Card Captor Sakura Fan Fiction ❯ Final Christmas ❯ Revelations ( Chapter 3 )

A.N.: …must you remind me that I don't own the characters…. *sobs*

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Chapter 3: Revelations

March 28, 2005

It's been a month since I told them the news. A month of pure torture that would haunt my sleeping moments. I feel things falling apart and I'm not talking about my health either. I can sense it. They're all worried and scared. But so am i. I can't stand that they're so… so jumpy around me. Even my brother won't joke around me anymore. I didn't want things to change. I didn't want to be treated any differently and I still don't.

It pains me to know that I'm hurting them with this. I never thought that things would end up like this. I mean, here I am, the girl who fought and captured all the Clow cards and became their mistress. The girl who passed the judgment and the challenge Eriol threw out. The girl who survived all that… and now… now I'm finally losing.

But then again, maybe this was a fight that I was never supposed to win. This may have been my final path to take… my final challenge. And this may have been the time I finally fell…

For the last month and a half since I've first accepted what fate threw at me, I've been wondering about what I did to deserve this. I thought that I was okay with this… that I could handle this, but I was wrong. I don't want to die! I finally found the other half of my heart and now it's still being taken away from me. It's not fair!

I don't want to leave them… I don't want to leave him. I don't want to lose him. Why? Why now? Why me?! Damn it! Why couldn't they let me have this… just this? I don't care about anything else; I just want this. That's all…

… I gotta go. Tomoyo's here. We're getting together for lunch today. Talk to you soon.

Sakura

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A.N.: Well?