Card Captor Sakura Fan Fiction / Sailor Moon Fan Fiction ❯ Change in heart, Change in me ❯ No Need for Closure ( Chapter 3 )
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By: Samishii 
Anime/Manga: Card Captor Sakura Fan Fiction / Sailor Moon Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Romance / Drama | Type: Crossover | Uploaded On: 04.02.2004 | Pages: 3 | Words: 4.2K | Visits: 497 | Status: Work In Progress
Anime/Manga: Card Captor Sakura Fan Fiction / Sailor Moon Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Romance / Drama | Type: Crossover | Uploaded On: 04.02.2004 | Pages: 3 | Words: 4.2K | Visits: 497 | Status: Work In Progress
This Chapter gives you a little info that’ll be useful later. It tells how Sakura’s family and friends dealt with the news and what the letters to her family, and friends said. You also get a felling about how Sakura felt towards individuals and not just the whole situation, and Eriol. With Usagi it tells us what she decided to do to make it easier for her family to get on.
The way they leave things when they leave are really different, but they are both hurt by what their friends have done. (:But don’t worry it’ll be getting happy soon!J
Change of heart, change in me
‘NO NEED FOR CLOSURE’
It’s not your average runaway
Back in Tomoeda
Touya was the first to return home.
"Kaijuu, I’m home!"
He yelled to his empty home getting no reply. He went into the kitchen to make himself a snack when he noticed the envelopes on the table. He took the note and read it confused by what it meant. He looked through the envelopes and saw all the names, Tomoyo, Eriol, Chiheru, Yuki. He even saw one with his name on it, he went up to his imouto’s room only to find it empty. He returned down stairs after searching the house for her and finding nothing. He opened the envelope that had him and dad on it and slowly read it.
Natsukashii Tousan, Onii-chan, (Dear Father, Older brother)
I love you very much, but I needed to do this. I’ve been having severe problems with all of my former friends. And I feel that my magic and the cards have been suffering. I’ve decided to be on my own. I haven’t told anyone where I’m going not even Kero. Please do not hate me for the decision I have made. Before I came to this decision you know what I did. I was sitting in front of my mirror, contemplating killing myself. But a voice of reasoning talked to me and I didn’t. I figured as much as everyone’s hurt me, that it would be wrong to hurt you all in such an absolute way.
Onii-chan, I’m guessing you’ll get home first. I want you to know that I love you and wish you all the best in life. You’re talented and a very special person. As much as you were a pain in my ass big time I loved and respected you very much. I’m going to miss the way you always protected me even when I wished you hadn’t. And believe it or not I think I’m even going to miss you calling me ‘Kaijuu’. I will miss you.
Tousan, You are the best father anyone could ask for, you’re always so kind, nice, loving, I love you very much. You’ve been both father and mother for me, as well as half of Clow looking over me. I know you’re probably really disappointed in me, but not as much as I am in myself. I don’t want to hurt you but I feel that this is the best thing.
I love you both so much and I promise that I will return one day. I just hope that when that day comes you will still love me. I’ll admit that I’m scared, about what I’ll do, about what’s going to happen in the future, about what awaits me now and when I feel I should return.
I will write you every now and then just to let you know that I am well. I hope you both stay strong, and take care of each other.
Love always: Your Cherry Blossom- Sakura.
Touya was surprised and scared by what he read. He didn’t know what to do so he called his father. And frantically summed up what his imouto had said his father became frantic and told him to call anyone she left a letter for and have them come to the house as soon as they can. He sighed but agreed and as soon as he hung up the phone he got out his imouto’s address book and began the many calls he’d have to make. It took him a long time and a lot of talking but he got everyone to agree to come over not mentioning exactly why.
"No wonder she felt she had to leave none of them seem to like or care for her at all. Poor Sakura…"
He sighed to himself as he heard the doorbell ring. He quickly made his way to the door and yanked it open. He looked and saw Yuki on the other side. He immediately pulled him into a hug confusing the pale man that stood before him. He began to question him till Touya pulled away and looked passed him, he turned to see what he was looking at and saw a few kids who looked about Sakura’s age walking up the drive way. As well as Fujitaka hurrying in the driveway, and rushing out of the car and in the driveway.
Everyone was careless and unknowing of what was going on except Touya and his father. Once people had started coming they brought them in the kitchen and one by one they gave them the envelopes.
