Card Captor Sakura Fan Fiction ❯ Say You Want Me ❯ What Do I Say Now? ( Chapter 2 )

Recap:

Tomoyo stared blankly at the computer screen. A million thoughts ran through her mind. Her heart was racing, she was having trouble breathing. Did this mean what I think it means? Is he truely telling me the truth or is it just a prank? Why? When? HOW? The it hit her.. "Uh oh..." she said as she clicked the reply button.

Chapter 2

The computer window went to a compose screen. Tomoyo slowly typed in Eriol's email address and then a greeting in the subject bar. She was having problems figuring out what to write to Eriol though.

What do you tell your best friend if he has a crush on you? she thought. I can't say the wrong thing or else I'll lose my friendship with him, but I don't want to just play with his emotions either... Or can I? Jeez Tomoyo! Where did that thought come from? But she knew. It was an inside joke of hers and Eriol's. They thought it up when Sakura and Syoaran were being too stubborn to hook up.

Tomoyo's mind was full of questions and her heart was filled with mixed emotions. She remembered something painful from a few months earlier.

"Eriol, I have something important to tell you." Tomoyo said with unusual seriousness.

"What is it? You know you can tell me everything.." Eriol smiled sweetly, "Though sometimes you tell too much!"

Tomoyo faked hurt and punched him lightly in the arm. "Eriol!"

"Alright, I was just kidding!" He paused slightly as if not wanting to know what Tomoyo had to say. "Now what is it you wanted to tell me?"

Tomoyo returned to the present. "No, I can't go through that again," she said under her breath. In stead of writing Eriol back, she just clicked Cancel. "I can't do this." She got up and turned off the computer. "Maybe later." She could feel something strong pull against her heart strings. Her mind was still full of confusion. She didn't know what to do. She decided to call Sakura.

"Hai? Sakura speaking."

"Sakura! I have a big problem!"

"Oh! Tomoyo! Is everything ok?"

"I don't know. Eriol just told me he likes me." For some reason, Tomoyo couldn't wipe the broad smile she had off her face. She was glad Sakura couldn't see it.

"Well... it's not that bad right? He's your best friend! Other than me, of course."

Tomoyo laughed. "I'm still not sure what I should do though."

"Just think it out. You'll know what to do when the time comes. Everything is going to be ok."

"Thanks Sakura, but I want to go for a walk. Ja ne."

"Bye Tomoyo." Tomoyo hung up the phone.

She went for a walk outside in the neighborhood. The sky was painted a beautiful magenta, even though violet was starting to bleed in and take control of the heavens. The evening air felt cool when she inhaled. It was relaxing. She felt more freedom to whatever was restricting her in her house. She was thinking hard too. Her body was walking, but her mind was not on this world.

"Eriol!" Tomoyo yelled as Eriol was walking away.

He stopped where he was and yelled back, "What?"

"We have to go to the movies tomorrow!"

"Why? It's full of yuppies! I don't want to go!"

"C'mon! Yuppies can be fun. Let's join the yuppies! Please?"

"I'll call you tonight."

"Ok then! Don't forget! I need to tell you something very important!"

Tomoyo didn't notice when Eriol was walking along side her. He didn't say anything for a while, but he couldn't take the silence anymore. "Tomoyo... Snap out of it!" he called.

"Oh! Eriol. Hey." She focused on him. He has a sparkle in his lovely dark eyes. His smile is always inviting and sweet. Why does he always have to be so nice to me? He's so lovable. She smiled. Wait! What am I thinking? He's my best bud! I can't develop feelings for him again.

"Are you ok?" His brow starting to knit.

She was a bit startled by the blunt question, but quickly recovered, "I'm fine! I'm just thinking."

"About what?"

"You." Tomoyo looked straight into his depthless eyes. She could get lost in his eyes, if only he let her. Eriol tried to avoid them, but he couldn't. He faced her and was ready for whatever hit him. "Eriol, I read your email." She paused, searching his face for some emotion. Nothing. "Well anyway, you seem to not remember what I told you a few months ago."

She took a deep breath. It was lucky that night was falling and neither of them could seem much of anyone's features. Tomoyo saw a faint shooting star behind Eriol's head and made a silent wish.

"Tomoyo..." he began, "It's ok. You don't have to explain anything to me, I just wanted to tell you how I felt."

"Eriol," she interrupted quickly, "I'm glad you told me, it's just that.."

"Just what?"

"Well, I told you I liked you back then. Do you remember?" She smiled, her light tone returning to her, and he did too. But soon, her smiled faded. "I just don't know if I can go back to that emotion or not."

There was no response from Eriol. She couldn't tell if he was hurt or not. In the darkness, Tomoyo could see a shadow fall over Eriol's eyes. I hope I'm doing the right thing. she thought, then why do I feel like I have just created a hole in my heart?

Joanni: heh... oO;; what do you think?? I'm sorry I stopped it just right there... I just have homework to do, but hey! I got this out right? Well, I want to thank my reviewers. This is my first real fic and I'm so happy people actually read it. AND I wanted to say... PLEASE REVIEW!. ^_^ thanx!