Card Captor Sakura Fan Fiction ❯ Say You Want Me ❯ Where's Sleep? ( Chapter 3 )

Recap

There was no response from Eriol. She couldn't tell if he was hurt or not. In the darkness, Tomoyo could see a shadow fall over Eriol's eyes. I hope I'm doing the right thing. she thought, then why do I feel like I have just created a hole in my heart?

Chapter 3

The night was calm. Crickets were making music with the wind accompaning it. Tomoyo lay still on her bed listening to the symphony. Her eyes were open; she was concentrating on the glow in the dark stars on her ceiling. Tomoyo may look calm as well, but inside, she was as chaotic as high schoolers when Jamba Juice is being sold in the commons. (Author's note: Well, it's chaotic when that happens to my school at least.) All that's going through her mind are questions.

Can I like him again? Do I want to face the risk of him breaking my heart? WHY couldn't Eriol like me when I like him? Why does he have to like me when I thought I could forget the love feeling I have for him. There was a pause in her mental questioning. Wait. Did I just say love feeling? This can't be happening. I can't love him, again. Can I? Tomoyo shot up frustrated and confused. She rubbed her head and messed up her hair.

"Ugh!" Then a flash of light blue light caught her eye. 2:30 AM the clock read. She needed sleep, but she couldn't do it with her mind being in a state of mental disaray. She was holding a bear Eriol gave her. It smells like him, she thought, I love the way he smells. And she smiled, but the smile slipped from her face as soon as she kept replaying what happened between her and Eriol earlier that evening.

"Eriol, are you ok?" Tomoyo asked as Eriol suddenly just walked away. She followed him and kept up with his pace. She wasn't going to let him go with out talking about it.

Eriol, on the other hand, was staring at the ground and just walking. His mind was blank. He didn't know what to do. He could vaguely hear Tomoyo talk, but it wasn't registering in his head. Occasionally he would nod.

Tomoyo frowned. She didn't like the way Eriol was acting. Though she couldn't blame him, she did just turn him down a second ago. She walked up and stepped right in front of Eriol so he would listen.

"Eriol. Listen to me." He looked into her beautiful eyes. A breeze blew the smell of Eriol to Tomoyo's nose. He smells good, she thought, but then said "I love you as my friend. A best friend. You will always have a space in my heart because of that, but I don't know if I can go back to that feeling, Eriol. Give me some time to think this over. I promise I'll try not to hurt you. Just give me time."

Eriol seemed to understand this. He took a deep breath and then said, "I'll wait for you." He sighed, "I've liked you for a long time now, what's another few days for an answer?" He didn't wait for her reply and walked off.

Tomoyo stood there, shocked that she didn't realize Eriol has liked her for a while now. I should have told him how I felt when I did like him, she thought, that way, we wouldn't be in this mess.

Tomoyo returned to the present. She just couldn't sleep. She tossed and turned under her covers. Nothing she did could make her fall into blissful sleep. She got up and looked around her dreary room. The computer caught her eye. Should I go online? she thought, there's no way Eriol's going to be on this late at night. Or should I say early in the morning.

She got up and sat down on the chair in front of the monitor and pressed the power button. She automatically signed on line. No one was on her buddy list, as expected, since it is 3 o' clock in the morning. She checked her mail. Deep down she wanted Eriol to write her something, but it was all junk mail that she got. So she clicked Compose and typed in Eriol's email address.

Eriol-

It's late and I can't sleep. I've been thinking. That deep down, I feel that I do like you too. I didn't want to admit it. I have liked you on and off ever since we first met. I didn't know if I should have told you because I didn't want to mess up our friendship. I forgot about the feeling for about a year. But then when you told me you liked me, it's like the feeling resurfaced. So what I am trying to say though Eriol, is that I do like you more than a friend. I always have and I always will. But being friends with you is the best ever. Please write me back or call me.

Truely yours,

Tomoyo

Now that she wrote that revealing letter, Tomoyo couldn't figure out if she should send it or not. The arrow of the mouse kept moving over the Send button or the Cancel button. Before she could think of it, she clicked Send.

"Oops," she said quietly, but deep down, she was relieved that she sent it.

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