Tomoyo had received hers first it had her name and Takashi Yamazki’s name on it. She looked it over carefully than opened it.
Natsukashii Daidouji-san and Takashi-kun,
Konnichiha, The 2 of you I’ve known since we were 8 and up until recently we’ve been the best of friends. I would do anything for you guys. I know you may find it hard to believe.
Daidouji, I know you despise my existence. You think I’m trying to steal Eriol, well I’m not! I loved Li-kun, in fact I thought we were going to be together forever but look how dreams break. But you still have a chance. Eriol cares about you… A lot. Even more than he does for me. But he’s to shy to talk to you, and not that you won’t even look at him how’s he supposed to apologize and show you he cares if you cut him off at the knees every time tries to speak one word to you. Tomoyo you’ve got to forgive him or you’ll regret it. You 2 belong together. You now it. He was just being a friend that night, both our judgements were clouded. Don’t blame him… I hope if I return one day you can forgive me for my treachery, I truly never meant to hurt you. And I hope you are happy.
Takashi-kun, I think I’ll miss you the most. I’ve known you for so long and you were the only one who made me feel like I was the devil reincarnate, like I was Satan’s spawn. In the end you were my only friend. And I now that was hard for you, being friends with all the people who hate me most, who I’ve accidentally hurt. I never meant to. I never meant to hurt any of you, I love you all so much. I’m going to write you every now and then to let you know how I am, what’s new. I hoe you can forgive me for all the grief I’ve caused you.
And I hope that when I return someday that you both will forgive me and maybe start a new friendship.
Your friend truly~ Kinomoto Sakura
Takashi and her read together and felt badly for Sakura. They looked down sorrowfully and then looked at the other people reading letters from Sakura.
Natsukashii Eriol-kun, Kero-chan, Yue-chan,
Kero-chan you’ve been with me the whole time, helping me, guiding me, and teaching me how to be better. But this is something I have to do alone. I’m tired of feeling hurt and abandoned by my friends and unloved by everyone. I want to get away form the whole mess I’ve created by my fragile heart. I’m sure everyone will move on and forget about me soon enough. I would like you to stay with Hiiragizawa-kun or Yuki-kun, I feel that in time events will happen because of my choice, and you need to be with them. I will return to you one day I just hope that when I do there’ll still be a place for me in your heart. I know you must feel hurt and abandoned, but you must have noticed how miserable I’ve been the past few weeks, I’m trying to fix that. I hope in time that you can forgive me. Kero I feel you should know something’s. Don’t hate Li-sama for what he’s done he can’t help how he feels, he loves Chiheru. Just let him be, and if he ever needs your help please help him, as a favor to me. When I’m needed, and the time is dire I will return.
Yue-chan I’m so sorry if you feel that I have let you down by doing what I have, but I know that something will come of it I can sense it already. I will return, this I promise but I hope that you won’t feel hurt, and allow me back when I do. I will feel stronger and renewed. Yue-chan please look after Yuki-chan and Onii-chan. Also I would like you to concentrate your efforts on become stronger, there will be a time when you will need all the power you have, when that time nears I shall return to you.
Eriol, I’m so sorry I know you were confused that night, but I know that you really care for Daidouji-san. I hope that you will find the courage deep down to tell her, she loves you so much. I owe you everything from the cards to friendship but with my troubles between everyone I felt that leaving was the best thing for right now. Li-sama hates me, and so does Daidouji. I don’t blame them I’ve made both of there lives hell unintentionally. I care for you all so much I will really miss you. I am going to return and when I do our strengths will be tested. I protect Daidouji-san.
Your mistress and friend ~ Sakura Kinomoto
Eriol read this and a few sad tears slid down his cheek. With out saying a thing she told him exactly how she was feeling and what she had done. He couldn’t stand the fact that he was part of the reasons he left. He looked at Tomoyo who was looking at everyone cluelessly. Their eyes met briefly and they both turned bright red, and looked away. He gave the letter to Yuki and waited for him to finish and read it.
