Haji's view of this chapter, I like to keep things complicated.

 

A Kiss

 

Anger and betrayal still rung in her mind and heart making it heavy to a painful level. Confusion however was at the forefront of her mind at all times, why couldn't she remember?! It was so frustrating to have everyone around her know who and what she was yet she had no idea, just faint flashing images that invaded her mind every so often. It hurt her all the more that Haji had known what she was and kept if from her, she dared to peek up at him and found him staring ahead as they walked, ever vigilant for any danger to her. Yet he didn't seem to realize that she thought of herself as a danger to everyone around her, even him.

 

“We should find you something to eat.” She had to force down the bile that rose in her throat, she couldn't eat, just the thought of food made her sick. She chalked it up to the shock of finding out she was a monster, her hands curled into fists and she fought down the tears of depression forcing out a steady tone.

 

“I'm fine Haji.” She had already confronted him in the truck yet he still wouldn't tell her anything saying that she needed to remember on her own. And that reason had helped bring even more determination into her thoughts of the Zoo. She glanced up at the darkening sky, the moon was low in the sky and a few stars shimmered here and there.

 

“We should stop for the night.” It wasn't a question just an observation from her companion. The dull emotionless voice matched his straight face, it was hard to believe that he used to smile and speak more than one sentence at a time. She bit her bottom lip, she had caused that change in him, although she couldn't remember it she knew that she had made him this way. Her heart felt heavy all over again at that thought, her mind was so preoccupied that she didn't notice when he led her off of the road and up a small hill to a large tree. She blinked when he stopped and looked around.

 

“Haji? What are we doing?” he shifted his cello case off of his shoulder and knelt down with it.

 

“Stopping for the night, if you won't eat you at least need to rest.” Being still for only those few moments made her shiver, it was still quite chilly even though the grass and trees were green. Curiosity made her head tilt when she heard the locks of his cello case pop open, he shifted something and turned to hand her a blanket. She blinked at it for a moment before she took it, “You had best try to sleep Saya.” He leaned his cello case against the tree and sank down next to it. She watched him for a moment before she sank down to her knees a little ways from him and wrapped the blanket around her shoulders and stared up at the stars.

 

Every so often she could hear Haji shifting positions mixed in with the night sounds of crickets and frogs. She peeked over at him in time to see his dark blue eyes slide from her back to the sky, he was worried about her, she couldn't blame him she was worried about herself as well. She took a deep breath, “Haji?” she turned to face him slightly as he moved his gaze back to her, “Why won't you tell anything about my past? Di..Did I do something bad? Was I like the others back then?”

 

“It is best for you to remember on your own Saya, having the memories forced upon you wouldn't be wise and it would most likely be painful for you.” She shifted her eyes down to her boot tips which peeked out from under the blanket.

 

“It's painful either way, everyone is keeping it from me as if you don't want me to remember.” She looked at him again, “I have so few memories of things before last year, I have very few of you and you've supposedly been with me most of my life…. Which I guess has been a long time considering that I'm a….” she clenched her hands and her teeth at that thought. She was a monster, sure she had always known that she was different but she never thought she was a monster!

 

“Perhaps some things are better off not remembered.” She heard him shift again and knew that he was hiding his bandaged hand from view, “Surely not all of your memories were bad that you have had so far.” She thought about that and a funny warm feeling grew in her chest as the image of his smile tickled the edge of her mind at the same time she felt a small smile tug at the corners of her lips. He blinked at her and she blushed.

 

“No, not all of them have been bad.” She shifted laying down in the grass to curl up, “Will you tell me the promise Haji?” she tilted her head back slightly to look at him. He looked down at the grass instead of at her, “Haji?” her stomach chose that moment to growl loudly, she felt her face heat and she turned her gaze away from him pulling the blanket up around her ears.

 

“You really need to eat or drink my blood.” She cringed, the thought of eating still made her sick and drinking blood just seemed wrong still.

 

“I'm fine.” She tugged the blanket up higher and closed her eyes. She forced her mind to stop and ignored her growling stomach so that she could sleep. It was a fitful sleep full of shimmers of her memories and she woke more than once during the night once to Haji stroking her bangs from her eyes, the same warm feeling in her chest surfaced even as the action caused her to relax into sleep again.

 

It was only two hours till dawn when the temperature dropped (Those of you who live in the south know what I'm talking about when the temperature drops like an hour of so before daylight…..it freaking sucks!) she shivered and turned on her side curling up into a little ball under the blanket her teeth chattering together. She drifted towards the waking world enough to hear Haji move, she heard his footsteps before he knelt next to her.

 

“Saya?”

 

“Mmh?” she was too cold to speak.

 

“Are you cold?” she blinked blearily up at him, he was un-phased by the cold and what was stranger yet was that he had dew caught in his hair. She couldn't help the small smile that curved her lips, her chevalier was handsome as well as her best friend. She nodded to his question.

