Blood+ Fan Fiction ❯ First Kiss, First Confusion ❯ A Kiss: Giving In ( Chapter 5 )

A/N: I dun own Blood+

 

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Alex: *blinks all innocent like* Ya think?! Really?! And thank you everyone for all the great reviews, but if you like this story try reading InuYasha: Legend of the Record Keeper and An Angel's Wings (my new Trinity Blood fic that will be posted within the next day or so.).

 

A Kiss: Giving In

 

 

He worried, it was as simple as that. He worried for her every moment of his long life, and now that worry was heightened by her refusal to eat or drink his blood. That worry took the form of fear for her well being, it gripped his heart and made it hard for him to think or breathe. He watched her from the corner of his eye as they walked down the old path that would lead them to the Zoo. He continued to watch her, how she moved, how her forehead wrinkled just slightly when in deep thought, but what bothered him the most was the sad lost look in her eyes. The red brown depths were haunted now. He could see her mind working furiously to come up with answers, the range of emotions that streamed through her eyes tore at his heart and then there was the rumbling of her stomach, he almost smiled when it growled some things never changed.

 

“We should find you something to eat.” He spoke without thinking.

 

“I'm fine Haji.” He caught the pained expression that flitted across her face and let it drop for the time being. They traveled farther in silence until he spotted the weary droop of her shoulders, he already knew that she wouldn't admit she was tired, she would say that she was fine and continue on.

 

“We should stop for the night.” He kept his tone even so that he didn't sound like he was telling her that she had to stop. He waited a few minutes then directed them both towards the largest tree he could find leaning his cello case against the trunk when he reached it.

 

She blinked at him confused, “Haji? What are we doing?”

 

“Stopping for the night, if you won't eat you at least need to rest.” He unfastened his case and pulled the blanket he kept under his cello free handing it to her, he saw her shiver and the sense of worry returned. He closed his case and leaned it back against the tree before he sank down next to it, “You had best try to sleep Saya.” She sank on the other side of his cello case and wrapped the blanket around her shoulders before tilting her head back to stare at the stars. He followed her lead resting the back of his head against the tree trunk.

 

“Haji?” he turned his head to look at her and found her staring back at him, his heart did a funny little flip in his chest at the sadness and confusion in her gaze “Why won't you tell anything about my past? Di..Did I do something bad? Was I like the others back then?” his heart squeezed violently and he bandaged hand clenched.

 

“It is best for you to remember on your own Saya, having the memories forced upon you wouldn't be wise and it would most likely be painful for you.” It was the truth for the most part, but being the one to tell her all the bad she had done would hurt him as well as her. He couldn't bring himself to be the one to bring that pain back into her life, he turned his gaze back to the stars so that she couldn't read his eyes.

 

“It's painful either way, everyone is keeping it from me as if you don't want me to remember.” He could feel her eyes on him as she spoke and that feeling sent a small shiver up his spine, “I have so few memories of things before last year, I have very few of you and you've supposedly been with me most of my life…. Which I guess has been a long time considering that I'm a….” he glanced at her and watched the muscles in her jaw shift as she clenched her teeth.

 

“Perhaps some things are better off not remembered.” He shifted his arm out of her view, he hoped that was one memory she never regained, “Surely not all of your memories were bad that you have had so far.” He watched a small smile tug at her lips and the dread that had seemed to settle over him disappeared somewhat, he blinked at her wondering what she was thinking of and her face turned a pretty shade of pink.

 

“No, not all of them have been bad.” She shifted curling up on the ground pulling the blanket up over her shoulders, “Will you tell me the promise Haji?” his heart stilled in his chest as she asked that question and tilted her head to look at him, “Haji?” her stomach chose that moment to growl loudly saving him from answering that question.

 

“You really need to eat or drink my blood.” He watched her body tense.

 

“I'm fine.” She tugged at the blanket again and closed her eyes, moments later she was asleep beside him. He watched over her and felt each frown and whimper that accompanied her sleep all the way to his soul. She shifted once her hair falling into her face and he immediately moved his hand to brush, he knew that she came partially awake at his touch but she only sighed and relaxed again. It was close to dawn when the temperature dropped that she tensed again her body shaking in the cold, she turned to her side and curled up into a small ball under the blanket.

 

It was then that he chose to move, he couldn't let his Saya freeze, he could already hear her teeth chattering together. He stood and moved to her side kneeling down next to her, “Saya.” He spoke softly but had no doubt that she heard him.

 

“Mmh?” she murmured the sound instead of speaking.

 

“Are you cold?” she blinked sleepily up at him and he saw something glimmer in the sleepy depths of her eyes and wondered briefly what she was thinking when a small smile curved her lips as she nodded.

 

“Mm-hmm.” She shivered again and her stomach growled causing her cheeks to warm as she tried to disappear under the blanket. He didn't have to think about it, in one smooth movement he had scooped her up in his arms and stood, “Wha?” she yelped the half word as he moved back to his place against the tree trunk and sat back down. With quick easy movements he arranged the blanket around them both, sharing his body heat to keep her warm. She lay stiff in his arms for several moments before she relaxed snuggling against him, feeling her icy skin against his human hand bushed against her flesh, worry spiked again as she tilted her head up to look at him again, “Haji?” her stomach growled again.