Natsukashii Kyuuchi, (Dear old friend/old friendship)
Yuki-san, I have known you since as long as you’ve known Touya and that’s been a long time, and I’ve become friends with you over the years. You’re always there when I want to complain about Onii-chan, my friends, and the stress of the cards and everything. I am going to miss being able to talk to and confide in you. You’re such a sweet person. I want you to look after Onii-chan, Kero, and Li-sama. I don’t love him anymore but I don’t want anything to happen to him, and my brother will need you. He acts tough but I know he’ll take this hard.
But I felt this is the best. I actually considered killing myself I had the gun in my hand. But I talked my self out of it. I couldn’t do that to the few of you who care about me. I no longer have any friends just my family and you. I loved Li-sama once but he destroyed my heart, and Daidouji hates me because of an accident that happened. I just hope that the day I return you and my family can find it in your hearts to forgive me for what I knew I had to do and accept me again.
I will always be thinking of you Yuki-chan.
Your friend ~ Sakura
A few quiet tears sprang forth but he quickly wiped them away looking at a very distraught Touya and Mr. Kinomoto. He looked at some of the other people in the room. And saw a that everyone was mostly content. Only Eriol and himself showed any real emotion towards the letter.
"Either she didn’t mention the fact that she ran away or they don’t care. Poor Sakura."
He thought to himself.
Sasaki-sama, Yanagisawa-sama, Mihara-sama,
I’m really sorry but I don’t have much to say to you. I want to try to be the bigger person and say I hold no grudges towards you. And it really hurts me that I can’t do it.
Sasaki-sama, you were always so quiet and nice, but once Chiheru hated me you followed right in suite. Ignoring me taunting me making jokes that you thought I couldn’t hear. It really hurt. I loved Xiao-lang Li, and you guys found it so funny when he dumped me to be with Chiheru.
And Yanagisawa-sama, you were no better. You guys dropped me like a bad habit, not even thinking twice. We still could have been friends even if you were friend with Mihara-sama. But you chose to act like I didn’t exist instead.
Mihara-sama, I don’t even know what to say to you you’ve hurt me in a way I thought no one could, but congratulations you’ve managed to do it. I truly loved him, and you know that. Some day if I return maybe we could regain something but I don’t think we’ll have a friendship like we had. But then again I don’t think you care. You know what you are so sneaky and conniving but for some reason I think I may still miss all of you.
Even though I’ll be all-alone, but that’s nothing new to me I’ve been alone for the past month. Between not wanting to be around you or him and Tomoyo-chan hating me. It’s all your fault. You know what it’s probably a good thing that I’ve left. It’s not like Li-sama wants to be my friend anyway. You completely took everything away from me. And despite it all I hope you are happy.
~ Kinomoto
They read the letter and felt horrible for the way they treated her.
"Too little, too late!"
A young English voice broke through their thoughts giving them a cold glare. They shuddered and turned their attention to the new arrival…
Syaoran was a little hesitant to go to the Kinomoto residence especially since it was Touya who called him. He decided to come only because he caught a hint of something unknown in Touya’s voice. He was walking for a while before he was finally in front of the Kinomoto residence he felt a weird feeling so he hurried his pace and entered the house and followed the rumbling voices her heard. He made his way to kitchen and saw that everyone was looking at him unpleasantly except Fujitaka. He walked in slowly till Mr. Kinomoto confronted him and gave him something. He looked at the envelope and recognized the familiar writing as Sakura’s he opened it and quickly took out the contents ignoring everyone’s stares.
Li Syaoran,
To be perfectly honest I don’t know what to say. I love you so much but you made it perfectly clear that you no longer care for me, and that’s part of the reason I’ve done what I’ve done. I can’t see you loving her every day I just can’t. I still care for you way you much. And Daidouji-sama told me that you really have no intentions of ever being friends with me. And you know what as much as that destroys me, it beats me getting hurt because of how I feel or you growing to hate me even more. You and Mihara-sama deserve to be happy and how can you be with me around.
Don’t blame yourself and don’t let anyone else blame you. But I should warn you Touya will want your blood and I think Yuki/Yue, and Kero may want to help him. I will come back someday. When I’m needed I shall return, till that day be strong and look out for my brother I know you think that would be suicide but it can help him and you.
You don’t care but I know what I’m doing is for the best. This is the less selfish course of action. I almost took my life I seriously contemplated pulling the trigger but a voice told me not to. Something’s going to happen in the future something big. And I need to be alive when it does.
