Card Captor Sakura Fan Fiction ❯ Healing a Broken Heart ❯ I don't believe ( Chapter 3 )

Disclaimer: Card Captor Sakura is CLAMP's creation, unfortunatelly...

 

Notes before reading:

*Some parts will be from the character's point of view.
*Character's age:
Eriol - 23 Sakura - 21 Tomoyo - 21 Syaoran -23

 

 

___ I don't believe ___

 

She was crying in her new room, remembering every detail of what happened before. Asking herself why he did that, what was he up to. When she stopped crying, she saw the ring Eriol gave her, a golden ring with a tiny diamond. She looked at it closely, like if she was looking for an imperfection, but not finding anything and took it off.

Sakura got up, and started jumping on one feet, opened the door, and started jumping to the stairs. She lost her balance and she was going to fall down when she felt one arm around her waist.

 

“Syaoran” she looked at him. “Thanks.”

”You shouldn't go near the stairs until you recover.” He said. “If you wanted to go downstairs, then why didn't you told me?”

 

“Well, you were in the shower, and... I didn't wanted to bother you. What if you were still in the shower, or...” she was nervous of thinking about Syaoran being naked in the room that her cheeks turned red.

 

“You thought I was naked in my room?” She nooded and he raised a brow. “Don't worry, with you being here, I think that won't happen. And let me tell you something, if you don't want that to see me like that, you can go knocking on my door.”

 

“Ehhmm... I never thought about that option” she smiled at him. “Can you take me downstairs?”

 

“Sure. Just ask for it and you'll get it.” He lifted her in his arms and took her downstairs. “Since we didn't went out for food. Do you want to eat something?”

 

“Yes. I'm starving.” Sakura looked at Syaoran while he was preparing dinner, he surely was a good man, he had it all. He was handsome, he had an awesome body, he was a succesful doctor, and maybe he had a beautiful girlfriend.

 

“Syaoran... do you have a girlfriend?” asked the young girl and Syaoran's eyes widened by her question.

 

“Why... why do you ask me that? His cheeks turned red.

 

“Just answer me and I'll tell you why.” Sakura said with blush in her face. She was asking Syaoran about his sentimental life. Even she couldn't believe that question came out of her mouth.

 

“No. I don't.” He answered, but didn't look at her. He was busy doing the dinner, and he didn't want her to realize he was blushing “Why do you ask?”

 

“Well... because” Sakura wasn't sure of her answer, so she said the first thing that came to her mind. “Because if you had a girlfriend I think it wouldn't be okay for me to stay here.”

 

“No, don't worry. I have none.” Syaoran went to where she was and saw her in the eyes. Sakura felt her heart beating was going up. But magic was broken when he said. “Dinner is ready.”

 

Sakura and Syaoran had dinner in such silence, he didn't wanted to screw up things.

*Sakura's POV*

 

`Here we are, having dinner in such a deadly silence. I need to say something, but why doesn't he talk to me?'

“Syaoran? How many girls have you dated?” I asked him, he saw me directly in my eyes and there was something in them, as if he was mad. So I looked down to my food.

 

“Well. I have dated some girls, but there's no one that really makes me feel comfortable.” He answered my question, and for some weird reason I was really curious about him, especially his sentimental life. “Why are you asking me about my love life?”

 

`Fuck!! What do I say now? But... wait a moment, he's right. Why am I asking him about girls and dates? Oh shit! I have to think of an answer quick...' “Well, I ask you this because... because...” I shut my mouth and gave an order to my brain to give me an answer. “I wanted to know if somebody did something to you, something like what happened to me.”

 

He looked at me like if my answered didn't convinced him. `Oh my God, he looks gorgeous, I feel like I'm melting... No! No! Men are all the same, but...'

 

“No, nobody has done something bad to me. I guess I break their dreams. All of the girls always dated me to become my wife so they can play with my money.” He answered with a bit of sadness. I looked at him, but decided to finish eating so we could both rest.

 

After we finished, he took me and left me in my room. `Uhmm... now that I think about it, I have nothing similar to my pijamas.' He knocked on my door and I told him it was ok to come in. And he had a pink nightgown in his hands.

 

“I bought this for my cousin, but I guess you need it more than she does.” He looked at me waiting for my reaction, but I said no word. “I'll leave it here. Good night.” Syaoran turned around and closed the door behind him.

 

I putted on the nightgown and felt onto the bed. The sheets were soft, also the pillow. Once again I thought about Eriol. `I hate you. You damned liar, you betrayed me... me... your fianceé.' Some tears fell down, but just a few. I was sad no more. But I felt something inside me, I wanted Eriol to dissapear, I wanted Eriol to die. And I wondered that the new feeling inside me was no more than “Hate”. I started hating, Eriol, men, love... I wanted to now nothing about love ever again.

 

*End of Sakura's POV*

 

Syaoran went downstairs and letted Buster in. He took it in his hands and went upstairs. In his room he letted the dog down, and it went to sleep on a green rug there was near the balcony door. Syaoran took of his shirt and went to the bathroom. He washed his face and saw himself in the mirror. Then after a few minutes he went out and took off his pants and left only his boxers to cover him. And like Sakura did, he felt into his bed and closed his eyes.

 

*Flashback*

 

“Syaoran-kun!” a girl with auburn hair was calling him. “Syaoran-kun! We need to talk.”

 

A boy started walking toward that cute girl. “What do you want to talk about?” The boy looked sad but as soon as the girl took his hand he smiled.

 

“Syaoran-kun, I fell in love.” The girl said and Syaoran was so desperated to know who was the lucky boy. “I'm in love with Eriol-kun.”