 

“You need to eat Saya.” She turned away shaking her head again, snuggling closer to his chest, he shifted his arms from around her shoulders, he slid one around her shoulders and the other around her wiast. He shifted her until she could curl against his chest and she slid both hands up to his shirt tangling them in the cloth to get them warm, she snuggled her cheek against his shoulder and his heart did another quick flip. His bandaged hand moved from her waist, he used his teeth to loosen the bandages letting them fall to the grass before he curled his claws inwards slicing his palm he watched the blood pool in his palm, “You need my blood.” He moved his hand to her lips only to have her to turn her head away, he saw the hunger flash in her eyes yet she rejected it.

 

“I can't.” she whispered the words into his shirt burring her face into his chest as she did so.

 

“You have before Saya.” He felt her tense again the haze of sleep gone.

 

“You…the first time wasn't my choice Haji, you fed me your blood that time. And the second I only drank from you to save Kai, I'm not a monster like them.” He tightened his arm around her shoulders acting more on impulse than thought, his heart tightened in his chest, if it was the only way to get her to feed then so be it.

 

“You are not a monster Saya.” He shifted her slightly turning her more to the side so that he could see her more clearly, “Is that what it would take?” he quickly lifted his hand draining the palm full of blood into his mouth as she tilted her head back a frown on her face.

 

“Wha..mph!” he grasped her jaw with his clawed hand turning her face up and towards his, he lowered his moth to hers in one quick movements fastening his lips over hers quickly cutting off her words. Her lips were cool under his and already open, he parted his own lips and let the blood drain into her mouth. Her eyes stayed wide open in surprise locked on his for a moment then slid shut, it was only then that he let his own eyes close. He enjoyed the sensation of her lips against his as they slowly warmed, he couldn't resist the temptation of sliding his lips against hers, he gave in just parting his lips a little more just to feel the sensation of her lips sliding against his.

 

Her hands tightened their hold on his jacket and shirt, he relaxed his grip on her jaw as the flow of blood slowed then stopped yet he couldn't seem to lift his lips from hers. Just a few seconds more of feeling this sort of contact with her, the temptation to take the press of lips to another level was strong enough he thought he'd choke. Seconds ticked by yet he couldn't bring himself to lift his lips, they tingled and the need to slide his tongue into her mouth to taste her again as he had the night he had began her awakening rippled though him. In truth he hadn't meant to turn that feeding into a kiss but the feeling of her in his arms again had over ridden thought much as it was doing now. He felt her shift and her lips slipped against his slightly causing the temptation to grow two fold, it took all the will he had to keep from tightening his hold on her.

 

He felt the shift in her body that signaled that she was going to pull away from him and his will snapped, he gave in to the temptation of her mouth. He slid his hand from her jaw around to the back of her head to rest it lightly in her hair as he tilted his head just slightly sealing their lips as his tongue slid into her mouth mixing the taste of blood with her taste. She made a soft sound as his tongue slid against hers, he could feel her erratic pulse against his fingers and had no doubt that his own matched hers. His entire body seemed to tingle as her grip on his shirt front loosened her hands sliding up to burrow into his hair loosening it from the navy ribbon that held it up.

 

Another soft sound escaped her and he felt a shiver race down his spine as his arm slid from her shoulders to wrap around her waist pulling her closer as his other hand tilted her head back just a bit. Before he could stop it he heard the soft sound he himself made, it was a cross between a moan and a growl and he had no doubt that she heard it with her sharp ears. He pulled his lips away his tongue flicking over her bottom lip to remove the small drop of blood that remained there, he stared down at her as she opened her eyes enjoying the breathless look and flushed cheeks, her lips were slightly swollen and still stained with his blood. He watched her flick her tongue out to remove the last traces of blood from her lips.

 

“Haji?” she spoke softly as she slid her hands from his hair to cup the sides of his face her thumbs brushing over the corners of his lips to remove traces of blood, he felt numb for a moment his emotions running rampant. He let his icy façade fall into place over his face and his eyes, “Why?” panic rose at her simple question, a question that she voiced and asked with her eyes, eyes that pleaded for the answer. He quickly masked that panic, he needn't worry her with his thoughts or his feelings, not after the promise that they had both made.

 

“Saya..” she smiled and wrapped her arms back around his neck burrowing her face back into his chest, “I…” she shook her head slightly stopping his words.

 

“Don't Haji, I would like to know but I'm not going to ask again. Just hold me.” Warmth surfaced at her simple request as well as the thought she put into allowing him to keep his thoughts and feelings to himself, his Saya had grown up so much since the last time she had been awake. Living with the humans had been a good thing for her. He pulled her closer and buried his face in her hair as she drifted back into sleep safe in his arms. He himself let his eyes close and his mind drift his body relaxed against hers, he didn't need sleep but he could rest and relax with her safe in his arms. He smiled just slightly when she snuggled against his chest whispering his name in her sleep.

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A/N: Whoot that's it for this chapter all in Haji's view jus as I said it would be. I hope you all enjoy it and I want to thank everyone so much for your reviews, you have no idea how happy they make me. Although there may be some differences in this chapter than in the last I hope they're not too bad and I tried to keep Haji as much in character as I could. Thank you again and enjoy. ~A~