Li-sama I really care about you and I truly hope that when I return we can try to be friends. As I think you’d doubt it I’m going to miss you terrible, even though I know I wasn’t you are my number one love. Now and always, you will be in my heart.
Till the next we meet ~ Kinomoto Sakura
Syaoran read the letter in amazement looking up at Touya and Mr. Kinomoto who seemed to know what was going on, he thought he knew but wasn’t sure.
"Touya-san what’s going on what is this?"
Chiheru asked. Touya gave her a cold look knowing that she had something to do with her leaving her and that gaki.
"As some of you may know my imouto ran away she didn’t’ tell us anything or give us any clues. She just wanted us to give those to you. The police said we couldn’t do anything till she’s been gone a day so we’re going to look for her you guys can all leave now I just thought you might want to know."
He slurred as he ran out the door. Her family plus Tomoyo, Eriol, Syaoran and Yuki looked around the city for hours till it was too dark to see and they reluctantly went their separate ways to get some rest till they can talk to the authorities the next morning…
Back in Juuban
Usagi wandered around the out skirts of town. She did some thinking she did want anyone to be hurt but she didn’t want to stay. She walked in the dull sunlight continuing to contemplate her feelings. She took out her brooch and toyed with it for a moment. As she opened it a thought struck her. She held it up and transformed into her alter ego Sailor Moon and held the Silver Crystal in front of her.
"Silver crystal please make my family and friends forget about me till they see me next and hide the letters from all but Motoki."
A silver light radiated from the desperate heroine and with a quick flash she was back to plain old Usagi. She sat down for a second to gather some energy before she was of and walking again.
"It’s time he knew even if like this now."
She actually felt some relief that they wouldn’t feel hurt by her decision even though a part of her felt they should for hurting her. But she was content so she kept walking. Towards the outskirts of Juuban she looks back on her little town and bids it a final farewell.
As she was getting ready to walk out on Juuban forever she saw someone whom caught her eye for a moment she noticed Mamoru, Minako, and Rei walking in her direction. She was in a place where she stuck out and with her bag she couldn’t really run fast. She sat on a near by bench and did her best to hide her self so they couldn’t see her, it worked at least she thought. They walked by without so much as a glance in her direction. She let out a breath she didn’t even realize she was holding. And let out a relieved sigh, but it caught in her throat when someone tapped her shoulder from behind. She jumped as she turned to see Motoki standing behind her.
"Usagi, why’d you deliberately hide from those 3?"
He questioned knowingly. She just turned her head back to where the 3 figures had disappeared. She slowly rose to her feet and turned to face her male companion.
"Motoki."
She said with tears streaking her cheeks as she hugged him tightly. She just stood there in his arms for a moment letting her worried tears fall. She eventually got herself under control and back out of his caring hold. She looked into his deep teal eyes as she spoke.
"Motoki, I need you to do something for me. Go to my house and go in my room. If you look on the desk there should still be an envelope there with your name on it. You have to go get it. Some things that I’ve been wanting to tell you are there."
He gave her a weird look and stood there dumbly for a moment. She hugged him again and asked him to do it for her. He smiled at her and kissed her forehead as he left. She smiled sadly as she picked up her stuff and crept away hoping to avoid bumping into anyone else she knew but that just won’t be the case.
"Tsukino-san. Doushita?"
"Konnichiha Yui, I’m fine, but I’m sorry I really have to get going."
Usagi waved to her as she ran off. She really had to go but she felt bad for leaving Yui all alone but she had to or she never would. After walking for an hour straight she was 2 miles out side of Juuban. She wasn’t sure where she was going she just kept walking and was seeing where she ended up.
It’s now nighttime she was well away from Juuban, she ended up by an abandoned apartment complex in Kyoto. She decided to take cover form the biting cold in one of the old apartments, she carefully made her way inside the building hoping that no one else would be seeking refuge inside. She took a deep breath as she opened the door, as she stepped through the door she noticed something peculiar. ‘It’s silent. Way to silent’ she thought to herself. She listened quietly but couldn’t hear a thing none of the usual sounds somebody’d associate with an old building, the scurrying of little animals, the wind, which she could feel. "This is strange." She said to herself. She walked around in silence and began to look through all the rooms seeing if anyone else was with her she began to feel more comfortable she hadn’t yet found anyone in the building with her. But she was weirded out by the unusual silence. She’d come to the last few rooms and found nothing, till she tried to open the last door…
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Dunh dunh dunnn!!! Ch 3’s done. I really hope you liked it. In the upcoming chapters Sakura and Usagi meet and talk about why they each ran away and it becomes clear to each other that they have magic. What will happen, what could possible go wrong. Stay tuned and see.