 

“Mm-hmm.” She shivered again and her stomach growled, she felt her cheeks heat all over again. She burrowed farther under her blanket, she let out a yelp when he scooped her up in his arms, “Wha?” she blinked again as he stood and moved over to the tree again, he sat back down cradling her in his lap. His hands shifted the blanket until it was wrapped around both of them. Saya lay stiff in his arms for a few minutes until the heat of his body began to seep through her icy flesh, she relaxed shifting slightly snuggling into him her hand gripping the lapel of his jacket. She peeked up at him, he was staring down at her with his unreadable expression, if it weren't for his eyes he would have passed the look off as indifferent. His eyes, however, were worried, “Haji?” her stomach growled insistently.

 

“You need to eat Saya.” She looked away from him and shook her head slightly snuggling closer to his chest, his arms shifted from around her shoulders, one slid down until it was wrapped around her slender waist. He shifted her until she could curl against his chest both hands tangled in his shirt and jacket to get her fingers warm, she snuggled her cheek against his shoulder. His bandaged hand moved from her waist and she heard the slide of fabric against his hand as he rid himself of the fabric he curled the hand closed the long claw-like nails sinking into his palm, blood pooled from the wounds, “You need my blood.” He moved his hand to her lips only to have her to turn her head away, something roared inside her to drink the scarlet liquid but the morals she had learned in the past year rebelled against it.

 

“I can't.” she whispered the words into his shirt.

 

“You have before Saya.” She felt her body tense, the haze of sleep was long gone and she was finally beginning to get warm again.

 

“You…the first time wasn't my choice Haji, you fed me your blood that time. And the second I only drank from you to save Kai, I'm not a monster like them.” She felt his free arm tighten around her shoulders.

 

“You are not a monster Saya.” She felt him shift her in his arms again, “Is that what it would take?” she frowned and tilted her head back.

 

“Wha..mph!” her heart thumped heavily in her chest when he grasped her jaw with his chiropteran hand and fastened his lips over hers, having been in the middle of speaking her lips were already open under his. His lips parted just slightly and a slow trickle of blood flowed into her mouth. Her eyes were wide for a moment in shock before she was forced to swallow the blood in her mouth; his dark blue eyes were locked onto her shocked ones for a long moment before hers slid closed. She could feel his blood working its way through her taking care of her hunger and injuries from the fight with the fake Liza.

 

His lips parted farther allowing more blood to flow into her mouth; her hands tightened their hold on his jacket when the odd curling warm feeling crept its way through her stomach and chest. She knew it wasn't an actual kiss but she still had to squash the instinct to slide her arms up around his neck. Memories of the first time he had fed her flooded her mind, that time seemed more like a kiss then a feeding to her, the way he had pulled her close and slid his tongue into her mouth, compared to that this feeding was a little disappointing. Shock poured though her again, it hit her that she wanted him to kiss her like that again. Guilt followed shock, she was a monster, she was enjoying the taste of his blood and the strength that it was giving her. She was enjoying being held by him, she felt safe in his arms, protected.

 

His claw like hand relaxed its grip on her jaw, the flow of blood slowed then stopped but his mouth stayed pressed against hers as she swallowed the last bit. When he didn't pull away immediately she opened her eyes to find his eyes clenched closed his brow furrowed in what seemed to be concentration.

 

He still didn't lift his lips from hers, just as she was about to pull away herself his face smoothed the same moment his clawed hand slid from her jaw into her hair to cup the back of her head. He tilted his head slightly sealing their lips together; she let out a soft squeak when his blood coated tongue slid into her mouth to slide against hers. Her heart skipped a few beats before picking up an erratic new pace, her eyes slid closed again as his tongue stroked hers slowly. Her hands relaxed their grip on his jacket, for a moment she fought the temptation of kissing him back, her resolve crumbled in seconds. She shifted pressing her lips against his even as she wrapped her tongue around his, her arms slid up around his neck her hands burrowing into his hair loosening the ribbon that held it back.

 

She heard a soft sound escape from the back of her throat, the arm that had been wrapped around her shoulders slid down to wrap around her waist pulling her closer as he tilted her head back just slightly. She had no doubt that he had heard that soft sound just as she heard the soft growl like moan he pulled his lips from hers the tip of his tongue flicking across her bottom lip to remove a bit of blood. He stared down at her as she opened her eyes, she felt dazed and her body tingled as did her lips which she could feel were slightly swollen. Her tongue flicked out to remove the last traces of blood from her lips, she knew her face was red due to the heat filling her cheeks.

 

“Haji?” she slid her hands from his hair and used her thumbs to clean the blood from the corners of his lips. Her body felt warm as she stared up at him, there was something unreadable in his eyes and she wondered why, “Why?” she didn't realize that she had said the word aloud until she saw the slight spark of panic in his eyes. It was there only a moment before it disappeared and she felt her heart stop, she needed to fix that slip of the lips before she caused him more pain.

 

“Saya..” she smiled and wrapped her arms back around his neck burying her face into her chest, “I..” she shook her head slightly.

 

“Don't Haji, I would like to know why but I'm not going to ask again. Just hold me.” And that's what he did he pulled her closer his face burrowing into her hair as she drifted back into sleep warm in safe in his arms.

 

 

A/N: Okay guys that's all for this chapter, it turned out much longer than I though it would and so I'm ending it in Saya's view for now. The next chapter will be over the same thing but in Haji's view just to keep you guys in a slight suspense about what's going on in his head.