 

-End of Flashback-

 

Syaoran opened his eyes and turned to face the moonlight that was entering the room by the glass doors of the balcony. `Since I met her, she has always been in love with someone else. She was in love with Tsukishiro, and now Hiiragizawa. If I were in the place of one of them, I would've loved her so much, I would've never let her down. Why? I'm so in love with her, she's an angel. Her sweetness, everything in her is just so perfect. I wish I could have a chance to show her how much I need her. When I carry her in my arms I just wished I could get her to my room and sleep next to her. Pass my hands trough her silky hair, kiss her gently, wake up and look at her everyday next to me.' Syaoran was really in love with her, but he couldn't confess her the way she made him feel. He knew she was heart-broken and confused... at that moment, time was the only thing that could make things get back to normal. And maybe, just maybe, he could tell Sakura, about his feelings toward her.

 

--Next Day—

 

Syaoran waked up, had a shower, got dressed and went to Sakura's room. Sakura was sleeping and he stared at her. `Beautiful as always.' He got closer to her ear and said.

 

“I'm going to work. Your breakfast is in the kitchen. Be careful when you go downstairs.” After this he went out the room.

 

An hour later Sakura woke up. She remembered someone told her something, but she couldn't remember, then she saw Buster was in her bedroom.

 

“Hey! Did you had a nice sleep?” Buster barked at her and moved his tail. “I'm hungry. Let's go downstairs, I bet you want to go outside.”

 

Sakura opened the door of her room and made her way to the hallway, she was jumping on one feet. `I guess if...' She thought and putted her left foot on the floor.

 

“It doesn't hurt the way it did yesterday.” Sakura remembered that Syaoran yesterday took care of her poor ankle. “I can walk with both feet now.”

 

Sakura and Buster went to the kitchen and there she saw a note in the table.

 

Sakura:

I had to go to work. I went to tell you that, but you were having a deep sleep. I don't know if you heard me. You're breakfast is in the oven. I'm going to be at home around 8:00 pm. If you need anythingjust call me to the hospital or my cel phone. The numbers are recorded on the phone.

 

Syaoran

 

Sakura ate breakfast and cleaned up the dishes. Then she called Tomoyo.

 

“Hello?” said Tomoyo from the other side of the phone.

 

“Hey Tomoyo-chan. It's me, Sakura.” Answered the girl.

 

“Oh! Sakura-chan! I've been thinking about you.” Tomoyo said.

 

“I just called to tell you that Syaoran said that you could come and visit me.” Sakura said to her childhood friend.

 

“Those are great news my friend. Can I go now?” asked Daidouji, expecting Sakura to say `yes'.

 

“Sure. I want to talk with you and I need you to do me a favor.” Said Sakura and hunged up.

 

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--At Syaoran's Office -

 

“How are you doing today Misaki?” asked Syaoran to one of his little patients.

“I feel a little icky” answered the little girl that was holding her teddy bear. “Are you going to tell mommy that I need an injection?”

 

Syaoran laughed at the comment of the girl. “No, you don't need an injection, you only came for a check-up. And because you've been a good girl, I'm gonna give you a sweet candy”

 

“Yay! I love you doctor Li” said the little girl and started to jump around the room. “Mother. Doctor Li is the best, right?”

 

After the girl and her mother left Yamazaki and Chiharu Takashi entered with their son.

 

“Hi there Li. How are you?” asked Yamazaki.

 

“Fine. Thanks.” Answered Syaoran and went to check up their son. When he finished Takashi and Chiharu started talking with Syaoran. “When we knew you were back in town, we decided to come with you.”

 

Syaoran got surprised. He thought that if the Yamazaki family knew he was back, maybe Eriol also knew.

 

“Have you seen Hiiragizawa lately?” asked Syaoran desperately.

 

“Yes. We saw him three days ago.” Answered Chiharu.

 

“Does he knows I'm back?” asked Li again.

 

“I don't think so. Why do you ask?” asked Yamazaki with curiosity. “Is there something wrong?”

 

“Don't tell Hiiragizawa I'm back.” Said Syaoran, hoping his friends would do what he said.

 

“Ok. But what if he sees you somewhere by coincidence?” asked Chihuaru.

 

“I guess I have no other option than face him.”

 

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“So that happened with Hiiragizawa? And how do you feel Sakura?” asked Tomoyo giving her friend a cup of tea.

 

“I think Eriol didn't loved me that much. Yesterday I talked with Syaoran, like that time when we talked about Yukito. I cried so much. He's been so kind to me, he is a good man.” Sakura smiled and her cheeks turned red.

 

“Like you told me, I agree with Li. Maybe all of this happened because Eriol wasn't your someone just for you.” Answered Tomoyo and comforted her friend. `I know who's your true love, but I cannot tell you... I wish I could. I can't believe I had a crush in Eriol, he's just so...'

 

“Tomoyo... yesterday I realized something. Something I didn't like.” Said Sakura looking into her friend's eyes.

 

“What is it Sakura?” asked Tomoyo concerned.

 

“I hate Eriol.” Said Sakura in a cold tone.

 

“Well, that's a normal thing, he hurted you... you are just letting your feelings out.” Tomoyo smiled.

 

“No Tomoyo. I hate him so much. I wish he was dead.” Said Sakura again in a cold tone.

 

`Today I realized Eriol wasn't in love with me. He lied to me. I discovered a new feeling, a feeling called “Hate”. I don't believe in love... I don't believe in dreams. I don't trust men... well, maybe I do trust one. But no one else.'

 

The sadness she once felt was now hate, hate toward her fianceé. She thought maybe there was no one that could make her happy. What if there was someone near that would do anything for her but she doesn't realize? And if she knew, would she let him into her life?

 

Author Notes:
Done! Sorry for not updating soon, I had many troubles writting this. Hope you enjoyed. Please review!!!!
Kajime