I really hope this wasn’t to boring. I promise it’s going to get better as it progresses. Please let me know what you think.
The way they leave things when they leave are really different, but they are both hurt by what their friends have done. (:But don’t worry it’ll be getting happy soon!J
Change of heart, change in me
‘NO NEED FOR CLOSURE’
It’s not your average runaway
Back in Tomoeda
Touya was the first to return home.
"Kaijuu, I’m home!"
He yelled to his empty home getting no reply. He went into the kitchen to make himself a snack when he noticed the envelopes on the table. He took the note and read it confused by what it meant. He looked through the envelopes and saw all the names, Tomoyo, Eriol, Chiheru, Yuki. He even saw one with his name on it, he went up to his imouto’s room only to find it empty. He returned down stairs after searching the house for her and finding nothing. He opened the envelope that had him and dad on it and slowly read it.
Natsukashii Tousan, Onii-chan, (Dear Father, Older brother)
I love you very much, but I needed to do this. I’ve been having severe problems with all of my former friends. And I feel that my magic and the cards have been suffering. I’ve decided to be on my own. I haven’t told anyone where I’m going not even Kero. Please do not hate me for the decision I have made. Before I came to this decision you know what I did. I was sitting in front of my mirror, contemplating killing myself. But a voice of reasoning talked to me and I didn’t. I figured as much as everyone’s hurt me, that it would be wrong to hurt you all in such an absolute way.
Onii-chan, I’m guessing you’ll get home first. I want you to know that I love you and wish you all the best in life. You’re talented and a very special person. As much as you were a pain in my ass big time I loved and respected you very much. I’m going to miss the way you always protected me even when I wished you hadn’t. And believe it or not I think I’m even going to miss you calling me ‘Kaijuu’. I will miss you.
Tousan, You are the best father anyone could ask for, you’re always so kind, nice, loving, I love you very much. You’ve been both father and mother for me, as well as half of Clow looking over me. I know you’re probably really disappointed in me, but not as much as I am in myself. I don’t want to hurt you but I feel that this is the best thing.
I love you both so much and I promise that I will return one day. I just hope that when that day comes you will still love me. I’ll admit that I’m scared, about what I’ll do, about what’s going to happen in the future, about what awaits me now and when I feel I should return.
I will write you every now and then just to let you know that I am well. I hope you both stay strong, and take care of each other.
Love always: Your Cherry Blossom- Sakura.
Touya was surprised and scared by what he read. He didn’t know what to do so he called his father. And frantically summed up what his imouto had said his father became frantic and told him to call anyone she left a letter for and have them come to the house as soon as they can. He sighed but agreed and as soon as he hung up the phone he got out his imouto’s address book and began the many calls he’d have to make. It took him a long time and a lot of talking but he got everyone to agree to come over not mentioning exactly why.
"No wonder she felt she had to leave none of them seem to like or care for her at all. Poor Sakura…"
He sighed to himself as he heard the doorbell ring. He quickly made his way to the door and yanked it open. He looked and saw Yuki on the other side. He immediately pulled him into a hug confusing the pale man that stood before him. He began to question him till Touya pulled away and looked passed him, he turned to see what he was looking at and saw a few kids who looked about Sakura’s age walking up the drive way. As well as Fujitaka hurrying in the driveway, and rushing out of the car and in the driveway.
Everyone was careless and unknowing of what was going on except Touya and his father. Once people had started coming they brought them in the kitchen and one by one they gave them the envelopes.
Tomoyo had received hers first it had her name and Takashi Yamazki’s name on it. She looked it over carefully than opened it.
Natsukashii Daidouji-san and Takashi-kun,
Konnichiha, The 2 of you I’ve known since we were 8 and up until recently we’ve been the best of friends. I would do anything for you guys. I know you may find it hard to believe.
Daidouji, I know you despise my existence. You think I’m trying to steal Eriol, well I’m not! I loved Li-kun, in fact I thought we were going to be together forever but look how dreams break. But you still have a chance. Eriol cares about you… A lot. Even more than he does for me. But he’s to shy to talk to you, and not that you won’t even look at him how’s he supposed to apologize and show you he cares if you cut him off at the knees every time tries to speak one word to you. Tomoyo you’ve got to forgive him or you’ll regret it. You 2 belong together. You now it. He was just being a friend that night, both our judgements were clouded. Don’t blame him… I hope if I return one day you can forgive me for my treachery, I truly never meant to hurt you. And I hope you are happy.
Takashi-kun, I think I’ll miss you the most. I’ve known you for so long and you were the only one who made me feel like I was the devil reincarnate, like I was Satan’s spawn. In the end you were my only friend. And I now that was hard for you, being friends with all the people who hate me most, who I’ve accidentally hurt. I never meant to. I never meant to hurt any of you, I love you all so much. I’m going to write you every now and then to let you know how I am, what’s new. I hoe you can forgive me for all the grief I’ve caused you.
And I hope that when I return someday that you both will forgive me and maybe start a new friendship.
Your friend truly~ Kinomoto Sakura
Takashi and her read together and felt badly for Sakura. They looked down sorrowfully and then looked at the other people reading letters from Sakura.
Natsukashii Eriol-kun, Kero-chan, Yue-chan,
Kero-chan you’ve been with me the whole time, helping me, guiding me, and teaching me how to be better. But this is something I have to do alone. I’m tired of feeling hurt and abandoned by my friends and unloved by everyone. I want to get away form the whole mess I’ve created by my fragile heart. I’m sure everyone will move on and forget about me soon enough. I would like you to stay with Hiiragizawa-kun or Yuki-kun, I feel that in time events will happen because of my choice, and you need to be with them. I will return to you one day I just hope that when I do there’ll still be a place for me in your heart. I know you must feel hurt and abandoned, but you must have noticed how miserable I’ve been the past few weeks, I’m trying to fix that. I hope in time that you can forgive me. Kero I feel you should know something’s. Don’t hate Li-sama for what he’s done he can’t help how he feels, he loves Chiheru. Just let him be, and if he ever needs your help please help him, as a favor to me. When I’m needed, and the time is dire I will return.
Yue-chan I’m so sorry if you feel that I have let you down by doing what I have, but I know that something will come of it I can sense it already. I will return, this I promise but I hope that you won’t feel hurt, and allow me back when I do. I will feel stronger and renewed. Yue-chan please look after Yuki-chan and Onii-chan. Also I would like you to concentrate your efforts on become stronger, there will be a time when you will need all the power you have, when that time nears I shall return to you.
Eriol, I’m so sorry I know you were confused that night, but I know that you really care for Daidouji-san. I hope that you will find the courage deep down to tell her, she loves you so much. I owe you everything from the cards to friendship but with my troubles between everyone I felt that leaving was the best thing for right now. Li-sama hates me, and so does Daidouji. I don’t blame them I’ve made both of there lives hell unintentionally. I care for you all so much I will really miss you. I am going to return and when I do our strengths will be tested. I protect Daidouji-san.
Your mistress and friend ~ Sakura Kinomoto
Eriol read this and a few sad tears slid down his cheek. With out saying a thing she told him exactly how she was feeling and what she had done. He couldn’t stand the fact that he was part of the reasons he left. He looked at Tomoyo who was looking at everyone cluelessly. Their eyes met briefly and they both turned bright red, and looked away. He gave the letter to Yuki and waited for him to finish and read it.
Natsukashii Kyuuchi, (Dear old friend/old friendship)
Yuki-san, I have known you since as long as you’ve known Touya and that’s been a long time, and I’ve become friends with you over the years. You’re always there when I want to complain about Onii-chan, my friends, and the stress of the cards and everything. I am going to miss being able to talk to and confide in you. You’re such a sweet person. I want you to look after Onii-chan, Kero, and Li-sama. I don’t love him anymore but I don’t want anything to happen to him, and my brother will need you. He acts tough but I know he’ll take this hard.
But I felt this is the best. I actually considered killing myself I had the gun in my hand. But I talked my self out of it. I couldn’t do that to the few of you who care about me. I no longer have any friends just my family and you. I loved Li-sama once but he destroyed my heart, and Daidouji hates me because of an accident that happened. I just hope that the day I return you and my family can find it in your hearts to forgive me for what I knew I had to do and accept me again.
I will always be thinking of you Yuki-chan.
Your friend ~ Sakura
A few quiet tears sprang forth but he quickly wiped them away looking at a very distraught Touya and Mr. Kinomoto. He looked at some of the other people in the room. And saw a that everyone was mostly content. Only Eriol and himself showed any real emotion towards the letter.
"Either she didn’t mention the fact that she ran away or they don’t care. Poor Sakura."
He thought to himself.
Sasaki-sama, Yanagisawa-sama, Mihara-sama,
I’m really sorry but I don’t have much to say to you. I want to try to be the bigger person and say I hold no grudges towards you. And it really hurts me that I can’t do it.
Sasaki-sama, you were always so quiet and nice, but once Chiheru hated me you followed right in suite. Ignoring me taunting me making jokes that you thought I couldn’t hear. It really hurt. I loved Xiao-lang Li, and you guys found it so funny when he dumped me to be with Chiheru.
And Yanagisawa-sama, you were no better. You guys dropped me like a bad habit, not even thinking twice. We still could have been friends even if you were friend with Mihara-sama. But you chose to act like I didn’t exist instead.
Mihara-sama, I don’t even know what to say to you you’ve hurt me in a way I thought no one could, but congratulations you’ve managed to do it. I truly loved him, and you know that. Some day if I return maybe we could regain something but I don’t think we’ll have a friendship like we had. But then again I don’t think you care. You know what you are so sneaky and conniving but for some reason I think I may still miss all of you.
Even though I’ll be all-alone, but that’s nothing new to me I’ve been alone for the past month. Between not wanting to be around you or him and Tomoyo-chan hating me. It’s all your fault. You know what it’s probably a good thing that I’ve left. It’s not like Li-sama wants to be my friend anyway. You completely took everything away from me. And despite it all I hope you are happy.
~ Kinomoto
They read the letter and felt horrible for the way they treated her.
"Too little, too late!"
A young English voice broke through their thoughts giving them a cold glare. They shuddered and turned their attention to the new arrival…
Syaoran was a little hesitant to go to the Kinomoto residence especially since it was Touya who called him. He decided to come only because he caught a hint of something unknown in Touya’s voice. He was walking for a while before he was finally in front of the Kinomoto residence he felt a weird feeling so he hurried his pace and entered the house and followed the rumbling voices her heard. He made his way to kitchen and saw that everyone was looking at him unpleasantly except Fujitaka. He walked in slowly till Mr. Kinomoto confronted him and gave him something. He looked at the envelope and recognized the familiar writing as Sakura’s he opened it and quickly took out the contents ignoring everyone’s stares.
Li Syaoran,
To be perfectly honest I don’t know what to say. I love you so much but you made it perfectly clear that you no longer care for me, and that’s part of the reason I’ve done what I’ve done. I can’t see you loving her every day I just can’t. I still care for you way you much. And Daidouji-sama told me that you really have no intentions of ever being friends with me. And you know what as much as that destroys me, it beats me getting hurt because of how I feel or you growing to hate me even more. You and Mihara-sama deserve to be happy and how can you be with me around.
Don’t blame yourself and don’t let anyone else blame you. But I should warn you Touya will want your blood and I think Yuki/Yue, and Kero may want to help him. I will come back someday. When I’m needed I shall return, till that day be strong and look out for my brother I know you think that would be suicide but it can help him and you.
You don’t care but I know what I’m doing is for the best. This is the less selfish course of action. I almost took my life I seriously contemplated pulling the trigger but a voice told me not to. Something’s going to happen in the future something big. And I need to be alive when it does.
Li-sama I really care about you and I truly hope that when I return we can try to be friends. As I think you’d doubt it I’m going to miss you terrible, even though I know I wasn’t you are my number one love. Now and always, you will be in my heart.
Till the next we meet ~ Kinomoto Sakura
Syaoran read the letter in amazement looking up at Touya and Mr. Kinomoto who seemed to know what was going on, he thought he knew but wasn’t sure.
"Touya-san what’s going on what is this?"
Chiheru asked. Touya gave her a cold look knowing that she had something to do with her leaving her and that gaki.
"As some of you may know my imouto ran away she didn’t’ tell us anything or give us any clues. She just wanted us to give those to you. The police said we couldn’t do anything till she’s been gone a day so we’re going to look for her you guys can all leave now I just thought you might want to know."
He slurred as he ran out the door. Her family plus Tomoyo, Eriol, Syaoran and Yuki looked around the city for hours till it was too dark to see and they reluctantly went their separate ways to get some rest till they can talk to the authorities the next morning…
Back in Juuban
Usagi wandered around the out skirts of town. She did some thinking she did want anyone to be hurt but she didn’t want to stay. She walked in the dull sunlight continuing to contemplate her feelings. She took out her brooch and toyed with it for a moment. As she opened it a thought struck her. She held it up and transformed into her alter ego Sailor Moon and held the Silver Crystal in front of her.
"Silver crystal please make my family and friends forget about me till they see me next and hide the letters from all but Motoki."
A silver light radiated from the desperate heroine and with a quick flash she was back to plain old Usagi. She sat down for a second to gather some energy before she was of and walking again.
"It’s time he knew even if like this now."
She actually felt some relief that they wouldn’t feel hurt by her decision even though a part of her felt they should for hurting her. But she was content so she kept walking. Towards the outskirts of Juuban she looks back on her little town and bids it a final farewell.
As she was getting ready to walk out on Juuban forever she saw someone whom caught her eye for a moment she noticed Mamoru, Minako, and Rei walking in her direction. She was in a place where she stuck out and with her bag she couldn’t really run fast. She sat on a near by bench and did her best to hide her self so they couldn’t see her, it worked at least she thought. They walked by without so much as a glance in her direction. She let out a breath she didn’t even realize she was holding. And let out a relieved sigh, but it caught in her throat when someone tapped her shoulder from behind. She jumped as she turned to see Motoki standing behind her.
"Usagi, why’d you deliberately hide from those 3?"
He questioned knowingly. She just turned her head back to where the 3 figures had disappeared. She slowly rose to her feet and turned to face her male companion.
"Motoki."
She said with tears streaking her cheeks as she hugged him tightly. She just stood there in his arms for a moment letting her worried tears fall. She eventually got herself under control and back out of his caring hold. She looked into his deep teal eyes as she spoke.
"Motoki, I need you to do something for me. Go to my house and go in my room. If you look on the desk there should still be an envelope there with your name on it. You have to go get it. Some things that I’ve been wanting to tell you are there."
He gave her a weird look and stood there dumbly for a moment. She hugged him again and asked him to do it for her. He smiled at her and kissed her forehead as he left. She smiled sadly as she picked up her stuff and crept away hoping to avoid bumping into anyone else she knew but that just won’t be the case.
"Tsukino-san. Doushita?"
"Konnichiha Yui, I’m fine, but I’m sorry I really have to get going."
Usagi waved to her as she ran off. She really had to go but she felt bad for leaving Yui all alone but she had to or she never would. After walking for an hour straight she was 2 miles out side of Juuban. She wasn’t sure where she was going she just kept walking and was seeing where she ended up.
It’s now nighttime she was well away from Juuban, she ended up by an abandoned apartment complex in Kyoto. She decided to take cover form the biting cold in one of the old apartments, she carefully made her way inside the building hoping that no one else would be seeking refuge inside. She took a deep breath as she opened the door, as she stepped through the door she noticed something peculiar. ‘It’s silent. Way to silent’ she thought to herself. She listened quietly but couldn’t hear a thing none of the usual sounds somebody’d associate with an old building, the scurrying of little animals, the wind, which she could feel. "This is strange." She said to herself. She walked around in silence and began to look through all the rooms seeing if anyone else was with her she began to feel more comfortable she hadn’t yet found anyone in the building with her. But she was weirded out by the unusual silence. She’d come to the last few rooms and found nothing, till she tried to open the last door…
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Dunh dunh dunnn!!! Ch 3’s done. I really hope you liked it. In the upcoming chapters Sakura and Usagi meet and talk about why they each ran away and it becomes clear to each other that they have magic. What will happen, what could possible go wrong. Stay tuned and see.
I really hope this wasn’t to boring. I promise it’s going to get better as it progresses. Please let me know what you think.